Hear it is. Last week school trip was like hell for me. I'm not allowed to bring any electronic devices; I cannot go to Fanfiction thanks to that, I was really suffering about it. But now, I can finally relaxed and as you know and that why I upload it today instead of tomorrow. I still continued You're My First Love and Distance Memories will delayed until April


Chapter 9: Realize

"Look like I have all what it need on the list" Ryuuji said as he walk home with a pack of bag contain all the ingredients he bought for dinner and checking the list to make sure he has buy all of it

"Hope that Hiromu does what I told him. If anything happened to Hiroto, I think I can't take it and my heart would break in pieces…..NAH" Ryuuji close his mouth after realize what he is going to say

What exactly is he thinking? Why he saying that? He know that he's worried for Hiroto but not like this? His heart would break in pieces, why he would feel that way for Hiroto? Hiroto is his best friend, he would sad if anything happened to his friend but why would his heart broken in pieces. AH, he couldn't stand anymore, he can't understand why, when did he start to get this feeling for another boy, it must be when Hiroto give him that kis…..

"DUH! I can't think of that, there no way that going to be happened. Hiroto is just my best friend. Nothing more, nothing less" He wipe away all of those thoughts although there still one thing that still make him wavering deep in his heart

"Why…..whenever I think of Hiroto, my heart always…..getting 'doki' like this"

As he keep walking with those thought, he finally back to Sun Garden and open the door

"I'm home"

"Uh Ryuuji?" Hitomiko came out and giving him a confused look "Where were you?"

"Ah, today is my turn to making dinner so I go out to buy ingredients" He shows her the bag as the proof

"Okay" She nodded "Then how is Hiroto? Have you given the porridge I told you to give it him?"

Doki

Again, his heart thumping out that sound and his face blushes slightly again. His stomach also growled a bit but not because he's hungry. Then why it always became like this just because he heard Hiroto's name? Or had someone have a hate for him so acting like a shaman. Putting some curse on him 'Midorikawa Ryuuji, you'll be curse till the end of the world' or 'In three days, you cannot moving your feet and it'll like hard stone' or getting the traditional voodoo doll and using a spike, hit it on his stomach to give him a pain and put some spell on it

Just kidding, there no way that gonna happen, how can such ridiculous thing? More like why does he have to believe in the kind of things that already too old from long time ago? That's going to be Saginuma's fault. Not to mention last time, during the FFI in Licott Island, he was writing a letter to everyone in Inazuma Japan but…..it worse than a letter. Too much detailed, he actually take a peek look at that letter, it was extremely long that his face turn pale and want to destroy that letter right away

Not only that, he always told everyone about the folk tales of long time ago during Edo period, should he say that everyone were have a long nap afterward, he also one of those victims. Some people try to wake them up but it was useless so Hitomiko have to use a big radio that have a CD of Haruya singing voice. It sounds too terrible that it nearly destroy their ear, like the crying of a baby or maybe like a duck shouting. He really a bad tone dead, no one dare to let him sing before the Karaoke machine after that

Saginuma folk tales maybe worse, they mainly about shamans, priestess, itako or something like that. Now thanks to those stupid folk tales, it completely stick on his brain that he couldn't even forget it. That Saginuma, thank you so much for making him has a headache like this but that doesn't have anything to do with this at all. Just forget about it

"Ryuuji…..Ryuuji…..RYUUJI" He snapped out and finally back to the reality, Hitomiko was right before him and she look at him worriedly

"What happened to you? Getting blank out like that?"

"No…..Nothing, I'm fine" Once again, he has a feeling want to punch someone and that would be Saginuma for those stupid folk tales

"And about the porridge, actually I asked Hiromu to do it for me but I need to go out to buy ingredients at that time so….." He trying to make excuse that she won't get suspicious on him as he try to show the blush on his face

"But…..Ryuuji, what happened to you? Your face looks red"

"Eh….."

She notices it right away. TOO FAST! But he know that he could never defeat Hitomiko's sharpness, she could realize right away just by an instant glances. A very strong six senses

"Do you have a fever?" She asked

"No…..Nothing" He lied "I think I should go to my room to rest for a bit. Remember to call me down to make dinner, okay?" He gives her the bag right away and run upstairs as fast as he can until bump on something but then he feel something hold his hand which stop him from falling

"Are you okay, Midorikawa?" Once again, his stomach was growling like crazy, he feels blurry as he could not help but blushing when listening to that voice. The soft voices that always make his heart racing, the voice that always comfort him and friendly to him. He opens his eyes slowly and it was…..Hiroto

"Hi…..Hiroto" He looked up and once more time, his black eyes met his pure green eyes again. He could not help but keep looking at those eyes, the beautiful green eyes that always captivated him ever since he met Hiroto. Whenever he sees it, he could never get out of it, what he could do was just staring

"I…..I'm okay" He replied softly. What happened to him, why he always losing his cool Hiroto and acting this way

"I'm glad" Hiroto suddenly wrapped his arms around Ryuuji's waist and pull him closer to his chest

"Hi…..Hiroto…..What're you doing?" Ryuuji shuttered and widen in shocked, don't know what to do as his blush increased, his heart racing faster and his stomach growling even more

"Let me go" He grumble as he trying to pull Hiroto away from him but Hiroto don't want to and holding him even tighter so that Ryuuji won't escape from him

"Midorikawa, just a while, please let me staying like this" He whispered softly on Ryuuji's ears that make him stopped his actions "Please, just a while"

"Hiroto….." His hot breaths graze Ryuuji's skin, leaving him shivering a little. He don't know what to say now, when hear that words Hiroto, he could not complained and much more surprised

"What I'm doing? Why I'm feeling like this?" He suddenly hugged Hiroto back lightly and couldn't understand his current action. At, he was really shocked when Hiroto suddenly hugged him but now from somewhere in his heart, he feels happy when doing this. Like last time, when Hiroto kissing him, it the same, he could still feel the running of Hiroto heartbeat and it start beating at the same time with him. And one more thing is he. Why he feels so happy that Hiroto hugged and wish that this moment will never end

And Hiroto, same as Ryuuji, he don't want this moment to end and don't even want to let go of him. He knows that doing this is wrong but he can't hold it anymore. He doesn't feel regret at all, he just want to keep Ryuuji like this. Never let go of him, want him all by himself. But he also can't understand, why he became so selfish like this, he had never like this before. He don't care what people thinking, he just want to be with Ryuuji, which is his only wish but…..

"Huh" Hiroto suddenly let go of Ryuuji and go further from him 3 meters

"Hiroto"His voice sound soft and quiet but actually, he's nervous in the deep of his heart

Hiroto the same, he hide his face by his bang but still staring at Ryuuji with a gentle eyes. As he looking at Ryuuji pure expression, he somehow feel disappoint and regret for letting go of him just earlier. His heart start to ached when noticed a tear drop down from his innocent black eyes, made him feel like want to hugging him again but…..he couldn't

"Sorry" He said and run to his room. Ryuuji chased after him but too late, Hiroto already gone to his room and locked the door when he reach there. Ryuuji just staring at the door

"Why...Why my heart so hurt right now and it like tearing in pieces" All the tears that he been tried to hold have came out. He don't know but for some reasons…..when Hiroto push him out, he feel his chest ached and it really hurt that he can't stand it

Inside, Hiroto is crying and tried to moan out quietly so no one can hear it from the outside. He hiding himself under the blanket of the bed and keep crying and crying

"Sorry Midorikawa, I can't do it...I don't want to hurt you because I like…..No, because I love you too much" He moaned it out quietly

On that night, those two small souls have finally realized their own feeling but when they realize it, that also when they start to lock themselves in the 'Black Box'. At the inside, there is nothing but sadness


This is just the start of 'twist' between these two. And don't forget Hiromu, in the next chap, he going to be the one that cause a huge events that cause Ryuuji and Hiroto getting worse than ever. REVIEW as usual please