I'm feeling very uncomfortable at this booth and like his eyes are pierced through my body. I can't look into his because once I peek, I can't look away. It hurts when he looks at me like this. Like I'm more than just his daughter. More than just his little girl. More than just his angel. His bitch. I feel like I'm under his shackles and he's the only one who can set me free. I hate this feeling and I can't eat now. He even ordered for me. A salad. Something light. But my mother dares him to take her order. I swear he's such a punk when it comes to her. Why can't I have her strength? Or Charity's? Why can't I just breakthrough and have my say? Oh I know why.. Because I'm eleven.

"Courtney dear, you haven't touch your food." Daddy says concerned. He's had his eye on me ever since we left the house. Ever since I put on this dress. I should burn this dress with all the others. I want no memories what so ever! Charity's noticed daddy's hard looks and keeps bumping me under the table.

"Well um, I'm not that hungry. I had a big lunch." I lie through my teeth. Daddy suddenly grows angry and throws his napkin into his food and slams his hands on the table. We all look at him and he's extremely pissed.

"BULLSHIT! YOU OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND EAT THAT SHIT BEFORE I COME OVER THERE AND SHOVE IT DOWN YOUR FUCKING THROAT!" I Immediately pick up my fork and start stabbing my lettuce and shoving it into my mouth. Everyone else around us watch as I eat like a pig and whisper amongst themselves.

"Good girl." Daddy smiles his grim smile and I look down and shed a tear. I know what that means and so does Charity.

"Dad, we're going to go to the restroom." Charity say pushing me out of the booth and grabbing my wrists. I follow as she pulls me along her side and we past the restrooms to meet the door.

"What are you doing?" I look up to her and my tears have gotten worse. They're pouring now and she looks down to me.

"I'm gonna get you tonight and we're going over to Ging's again. Dad's really got something up his sleeve and I'm not in the mood to hear his bullshit tonight." I nod my head and wipes my wet eyes.

"Why-y-y can't I b-e-e mo-r-e like-e y-o-u-u?" I cry harder and Charity comes to my level and hugs me.

"It'll be alright sis. I promise I'll always have your back." I smile and hold my sister close to me.

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When we are done having our moment, we walk back to the booth and I begin for finish my salad.

"So Courtney, how's school been?" I hear daddy say scraping the leftovers on his plate. I chew what's in my mouth and swallow hard.

"Um, it's been very nice. Everyone is nice to me and I have made a few friends." I smile unhappily and daddy nods his head.

"Enough with the fluffy shit, what about the boys!" My mother spits out of her disgusting lips. Daddy again grows angry and slams his fists on the table. Everyone in the restaurant stop to stare and he looks at my mother pissed.

"You bitch! Don't you ever let anything so dumb come out of your lips again!" I shake in my seat and Charity just resumes eating like nothing is happening. My mother gives him a challenging look and picks up her knife to stab into the table.

"Who the hell are you callin a bitch? You know she's growin up! She's goin to need someone else's dick to ride besides just yours every fuckin day!" I open my mouth in big surprise and immediately break down crying! Charity stops eating in mid-chew and drops her fork onto the floor. I cannot believe she just said that. Out of no where daddy smacks the fuck out my mother and grabs her by her wrists.

"Get up girls. We're leaving." As he drags my mother out of the door screaming, I'm still crying. Charity holds my hands and some guys runs over to daddy complaining about the check. Daddy grows very pissed off and smacks the shit out of the waiter and suddenly so much crap is going on my eyes can't move fast enough to see. All I remember is my sister in the front seat driving and me in the back laying down.

6:45 A.M.

I wake up sleepily with my eyes blurry and the ceiling spinning. I crash back onto the bed and jump when I feel something hard hit it. I scream loudly and the person next to me as well is awaken and screams in unison.

"OH MY GOD COURTNEY CHILL! ITS JUST CHARITY!" I turn on the lamp next to my bed and she her swollen face. She's been crying all night too.

"Sorry, I didn't know you slept with me. But I thought we were going over to Gings?" Charity stretches and nods her head.

"Yeah we were but daddy got arrested last night so I didn't see a need. So yeah it's about that time to start getting ready." I look at my hello kitty clock and nod in return. I get up and stretch and go to my closet to find something to wear. Hmmm, I decide to wear a black mini skirt with a white blouse. I pull out white stockings from my drawer and go to the restroom to wash up. When I'm done I come back into my room to do my hair and get dressed.

"So what happened to daddy?" Charity rolls over on my bed and look at me in the mirror.

"He got arrested for assault on the waiter. Then not paying for the dinner bill. Damn he was so mad but I'm glad they got his ass. I hope they lock his ass up forever." I nod my head in agreement. I decide to do my hair in curls today but I hate anything hot so Charity does it and styles it just the way I like. When she's finished I put my books in my backpack and kiss my diary and put that in as well. But then I remember something.

"Um Charity, I had an issue yesterday at school." I point to the scar by my jaw line and she notices it. She quickly runs to her room to grab something and runs back to mine. She takes a dab of it and runs in against my skin. When I look back into the mirror, it looks like nothing is there.

"Make up isn't just for looking good." I smile to her and grab my backpack ready to leave.

When I make it to school, I see DJ and Duncan sitting under a tree beside the school. I walk over to them and smile.

"Hey DJ and Duncan." Duncan looks at me and nods his head. He isn't paying much attention because he's listening to his music. DJ however, pulls me into a light hug and smiles.

"You look nice today." I watch his eyes as they look over my facial features til they stop in one certain area. "Hey, your scar went away. Wow you should tell me what type of cream you use." DJ laughs and Duncan suddenly looks up. He looks at my face too but studying it extra hard.

"How's you do that?" I look down to him and look away. I don't think I can get away lying to Duncan. I know I've only known his for a few days but he looks like the type who would deny anything someone says. Even the truth! After thinking for a second, he lifts a brow and I answer.

"I fell when I went over to my grandma's." I say. Duncan looks shocked and smirks.

"That must have been one nasty incident." I look down to him and frown.

"It was." He suddenly stops laughing to give me a serious expression and I squint my eyes at him as well.

DJ notices the hostility between us and suddenly I hear a loud voice shouting. No two loud mouths. I look away from Duncan to see a thick black girl with long braids and no other than Heather. They're arguing and Trent is between them rolling his eyes. That weird girl Gwen is beside the black girl and she's looking at her phone. They all come up to us and stop.

"WELL BITCH MAYBE IF YOU HAD A LIFE YOU WOULDN'T BE TRIPPIN OFF MINES!" The black girl puts her hand up in Heather face and her face is totally red. Trent is holding her arms back talking to her passionately and Gwen is hissing under her throat.

"Um hi." I wave to all them and the black girl looks at me.

"And you are..?" She looks at me like I'm crazy and I hold my hand out to shake.

"Oh yeah, I'm Courtney." The black girls looks at Gwen and they laugh out loud.

DJ slides between me and the black girl and puts his arm around her. "Courtney, this is my girl forever, LeShawna." He flutters his eyes to her and everyone rolls their eyes.

"Whats good girl?" She nods her head to me and I try to figure out what she just said.

"Pardon me?" I say. I hear a bell ring and I look at the time on Gwen's phone. OMG it's 7:35! "Nevermind, I'd love to chat but I'm going to be late." I quickly make my way to the doors of the school and to my locker to enter my first period class.

11:00 A.M. Almost Lunch

We just finished going over our homework and now I'm sitting here doodling on another worksheet. DJ is behind me asleep and Duncan is look at me from the corner of my eye. I feel something tap my foot and I look under my desk to find a special folded piece of paper. I smile and pick it up.

Courtney

I open the note and read it.

I have noticed you absence at lunch and just wondering why you haven't been there?

I notice this handwriting is different. Not as sloppy. I write back.

Well um.. I've been having a lot on my mind so I've been going to the park.

When I fold the note back I look under my name to see from Trent in small letters. I frown and slide it back under to his desk. When he's finished he slides it back to my foot and I jump and grab it.

Oh really? Well I think you should eat with our clan today. I mean we want to know more about you.

I frown and look to Duncan. He's watching me. Or he's been watching me. He knew that Trent was going to try this. And he's letting him! What the heck! I thought we were on the same level.

Okay, ill be there.

I slide the note back and ponder in my seat and wait for the bell to ring.

When it finally does DJ jumps up out of his seat and I see his girlfriend waiting for him at the door. He walks past me and runs to her carrying her books and everything while she talks to the green girl. I pack up my things as fast as I can trying to catch up but I feel a hand on my arm. I look up to see light green eyes and a smile.

"Hey, lets walk together." I notice Duncan watching us and when I look at him he suddenly pushes everyone out of his way. I look down. "C'mon we have to move quick if we want good seats." We walk through the heavy crowded hallways and finally make it to the cafeteria. I see Duncan isn't sitting anywhere and the table is getting crowded pretty fast. Katie sits beside Geoff and tickles him while LeShawna is complaining about her hair. I sit next to her and looks at like I'm crazy for the second time.

"Um, hey." I smile to her and she nods her head.

"What's up?" I continue smiling while she starts eating her lunch.

"Nothing much. Just a little tired." She nods her head again and I see Gwen looking at me crazy now.

"Yeah you look like you've been up all night." She says. I nod to her too.

"Last night was kinda crazy but at least I made it." Gwen turns suspicious and I look away to ignore the subject I see Heather coming to our table and Trent is leaned up against the wall.

"Sup babe." They peck each other on the cheek and I watch confused. Why is he messing with me if he has her? Suddenly LeShawna notices her space has been cluttered when she turns around to see Heather. She rolls her eyes and shakes her hair.

"ANYWAYS!" Everyone at the table laughs and I feel a reason to giggle.

"The hell you laughing for!" I look to her talking to me and I stop laughing. LeShawna notices my punking out and stands up to get in Heather's face.

"Look whore, she's new to the clan. She can laugh as much as she won't and if you got a problem with it… I don't care!" Heather face is red again and I smile. LeShawna does like me. She just took up for me.

Heather stomps off and Trent goes after her. LeShawna looks down to me. "If you ever have a problem with anyone you come tell me." I nod to her and thank her as much as possible. "She's a bitch and just mad because nobody like her. She only hang with us because she knows nobody else won't her." I nod again. I look over to the seat where Duncan usually sat but he's not here. I slump into my seat and remain silent for the rest of the day.

A/N: God im loving this story. Probably the best well written one. Lmao. And Taylorklass2010 yes you had my crackin up with your review. And yes I will finish this one. I just hope not to get WB when school starts back. UGH! Which reminds me we only got a few more weeks. D: Im soo glad this is my last year! NEWAYZZ PLEASE REVIEWW :DD

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