Keep the Lie Alive
"Scott! Are you ok? I was so worried..." Jean soothed lovingly, letting her fingertips caress Scott's cheek in comfort.
"I'm ok…" Scott replied weakly, his hand reaching out to touch Jean's face gently, caressing Jean's cheek with the pad of his thumb.
"Stop…" Jean said, taking her hand from Scott's face to reach for Scott's raised hand. She grabbed for his hand and gently guided it back down to Scott's level, keeping his hand firmly in her own. "I don't want you to exert yourself. Rogue drained a lot of your energy…it will take you a bit to get back to full strength," Jean explained in the same soothing tone.
"Ok…I just wanted to feel you" Scott replied, pausing for a moment to smile weakly, before adding, "I missed your beautiful face…" Jean smiled, her face brightening, as her eyes latched onto Scott's charming features. "My visor?" Scott began, as his hand went to caress the cold plastic surface of his sunglasses.
"Marie still has it…I'll go and get them from her" Jean replied as she turned away to leave, before feeling Scott's weak hand grab hold of her arm.
"No! Don't leave me…" Scott pleaded, his eyebrows burrowed and lips twisted to form a worried expression that put a crack in Jean's heart.
"Ok, ok…I'll stay" Jean replied, as she returned to stand closer to Scott, her hand placing itself back in Scott's bigger hand.
"Is Marie ok?" Scott asked, his voice not really revealing a slight bit of worry for the girl, but Jean smiled and took Scott's question to be a reminder of how thoughtful the man could be.
"She's not the one that got drained…remember?" Jean replied with a light smile, her voice staying at its smooth and gentle sound.
"Yeah…" Scott replied, groaning and moaning in pain as Jean watched him.
"Jeez! I feel like I've been hit by a bus!" Scott began, as Jean quickly went for her medical supply.
She opened one of the cabinets and retrieved a small container that held a clear like substance in it. After retrieving a needle, Jean put in the correct dosage and soon returned to Scott with the needle ready.
"That's come to be expected…here, I'll give you something that'll dull the pain" Jean replied, before carefully grabbing for Scott's arm to insert the needle.
"Thanks Jean…" Scott responded in a groan, as he clenched his jaw in pain as well as fear.
"Don't be such a baby!" Jean replied with a smirk, as she then listened to Scott chuckle in response.
"You know I hate needles!" The man replied, as Jean chuckled in amusement.
"Well, what can I do to keep your mind off of such a traumatic experience?" Jean asked with a grin, as she practically predicted Scott's next statement.
"Well, a kiss would be nice…" Scott replied after a moment.
"I think I can manage that!" Jean replied, pretending to act serious, which made Scott smile in amusement.
After pulling the needle out of Scott's arm, Jean placed the needle on the small table next to her. She then turned back to him, and with a gentle smile, she slowly leaned down and gave Scott a great big kiss. As the kiss turned passionate, with Scott's hand resting on the back of Jean's head, and Jean's hand traveling down Scott's body towards his private area, the doors to the med lab opened.
"Oh! Uh…I'm sorry! I didn't mean to…uh…" Marie began, after responding to the hurtful sight of Jean and Scott making out on the med lab table.
At hearing Marie's voice, both Scott and Jean immediately pushed the other away, and cleared their throats in the midst of their embarrassment, and Jean's slight guilt.
Oh shit…how much did Marie see? Jean thought to herself, before turning around to face the seemingly traumatized teen. "Can I help you?" Jean asked, her hands fiddling with the other as she watched Marie's lost expression, her heart cracking at seeing her girl in such a way.
"I uh…I just wanted…I heard that…uh, I heard that Scott was awake… and I…I just wanted to give him…this…" Marie struggled to reply, fighting back the tears that threatened to fall down her angelic face, as Jean watched her with a pained expression.
"Thank you Rogue…I appreciate your help" Jean replied, as she slowly made her way towards the sadden teen.
After Marie handed Jean Scott's visor, Jean quickly turned her back on her girl and made her way towards Scott. And as Marie brought her trembling gaze to follow Jean, She quickly found herself being unable to look at her girl, at least not for the moment.
"Rogue? Oh…thank you Rogue for bringing my visor back! I really appreciate it!" Scott replied happily, as he held his visor in his hands. "Don't be upset Rogue! It was a mistake…I forgive you-it wasn't your fault anyways…I needed someone to help me cool off. Thanks" Scott replied in his typical cheerful manner, as Marie watched him with a slight look of anger.
"Your welcome…" Marie responded coldly, before quickly making her leave.
And as she left the med lab, and walked into the long hallway, she felt Jean's hand against her arm.
"Marie…" Jean replied; her face emotionless and eyes filled with guilt.
"I'm sorry Jean…I just…I don't know what came over me-"
"You have to be more careful! I understand why you would be upset…hell; I would do the same if I walked in on you and Bobby. But, you have to contain yourself! We have to keep this lie-this secret alive!" Jean replied, as she moved to stare Marie in the eye, despite Marie's teary face choosing to turn away from Jean's.
"I know…"
"I know you do. But I also know that you can't seem to help making me feel guilty!" Jean replied, her hand rising to brush away a few stray locks of hair from Marie's face.
"I'm sorry-"
"please stop crying you're making me feel worse-"
"I'm sorry! I can't help it!"
"Stop this!" Jean exclaimed rather loudly and harshly, her eyes showing how deeply confused and lost she truly felt at the moment.
"I'm sorry Marie…I didn't mean to yell at you! I'm just…I don't know…" Jean began, her emotions both confusing and alarming to Marie, who watched her girl with teary eyes. "I didn't mean to make you cry…just, do as I say Marie! Please, just do what I tell you!" Jean replied, as she unintentionally shook Marie.
"Ok…" Marie replied lowly.
"I want you to do something for me…" Jean began, blinking her eyes excessively as she struggle to find the words to tell Marie what she wanted her to do.
"What? Whatever it is Jean, I'll do it" Marie responded truthfully, her voice showing a hint of fear as well as despair, as she waited for Jean's next words.
"I want you to find a guy…and I want you to date him-"
"No! I can't-" Marie began before Jean shook her once or twice to silence her before adding.
"Do as I say! I want you to find a nice guy…date him, fuck him, I don't care!" Jean responded with tears in her eyes, as she watched Marie begin to sob.
"I only want you! No one else comes close…" Marie replied; tears staining her vision as Jean then dragged Marie around the corner.
"I know baby, I know…but we have to keep our secret alive! No one can suspect that we are together-that I love you!"
"You love me?"
"Yes! God yes! I love you Marie! That's why I've been going crazy trying to keep us together-to still be with you without anyone suspecting! Now…do as I say! Find a guy, date him, kiss him, fuck him for all I care…make sure that people know that you're with him" Jean replied as she locked her teary eyes with Marie's.
"I won't fuck anyone…I only want you!" Marie replied, her eyes briefly locking with Jean's, before turning away. "When will you leave Scott? So we can be together?" Marie added, but was silenced by the icy look that Jean shot her.
"I'm so sick and tired of hearing that same God damn question over and over again! I don't want to ever hear you say that again! You understand?" Jean replied, shaking Marie slightly before continuing. "If you don't trust me, then tell me and we'll go our separate ways-"
"No, no! I trust you! I trust you" Marie interjected; terrified that Jean would actually break it off with her.
"Good! I'm trying as hard as I can to keep things together Marie! Please try to understand…I got to go, Scott needs me" Jean replied as she broke away from Marie to make her way back to the med lab.
Jean was half way there, when Marie, whose eyes were still drowning in tears, called out to Jean.
"Jean! Don't sleep with him!" Jean didn't look back; she kept on walking, making the pain in Marie's heart almost unbearable. "Please Jean…don't sleep with him" Marie repeated a little more calmly.
But Jean kept on walking, her back facing Marie, her shoulders slumped and head bowed down. Marie collapsed to the floor; she clutched the left side of her chest with her hand, as she suddenly felt an all to real pain in her heart.
It feels like a heart attack…maybe its just my heart breaking in two Marie thought to herself, as she watched Jean enter the med lab. The second the doors closed shut behind Jean, Marie burst out into more hot tears. Please Jean! Don't sleep with him! Marie repeated her plea for the third time, this time using her telekinetic link with Jean.
Trust me Marie…without trust there is no relationship Jean replied through her link.
Marie collapsed to the floor, her hand banging against the hard tile floor. Why won't she answer my fucking question! Marie thought to herself as the frustration and sadness began to take its emotional toll on her.
Don't sleep with him Marie said again, waiting for a few agonizing moments for Jean to reply. What's taking her so long to reply? Marie thought to herself before reality dawned on her. Oh my God! Jean destroyed the link between her and me! I can't believe she would do that! Marie replied, as she cried out once again.
I'll recreate the link, when I know that you can trust me… Jean replied, before leaving Marie to lay on the hard cold floor, with her head in her hands.
"Marie! Are you ok? Jeez kid, what the hell are you doing spilling your guts all over the nice floor…I ain't cleaning it up if that's what your thinking!" Logan replied with a gruff voice; as he bent down to help the young girl up.
"I'm sorry…" Marie replied, as Logan let his arms pull Marie against him in a friendly comforting hold.
"Don't be kid! I'm sure we can con someone into cleaning it up" Logan joked, as he tried to control the urge to run into the lab to give Jean a piece of his mind.
God damn it Jean…what the hell did you do now? Logan thought to himself as he helped Marie towards the elevator, while trying to think up something to say that would make Marie stop crying. "So! You want to hear a joke? All right good! Cause I just learned one about 5 minute ago from this book I was reading…" Logan began, as he helped Marie into the elevator, and pressed the up button. All right tall dark and extremely handsome…time to comfort Marie-without letting her now that you know about her and Jean! Just keep it simple, be a nice guy for once…oh, and make some coco-read somewhere that it's a comforting drink to have when you feel like shit on a hot summer day… Logan thought to himself as he felt Marie's wet face crying against his muscular chest. "All right here's the joke. How do you know that Scott Summer's has been in your backyard?" Logan paused for a second, waiting for Marie to respond. When Marie's only response was a muffled cry, Logan continued on without her. "Because your trash is gone and your dog is pregnant!" Logan finished with a laugh, as Marie couldn't help but chuckle at the joke. "See! I told you it was funny! Now mind you…I made up the Scott Summer's part-cause actually I read in the book that it was a Frenchmen, but who cares eh?" Logan explained, as he held a now laughing Marie against his chest. "Haha! I'm going to be chuckling about that one all night…and something tells me that I won't be the only one, eh?" Logan began, as he nudged Marie gently, who laughed in response.
"Thanks Logan" Marie thanked, as she sniffled lightly.
"For what?" The big man asked, as he waited for the doors to the elevator to open.
"For being a good friend…" Marie replied with a smile, as she looked up at Logan with a big smile.
Authors Note: I realize that this is an extremely depressing chapter. Not to mention that it's not portraying Jean in a very flattering light…but trust me when I say that the story will have a happier ending. I'm just trying for a build up so I can do more with the story.
