Disclaimer: Unfortunately, the wonderful Harry Potter stories dont belong to me. No amount of my wishing, numerous as it is, can change it. I only own my Gryffindor tie and robe. :)

Severus Snape was not one for crying. He almost never cried. The only recollection he had of crying was when his mother had been cruelly murdered by that thing he lived with the majority of his life. But, now, he cried.

They say the hardest thing is for a parent to lose a child. Severus begged to differ. He lost the woman he loved. And the worst part? It was all his fault. He just had to be its good little pet and report the prophecy. If only Lily told me she had a boy-No. I should've just not told him. Saved a family regardless of whether it was Lily's, he thought.

It was weeks since the funeral. He had tried to attend. Truly. He had entered the cemetary and, like the dog he is, Sirius had sniffed him out before anyone else noticed he was there. He gripped him hard and threw him against a stone wall. Hard. He would've used magic, but they were in a Muggle cemetary.

Severus would've fought him off too. But this wasn't the time for it. It was Lily's funeral and he didnt want it to be ruined, especially since he ruined her life. Sirius wasn't even the one to stop him. Sure, he said hurtful words and punched him once or twice, but he wasn't the reason. He pushed Sirius aside and moved forward. Sirius didn't pursue.

Once Severus reached the edges of crowd surrounding the casket, he was met by Petunia. The priest hadn't arrived yet and everyone was talking quietly among themselves, but Petunia had to make it her point to "talk" with her least favourite wizard. She was what made him leave. He said a quick prayer for the gods to take care of her while he was still earthbound and left.

Now he was wallowing in his own self pity. He wouldn't kill himself just to be with her. No, he wasn't weak. Besides, if he did that then his plan would've been wasted and Lily would be dead for nothing. Her sacrifices would mean nothing. And he would've failed his promise to his mother. The promise made so long ago. He planned to finish what he promised and then he would allow himself to die and be forever with Lily, that is if the gods allow him access to the afterlife Lily resides in. For all he knows, he could just end up in Hell.

Lily's boy. He is now a student at Hogwarts. Lovely.

Now, not only was Severus a teacher at the place that brought him the most memories, but now he had Potter to worry about. He hated how he looked so much like the one person he hated more than anything else. Yet the boy's eyes. They were the eyes of the woman he loved more than anything else. A bad combination, but enough for Severus to feel that he has to protect the boy.

His "master" has him keeping an eye on him. And so does Dumbledore. He's able to protect and keep his cover this way. But the poor boy's head was wanted by it.

For the next few years Severus kept an eye on him, for Lily, he told himself, no one else. He made sure the boy lived. He was like Lily in many ways and through him, Lily lived a little. And that was enough of a reminder to make Severus keep going on with the plan they devised all that time ago. He worked on it a little each day and hopefully it would be finished before the boy did something stupid enough that would make the Dark Lord finish him off before his predetermined day was here.

Hopefully.

So I think my story is almost over. Maybe a chapter or two and then an epilouge if you guys want. So review and tell me if you liked it. And constructive critiscism is welcome. :) Oh and my other story, Stuck in Time, is being worked on. I hope to have the next chapter of that up by tomorow. Saturday if I go crazy with finishing it. Dont know how long it'll be. If you dont read it, then you should. And review that one too! And sorry this chapters so short and time jumpy. I had to move it along quicker...