Chapter 9-Goodbye To You.
One thing you should know about Torrie Wilson, she always lets her smile shine. She would always focus on the good, believing every storm a sunrise would always follow. Torrie is happy all the time, letting her beautiful smile shine like a sunshine on a summer day.
Storms will occur, rain will pour Torrie knows this, her answer is just let it come. Let the rain pour. Because storms will surpass, she will deal with the outcome. Its what Torrie has always believed that ever since she was a little girl.
She remembered, her father telling her on the day he moved away. He told the little girl, to keep on smiling. Let the world see it, don't let those tears fall. it had gotten her through so much in her life.
Torrie has been through so much in her life, health issues, marriage, divorced, different career directions, lost love, betrayal, friends turning enemies.
She had always found the strength to smile again.
So yeah, no matter what storm brew. The girl would smile again.
Right now Torrie felt so happy, why would she tell herself not to let the tears fall. there was nothing for her to be upset about. Why would she have to? For all the things she believed in, Torrie's in control of her life. Happy, matter of fact never been happier.
Not an ounce of doubt, of fear lingered with her relationship with John.
She had a fantastic life, great friends, healthy fit body, feeling happy, a balanced life.
most of all she has the greatest guy she had ever come to know in her life as her boyfriend, he was like her prince, hero, bodyguard rolled into one.
Torrie was very happy with her life, also she had returned back to WWE.
Nothing could spoil it, but unknown to Torrie that storm was seconds away from hitting.
…..
Torrie sat next to John, her black clutch sparkled purse was on her lap. She watched the reverend do the ceremony, dapping water on Shelby's forehead. A sense of happiness just surrounded the church, so many smiles at the lovely image.
Torrie grinned, stretching her cheeks into a beautiful smile. She felt John's breath on her the side of her neck. She turned to see the light blue in his eyes, his dimples were in his cheeks.
"I love you Torrie"
Torrie let her eyelashes flicker down, a blush settled in her cheeks. "I love you too" she softly spoke above a whisper
"Ahem" Carol Cena gave them a look like two kids talking in the middle of a reading in a church.
Torrie and John both looked at his mother, innocently. Carol idly turned her head back around watching her little granddaughter getting christening.
"Now we're in trouble" Torrie giggled in a whisper.
"Shh" Steve nudged John as he was sat next to him.
John glanced at Torrie before they both lowered their heads down, sharing a secret chuckle.
Torrie mouthed "Love you too" John smiled handsomely before they went back to watch the beautiful image before them.
Unknown to them, red killer heels were on her feet. Clad in a black tight designer jeans, with a white blouse and a black jacket, every step she got closer. She saw the closed window plated door. She peeked in, before she flew the door open.
Definitely the spotlight turned from little Shelby Cena right to the brunette standing there, she let the door close on its own. Her arrival had completely turned the wonderful day around.
But who would be left broken-hearted. Who will know no matter what they do, absolutely everything ….is not enough.
…
John felt like a shot had been shot straight through his heart. Right through,
when he saw his estranged wife standing there. He couldn't believe it, almost he wanted to believe it was a nightmare. She couldn't be here? Not today. His niece's christening…..she wouldn't be that heartless….
Torrie turned her head, she saw Elizabeth Hurdeau-Cena standing. She felt her heart start to thump a little faster. Quickly she turned her back trying not to make eye contact. Why is she here? Did John know? What is going on?
Torrie's heart kept going faster as questions kept swirling in her mind, unluckily for her the answers weren't following.
"Oh don't let me interrupt." Liz spoke as the silence filled the church.
"Can I help you Miss?" The reverend asked.
"Ignore her" Matt Cena told while his wife stood at his side.
"I'm actually part of this family, I felt pretty upset that I didn't receive an invitation"
Carol Cena shot up "You are not part of this family!"
Liz put her hand on her white silk blouse dramatically "Carol that is a awful thing to say"
Carol looked at her soon to be ex daughter in law, she went to step forwards but her son stopped her.
Torrie sat there, she felt the butterflies in her stomach almost making her feel sick.
It felt awkward as Elizabeth is John's wife legally on paper, but in John's heart…she wasn't part of the Cena family she had been replaced by Torrie.
Torrie couldn't stop the negativity thought brewing in her mind, maybe being here was a mistake? Something sure didn't feel right to Torrie. All the blonde did was sit in silence.
"You see Reverend, I am actually Shelby Auntie….I'm married to one of the brothers. Is he here? Where's John. My husband…"
"Husband" felt like a bullet in her heart.
John felt the blood starting to boil in his body, he was angry that Liz had come and wrecked a 2 year olds christening. His only niece….John Cena was not happy.
He could see Torrie in utter silence, he moved his hand towards hers.
"Oh there he is, sitting with that blonde Barbie trailer trash tramp who by the way is sleeping with a married man, I heard she's actually a Christian" Liz growled.
Liz chuckled echoed "What a replacement, John" as family members and friends whispers went around.
Torrie just sat there, suffering in silence. No way was she going to make a scene at a little girl's christening even though she definitely wanted to strike back. Torrie wanted to do the honourable thing.
Torrie felt a grasp on her hand from John's hand on her lap. Their fingers laced together for a second before John stood up.
John walked towards Liz, and grabbed her forearm dragging her out of the church.
Torrie sat there, Steve scooted closer to her "It's okay, ignore her"
The sweet blonde just smiled softly in return trying to forget what just happened.
It did not fade.
…...
John got Liz out of her church, he eyed her with a glare he holds in the ring.
"What in the hell are you doing here?!" John snapped.
Liz flickered her hair "I heard it was Shelby's christening, I had to come along after all I am her auntie"
"You are not welcome here, get out of here" John ordered.
Liz fluttered her eyes up before she smirked "Well that's not a greeting I'm used too"
"Just get out of here Liz, now you're not welcome"
"Ok take that car that I paid for by the way, get the hell out of here!"
She folded her arms, glancing at John. "So that's Torrie huh? Wow…she's pretty"
"Leave now" John said not falling into her game.
"Just like the others, got to say…she's the most prettiest definitely you're type. Beautiful, naïve, fit and dumb"
Cena glared at her, firmly speaking. "I won't tell you again"
Liz looked at him ignoring his tone, playing her own little game "Does she know?"
"Know what?" John asked.
Liz smirked flicking her hair "That she's not the only diva you've dated…I mean…oh my favourite…how you've dumped them to come back to me"
John briefly glanced to the concrete before he cut off his wife. "No, and she's not going to know"
Liz giggled, "Oh John you know honesty" Cena chuckled in disbelief, yeah she can talk!
"The most precious thing in a relationship. I bet Torrie would love to know some secrets about you" she started stepping towards the church.
John grabbed her forearm, pulling her back "You don't leave now, so help me god I will drag you to the car myself. Get the fuck out of here! Liz stay away from me and my family. Get the hell out of my life" Cena snapped.
Liz took a glance at his eyes, she yanked her arm away from John. "I'm leaving. You better get back to Shelby's christening. Give her a kiss for me"
Liz lightly placed her lips on John's lips, he immediately pushed away.
The devious brunette giggled "Good to see you again babe"
"I'm not yours, I'm nothing to do with you" John firmly told.
"John, we both know that's not true…"
John's eyes glanced at her, deeply breathing. "Last time I'm going to tell you"
"You belong to me"
"I don't"
"Oh John you say that now, it's the same old story with you. Torrie will just be another girl's heart you break when you realise you are miserable without me"
John just lowered his eyes to the concrete, he couldn't seem to find the strength to say a single word. Why couldn't he? It sent a question, yet again no answer followed.
Liz giggled again as she opened her driver sport car door "Just as I thought, you'll come back, bye babe" she twinkled her fingertips as she drove away.
John Cena stood there alone, wondering what just happened? He couldn't possibly want Liz back. No after the hell he went through, he felt happy and loved his life with Torrie, he had everything. He's surely not going to risk it all on a relationship that will just end up failing yet again.
Right? Right? John wouldn't do that?
John wouldn't put himself through it again, be miserable, have a partner that just find new ways to hurt him. He wouldn't honestly want to be a risk being a "wreck" again.
Why was Cena powerless to his estranged wife, she was like a witch, stirring the cauldron just waiting for the storm to hit.
What John didn't know, Torrie had seen the whole thing.
…
Torrie stood there, feeling the breeze blowing her golden hair glowing her eyes at John. Her faith felt shaken, She had witnessed John in an encounter with his wife it didn't look like a screaming match.
Torrie glanced a few moments before she turned back into the church, beaming her smile at friends and family members.
Only thing, that was stopping the tears from falling. Its what her father had told her many years ago.
Torrie started a conversation, forgetting what she had just seen. Her mind surely was keeping her company.
"What was it all about? Why were they talking? Is John going to leave me?"
"He loves me…I know it, he loves. I know he does. I see it, I feel it…"
Torrie knew John loved her, she knew his love was true. He treated her with respect, he shown her affection.
It would make her smile in any occasion, he'd always be there for her to run in her moment of need. If she didn't want to tell, Cena wouldn't bug her like a poke her with a stick. He would just have a certain look on his face, that would get the truth out of her.
He's been the amazing boyfriend, every box on Torrie's list he ticked…one flaw the one thing that seemed to not fall in place. A woman named Elizabeth, she had a hold on John somehow by the click of her fingers, John seems to fall at her feet.
Now she had shot back unexpectedly, it had shot right through Torrie & John.
Would it be strong enough to split them apart?
…...
John walked back into the church, after he took a few minutes outside to gather himself after that unexpected arrival. John had decided to focus on his niece's day, after all, he couldn't get into thinking about the situation involving Liz.
He just couldn't, not right now.
He stopped on his step, he glanced at his lovely girlfriend Torrie. The smile on her face warmed his heart, there's no way he could break her heart.
John stood there, grinning as he saw the sweet smile on Torrie's face. The shine in her golden locks, it just bought warmth. She caught his gaze, Torrie let the stare go on for a moment.
He watched as she shared a laugh with his brother. John walked towards them, coming at her side.
"Sorry about that" John said to Matt.
"Tell me that witch is gone, she ruined my daughters day" Matt furiously replied.
John nodded "She's gone" He put his arm around the back of Torrie, she turned and let her white pearls peek in her smile. Cena let his own smile surface, but he didn't know the smile wasn't as truthful as it would seem.
He gently lowered a gentle kiss to her temple.
Shine that smile, Torrie, don't let it fade.
…
"What was she doing here?" Carol asked John, ever since Liz's crashing of the christening. Of course John was the victim of the darting questions from his family.
John didn't know, he hadn't seen Liz in so long. Quite frankly, Cena didn't want to even hear the name of his wife at the moment. She had ruined this beautiful day, no matter what they did to try and save it.
"I don't know mom"
"You better not be lying John, I want that woman away from this family"
"Far away as possible" John Cena SR added.
"I don't know why she was here, I haven't seen her in …..months! I swear to you I'm as shocked as you." John explained to his family.
"You honestly don't know?"
John shook her head "I swear to you,"
"What did she say?"
John blinked his eyes up briefly at the ceiling before he spoke again. "Nothing…just her usual crap, lets just focus on Shelby"
"Good idea" Carol held her granddaughter close to her.
His family members agreed not letting his soon to be ex wife ruin the day,
John grinned, hiding a certain look in his face. Torrie stood a little far away gazing at every move of John. It didn't settle her nerves. Her heels clicked, while she turned and walked away.
Unknown to John, and his family. Torrie stepped out of the church. She felt the gravel stones on the bottom of her heels. She brushed through the left side of her blonde hair, thinking of had suddenly occurred.
She felt breeze pick up a little, the golden sunshine had been clouded. It looked as the weather had taken a turn. Certainly explained the situation.
She let her eyelashes lower to close, taking in a soft breath filing up her frame.
Torrie didn't realise, two eyes were set on her. A smirk plastered on her face.
It told the story, Elizabeth Hurdeau-Cena was far from over. She was not finished.
Liz had her gaze on the girlfriend of her soon to be ex husband. She wanted John back! The brunette had to get rid of the blonde rival.
The sweet blonde, known as Torrie Wilson.
"The bitch had to go" Liz thought.
…
Opening her car door, she walked towards the deep in thought blonde. "Hi there you must be Torrie"
Torrie heard a voice call her name, she turned around to see Liz standing there. "Thought you left"
Liz glanced at her before she came forwards, "Oh is that what John told you"
Torrie decided not to answer, she just turned her gaze somewhere else.
"I'm Elizabeth by the way," she put on a polite tone, Torrie glanced at Liz she noticed the fake grin dropped in John's soon to be ex wife.
"The wife of the husband you're screwing"
Torrie scoffed a giggle before she brushed back her blonde hair.
"Not very moral is it?"
Torrie clicked her tongue, exhaled a breath with a not impressed look across her face. "Moral? You just ruined a little girl's christening to get attention" Torrie struck back.
"Well I'm not sleeping with a married man"
"No not at the moment" Torrie mumbled, she had heard all about the antics of Liz over the years. She was one devious, lying, cheating witch. She had made John's life miserable. She blamed her actions on John because he wasn't around, she was lonely and needed to feel loved….so she looked elsewhere and just expected for John to understand.
John had just had enough, ended their relationship calling it "irretrievable broken"
"Excuse me"
Torrie flicked her blonde hair, "I know why you're here, you obviously miss the life style, I'm sure this is all John" Torrie signalled all the designers clothes and jewellery was bought by John. After all, she knew about Liz expensive spending.
"You don't even know me"
"Oh I do, I know that you made John's life living hell for years"
Torrie placed her hands on her slender hips, feeling the material of her red dress.
"I know you made him miserable, you don't do that to the ones you love" Torrie firmly spoke.
"I know you made him blame himself, when really it was you. I know that you hurt him time and time again. So I should slap you right here, right now…."
Liz took a step back, while Torrie stood in front of her seriously looking at her.
"But unlike you, I'm not about to ruin an Christening. I have class, and morals"
"Is it right?"
"I'm going to do the honourable thing, walk away even though I want rip out every hair extension out of your head after today, hell after everything you've done to John"
Liz flickered her eyes up at Torrie, hearing the tone from the Boise Belle.
"I love John more than anything, anyone I won't let some devious, lying, gold digger bitch hurt him" Torrie growled, with anger rising in her eyes.
"So you and John are over, get over it. Oh get a life, a job because you're not getting a thing from John" Torrie snapped.
"Now if you excuse me, I have Christening to get back too" Torrie flickered her blonde hair, while she turned around.
A grin surfaced on her face, she had settled her own nerves striking back at John's ex.
"You're beautiful by the way"
Torrie turned back towards Liz, "Oh thank you very much,"
"Just his type" Liz added.
"Excuse me?"
"Just his type, trust me. Everything about you,"
Torrie glanced at Liz "What's that suppose to mean?" Torrie didn't give John's ex time to answer back, the grin on her face just got Torrie to respond again.
"You know what, I don't care what you say." Torrie walked back to the church steps.
Liz giggled, stopping the golden blonde in her heel. Torrie rolled her eyes up to the clouded sky.
"You think you're the only diva, John's dated?"
Curiosity rose in Torrie's eyes hearing the words from Liz, she turned back looking at Liz as she leaned back on her car.
"I know about Mickie James" Torrie told.
"Oh do you?"
"Yes I know about Mickie, how he dated her and then called it quits and went back to you and got married back in 2009" Torrie spoke.
"Now if you excuse me?"
"You think she was the only one"
Torrie let her hair flick to her back when she turned back. "She was the only one"
"No love, she wasn't. do you know a woman called Lisa Marie"
Torrie stood there, while the shock settled in her eyes. A soft mutter passed her lips…
"Victoria…"
"That was her ring name, but yeah he dated her and dumped her. Oh there was another one…..the blonde from Toronto…..and there was another, just can't remember…"
Torrie shook her head, hiding the tears behind her emerald eyes. "I don't believe you"
Liz looked at her. "Ask John, gotta wonder if you didn't know. What else is he not telling you? Secrets in relationships never good"
Torrie let her eyes close, she could feel the water in her eyes but she wouldn't let those tears fall. she wouldn't give that devious witch the satisfaction. After what Liz had said, it couldn't be true, she and John had no secrets…right?
Torrie let her eyes flicker open, before she turned back to Liz. "I don't believe you"
"Torrie, I'm not here to cause trouble I'm just here because I know John."
"I know John too, I know for a definite fact. He hates you!" Torrie snapped.
"That's what he says, truly deep down. He knows he belongs to me. He knows that.
He knows it's the same old story. Doesn't matter the girl he's dating, don't matter how long….2 months, 8 months, 5 years. Hell even 10 years which by the way, has happened before" Liz told.
"Go away" Torrie spoke, refusing to believe it.
"It's the same old story, he realises he belongs with me and I highly doubt he hasn't told you everything"
Torrie scoffed a breath before she flickered her blonde hair from her face. "You know what? I don't care what you say. Its not going to work, I love John and he loves me. We all have pasts, things we aren't proud of, even John so if you excuse me"
"So he's told you everything?"
"Yes! Absolutely everything!"
Liz opened the door, "Girls can you come out here?" what Torrie saw next, chilled her right to the bone.
Two little girls came out, hand in hand. Torrie stood there, her lips slide apart slightly in utter shock. She looked the hair colours, their blue eyes shone like a spotlight.
Shade of blue.
Liz spoke again. "Are you sure, he told you everything?"
Torrie felt a pierce to her heart. "No…"
…...
John was talking, enjoying time with his family. Shelby was playing the buttons on his white shirt as he held his little niece.
"I'm sorry about earlier sweetheart, I really am" John cuddled Shelby close to his chest.
"John, have you seen Torrie?" Cora asked.
John turned at his side, he looked down to the empty space. Usually she would be standing right there but this time, his faithful girl was not there.
"Oh umm…no, I'm sure she's around." John spoke.
"I wanted to ask her something" Matt's wife told.
"Oh I'll go and find her. I'm sure she's around here somewhere" John gave Shelby back to her mother as he walked around looking for his beautiful girlfriend.
"Hi bro, have you seen Torrie?"
"You've lost her already" Sean spoke.
"No I haven't lost her, she's just gone wondering around. She always does it"
"It's a church" Steve added.
"Trust me, she will wonder anywhere" John chuckled.
"Well If I see her, I'll let you know"
"Thanks" John slapped hands with his youngest brother before he went on searching for Torrie.
"Tor, where are you?" After what had happened today, he really needed her right now.
….
Torrie stood there, almost feeling like her heels were stuck. The shock had forced her heart to feel like it was jumping through hoops. She couldn't believe what she was seeing before her very eyes.
Two girls, John didn't have children….right? She didn't know a faintest clue what about is. All the years she's known John, he didn't have any children. He couldn't have kept them a secret. It would have been too difficult, maybe from the fans but…co workers, even best friends. No this can't be true.
Seriously it can't be true, he hadn't kept such a huge secret from her that involved, he had two daughters? That would have been ultimate betrayal.
"Siobhan, Melody say hello to Torrie" Liz instructed.
The two girls waved, smiling slightly nervous.
Torrie looked at them before she let her fingertips glide down her golden blonde locks on the left side of her body. She didn't know what to do? Surely what to say this had shocked her almost to the core.
"I…I…I'm sorry…who are they?" Torrie asked softly.
"Siobhan, Melody. My daughters"
Torrie blinked her lashes, but the shock didn't fade away. "And they are…?" Liz nodded as she answered Torrie's question.
"I miss him mommy" the youngest girl said.
"I know you do, we were the perfect little family" Liz glanced at Torrie.
The golden blonde lowered her head to the gravel, was she standing in the way?
"Get back in the car girls" the two girls got back in the car.
Torrie gulped down the lump in her throat, she could almost feel her heart beating through her chest. There has to be a reasonable explanation…..if there wasn't. god knows what she's going to?
Torrie watched Liz get in the car, feeling the wind blow her blonde hair. She heard few little words from Liz before she drove away. "Perfect family"
Torrie let her eyes close, standing alone. What else could she do? Her discovery had knocked her for six. Torrie knew she loves John more than anything, hell love him more than she's ever loved anyone in her life.
What if it wasn't enough? What if they weren't strong enough.
Torrie felt the water of tears building behind her eyes, when she came to a realisation
She may have to say goodbye.
…...
John looked around everywhere in the church, but he still couldn't find Torrie. He knew she was a wonder, definitely a dreamer. She'd explore anywhere. Still he had covered pretty much the whole of the church, still he hadn't found her.
"Hey dad"
"Hey son,"
John's eyes glanced around, John Cena SR looked at his son "Everything okay?"
"Yeah I just can't find Torrie, I've looked everywhere" John said.
"She has to be around somewhere, couldn't have just disappeared" His father said.
"I'm pretty worried,"
"I'm sure she's around, anyway how are you?"
John glanced at his caring father "Yeah I'm fine, I don't know why I'm so surprised what Liz did. She just loves to screw up my life"
"Well at least you have Torrie, a sweet kind hearted woman by your side"
John let his cute dimples show in his cheeks. "Yeah thank god for that"
"So Elizabeth can't screw up your life" His dad told smiling.
John nodded as he kept his handsome grin on his face. "God where is Torrie?"
"Torrie? You're looking for her?" Dan asked.
"Yeah, I can't find her"
"Well she's outside" Dan Cena told.
"Oh thank god, catch you guys in a second" John walked off going outside to find his girlfriend.
John Cena did not know, just how much damage his ex had done. Soon, pretty soon he will.
…..
The wind was picking up, the clouds were getting darker. The storm was almost here.
One golden blonde, knew this better than anyone. She felt her blonde hair scattering, silk locks blowing across her face.
Torrie was deep in thought, she didn't know John was making his way near her.
"There you are"
The Boise Belle turned around to come face to face with John. "Yeah here I am"
John embraced her, Torrie didn't return the embrace.
"I was looking for you everywhere," he felt the weather had taken a sudden turn, the sunshine had been clouded. It almost felt like, the sun had faded from the blue lit sky.
It was windy, he knew this by Torrie's blonde hair was blowing with the breeze.
"We better go back in, looks like it's going to rain" John took her hand but Torrie's hand slipped from his, and remained in the same spot.
John blinked suddenly, when he felt Torrie's fingers slide from his hand. "Tor, is everything okay?"
Torrie gazed at John, with not an ounce of love in her eyes "You tell me" the stare was more like a glare. It certainly didn't warm John.
"What do you mean?" Cena asked.
Torrie's fingertips flipped her blonde hair onto her back "Just when you think…you know someone, and then they turn out to be something new all together"
John glanced at Torrie, "What are you talking about?"
Torrie let her eyes close briefly before staring at John. The stare definitely nerved him.
"I don't understand Tor, what you're trying to say. What are you saying?"
Torrie looked at him before she responded. "There's nothing you want to tell me?"
John shook his head "No…"
"Really? Are you sure?"
"Torrie, I don't know….I don't have the faintest idea what you're on about" John said.
Torrie let the tip of her tongue touch her lip before she put her hands on her hips. "Ok…does the names Siabohan, Melody ring a bell? what does it mean to you?"
John looked at Torrie before he shook his head, still misunderstanding. "Umm….errr….a-a- bunch of girls names"
Torrie scoffed a laugh with her lips apart. "Are you being serious?"
"What?"
"They should ring a bell, considering that's what you called your damn daughters!" Torrie pushed John on his chest, with her eyes blaring like a wildfire.
John steadied his footing. "My…My WHAT?"
"Just when I thought I knew you, you keep something so huge from me!"
John couldn't bring out the words, after he had been shocked by Torrie. He had been startled so much, into silence.
"John…damn it, talk to me! Liz told me everything! We had a talk" Torrie screamed, John still remained in silence.
"JOHN CENA, TALK TO ME!" Torrie shouted feeling the wind blowing through her hair. She was getting angrier and angrier by the moment as John stayed silent.
John breathed in deeply "What exactly did she tell you?"
"Well picture kind of…spoke the words," Torrie kept her hands on her slender hips
John felt the anger rise in his eyes, his antic of his ex was just horrific. How could she? First ruin his niece's christening, and now this? Seriously….just when he thinks she couldn't get worse, and bam shocks him all over again!
"Torrie, I swear to you, I don't have kids. They aren't mine. Was one of blonde, brunette"
"Uh huh" Torrie's tone became softer.
"They aren't my kids, I don't have kids. They aren't my daughters I swear to you…okay just believe me"
Torrie stood there, feeling more confused. She felt the tug of believing John but the image of Liz standing there with two girls remained in her mind.
"But…" Torrie softly spoke.
John came forwards, stood right in front of Torrie so she could see the truth lying in his crystal blue eyes. "They are her kids…..I do know them, but I swear to you, the only grandchild in my family is Shelby"
Torrie looked at John, "She said you were the perfect little family"
"I did help over the years…"
"You were like a stepfather?"
John held a breath before he exhaled thinking of the right things to say. "I….guess, but they aren't in my kids. She knows that, I can't believe she would use them to try and split us apart"
"Whatever she's told you, is vicious lies. When I took her out of the church, she was saying these things but I know why she came back…because she wants me back, same old story"
Torrie looked at John, as she heard the same words that Liz had told her come from John. "Oh…" she muttered.
"But I told her, it wasn't going to work….as I'm happy with you, so she won't split us apart. Okay" John let his smile soften, "Right?" he repeated when Torrie hadn't smile or grinned back. She just stood there.
"Tor, she won't split us apart right?" John asked, feeling the thud in his chest.
Torrie remained in silence, while her mind was split in half. Almost a crossroads what to do or say.
"No don't believe her, you love John. We belong together, ok we are happy. You're happy more than ever! John loves you! He respects you! He takes you higher than anyone! He's everything you want or need!"
Torrie stood silent, as the time seem to go on. The concern was rising in John's face over his girlfriend's silence.
"What if it's not enough? What if it is the same old story for you? You want to be broken again, all that pain, he may love you, is the best…but there will always be the slight doubt….can you live with that? Knowing he may be wanting Liz back…what about the girls? How do they fit in with John's life….does he still see them? "
"Think about it? What's the right direction? What will the future hold?"
John put his hands on Torrie's forearms "Please talk to me"
She looked at John as he removed his hands from her arms. Still she hadn't said a single word. All she did was lower her head towards the floor.
John walked closer, he put his hand on the bottom of her left cheek. "Torrie, I love you…." she gazed her eyes away from John, still hearing two different sides of her mind.
"Sweetheart look at me" Torrie took a moment before she gazed back at John.
"There's no one in this world that I want more than you, okay I love you and there is no way I'm letting that woman ruin the best thing ive got in my life" John told.
Torrie blinked, as she felt the soften in her heart. "I love you too" she reached up her arms as she embraced John. He felt the relief flutter in his heart, the moment he felt Torrie's body pressed against his. He touched her golden blonde hair, feeling the fear of losing her for a moment.
That was worse than anything.
"I'm sorry I was just got confused, she shocked me…and…"
"Let's just forget about it, let's go back inside, Cora wanted to ask you something"
"Oh okay" Torrie grinned sweetly.
"What else did the wicked witch Miss money lot say?" Cena asked, he's sure going to wish in seconds, he did not ask that.
Torrie rolled her eyes, "Just about I was your type, that I wasn't the only diva you've dated before. She just wants her perfect life style back….using her kids as a way to do that. My god"
"Diva…" John mumbled.
"Yeah I know about Mickie, you told me you weren't proud of it. Look past is the past" Torrie spoke.
"Right…yeah…"
"She also said you dated Lisa or and Trish…" Torrie scoffed a laugh.
"I didn't ever date Trish"
Torrie nodded "No I thought so," she the wondered why John only mentioned one of the names.
"Wait….why did you say just one?"
John looked at her before he cast his eyes away.
"Wait…did you…date Lisa?" Torrie asked
John decided not to answer, "Let's go back inside shall we?" he went to grasp hold of her hand but Torrie stepped away.
"Yes or no, John it's a simple question" Torrie sternly spoke
John stammered in his words "Umm….I-…I don't know what you want me to say?"
"Yes or no" Torrie said slowly but seriously.
Cena stood there before he slowly nodded his head.
Torrie gasped putting her hands around her mouth, she had remembered Lisa upset over a certain superstar going back to his former fiance, she ended up going back to her husband….the superstar was JOHN!
"You and Lisa….one of…very best friends…."
"It was a long time ago" John defended.
"You left her, you broke it off with her to go back to Liz…" Torrie put the pieces of the puzzle together, the last fell silently back to place.
Same old story….would she meet the same fate?
"Torrie, I….."
"Don't, just don't" soft mutter came through her lips.
"Torrie I didn't want to tell you…I thought I don't know I guess look…it was the past, it was years ago…." John spoke, as he felt emotion starting building.
"I never knew, I thought I knew you…" Torrie turned away, before she glanced back at John. Her blonde locks blew off her shoulders.
"You do know me, Torrie…"
Torrie let her eyes lower, the tears had risen up in her eyes as she looked at John.
"Tell me one thing,"
John stood there as he waited for what she was going to say.
"Will I become one of the women? Will my name be added to the list of the girls's hearts you broke to go back to her"
John looked at her, he couldn't find the strength at the exact moment to speak.
"Tell me John, please tell me" Torrie pleaded for him to settle her heart, but this time, he remained in silence.
"Will it be the same old story?" Torrie asked.
John stayed silent, his silence broke Torrie's heart in two. He didn't even try to defend it. That was the moment, the rain poured down from the high clouds.
"I guess I just answered my own question" Torrie muttered, with tears in her eyes.
John let his head lower to the ground, he wanted to say "No! you wouldn't be," he wanted nothing more but to tell Torrie the truth, but the words didn't follow.
"Torrie…I love you…"
Torrie flickered her lashes down, as a tear fell. "It's not enough" while the rain splashed on her blonde hair.
A cab parked, Torrie had called one before John had come out.
"Where are you going?"
"Go back to your family John, I don't belong here….I don't belong anywhere…"
"That's not…..true, Torrie. Please don't go…" John pleaded with her. The emotion of tears had built in his light blue eyes. He could feel Torrie slipping through his fingers.
She walked near the cab, John's voice was cracking in emotion.
"Torrie, please don't go! Tor don't leave, Torrie!" John screamed, he felt the rain sliding down his facial features.
Torrie climbed in the cab, sat down on the seat didn't make any contact with John. She could hear his voice pleading with her. But he didn't tell her the one thing she needed to know….so there was only one way this was going to end.
A goodbye.
The cab drove away, Torrie saw the church become a distant figure. As she got further away, the tears just spilled out of her eyes, while she softly sobbed alone.
….
"Damn it!" John beeped his car to unlock, he climbed in the driver seat.
The rain poured down on the windshield of his car. John washed the rain away with window sliders. He smacked the steering wheel, in anger over his own actions and his ex.
John rested his head on his steering wheel, thinking of today's events. Just hours ago, he felt happy, and now….all he felt was the emotion rising the tears in his eyes.
The rain kept pouring down on his windshield. John watched the rain just pour down, definitely spoke volumes….
He let Liz once again screw up the happiness in his life, he couldn't let Torrie go. Not after everything they have been through. He had to get her back. No way was he letting go?
John started his car, turning the key to rev up the engine. He knew exactly where he was going.
Get Torrie back.
…
Torrie opened the hotel room door. The door closed, when Torrie slid down the door into a heap on the floor. She leaned her head back, her lashes flickered up at the ceiling. Casting her eyes down, a tear fell down.
She felt broken hearted after what just happened. Everything she thought she knew, all she believed in. everything she loved, believed in just fell to pieces.
Why wouldn't John give her answer, her heart needed…..
She loved John with all her heart, Torrie would do absolutely anything for him. There's nothing in this world, she wouldn't do. She'd sacrifice. She'd always be there for him. He was the one thing she tried so hard to hold on too. She wanted him so much, wanted to stay but he didn't give her the reason…so she wasn't giving in this time.
There was no other way…..
Torrie wiped underneath her eyes with her fingertips, getting rid of the tears. She stood back on her heels, and decided exactly what she was going to do.
She opened her purse, got the money out she just got out at the bank. Torrie had to get out of Boston, she just wanted to be somewhere else.
She put her purse in her overnight bag, as she packed up her make up that was strewed on the table after she and John had left for the church. She couldn't find her favourite lip shine, while packing away her make up accessories in her bag.
Torrie looked underneath the table but it wasn't there, after searching for a another few minutes, She gave up. She changed out of her wet red dress into black pants, with a light pink v neck top, slipping on her dolly shoes.
Torrie opened her suitcase, started putting her clothes in the case. She just had to get out of here.
John opened the hotel room door, he saw Torrie. A weak grin came on his face "Oh Torrie, thank god…..I"
Seeing she was still here, until he saw the bag she was packing. "Whoa, whoa where are you going?"
"Leaving" one word came through her lips.
John felt like his heart had collided with a bullet "No, No, no you can't"
"I can't stay here, I'm sorry to Shelby and your family but I need to get out of Boston"
"Tor, please don't go" John pleaded.
Torrie put her last of her clothes in the case, grabbing what she could.
"Where are you going to go?" John asked concerned.
"I don't know, New York, Japan, Mongolia I just need to get out of here" Torrie said almost shaking in emotion.
"Tor, please don't leave me…we can talk about this, okay go home…"
"Home?"
"Our home"
Torrie shook her head full of tears "No I thought it was my home, but its just another reminder of your life with her."
"Please darling, please don't do this. I can't be with you. Please don't leave me" John emotionally told, with tears in his clear blue eyes.
Torrie let her close eyes before she re opened them a moment after. "I won't be one of those girls. I won't be hurt by you. I won't be hurt by anyone again. I've had enough heartbreak in my life…I won't let you be one of them…" heartbroken Torrie cried.
"Torrie, please…."
"I love you John, I always will. You were the one thing I tried so very hard to hold on too….but I want you" she let her eyes cast to the floor.
"But I'm not giving in this time" Torrie zipped up her case.
"I'll get down on my knees for you, I would do anything for you. Don't go please. Don't leave. Please don't leave me"
Torrie lowered her head towards the carpet. "I can't stay."
"I don't want to say goodbye to you"
"Then don't"
Torrie shook her head, feeling more torn than ever. She wouldn't fall again, she wouldn't be some rebound girl.
"I won't be some rebound girl"
"Rebound? You're not! Tor I love you so much! Okay…you want do this, throw everything away?"
Torrie flickered her blonde hair while she turned back "You think I want this! You think I want to say something….you think I want to leave! You think I want this to be how it ends…"
John looked at her, he felt a pierce in his heart at the word "ends" he took hold of her arm, pleading with his eyes "Look at me, you said nothing could ever split us apart. Remember that?"
"What did I know?" Torrie sighed
"No you were right, I love you Torrie. I can't do this without you"
"You'll be fine without me"
"No I'm a fighter, yeah but without you….I'll give up…"
"No you won't"
"I can't live without you, I need you Torrie. Please don't leave me, please I can't lose you, I just can't." John begged.
Torrie let a tear fall, "No…..I can take about anything, or anyone lying…hurting me. But you….I never thought you'd hurt me"
John felt the tears in his eyes, a few had fallen. His deep voice was cracked in emotion. His heart was being torn apart over the thought of losing Torrie.
"But this can't be the end…"
Torrie stood there glancing at John, teary eyed breathing deeply. All signs of what she was about to say. John Cena was the love of her life, he was everything to her. When she looks in his crystal blue eyes, she knew it would all be alright. He'd be there. She felt like she couldn't live a day without him.
It came to this...
Torrie let her soft breath release "Then how come it is" she grabbed her case, walked towards the door. John felt absolutely powerless.
Her blonde hair fell forwards near her cheek, flickering her head. The locks landed on her shoulder.
The delicate tear fell on her cheek, with waterfall of emotion in her innocent eyes.
Torrie went through the door, let the door close. John watched it, his heart broke at the moment he knew…..
She was gone.
…...
Before she leaves Boston, there was one thing she had to do first. Telling the cab driver a specific destination. Torrie climbed out of the cab walking up the drive way, she knocked on the door.
Carol Cena opened the front door, she smiled when she saw Torrie at the door.
"Oh Torrie, John was…looking for you. Is he with you?"
Torrie gulped down before she responded. "Can I come in?"
"Oh of course love," Carol invited Torrie into her home.
She looked at Carol before she brushed back her blonde hair. Emotion was in her face as she started to speak.
"I…wanted to say, thank you for everything"
"Are you alright?"
"You were definitely the one that made me feel like I belonged, and I never really got on well with my partner's mother…but you, I just wanted to say thank you"
"Torrie, what's wrong?"
"I have to go,"
"Go…where?"
"This will probably be the last time I see you Carol, so thank you for everything…you've been one amazing woman to me"
"Torrie please come and talk to me, have a coffee…."
"I have to leave, get out of here. Out of Boston"
"What about John?" Carol felt confused.
Torrie felt the tears in the corner of her eyes, replaying the tearful goodbye she had with John. "I'm sorry Carol, goodbye"
"Torrie…please don't leave…."
Torrie went back outside the door, "I'm sorry…I can't stay"
"Why? What's going on?" Carol spoke.
Torrie flipped her hair around, the wind blew in her face "I thought I knew your son, guess I don't" with that Torrie climbed back in the cab, after a second goodbye.
Carol Cena stood at her front door, she saw the rain pouring down on the concrete.
Her stare bore a gaze after she had witnessed a crying Torrie. She went to her house phone, left a very stern message.
"Jonathan Anthony Felix Cena! I don't care where you are! At an airport, your fathers! An arena, an hotel I don't care!
"You get your butt back here! I gave you life, I can take it back! I bought you into this word! So help me god I will take you out of this world! So you better get back here now! "
"Get here now! I will be waiting" Carol put down the phone, she walked to the white couch and waited for her son to receive the call.
She wasn't going to allow Liz to ruin her son's life yet again, not when he had everything right. The career, the passion and the beautiful woman lying in Torrie Wilson.
The mother of John Cena wanted answers.
…...
Torrie sat there at the airport, alone and in silence. Passing people were walking but luckily no one noticed her, Torrie had her head down. Quite frankly Torrie wanted to be left alone.
Today had been the most upsetting day, everything she thought she knew and had.
It fell to pieces, she couldn't find the strength to smile again right now. The advice of her father she held onto so many years, this time. It wasn't enough, the hurt was too strong.
John was absolutely everything to her, now she felt…nothing but pain, just pain. Darkness of pain. This was definitely one of the darkest hours of her life.
Hearing the lyrics of a song that definitely spoke to her heart. The song was being played on the radio.
She had done the two hardest goodbyes. One to the love of her life, a woman that she come to know and have a beautiful relationship with.
"Of all the things I believed in….I just want to get it over with"
Goodbye to you, Goodbye to everything I thought I knewYou were the one I love. The one thing that I tried to hold on to
Torrie let her eyes close, hearing the lyrics. Her heart was in pieces. She felt so alone, more than ever. Felt more hurt than Torrie felt in a long time. A dark hour for Torrie, all she wanted to do is crawl into bed and shut the world out.
She didn't even have her babies with her for comfort.
Thinking back to this morning, Torrie was happy, The Boise Beauty had felt like she had everything….now all she felt was pain. Torrie felt the heartbreak, she wished she could have stayed but she wasn't going to risk being broken-hearted again.
She wouldn't let John break up with her to go back to his wife so she said goodbye before there could have been chance of that happening. The secrets she didn't know about John.
Torrie didn't say another way, this was it.
The tears didn't leave her eyes tears fell more risen up.
"I want you, but I'm not giving in this time…"
"Goodbye To You, Goodbye to everything that I thought I knew…."
Torrie leaned back on the seat, the shadows of the truth had destroyed everything she loved. There she sat alone, with a broken-hearted expression. This is not what she wanted, Torrie didn't think this would happen….
Torrie didn't think this is how the trip would end. As she sat there, a part of her wished she didn't go to the christening, that way everything would have stayed the same.
But now, it had all suddenly taken a turn….
John Cena was already gone.
…..
John sat on the couch, burying his head in his hands. Closing his eyes a moment after. He felt something poking on his lower back. He reached out to find Torrie's lip shine peeking at the edge of the cushion.
John grasped the tube in his hand, it read "My Eternity" that was Torrie's favourite. She always have it on, it was just her favourite. John knew it.
He lowered his head down, holding onto something of Torrie's. Why did he screw it up? After everything his ex has done, making his life miserable…why would he let her have the power to ruin the great life he had with Torrie.
John felt angry with himself for allowing it to happen. He should have told Torrie exactly what he wanted. He didn't seem to have the strength at the time….he just didn't understand why he couldn't raise his voice.
Now he had lost Torrie.
A message beeped on his phone, he rubbed his temple touching his phone. His heart broke all over again at the sight of what was before him.
His brother Matt had uploaded on twitter, a picture of John & Torrie together with John holding Shelby in his arms, smiles on both their faces. Matt hadn't known what had happened.
He attached the beautiful picture, with the caption of " JohnCena, Torrie11" How can such a beautiful image fade? Bright shine of the smiles in the picture.
Torrie's pearly white smile reflected on the phone. The adorable dimples were in John's cheeks along with his gorgeous ear to ear smile.
John let his android slide out of his fingers to the floor. The realisation kicked in. felt like a knife in his stomach. The emotion hit overload.
All he did then was cry. John buried his head, as the tears spilled out of his eyes, shuddering as he cried. He felt no warmth, not an ounce of comfort. It just felt cold.
John Cena felt truly alone. Torrie wasn't here with him. He knew it, in his deep heart or hearts more importantly he felt it.
"I'm here without you but you're still on my lonely mind…"
You never know what you've truly got until it's gone.
…
Tears fell on her phone screen, at the same picture as she sat on the plane flying to New York. She held the iphone close to her chest, before she leaned her head on the window, gazing down at the view.
John wasn't there. She couldn't even feel his presence, all she felt…was loneliness and heartbreak.
She had flashes of today through her mind, all the happiness faded. The heartbreak just collided with her heart yet again. She closed her eyes, trying to fall asleep alone. Away from her own pain.
A sweet dream with John, where there was no heartbreak or drama. Especially no sense of reality.
The storm had been hit, but for Torrie & John….
Is it a storm that hit with no point of return.
…
End Of Chapter, I hope you all enjoyed it! God I think I need a tissue. Most emotional chapter I've ever written but its got to be done, where the story is heading. This chapter was so hard for me! As I adore Jorrie, it took me days to write so I hope it was all worth it.
Please leave me a lovely review, thanks for reading.
Oh Punk is really starting to annoy me! I still like him but seriously he's being a right jerk right now. First costing John a match with Del Rio with a kick at the back of the head then a GTS on the car! I screamed when John's head hit the hood of the car, it looked horrible and painful "tear" then for like the rest of the show, he was lying on the floor writhing in pain. Thanks wwe…I love to see my baby, my hero in pain…"rolls eyes"
I just hope John wins in his hometown of Boston at Night Of Champions. He definitely deserves it! After the year he has had! Definitely would be the perfect time for him to win! It would be so amazing to see him win the title, pose with the Championship and his family. :D Id love to see it! If he loses in his hometown, I will riot!
Anyways thank you again for reading, until the next time.
Peace, Love, Hugs, Kisses
Chapter 10-Stacy looks after Torrie after the break up, Carol confronts John.
RAW show, Torrie collapses while arguing with John. Can they come back together?
