So, I am a bad person, and here's why: 1) Instead of learning about hate speech in Con Law II, I wrote this chapter; 2) I haven't responded to reviews since Chap 6; 3) I still expect reviews and beg for them, despite neglecting to respond; and 4) I don't know when I'll be able to update again. I will say this, though - when you review, it makes my day. U know that.
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Bella stepped away from me, and I pulled her back protectively. I was pissed. I was pissed about the interruption of our kiss, and I was really pissed by this guy's thoughts. He definitely liked Bella…Also, he smelled like shit.
"Jake! What's up!" Bella said affectionately. She wriggled out of my grasp and walked over to him, watching her step. I followed behind her with a frown on my face.
The guy named 'Jake' was huge, and we sized one another up immediately. He definitely didn't go to Forks High. In his thoughts, he already didn't like me. Well, I didn't like him, either.
"Jacob, this is Edward Cullen. Edward, this is Jacob Black. Jake's a good friend of mine. He lives down in La Push," she said eagerly. I froze as his name registered with me. This was a descendant of Ephraim Black. I groaned. Leave it to Bella to have a member of the Black family as a friend. She really was a magnet for trouble.
Jacob pretended I wasn't there and went back to smiling at Bella. He didn't seem to recognize my name, which was good. Maybe the Quiletes had stopped their legends after we'd left so long ago.
"I didn't know you were going to be here!" he said enthusiastically. "This isn't really your scene." His eyes looked to me quickly, as if maybe I was the explanation for Bella being out of her element.
"Yeah, well, I thought I'd check it out. Turns out there's a reason I don't come to these things. They're lame."
"Well, we could get out of here," he said, pretending I wasn't there. "Let's go get some ice cream or something." He wagged his eyebrows and touched her shoulder affectionately. Bella laughed, and I clenched my fists.
"I'm here with Edward, Jake. But we should definitely hang out soon." Why didn't she tell him I was her boyfriend?
Jealousy gripped me, and I stared at Jacob with animosity. I grabbed Bella's hand and pulled her backwards into my chest. I wrapped my arms around her waist and breathed in her hair, all the while looking at Jacob.
"Bella is busy, Jacob. It was nice to meet you, though." Fuck you.
Jacob's eyes went pitch black. I had pissed him off and, for a fleeting moment, he thought about hitting me. If he touched me, I would kill him. With a glare, he looked at me but spoke to Bella. "Can I talk to you…alone?"
Jacob assumed that I was some asshole taking advantage of Bella, and that she was making a huge mistake by being with me. He judged me by my looks and assumed that I only wanted his friend for sex. It's not like his thoughts were any more virtuous. He also sensed that I was…off somehow. He had no idea what he was dealing with; I was the mortal enemy of his tribe, and I would gladly kill him if he gave me a reason.
Bella stuttered. "O-okay." She turned to me apologetically. "I'll be right back."
They walked off toward the lodge and spoke in hushed voices, but of course I could still hear their every word.
"Bella, what the hell are you doing? That guy is an asshole. I think I should take you home."
"Jacob, I can take care of myself. Charlie knows where I am, and he's met Edward. Thanks for your concern, but…"
"No, Bella. You don't get it." He pulled at his long hair and ran a hand over his face, trying to phrase what he wanted to say correctly. "He's after sex, Bella," he blurted out. "You're smart enough to see that. Look at him!" He gestured at me in frustration.
Bella was angry when she spoke. "You've never even met him, and yet magically you can read his thoughts, huh?! I'm glad you're so perceptive." She rolled her eyes. "I'm smart enough to make decisions for myself, and I don't need your approval."
"Seriously, Bella? You're going to go along with this douche bag?"
"I like him, Jacob. And his name is Edward. I'm not 'going along' with anything. In fact, I'm fully participating," she huffed.
"Fine, enjoy fucking him," Jacob said bitingly. "See if I care. I hope you enjoy being a conquest. Call me in a few days after he dumps you." He turned on his heel and stormed into the lodge.
Bella stood there, hurt and reeling from his harsh words. I was definitely going to kill him for speaking to her like that. No one talked to Bella like that.
I marched towards the lodge as quickly as I could without blowing my human cover. Bella yelled behind me. "Edward, where are you going? Don't! Please, listen to me!"
Instead of listening to her, I pictured his demise. I decided to drag him out of the lodge and throw him off the dock. It would be painful but quick. He deserved worse, so I considered my plan humane.
"Edward freaking Cullen, I swear to God. I will never talk to you again if you don't STOP right now!"
Her words sank in, and I stopped. There was only one thing I wanted more than to kill Jacob Black, and that was Bella. Clearly, if I killed him, I would upset her, and that would hurt my chances with her. Also, I would have to leave Forks and go into hiding. That would be a problem.
I turned around and looked at her, trying to calm my brutal thoughts. She was stumbling through the rocks towards me, her face flushed from yelling. She held back her hair with one of her delicate hands and gripped her jacket closed with the other.
I instantly felt like an asshole. I had made her even more distraught. Also, I had broken my promise. Earlier in the night, I'd told her that I'd help her with her shoes, and Jacob Black had made me break that promise.
I quickly walked back to her and swept her up in my arms, enveloping myself with her scent. She was the best antidote for my temper. "Bella, I'm sorry," I murmured. "I just got so angry. No one should talk to you like that," I fumed.
She turned her face into my jacket and steadied herself. After a deep breath, she encircled her arms around my waist. "It's okay. I'm surprised you heard that. And I'm sorry to you. He was rude."
"How do you know him?" I asked indignantly.
"He's a family friend. His dad is best friends with my dad, so I've known him since I was really young."
"Well, I don't like him."
Bella pulled away from me and looked up with an exasperated expression. "Yeah, I picked up on that," she rolled her eyes. "Edward, I know he acted like a jerk, but you don't even know him. He's actually been a good friend to me. With the exception of his behavior a moment ago, what reason could you possibly have to hate him?"
Because his family and mine are mortal enemies. Because he wants you. Instead of saying any of that, I tried another angle. "Why didn't you tell him that I'm your boyfriend?"
"I don't know. Does it matter?" When I didn't answer and kept my jaw clenched, she smiled knowingly. "Oh, I see. You're jealous." An uncontrollable giggle escaped from her perfect lips, and she doubled over in laughter.
I felt a little offended. "Maybe I am jealous. Why is that so funny?"
"You," she emphasized, waving at me, "feeling jealous? Over me?" She laughed more. "It's so unnecessary. I don't get it."
"What do you mean?," I asked honestly. "I think it's wholly necessary. What's not to get?"
"Edward," she said with another chuckle, "if anyone should be jealous, it's me. I keep waiting for you to wake up and realize that you should be with someone like Jessica and not me. You have nothing to be jealous about. I'm the one who has to walk around school as girls stare daggers at me and wonder why you're with me. Every time I'm in public with you, I'm reminded about how I'm not good enough for you."
I was stunned as she finished her speech. Bella thought that I was too good for her. She had no idea the kind of hold she had on me, or how desirable she was to those around her. It was unbelievable.
I stared at her, and she bit her lip, her eyes still sparkling from her laughter. She was glorious and completely oblivious. As her laughter faded, she looked up and waited for me to say something.
I needed her. Now. I needed to show her what she did to me, and I was sick of controlling myself. There was nothing left to say. There was only action.
I picked her up bridal style, and she gasped in shock. "Edward, what are you doing? Put me down!"
"No."
"Where are we going?" She looked a little afraid, but I didn't care. She should be scared.
"On our walk." The one we were going to take before we were rudely interrupted…
"Well, shouldn't I walk then?"
"No."
Within seconds, we were in the protection of the woods. The music from the lodge played in the distance, but besides that, the only other sounds within earshot were Bella's breathing and the forest. I could hear the river down below in the valley, and a small animal scurried away from us, undetected by Bella.
Before she could protest, I laid her down on a patch of grass and lowered myself on top of her. Her heart started racing, and I didn't know if it was from fear or desire. I opened her jacket and ran my hand along her side, speaking softly.
"Bella, there's nothing funny about me being jealous. Do you have any idea what you do to me? Do you have any idea how irresistible you are?"
Her breathing was erratic now. I bent down and kissed her neck, pushing aside the strap of her halter dress. "Are you afraid?" I breathed. "I'll stop. Just tell me."
I didn't wait for her to answer before I began untying the straps of her dress, all the while hungrily kissing her neck.
"No," she said quietly, her voice a little shaky. "I don't want you to stop."
I let go of the straps and willed myself to do this slowly. She was stiff underneath me and unsure of herself. I wanted her to be comfortable.
I kissed her deeply, taking her tongue gently into my mouth. I wanted to taste her saliva; it was sweeter than all of the human blood I'd ever had combined. After a few moments of carefully massaging and tasting her tongue, she began softening underneath me. She made the sweetest sound and wrapped her hands around my neck, finally participating.
We kissed passionately until she suddenly pulled away. I almost forced her lips back to mine, but she caught me off guard and moved her lips to my neck. Her pink tongue darted out of her mouth and tasted my skin. I wanted her lips all over my body, and I trembled as she continued her exploration. When I moaned and grabbed at her waist, I felt her smile against my cold skin.
"Do you like that?" she asked seductively. I was too overcome with desire to answer. With another smile, she stuck out the full length of her tongue and ran it up my neck. It was hot as hell, and I gasped involuntarily.
I didn't think it could get any hotter until she lightly bit my neck. The soft pressure of her mouth was too much, and I dragged her face back to mine, needing her tongue again. I slid my hands up her thighs and hiked up her dress in the process, frantically running my hands over her legs. She was wearing a thong, and I thanked God for the gift of skimpy underwear. I settled my hands on her waist, but not before I caressed the bare, hot skin of her ass and hips.
I could smell her arousal, and I was dying to taste it. I wanted it more than anything. She had to let me.
"Bella, you're so fucking wet. I can smell it," I said hoarsely.
She gasped and stopped kissing me. Her body flushed, and she tried to get away from me.
"I'm sorry," she murmured with embarrassment.
"Why?" I said, completely confused. I didn't want to let her away from me, so I kept her pinned underneath me until she gave me an explanation.
"I'm so embarrassed. Let me up, Edward."
It took me a second to figure it out, and then it dawned on me. "Are you embarrassed…that I can smell you?"
She cringed and blushed an even darker shade of red. "Yes."
I was so stupid. I had made her feel self conscious. I had to redeem myself. "No, Bella, listen. You smell amazing," I promised. "I have a great sense of smell, that's all. Please don't be offended. I love it." Please don't make me stop touching you.
"Are you sure?" she asked timidly. She stopped trying to escape from underneath me, so that was a good sign.
My eyes were filled with lust as I gazed into her brown ones, persuading her to believe me. "Bella, I've never smelled anything better in all of my existence." I kissed her and was cautious of the venom pooling in the back of throat. I tried to show her how much I meant it by making the kiss linger. "Everything about you blows my mind." I breathed against her hot skin, and she shuddered.
I moved one of my hands around her waist and played with the thin strap of her thong. My hand was so close to her center, the primary source of her delicious heat. She moaned as I inched my hand farther and farther down. Her arousal was all but pulsing into my hand, and I wanted to slip my fingers in so badly and taste her. I was going mad.
"Bella, I want to taste you. Can I please?" My voice was rough and desperate, and my hand hovered above her, teasing her intentionally.
"Okay." Her breathing was ragged, and she clutched my back.
Without another word, I kissed her and simultaneously pushed aside her thong. I held my breath and gently traced her slick folds, memorizing her perfect form. She bucked underneath my hand, and I nearly lost my mind. Very slowly, I placed a finger on her swollen clit and pressed down softly, eliciting a moan from her beautiful lips. I parted her legs even more and plunged a single finger into her center.
I had studied enough medicine to understand the female anatomy, but I had never dreamed it would feel like this. I recalled everything I knew about the g-spot and hooked my finger, steadily massaging until I felt her get wetter and moan louder. I slipped in another finger, eager to give her more, to feel more. She was so tight.
My hand was on fire when she sucked in a breath and said my name. "Edward…oh god…I can't…believe…" She couldn't speak and moaned loudly instead.
I wondered if Bella had ever had an orgasm. Had she even masturbated? I was on top of the world knowing that my hands were the first to touch her slick core. I wanted them to be the last, and I thrust in another finger, working faster in my ecstasy.
"Edward," she moaned again. She was moving against my hand now, caught up in her desire. She looked like a goddess in the faint light. Her dark hair was splayed out around her in the grass, and she was writhing with pleasure. I wanted to remember this forever.
"Do you like that, Bella?" I said seductively, borrowing her words from earlier. "You're so beautiful. You feel so good," I said almost incoherently in between kisses.
"Yes," she panted.
I took my free hand and roamed over her stomach and up to her chest. I was getting greedy, and I wanted to see her breasts in their splendor. Could I have that, too? I grazed my hand over one of her breasts, feeling her nipple harden under my hand.
My own erection was straining against my pants, and it was getting painful. I tried to ignore it and focus on Bella, but it was distracting me. Almost as if she could read my mind, Bella guided her hands down to my pants and started unbuttoning them, still rocking against my hand deliciously.
"I want to feel you, too," she said urgently.
"Fuck, Bella." She had unbuttoned me and was trying to push down my pants. "Wait," I begged. It was hard to deny her, but I knew I couldn't hold out if she touched me. I would cum right away and ruin this for the both of us. The mere thought of her hand around my dick was almost enough to make me climax.
I pulled her halter down and moved my mouth to her breast, tweaking her nipple with my tongue through her bra. I wanted her to cum before I did, so I inserted a fourth finger and worked feverishly, making her squeal into my shoulder.
I could feel her heat intensify, and I knew she was close to her climax. It was primal and completely natural for me to touch her like this. Even if I had never studied it, I knew what was happening, and I knew how to accomplish it. I lived for this moment.
"Cum for me, Bella. Please, baby. Cum for me," I whispered in her ear, moving my mouth back down to her sheathed breast. I thrust my fingers in deeper and flicked her clit.
"Edward!," she cried. Before she could say another word, I felt her walls clench and spasm around my hand. Her juices covered me, and I could barely keep my hand in place to let her finish her orgasm. I wanted to taste her now.
I didn't know if it would be too forward at this point to lick her juices directly, so I gathered as much of her on my hand as I could and devoured it greedily. My eyes rolled back in my head as I tasted her. It was what I'd wanted since the first day I'd met her, and it was better than I'd dreamed. Before I could stop myself, the intensity of her flavor, so sweet and potent, had me cumming in my pants.
I rolled off of her and tried to catch my mess before I ruined my pants. "Shit," I groaned. I still licked my hand, trying to get every last drop. I had no shame.
Once I calmed down, I looked over to see Bella breathing heavily, still on her back. The whole experience had been frenzied and quick, and I started to worry that I hadn't made it last long enough. Maybe I'd been horrible as a lover. I didn't even get her bra off. Jesus, I'd wanted to see her exposed breasts… I wanted to do it all over again and do a more thorough job.
I wiped my orgasm on the grass and willed myself not to get another erection. I really wanted to lick her pussy, and I couldn't stop thinking about it. Pace yourself, Edward.
Instead of ravaging her, I grabbed her hand, trying to be sweet. "Are you alright, Bella? I'm sorry it went so fast," I said shamefully. "I couldn't help it…"
She rolled onto my chest and put a finger to my lips, silencing me. "Edward Cullen, you are a God. I didn't know it could feel like that. It was… amazing," she admitted shyly, searching for the right word. She was glowing from her orgasm. I was speechless for a moment as she gazed at me, looking other-worldly in her beauty.
"Bella, it was amazing for me, too. I could spend forever doing that with you."
"I was so caught up in all of it, I didn't even get to help you…"
"You helped me plenty," I said and raised my eyebrow, gesturing to the mess in the grass.
She laughed. "I suppose. Practice makes perfect, right?"
"God, yes," I said, pulling her into a hug. "Let's start an after school club. I'll host it at my house. You and me, every day, practicing this."
She laughed again and ran a hand through my hair as she kissed my jaw. "Sounds like a plan."
We started adjusting our clothes to head back to the party, and I stared at Bella shamelessly as she re-tied her halter and pulled down her skirt.
"I like it better untied," I whined.
"I'm sure you do," she smirked.
I cleared my throat. "Bella, I know we're moving fast, but I want you to know that I really do care for you. This is more than lust for me, despite what people like Jacob may think. I want more than that from you."
She looked at me adoringly. "I care for you, too. It works both ways, you know. People think I like you because you're, well, you, but it's more than that. It's more than lust. I wouldn't do this with just anyone."
"I know that, Bella. Although, I am glad you're doing it with me. I'd be your slave if you wanted." I wagged my eyebrows, and she hit me playfully.
We walked out of the forest, and I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket instantly. I pulled it out with a sigh. I didn't want my time with Bella interrupted. To my surprise, it was Alice.
"Hold on, Bella. I have to take this."
I stepped away and accepted the call. Before I could say hello, Alice was screaming at me.
"Edward, where have you BEEN? I've been trying to call you for almost an hour!"
"I guess I didn't have cell phone connection." My signal was even weak now. "Why? What's up?"
"You disappeared, that's why! All of you did. It's like your futures vanished – you, Rosalie Bella and Emmett. And no one is picking up their phones, so I've been freaking out! Carlisle is on his way over to the lodge now to check on you guys. I didn't know what else to do."
"Oh shit, Alice! We're all fine. I need to call Carlisle and tell him not to come." That was the last thing I needed right now – my father showing up here.
"I don't understand this at all. Have you actually seen Rosalie and Emmett? Let me talk to them!" She was truly frightened, so I softened my voice.
"Alice, I'll go get them right now. Calm down. Just let me call Carlisle."
"Tell me everything that's happened," she insisted. "Leave nothing out. I don't know why I can't see you, and I have to figure it out. I'm freaking out right now."
I recounted everything I could at a pace too quickly and quietly for a human to hear. When I got to the part about Jacob Black, she interrupted me. "Wait, a descendant of Ephraim Black is there? At the party?"
"Yeah, why?" Even thinking about Jacob pissed me off. And then it all clicked. If I hadn't been so distracted by Bella, I would've picked up on it sooner.
"You can't see us because of Jacob."
"Probably. Edward, you need to get out of there. It's too risky when I can't see you like this."
"Well, what about before?" I said annoyed. "You were fine leaving me to fend for myself. What's the difference now?"
"I could see you at least. I could know that you'd be okay. I can't know anything right now, and I'm hundreds of miles away! Please!" There was genuine panic in her voice.
"Okay, okay. Let me go get everyone and we'll head out. Let me call Carlisle."
"Alright, but call me right back! Stay on the phone with me until I can see again."
"Fine. I'll call as soon as I can."
I hung up and called Carlisle, telling him we were fine and promising to head straight home. Bella asked me what was going on, and I made up an excuse about my uncle in LA. We went to round up the group.
The lodge was still packed, except there were more drunk people now. Immediately, I could smell Jacob and his vile friends in a far corner of the lodge. He had been drinking and was sneering at me. I sneered right back and followed my siblings' scent.
Emmett and Rosalie were slow dancing way too sexily while a group of wide-eyed sophomores stared at them. Ben was talking belligerently to some kid named Tyler, and Angela was pouting in a corner. Great. I would make Emmett pay for this. I could see that Angela was pissed with Ben, and that Ben was wasted thanks to Emmett's antics.
"I'm going to get Ben," I said to Bella. "You should talk to Angela. We're going to need to do damage control tomorrow. I think we should invite them to the movie with us."
"Yeah," she said, biting her lip. "Good plan."
"Ben, man, we gotta go." Tyler looked at me, impressed that I was Ben's friend.
Ben's face lit up when he saw me. He was completely drunk in his thoughts and hardly making sense. It would've been amusing if Alice weren't already calling me back, and if Jacob weren't contemplating punching me. I had been right. Drunken teenagers were a bad idea.
"Dude, Edward! I really love you, man! You're weird a lot, but still way cool." Ben grabbed my arm and fell. "Oh shit, it must be cold outside! You're freezing."
"Yeah, it is. C'mon. Let's head home." I started towing him towards the door and called to Rosalie and Emmett in a voice that I knew only they could hear.
Rosalie came up for air. "What?"
"Let's go," I said to her frigidly. I was angry at them for letting Ben get this drunk. Did they have no common sense at all?
Ben leaned over conspiratorially to whisper in my ear. Unfortunately, he wasn't being nearly as stealthy as he thought he was. "I think Angela is mad at me. What do you think, Edward? I totally need more flowers."
"We'll talk about it later, Ben. Ssh."
Alice was calling again, so I picked up the phone while I held up Ben. Everyone else was following behind me, and we definitely had an audience.
"Alice, I'll call you back in twenty seconds. I need to get everyone to the car. Ben is drunk."
"Just hand the phone to someone else and let me stay on!"
I looked at Rosalie and threw her the phone. "Talk to Alice," I demanded. I could see that Alice was filling Rosalie in on everything going on, and Rosalie was starting to freak out, too.
Jacob Black was seriously considering fighting me. He finally made up his mind when I got to the door, and he called my name loudly over the music. Emmett immediately turned around.
"Where do you think you're going with Bella? I'll get her home, man," he slurred. He walked over, pushing people out of the way.
I continued outside, trying to ignore him. Emmett wanted to kick his ass. At least I wasn't the only one who found him irritating.
We were halfway to the car when Jacob and some of his friends caught up with us. "Bells," he yelled. "Where'ya goin'? I'll take you home. Stay for a while longer."
She glared at him. "You're drunk. Seth, don't let him drive," she said to one of his friends.
"Hey, I wanna talk to Edward for a second. Come over here. Or are you scared?" He swayed a little and hiccupped. I wanted to kill him, but not when he was drunk.
We loaded everyone into the car. I put Bella in the front seat and decided to drive. I walked around the car and finally turned to Jacob, who was still taunting me like an idiot.
"Sleep it off, Jacob."
"Hey, fuck you. You sleep it off."
I suppressed my blinding wrath and got into the car. I sped off and purposely kicked up gravel in his face. Once we were a half mile out, Rosalie told me that Alice could see us again and hung up. At least that was good news.
Bella touched my face softly, and I turned to look at her. I was still seething as she spoke tenderly. "Edward, thank you."
I stared into her lovely face and felt instantly calm. I couldn't be angry when I had her by my side. Besides, I hadn't kill Jacob – yet – and all of us were safe for the time being. I smiled crookedly despite myself and lifted one of her hands to my lips. "Anytime, love."
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