Chapter 9: Saying Goodbye

When I woke up the next morning, I was more sore than I could ever remember being. My body ached from crying so much, and my ass was definitely not feeling much better. I quietly rolled off the bed to use the bathroom.

I sat down on the bed after I returned and felt the full pain of the night before. As I laid back and rolled to place my face into Dean's chest, tears laced my eyes and my body tensed. He watched me with worried eyes, and helped pull me in close as I rolled.

"I'm sorry I had to do that last night. But it really was necessary. I know you. And I know the kind of shit you try to pull. I just didn't think your first punishment was as effective as I had hoped since you found so much pleasure in it. So I had to up the ante. It was really hard for me to have to be so harsh with you, but it needed to happen. And I know now that I can leave you and not worry whether you're going to end up dead because you were careless."

I felt him shake lightly, and when I looked up, I saw the pain and tears in his eyes. I pushed myself up and placed my hand gently on his face.

"Dean… I never want to hurt you. I'm so sorry for making you feel like that punishment was necessary. I mean, you're probably not wrong. But that doesn't mean I needed to like it."

I finished my short speech with a pout. He laughed as he reached up to place his hand over mine. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. He had a slight smile on his face, but when he opened his eyes I could see the pain again.

I gingerly climbed on top of him and placed my head on his shoulder. I needed to feel his warmth against me. He wrapped his arms around me as I reached around his head to play with his hair.

He lightly traced his fingers over the curves of my ass. My toes curled at his touch and I buried my face into his shoulder as I cupped the back of his neck. As he allowed his full hand to run over my backside, I turned my face to kiss up his neck until I reached his lips.

I wanted to savour all that this moment was, so I kissed him with less urgency than I had done the past week. I lightly let my lips pass over his, slowly building into the kiss. He seemed to understand my meaning and kept his intensity down. There was no need to rush things.

All week had been like two rabid animals going at each other. And now I craved something different. Something to help me remember the taste of him. To remember his scent. The feel of his skin against mine. To know every ripple of muscle. I just needed to remember it all.

Dean stayed focused on running his hands over my tender ass. He applied just enough pressure to make it pleasurable without pain. I felt some of the discomfort leave my backside and it allowed me to put my full focus onto him.

I sat up to remove my shirt. Then I removed his. As he settled back down to the bed, he let his hands trace the curves of my torso as he found his way back to my ass. I closed my eyes and let myself focus on the feeling of his hands running down my skin.

I moaned in pleasure and shuddered as he reached my ass once again. I opened my eyes and smiled at him. I reveled in his beauty. I let my fingertips follow his collarbone. Then leaned over to gently let my lips trace along the same line. He reacted with a squeeze to my tender cheeks as he let a sound of pleasure escape his lips.

I almost gave in and just took him with that, but I found it in myself to control the reaction. I took a breath and rolled to my back, taking Dean with me. I left my legs bent to prevent further distraction caused by my ass.

Dean reached down and put my hair behind my ear and gently kissed me. As he pulled away I slid my hands down the front of his body. He slid down the bed and pulled my pants away to reveal my hip bones. His gentle kisses made me covered instantly become covered in goosebumps.

As I pushed my feet into the mattress and arched back, he removed the remainder of my clothing. He took extra care about not reviving the pain in my ass. I squeezed his shoulders and curled my toes as he kissed along my inner thighs. Why did he have to be so good at everything?

As his kisses passed my belly button, my stomach muscles spasmed with delight. He continued his path up until his tongue gently found my nipple. He let one hand massage my other breast while the other hand reached between my legs.

He perfectly timed caressing the three points of my body with his hands and tongue. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, just trying to accept the pleasure for all that it was. I wouldn't give in. I couldn't. I needed this to last.

As my nipples hardened and I began to drip with pleasure, I grabbed Dean's face and pulled him to my lips for a passionate kiss. As we came out of the kiss, I looked him in the eyes and spoke with a sultry voice I hardly recognized.

"Your turn."

And with that, I pushed him onto his back and reciprocated. I kissed along his hips. Then removed his pants and boxers. But as I kissed up his legs, I stayed to wet his hardening manhood with my tongue. As I put him in my mouth, I let my tongue spiral along after my lips. I kept my pace slow, but I was very deliberate in my touch. As he groaned and twitched in my mouth, I detached from his member and licked up his torso.

I took a moment to engage his nipples and let them harden in my tongue and gently between my teeth. This time he threw his head back and grabbed my hips to pull them up to him. He easily entered me as I lowered my hips back down.

As soon as he entered me, I lost all control and we become as one once again. It was a blur of bodies and I scarcely felt the pain which resided in my ass. It was simply a continuous release for the next hour.

As it came to a close, I decided I wanted to stick around. I used my shirt to clean up, and stayed there to soak more of him in. I placed my head onto his chest as I pressed my naked body against his own. I just needed to feel his touch.

I whispered to him as I soaked him him, "Thank you."

Instead of using words, he grabbed my face and pulled me into a passionate kiss. As he pulled away from me to look into my eyes he spoke,

"I know you are fighting a lot of things since we are leaving tomorrow morning, but I want you to hold this moment. Remember all of it. Remember the pain left over from last night. Remember the love that we shared. Remember the touch that showed our true selves. It's all important, and I won't forget it."

I blushed and looked down. I didn't want him to be right, but I knew he was.

"I'll do my best. And now that we've handled that, let's enjoy the last of our hours together."

And we did. I spent the day with Sam and Dean just having a normal life. We laughed so much my stomach ached. And when we said goodnight and I found myself alone with Dean once again, we had a repeat of our morning meeting. Things went slow and I was exhausted. As morning arrived, I felt my heart grow heavy. I wasn't ready for them to leave, but I knew it needed it happen.

"Do you really have to go?" I whined to Dean. Suddenly I had lost all of my dignity.

He laughed and kissed my temple, "You know we do. I'll be back sooner than you'd think. And I know you'll be fine."

Sam looked a little confused at the exchange, but didn't press the matter. He came to me and squeezed me in tight.

"Always remember how important you are. I expect to be seeing you around for a long time."

He kissed my cheek and continued to hold me for longer than I expected. I didn't fight any part of Sam's goodbye. I simply let myself melt into his arms. He finally pulled away and rubbed his thumb along my cheek as he grabbed his bag and went to the car.

Then Dean came up to me and took me into a passionate kiss. For once I didn't mind that Sam saw. I let the moment be all that it could. And I loved it for all that it was. When we were finally able to separate our bodies, Dean spoke first.

"Remember all that you've learned this past week. You have more importance than you know. And don't forget that I'll be back to remind you of that."

He finished with another passionate kiss. Then he grabbed the last bag and got into the driver's side of the Impala. I waved to them for the last time in who knew was how long. I knew I would have to start taking responsibility for my own actions now, but I also know I could count on Dean to keep me in line.

As I watched them drive away, I knew that it was all going to be ok.