Dear Readers:

Ok, I know that so far in the story, things are kinda flowing along pretty smoothly, but in this chapters, and the next few chappies, theres going to be some changes. HUGE ones. But don't worry, I know what I'm doing (: Hope you enjoy this chapter! Thanks for all the revvies, I really appreciate them!

With Love,

Neko-chan


I had been acting strangely all week, and I knew it. I wasn't my usual cheery, chirpy self. Instead, I was mopey, and I dragged myself around and didn't really put as much effort into singing. My voice was hoarse, and the same question was asked over and over again:

"Miku! Are you okay?"

The answer was clearly, plainly, no.

I wouldn't talk about it. It was none of their business. The only person I shared my sorrows with was Rin, and even she couldn't listen too well at times.

She was too busy with Len.

So, while I felt the sickening love in the air, no one felt my spirits sinking or heard my heart thud slowly and painfully, weighed down with heavy memories. No one felt my pain.

It was because of Kaito. I loved him, but he didn't give a care in the world. But, as I look now, I think... do I really?

Love him, I mean. Do I?

I did love him, I know that for sure that I used to, I cared and cried over him way too much to deny that. But now, when I think of him, that spark isn't there.

When I picture his face, that pang wasn't there.

When I talked to him, the gnawing feeling at my heart was absent.

What was there was emptiness. Complete, utter silence, and a feeling of bitterness. It felt like dry sawdust, yet tasted somewhat of sweet revenge.

As if I were announcing, "Hey, Kaito! I loved you, I really did, and I cared for you a lot, too! But guess what? You never cared about me, so you know what? It's over, it's done with. I don't like you anymore."

That's what it was, what it felt like: a bittersweet sense of triumph.

But, as I was drifting away from Kaito, I was moving toward someone else. Someone else with light, lavender colored hair and a deep laugh. Someone carefree and funny. Someone who went by the name of Gakupo.

Now, we had become closer friends, occasionally chatting and talking a little over the phone.

However, just because I'd gotten someone else to chat with sometimes didn't mean that the pain had disappeared.

My cellphone rang, the screen lighting up and flashing, announcing the caller's name in bright bursts of light and swirls of colors, buzzing with excitement.

a call from:

Rin Kagamine

I smiled, picked up the phone, eager to hear the voice of my best friend.

Her voice crackled a little as I answered her call.

"Hey! MikuMiku!"

"Oi."

"Hey, you've been looking a bit down these days, you alright?"

I paused. I had told her about Kaito. Did she not realize how big of an impact that the incident had left me with?"

"Hello?"

I realized that I had left her hanging.

"Oh sorry, Rin, I'm fine."

I lied, just to see what her reaction would be.

"Oh okay! Hey, today Len..."

I frowned at the phone, no longer feeling as happy, no longer wanting to talk when I had nothing to say. Wouldn't she ask more about me? Did she not realize how sad I was? Did she really only want to talk about Len?

"Hey... My mom's calling me. I'll talk to you later."

"Oh, sure! Bye!"

"Goodbye."

I ended the call, and flopped down on my bed, sighing.

Why wouldn't anyone listen?

Why doesn't anyone understand?