Ok, so I know it's been awhile since I uploaded and I apologize for that. I had a bit of a writers block with this chapter and I'm still not very proud of it because I don't think it's that good but I worked all night to get it up anyways. It is 2am! This is what I do for you guys! Wanted to upload so here it is!
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Dak's POV
"Jett! What the hell!" I screamed in anger at my supposed to be 'best friend.' He flinched and looked down.
"So it wasn't my best plan okay? Happy now?"
I glared at him. Seriously? That's all he has to say? "Why did you do it?" I questioned. Jett was often the kind to act on random impulses without thinking. He almost always had a reason, even if it didn't make much sense.
"I-I just..." Fucking spit it out Jett! This is getting old! He sighed and turned away from me when he answered. "I thought that maybe if Kendall thought James cheated on him, then he would come to me. That I could get my second chance, but I guess it's like James had told me long ago.
"Second chances only come to those who deserve them." I hadn't been sure what he was talking about at the time, but I get it now. I don't deserve my second chance.
Dak looked at me with concern but before he could say anything, I ran.
Running again Jett? When are you gonna learn?
I think everyone has those voices in their head. Those voices that come only when your upset and just LOVE to tell you everything you're doing wrong. I just try to ignore them.
I ran until I was sure I was far enough away for anyone to find me. There was that one place I always went to when I was upset. The forest, I had this little tree house that had been there since I was little. It wasn't really mine but I don't think it belongs to anyone because no one was ever there.
And it was then that I thought about Dak's question. Why had I done it? Did I really want to have Kendall only because he was heartbroken and I was his second choice?
Gah! Why were things so complicated! I had that feeling of regret, when I do something without thinking of the consequence's and feeling guilty about it when it's already too late to change what i've done. I just felt like screaming, so I did. No one would be around to hear so why not?
When I had no energy left, I sank to the ground and tried to make sense of it all. I'm not sure why I thought this would really work. If there is one thing I know, it's that when James feels bad about something, he will find the perfect way to make things better again. It's one of the many things that had made me fall in love with him in the first place.
"Hello? Is anyone there?"
Crap! Did someone actually own this thing? If so, they didn't use it often but this would still be considered trespassing! I kept silent hoping no one would see me.
"Hello?" I saw a person walk through in the small window built into the side of the tree house and I immediately recognized the face.
"Uh, hey!" I decided to speak up.
The boy turned his head and his eyes widened when he saw me. "Jett?"
I slowly nodded and looked down at the ground. It was obvious from the tone in the kids voice that he hated me. Which I guess he had every right to.
"What are you doing here?" he asked and I felt bad. Why should he care? I've been nothing but a jerk to him all my life.
"I'm just... thinking I guess. To be honest, I don't really know." I confessed, still not looking at him because I didn't want to see the hate that I just knew was shown on his face. I had already seen it enough on James' and Dak's faces. But I know that I deserve it anyways.
"What about?" I almost felt like laughing. He had always been a bit nosy in everything.
For the first time, I looked him in the eyes. "I'm not sure how good you are at giving advice, but everyone else is against me at the moment so..." I didn't really know what to say but he seemed to get it. He smiled at me and nodded his head.
"I may not be the best at giving advice but I can always try."
I can see why he is James' best friend, they are quite a bit alike except for the quick temper James has.
"I think I just made the biggest mistake of my life," I started. Well, besides breaking up with James. "I sort of kissed someone who was already in a relationship and now I feel really bad and I don't know how to make it up to them."
I knew that if he hasn't already heard the story, then when James does tell him he will understand that I never really deserved his sympathy.
But he just gave me a sad smile. "I think the best thing you can do in this situation is apologize to them and explain why you did what you did. I'm sure they would forgive you."
"Thanks Carlos."
"Hey, you aren't really that bad. I know that you may have your down sides but everyone does. You just have to learn to not let them control you."
Wow, this kid could really be smart when he wanted. I don't know why everyone underestimates him.
"Hey Carlos?"
He looked at me questioningly and waited for me to continue. "I'm sorry for how I treated you before, you really aren't that bad."
"Hey, everyone deserves a second chance."
I don't. I never did.
Suddenly, there was a boom of thunder and Carlos looked at me. "We should probably get headed home."
I agreed and we headed out of the small forest. "Hey, just a question... what were you doing in there?" I asked the smaller boy, pointing to the woods.
"I heard you scream while I was walking down the sidewalk. Figured I should go check it out because for all I know, someone could be dying or getting murdered and that would've been exciting!"
I laughed at his words. "Exciting? How is someone getting murdered a good thing?"
He laughed with me and for the first time that day I felt a little better. "I always wanted to be a cop like my dad, it's like being a superhero!"
I smiled at his enthusiasm. He was always just a bright ball of happiness. It was impossible to be sad around Carlos, it made me wonder why I was ever so mean to him. He's a good friend.
It was then that I decided I needed to get my life together and stop being such a douche.
We talked about random things until we got to his house and I was about to say goodbye and go home but he stopped me.
"Hey wait, I bet my dad will give you a ride home so you don't have to walk home in the rain."
I shook my head. "You've already done so much for me today. I don't want to give your dad any troubles, i'll be fine walking home. Besides, I have somewhere I have to go first and it's only a block or two away."
He gave me a concerned glance. "Are you sure?"
I nodded and he agreed with me, seeming like he was a little unsure about it.
"Hey, don't worry. I'll be fine. And thanks for earlier, i mean it."
"It was no big deal."
It was to me, everyone else hates me at the moment.
We said our goodbyes and I went off in the opposite direction of my house. I had decided that Carlos was right, I needed to apologize to James. And I knew things would seem weird if asked Carlos' dad to drop me off at James' house which is why I decided to walk.
It couldn't be that bad to walk in the rain. Besides, James' house is only a block away.
I walked up to the front door and hesitated. What if he doesn't forgive me? What if he doesn't want me there?
You idiot! Of course he doesn't! Why would he after all you've done!
So I just stood on the porch questioning myself. The stupid voices were right. Why would either of them want me here right now?
Man up and knock on the door!
Don't, it's pointless anyway. You'll probly just get the door slammed in your face!
You don't know that! You have to atleast try!
Why try when you already know what's going to happen you useless piece of shit.
Maybe they will forgive me! Or atleast give me a chance to explain myself!
Why would they? You don't deserve it!
I clutched my head in frustration. These voices were giving me a headache and I didn't know what to do. I knew I probably looked like shit and I was just thankful that no one was out in this storm to see me like this. Atleast the raindrops were hiding my tears but I guess my red, puffy eyes gave the fact that i was crying away.
And with one insane moment of courage, I rang the doorbell. I held my breath while I waited for someone to answer, almost having a panic attack and running away before anyone could. But I somehow convinced myself to stay.
My heart started racing when he door finally opened to reveal a small girl who looked about 12. She had long brown hair and a confused look on her face.
"Um, hey?" I knew she was probably confused as to who I was and I didn't really want to give her my name in fear that James wouldn't want to come if he knew who it was.
"Can I please speak to James?" I asked, surprising myself that I was able to get the words out without stuttering.
"JAMES! SOME HOBO IS HERE TO SEE YOU!" she shouted down the hall to the brunette boy. Did I really look so bad she thought I was a hobo? I guess the half hour in the rain crying really messed with my appearance.
I saw James turn around the corner muttering something about manners to the girl before turning to see who was at the door. When he saw it was me, he immediately got a look of anger on his face, which I didn't blame him for.
"What the fuck are you doing here you ignorant asshole!" I then saw Kendall come around the corner with the little girl again and I flinched.
"James! Watch your language!" He scolded playfully and the girl giggled. Then the blonde turned and saw me, giving me the same annoyed look James had.
"Look, I wanted to apologize. I'm really sorry! I just-"
"I don't want to hear your stupid excuses." James interrupted and shut the door in my face.
Told you!
My heart sunk in my chest as I turned to go home, I guess it was pointless to try.
"Second chances only come to those who deserve them," I whispered to myself as I started running down the street.
"JETT! WAIT!" I heard Kendall yell. I didn't see why he wanted me to, I deserve what James did. I deserve everything.
But I turned to look at him and as I did, I slipped and fell to the round, hitting my head on the cement.
I heard Kendall scream before everything went black.
You get exactly what you deserve.
So yes, there is my drama bit I just had to add! I mean, when do I not add atleast some drama? Never! So I have a couple things to say...
1) Me being the writer I am, can't end the story with anyone having a sad ending, (not that the story is going to end soon, just that this is needed now) so I must fing Jett someone to fall in love with! So I have a question for you guys (there's a poll on my profile to vote, I think. It says it is on there but it isn't showing up for me and this is my first poll so i'm not sure what to do. Tell me if it is there and if not then just comment your opinion and I will tally them up) should Jett...
a) fall in love with Jo and I put her in the story as well...
b) being as we are Kames fans, we don't always like Jo so I keep her out of the story and one of you guys make up an OC for me to put in the story.
So I will let you guys vote and I will go off of that! If you like the second one better than you can leave me a description of your OC and I might just use them!
2) Ok, so I hope on having one more update before Sunday but on Sunday I will be going to Kansas Bible Camp! Which is fun for me but also bad because I wont be able to upload D: So I wont be uploading again until sometime next Saturday but don't worry becase I will be working on an extra long chapter during free times at camp:) Sorry for the bad news, but atleast there is a good side to it! Peace out RUSHERS!
