UGH! So yeah the whole persuading my mom to let me keep my computer think…yeah didn't go so well so she's taking it with her! UGH! Oh well at least she's not leaving till the end of the weekend.
Disclaimer: I wish…
"I can't believe you guys threw me!" Sara said at dinner later that night. They hadn't stayed in the water long after they threw Sara. They spent the afternoon relaxing or going out to see more sights. Sara chose to stay home, exhausted from swimming. Grissom stayed home too, and things would have gone a lot differently if Catherine hadn't wanted to stay home also.
"Come on Sara, it was fun. Admit it." Greg said.
"Well either way you have to admit it was hilarious to watch!" Jay said. The others laughed and agreed. Sara just glared at him.
"Come on Sara, just admit it!" Greg said poking her in the side. "You had fun."
"FINE! Ok it was fun! There happy?" Sara said laughing as she remembered flying through the air.
"Breakthrough!" Greg said, glad Sara wasn't mad at them.
"Ok can we please get onto a topic that doesn't involve me?" Sara asked.
"What did you guys do while Cath, Sara and I were at the house?" Grissom asked.
"Oh, just drove around." Jay said.
"So your telling us a bunch of guys were given the chance to go out without us women and all you do is drive around?" Sara asked
"Well you see Sara, it would have been a lot different if the we went out at night. All the fun things in this town happen at night." Jay said.
"Like…" Sara said.
"Like clubs, bars, men only clubs, well I guess women could come to but I don't think they'd like it all that much…"
"OK! WAY to much information!" Sara said.
"Hey you asked." He said.
"Yeah well I wasn't expecting that!" Sara said.
"Speaking of night time what do you guys want to do tonight?" Nick asked.
"Liquor?" Greg said, bright eyed.
"Greg!" The group said.
"What! I had to ask! I would have eventually so I thought I would get it over with." Greg said
"Well now that that's out of the way, any other suggestions?" Grissom asked.
Not even a second passed after he said those words before there was a flash of lightning and then a loud clap of thunder shook the house.
"I guess that rules out going any where." Catherine said, but Grissom and Jay barely heard her, they were both busy watching Sara.
"Sara are you ok?" Jay asked.
"Of course I'm ok. Why wouldn't I be?" But her voice shook a little bit as it thundered again.
Sara was trying really hard not to let it get to her. Not to let the thunder bring back the memories that were better left forgotten. It was hard though, since every time she thought she was ok, it would thunder again. She could still remember the way her mother's face looked as the lightning shone on it that night. At the thought of that she realized that she wasn't ok and wasn't going to be until the storm was over. "I'll be right back." She said and then made a mad dash for her room.
"What was that all about?" Greg asked, still clueless.
"Is she going to be alright?" Catherine asked.
"Yeah, she just…uh…really hates thunderstorms." Grissom said and then he got up to go talk Sara into either coming back out or letting him in. He knew she did not need to be alone right now.
"Sara." He said when he got to her door. "Are you ok?" He knew it was a silly question to ask though. Of course she wasn't ok.
"I'm fine." She said which would have sounded pretty believable except for the sniffle that followed.
"No, Sara you're not fine, please let me in." He said.
"I want to be alone." She said.
"Sara please. You can't just shut everything out and hope it goes away. It doesn't work that way." Grissom said.
"Sara please, either come out or let one of us in." Jay said. Grissom hadn't even heard Jay come up beside him.
Sara finally opened the door. She still had tears running down her face and her mascara was running but she didn't care. The minute she saw the look of sadness on Grissom's face she broke down fell into his arms.
"Its ok, Sara. Its ok." He said smoothing down her hair. He walked her back to the couch and they both sat down. Jay sat down on the other side of her and starting rubbing her back.
The other CSI's looked at each other. Each had the same confused look on their faces.
"Ok I've heard of people getting scared during thunderstorms but never crying because of one." Catherine whispered.
"Yeah same here." They all replied.
"Want to talk about it?" Grissom asked aware of the others in the room. Sara shook her head.
"C'mon Sara you need to talk about it." Jay said. He still remembered that night; sometimes it felt like it was yesterday he remembered it so vividly. But he had been old enough at the time to know how to deal with it. Sara hadn't.
"Look Sara if your not comfortable having us here, we'll go and leave you guys alone." Catherine said. Of course she REALLY wanted to know what was up, she knew it must be a touchy topic.
"Yeah, well leave." They guys said.
Sara lifted her head up from where it had been resting, Grissom's chest, to look at her friends. She knew it was a big sacrifice for Catherine to even suggest leaving, much less actually doing it. She smiled. 'Maybe I didn't have to be afraid of telling them at all' she thought. The smile didn't last long, however, since a big clasp of thunder shook the whole house and sent her back to burring her head in Grissom's chest.
"God, I HATE THIS!" she yelled, although it wasn't that loud on account of her head being buried in Grissom's chest.
"We're gonna go." Catherine said to Grissom and Jay, as the guys got up to leave.
"Wait." Came Sara's muffled voice. She sat up and tried to smooth down some of her hair. "I know you're all REALLY wanting to know what's going on, right?"
"Sara you don't have to…" Catherine started to say.
"Right?" Sara asked again
"Right." Catherine said.
"Well I might as well tell you, I mean in case I wake up in the middle of the night again you'll at least know why."
They all sat down.
"Sara…You're sure you want to tell this?" Grissom asked, knowing it would bring up more memories.
"Yeah, I'm sure." Sara said.
"Ok, so you guys have probably been wondering why in the world would I cry over a thunderstorm right?" they nodded their heads. "Well, it's not really the thunderstorm, its all the memories it brings up. You've probably also wonder why I got SO wrapped up in abuse cases. Well it all has to do with this. My house was not the best place for a kid to grow up. You would have thought after having one kid, my parents would have realized that they didn't need to have any children and would have stopped having more. Nope. My parents didn't think about that so a few years after they had Jay, they had me. And according to Jay life hadn't been that bad until I came along. I guess its all my fault."
"SARA!" Grissom and Jay screamed.
"What! You yourself said, Jay, that things were better before I was born."
"Yes, but Sara things would have gone down hill no matter what. NONE of what happened is your fault and don't want you EVER thinking that." Jay said.
"Ok, I'm sorry. Well, see my father liked to drink. A lot. As long as he wasn't drunk, he was fine. But once he got drunk, he got mean. My parents used to fight all the time about his drinking, but that just made him drink more. When he was drunk you knew to stay out of his way. But he seemed to want to make sure that my mother was ALWAYS in his way. He would get mad at her for no reason, or for something HE had done. Every now and then, he would find something I did wrong. He once twisted my arm so hard it broke because he told me to have my room spotless by 8:00 and I didn't get it done till 8:01. It wasn't hard to stay out of his way until Jay and Grissom left for college. Normally one of them was around to get his mind off of me. After they left things got worse. He started getting violent when he wasn't drunk. Then one night, Grissom and Jay, who were back for spring break, were watching TV in the living room. My parents were in their room, arguing, BIG SURPRISE, and I was supposed to be in bed. The only problem was their bickering was keeping me up, so I went into their room to ask them to keep it down, I know it was a stupid think to do but I was only about nine. So anyway I go in there right about the time my stabs my father for the first time. I was speechless and scared. I didn't know what to do so I stood there and watched my mother stab my father a few more times, God, I still remember the look of pure hatred I saw on her face when the lightning shone on it. After a few minutes I regained my voice and started screaming. Jay and Grissom came running into the room and Grissom took me back to the living room while Jay struggled to get my mother off my father. I remember falling asleep on the couch and then waking up in the hospital. And finding out that since Jay was still in college he wouldn't be a fit guardian and I had to go into foster care. It gets a little fuzzy after that."
The whole room was speechless. Of all the things they had imagined about Sara's past that was certainly not one of them. They were amazed Sara could lead a life the resembled normalcy at all. They all knew Sara didn't do well with abuse cases, but they were amazed she could work them at all. They were amazed she could even do her job without having a mental breakdown every night.
"Oh my God. Sara I'm so sorry." Catherine said after a few minutes.
"It's ok." Sara said just as it thundered again. Sara immediately went back to her former position.
"Easy," Grissom cooed." You're ok."
"Thanks Grissom." She said sitting up
"I think the storm's letting up." Jay said.
"I hope so." Sara said she tried to hide a yawn but it didn't work.
"Come one Sara lets get you to bed." Grissom said but Sara shook her head.
"I don't want to. I want to put of the nightmares as long as possible." She said. "Besides I'm sure you'd all prefer not to be waken up in the middle of the night again right?"
"But you're not going to stay up all night either Sara." Grissom said.
"Hey I've got an idea. What if Grissom sleeps in your room tonight? That way if anything happens he'll be right there." Jay suggested.
Grissom and Sara looked at each other.
"Sure." Grissom said.
"I guess that could work." Sara said.
"Ok well then its settled." Jay said quickly, not giving them a chance to change their minds. "Well, if you guys don't mind I think I'm going to go to bed myself."
"Yeah me too." The group said. Soon they were all in their own rooms, well with the exception of Grissom.
"You really don't have to stay Gil. I'm sure I'll be fine." Sara said.
"But I want to stay Sara, why would I pass up the chance to spend the night with you." Grissom asked with a smile. Sara chuckled.
"Well, its not necessarily the way I intended but…it'll do." He said. Sara chuckled again.
"Thanks Gil." She said a few minutes later.
"For what?" He asked, confused.
"Being there for me. Tonight and all those years ago." She answered.
"Sara, I NEVER want to see you hurt, but I know its going to happen, so if I can't prevent it I would at least like to help make it better. Now come on I'm sure you're tired." He said as they climbed into bed. Without even thinking twice about it he wrapped his arms around her. Sara smiled at the thought of him doing this every night. 'As long as he keeps his promise, he will be' she thought as she drifted off to sleep.
A/n: Well that's my take on what happened that night. I hope you liked it. Don't worry that was the last of the angsty part. The rest will be funny, but I felt I still needed to touch on that one part. And don't worry they guys will find out the rest of that embarrassing story Sara would rather keep untold. :)(:
