Love, Pain And The Whole Crazy Thing
Chapter 9 – Grandparents, Shopping and Needles
It's just too little too late
A little too wrong
And I can't wait.
Boy you know all the right things to say
You know it's just too little too late
You say you dream of my face
But you don't like me
You just like the chase
To be real, it doesn't matter anyway
You know it's just too little too late
Go find someone else
In letting you go, I'm lovin myself
I can love with all of my heart baby
I know I have so much to give
Few hours later the Shepherds (Not including Gabriel who was at work) were walking down a hall at the mall. "Hmm where to?" Derek looked at Addison and gave her hand a light squeeze.
''Hmm a toy store.'' Addison smiled.
"There are millions of them, pick one." Derek chuckled.
''I don't know, which ever we pass.''
"Ah, the closest one, yay." Derek smiled, he didn't like shopping at all, which was obvious, it was the guy-thing.
''Shush.''
He let out a laugh. "You don't want me to."
''I do too.'' She pushed the stroller.
"Do not, you like my voice." Derek grinned widely and pressed a kiss on her cheek. "Ah there's a toy store!" He smiled.
''Let's go in.''
"Sure." Derek smiled and they stepped into the store, there was some music playing, very cheerful, very happy. Theresa stepped in right after them.
''Hailey look!'' Justin excitedly chirped, pointing to several toys in the store.
"There are Barbie's! And cars! And teddy bears!" Hailey yelped, all smile from ear to ear. Addison smiled at Derek as she listened to their twins.
"This was a great idea." Derek placed a small, gentle kiss on Addison's lips.
''Mhm I rock.''
"You do, you're the best."
''I am.'' She laughed, looking at Theresa who was talking to the kids.
"Jussie honey, you have to wait for a moment, then we can go look for your car."
''How about we split up in groups?''
"Another great idea." Derek grinned. "I'll take Jussie."
''Good then me and mom will go Barbie shopping with Bug.''
"Sounds like a good plan." Derek smiled. "Men and women."
''Mhm.'' She walked in front of the stroller, getting both kids, who were nearly jumping out of it, out.
Derek grinned widely at Justin who was basically jumping up and down. "Let's go look for your play car."
''Yay!'' He yelled. Derek chuckled. "With flames." Derek added. He offered his hand for the little boy, starting to walk towards the direction of the play cars.
''So, we better go looking for Barbies.''
Hailey grinned excitedly. "A pretty Barbie!"
''Oh yes.''
"Where are they?" Hailey looked around, raising on her toes.
''At the dolls department.''
Theresa looked around, spotting something. "There." She smiled and picked up Hailey, pointing at the direction. "There are the Barbies." And then set her down.
They walked towards the Barbies, Hailey pulling at her mother's hand to go faster.
"Mommy fasterrr." The little girl exclaimed.
''Mommy can't go faster sweetie.''
"Nana?" The little girl looked at Theresa, capturing her hand in her own. "Can you go faster?"
''No honey.'' Theresa laughed.
"You're both slow." The little girl pouted her lips, still trying to walk faster.
''The Barbies won't walk away.''
"But this is exciting!"
''I know it is Cupcake."
Hailey again fastened her steps before they reached the Barbies, she looked up to them in awe.
''Want me to lift you up?''
"Yeees!" Hailey lifted up her arms to be picked up. Addison laughed and picked her daughter up. Theresa scanned the Barbies while Hailey did the same, looking at each one of them closely.
''What about this one?'' She pointed at a mermaid Barbie.
"That's so pretty!" Hailey beamed and grabbed it.
''Yeah do you like that one honey?''
Hailey nodded excitedly. "It's such a beautiful Barbie." Theresa smiled.
''Do you want this one?''
Hailey nodded excitedly. "It can have a tea party with Princess Theresa!"
''Hmhmm.'' Addison smiled, grabbing another box. ''What do you think of this?'' She showed the box to her daughter which contained a Barbie Paradise that went along with the mermaid Barbie.
"Mommy, please please please can I have it too?" Hailey stuck the mermaid Barbie to Theresa and hugged her mother tightly. "Pleeeeeeease?"
''You can, because you're such a sweet girl.''
"YAY!" She smiled widely and kissed Addison's cheek. Addison smiled, hugging her little girl.
"I love you mommy." Hailey smiled happily and hugged her mother tightly, as tightly as she could. ''I love you too baby.'' Theresa smiled at the sight, holding both of the boxes now. She didn't want to interrupt them. Addison hugged her closely, rubbing her small back. Hailey's breath tickled Addison's neck, she smiled softly at her mother as she pulled back. "Thank you mommy."
''You're welcome sweetheart, now give Nana a kiss too.''
Theresa smiled at the attention she was getting as Hailey wrapped her arms around her neck. "Hey bug..." She smiled as she held her granddaughter.
Addison took the boxes, smiling at the two.
The little girl pecked Theresa's lips, making a sound. Hailey giggled and Theresa chuckled softly. ''Shall we go look for daddy and Jussie?'' Hailey nodded excitedly, spotting a black haired man at the other side of the store. "DADDY!" Addison laughed as they walked towards them. Derek was looking at the cars amazed, there was still a little kid inside of him. "Wouldn't this one be cool?" He showed a black one with a red stripe on the bonnet to his son.
''That one looks good.'' Someone wrapped her arms around his waist from behind. He shivered, turning his head to look at her. "Hello stranger..."
"She's not a stranger, she's mommy!" Hailey grinned. Addison laughed a little, kissing her husband's neck. He let out a warm laugh and looked at the car in his hands, trying to ignore her kisses. Her hand sneaked under his shirt, running her fingers over his muscled stomach. A light gasp left his lips as he tried to ignore this the best that he could. He placed the car back where it belong.
''Finding one?''
"Yeah we found one, just what he wanted, right Jussie?" Derek smiled at the little boy, ignoring his wife's wandering hands.
''Yes, and it has flames and I can ride in it!''
Derek chuckled. "Yeah you can sweetie."
Addison smiled, her hand slipping in his jeans just below his belt. He bit on his lip and took a deep breath. Oh. dear. god.
''Mom could you look around with the kids a little more to see what else is here?'' Addison asked sneakily. A grin tugged his lips. "Yeah, you could look around and see if you find something nice..."
"That's okay with me." Theresa was playing with Hailey, completely unaware of the scene these two were making. ''Thanks.'' Addison moved her hand even lower when they left.
A gasp left his lips. "You are a sneaky woman, Addison."
''Oh am I?'' She grinned, not moving her hand.
"Yes you are, now I suggest you move that hand away, from there." He tried not to moan.
''Why?'' She unbuckled his belt so she had more space.
"Addison..." He warned her before turning around to face her.
''Babyyyy.'' She pouted.
"Hmmm?" He smirked, pressing a kiss on her lips.
''Turn around.''
"You are baddd." He grinned before he turned around. She grinned, moving her hand lower in his boxers so she took hold of him. A half gasp, half moan left his lips as he immediately hardened in her hand. She smirked against his shoulder, starting to stroke him.
"Okay.. Addison you can't do that here..." He mumbled, biting on the insides of his cheeks, trying not to moan once again, few small moans leaving his lips.
''Hmm why not?''
"Because... it's inappropriate..." Another light moan escaped.
''No one knows.'' She ran her thumb over his tip. He bit on his lip. "Righttt."
She started to move her hand up and down.
"Oh dear god." A small moan passed his lips again. She kissed his neck, not stopping what she was doing.
"Addison we can't here..." He let out another moan though he was fighting to keep them down.
''No one will know.'' She whispered. ''They can't see.''
"Naughty." He commented at her, focusing on the miracles her fingers were doing to him. She kept pumping him in her hand.
After a moment he felt his head becoming cloudy and his knees starting to feel weak. ''Close?'' She breathed. He nodded quickly, his eyes closed as a moan left his lips, he was on the edge.
''This is gonna be messy.'' She chuckled, moving her hand faster.
"You are a horrible woman." He mumbled, biting on his lip as he was shoved over the edge. She grinned against his skin as he came, kissing his jaw.
"Oh god..." He mumbled afterwards, slowly opening his eyes, his legs felt like jello.
''Hmm I love you.''
"Hmm I love you more..." He murmured once again, slowly turning his head to kiss her. She removed her hand from his jeans.
"You are a naughty woman Addison Shepherd" He kissed her again, buckling his belt.
''Got a problem with that?'' She kissed his lips.
"Not at all, I love it." He smirked against her lips. "Now... how could I pay back for what you just did?"
''You can't.'' She grinned.
"I believe I can." He gave her a puppy look. "Once we get back home."
''Mhm.'' She took his hand. ''Let's find mom.''
"Wait... I can't walk, really, it'd look weird, let's just.. wait for a moment."
She rolled her eyes, laughing.
"Shut up, your fault." He smiled, it was entirely her fault.
''Everything...sticky down there?''
"Uhm yes." He rolled his eyes. "And plus my legs are all jello."
''My poor baby.''
Derek gave her a look before pecking her lips. "So let's just... wait for a moment."
''So Jussie is getting this one?''
"Yeah." He smiled gratefully that she had dropped the subject.
''It's big.''
"Well yeah but... he's a big boy."
"He could ride Hailey around in it.''
"I bet he'd like that." Derek smiled softly.
''Yeah.'' Addison chuckled.
"God, we're spoiling them."
''They deserve it.''
"They do, they're good kids." Derek shifted, testing his limits.
''They are.''
He smiled softly again. "Shall we?" Gladly his legs were strong enough to carry him now.
''Yeah.'' She held his hand. ''Oh we're getting Hailey this mermaid Barbie with this Barbie paradise.''
"Sounds..." girly "... good" He linked his fingers with hers as they walked. "But doesn't she already have like million Barbies?"
''She does.''
"Hmhmm."
''I love you.''
"I love you too, very, very much" He placed two soft kisses on her jaw.
She smiled as they found Theresa.
Derek Shepherd stepped into a tattoo shop with his wife, his hand suddenly felt a little sweaty.
''It looks good.'' She looked around, noting there were certificates on the wall.
"Yeah, not one of those places..." He let his gaze wander around the tattoo shop.
''Still sure you want this?''
"Yep." He nodded and soon a tattooist walked towards them.
''How can I help you?'' She asked.
"Um I'm here to get a tattoo." Derek spoke.
''Okay.'' She nodded. ''Do you want a book with pictures to choose from or do you have your own design?''
"Well I'm going to get one saying 'Addison', but I'm not sure about the font yet... nothing usual, something more like her, a simple but beautiful font. Still manly enough though..." He rambled a little.
''I could give you a book with fonts.'' She smiled.
"Yeah? That'd be great, thanks." Derek smiled back to the woman.
''Okay, I'll go get it.''
"Thanks." Derek turned to look at Addison. "I'm getting a tattoo." He said excitedly.
''You are.'' Addison smiled, resting her head against his shoulder.
"Hmm, I'm getting a pretty, manly tattoo." He grinned and pressed a small kiss against her hair. She laughed as the tattooist came back. Derek grinned and then pulled back a little from Addison as the tattooist offered him the book.
''Now choose a font from here and go to the desk when you're done okay?''
"Okay." Derek sat down on a chair, opening the book. Addison sat down next to him. He flipped the page, not finding anything interesting from the first few pages. She leaned her head against him. He placed a kiss on the top of her head, again flipping the page, none of these fonts was good enough for him.
''Hmm this one looks nice.''
"Yeah? I think so too..." Derek smiled and ran his fingers on the page, over the letters.
''How big do you want it?''
"Not too big, but you know... about this size." He showed one of the examples on the book.
''Mhm that looks good.''
"Yeah, we should probably look at the rest of the fonts too, don't you think?" He flipped the page.
''Yeah.'' She nodded.
"Hmhmm.." He looked at the fonts on this page, nope, none of them.
''You know you could also tattoo it on your tush?'' She joked.
"Oh I should" He grinned. "Maybe even a little heart on it too?"
''Mhm.'' She laughed.
"I HEART Addison, wow that'd be cool, right?"
''Hmm better stick with simply Addison.''
"Oh, never mind my other idea then." He sighed dramatically. She laughed, pecking his cheek.
"There goes my 'Addison's property' tattoo." He grinned, pecking her lips. She laughed at him. ''Yeah.''
"Damn, it would have looked good." He chuckled, flipping the page.
''Yeah yeah, now look for a good font.''
"Fine, fine." Derek rolled his eyes and laid his eyes on the fonts, flipping the page again.
A while later they had chosen a font and Derek sat on a chair.
"Okay, I hate needles." Derek took Addison's hand in his.
''Are you kidding me?'' Addison laughed.
"I don't like needles, you know it, shush."
''Are you scared?'' She teased.
"I am not scared!" He gave her a look. "I just don't like needles."
Addison raised her eyebrow at him just as another woman walked into the room.
"I am not scared Addison." Derek rolled his eyes, before looking up to the woman who stepped in.
''Hello I'm Allison.'' The woman smiled and extended her hand.
"Derek." He made a smile and shook her hand quickly. Derek smiled at Allison, and then at Addison, mouthing 'I'm not scared of needles'. 'Uhuh' Addison pulled a face, teasing him.
''So.'' Allison sat down on the chair next to Derek, pulling on gloves. Derek rolled his eyes at Addison, giving her hand a light squeeze before looking at Allison. "Yeah.."
''Have a design?''
"Yeps." Derek nodded, "Addison written in the font uhm... 29 was it?" He turned to look at Addison, furrowing his eyebrows together.
''Yeah.'' She nodded.
"Yep, font 29." Derek smiled. "On my upper arm."
''Okay, where exactly?''
"Umm." Derek would have to remove his shirt. "Here." He showed her the place, a spot on his right arm.
''Okay, could you take your shirt off? We're gonna draw it first with a marker.''
"Uhm sure." Derek started to remove his shirt.
''Thank you.'' Hmm nice chest she noted. Derek made a smile and jokingly placed his shirt around Addison's neck. Addison rolled her eyes and laughed, putting the shirt in her lap.
''So Addison is her name I assume?'' Allison smiled.
"No, it's my other wife's." Derek smirked. "Yeah, it's her name."
''Sweet.''
"Thanks I guess." Derek smiled softly and held Addison's hand in his. She softly stroked her thumb over his hand.
''Right or left arm?''
"Right." Derek gave another smile, before looking at Addison, giving her hand a light squeeze again."
''Okay.'' She picked up a black pen. Derek could only hope that the spot wasn't ticklish. She looked at the font page and started drawing the name on his arm. ''In black?''
"Yeah, in black." Derek nodded quickly.
''Okay.'' She nodded. ''First tattoo?''
"Yep, is it going to hurt?"
''Nah, on the arm not so much, you're muscled so it should be okay.'' She chuckled.
"Okay, good." Derek grinned, wow she noticed I'm muscled…
''So you guys are married?'' She asked, concentrating on his arm.
"Yeah, 4 years now." Derek nodded, looking at what the tattooist was doing.
''Wow. How old are you?'' She frowned, they looked pretty young.
"23." Derek almost shrugged but then realised he couldn't. "And yeah I know we're young."
''Nah that's cool, just surprising.''
"Yeah?" Derek smiled softly, the spot was ticklish after all.
''Mhm.''
If only she knew they had twins and third one on the way... Derek thought, holding back a smirk.
''Okay, I'm done drawing it.'' She grabbed a mirror and showed it. ''Tell me if there are any changes you want to make or if you want another fond or size.''
"Hmm it looks good, Addie, what do you think?" Derek turned to look at Addison who had stayed surprisingly quiet. She stood up and looked over his shoulder into mirror. ''Yeah that looks great.''
"Yeah?" He smiled and pecked her lips.
''Mhm.''
"Good, here we go then.."
She sat back down on the chair. Derek nodded and took a deep breath. "Yeah, that's what I want." He smiled at his soon-to-be-tattoo.
''Okay.'' She gave him a smile. ''I'll be right back then.''
"Okay." Derek nodded his head and turned to Addison's direction. She looked at him. Derek made a smile before pecking her lips. She rubbed her stomach. Another smile graced his lips as he saw what she was doing. ''Derek I don't feel well.''
"What? Oh don't tell me the morning sickness is kicking in now." He tilted his head to the side. Great timing. She nodded her head, letting out deep breaths. Derek got up from the chair. "I'll ask if there's a restroom here, or a bucket, or something."
''No.'' She shook her head. ''I don't have to throw up I just don't feel well.''
"Honey, are you sure?" He sat back down, brushing her hand with his.
''Yeah.'' She gave him a reassuring smile. He held her hand in his, giving it a light kiss.
Allison walked back in.
"Oh joy, needles."
''I need some water.'' Addison closed her eyes.
"Allison, right? Could you give her some water? The morning sickness is kicking in."
''Morning sickness?'' She frowned.
"Yeah she's pregnant, can you get her some water."
''Pregnant?'' Her eyes lit up. ''Wow, congrats.''
"Thanks, it isn't the first time though. You really might want to give her some water before she vomits on this pretty carpet."
''Uh yeah.'' She went out of the room.
"That was a joyride.." Derek commented, letting his hand brush her arm.
''Not funny.''
"Not fun." He nodded, brushing Addison's cheek with his thumb.
''Oh I'm gonna laugh when that needle is scratching in your skin.''
"Honey I didn't mean anything with my comment. Okay?" He tucked some hair behind her ear.
''I know.''
"Good, good." He placed a tiny kiss on her nose. She smiled. ''I'm still gonna laugh though.'' She said as Allison returned.
"Evil woman." Derek gave her a smile, taking the glass from Allison. "Thank you."
''Welcome.'' She smiled and sat back down. Derek gave the glass to Addison and smiled, leaning back against the chair.
''How long are you pregnant?''
"Almost 4 weeks." Derek answered for Addison, giving the tattooist a smile.
''That's great.''
"Yeah, it is." He gave Addison's hand another squeeze.
''We have two more kids.'' Addison smiled.
''Seriously?''
Derek tried not to laugh at Allison's expression. "Twins."
"Wow…"
"Hmhmm." Derek nodded.
''How old?''
"Hailey and Justin are turning three in few weeks."
''Aww.''
"Yeah, they're amazing. What about you? Any kids?"
''No.'' She shook her head, pulling on new gloves.
"Okay." Derek nodded, looking at the soon-to-be-tattoo on his arm one last time, soon it'd be permanent.
''So I'm gonna ask this one last time. You sure?''
"Yes, I'm sure." Derek nodded.
''Okay.'' She picked up the tattoo machine and started changing the needle.
"Yeah." Derek turned to look at Addison. "Don't you dare to laugh."
Addison captured her bottom lip as not to laugh. ''Wanna hold my hand?''
"Nooo I'm not a baby!"
She rolled her eyes, watching as Allison finished and sat back down on the chair next to Derek. Derek gave her a smile and took a deep breath. "You sure it won't hurt?"
''I hope for you it doesn't.''
"Great." Derek rolled his eyes and took another breath.
''Ready?''
"Yep, ready." Derek nodded his head.
''Okay.'' She brought the needle to his arm. Derek bit his lip, closing his eyes momentarily.
''Does it hurt?'' Addison asked her husband.
"Hmhmm slightly."
She took his hand. He gave it a light squeeze before opening his eye again. She pecked his cheek. He smiled softly before looking at his arm. She looked at it as well.
"Wow, I have a feeling that this won't be fun, if the pain gets worse." Derek looked at the small mark that was made. She held his hand a little tighter.
"Talk to me Addi."
''What do you want me to say?''
"I don't know, talk about anything, about flowers, bunnies, human anatomy, I don't know, anything that will take my mind of this."
''I don't know what to say.'' She placed a kiss on his free shoulder.
"Well tell me about something you've always wanted to talk to me about."
''Uhm... like?''
"Like uhm I don't know, gardening? Chocolate?"
''Chocolate?''
"I don't know really Addi, talk to me about anything, from high heels to chandeliers or whatever."
''Hmm well we have to decorate a nursery...''
"Yeah? What colour would you like? I know you want another girl so..."
''Well lilac maybe? It could go with both.''
"Sounds great, lilac is a pretty colour."
''Yeah.''
"So lilac? You want it to have a lilac theme?"
''Sure or something else, I don't know yet.''
"Yeah, but lilac sounds great." He smiled, not even realising there was a needle on his skin.
''Yeah.'' She nodded.
He pecked her lips gently. "Hmm so... you want to go out with me some day this week?"
''Are you asking me out Mr. Shepherd?''
"I admit that I might be asking you out Mrs. Shepherd..."
''Hmm then I might say yes.''
"Oh yes? Would you like to go out with me Mrs. Shepherd?"
''Yes I would.'' This was so ridiculous.
"Good, then it's a date." Derek gave her a smile.
''Hmm.'' She smiled. Derek pecked her lips again. "You have any place you'd like to go?"
''Uhm... maybe we could go to the pool and go out dining afterwards? Or see a movie?''
"Yeah?" Derek smiled. He would sure add some magic to the evening of theirs. Maybe ride horses or something, or have a picnic at the pool or have fireworks lighting the sky with the words 'Addison I love you'. Nah, maybe nothing that big. Addison smiled at him.
"You know it won't be just a movie and dinner, I never do that." He smiled back to her.
''Then what?''
"I don't know..." I do know, first you wake up with 2 white roses and 3 pink roses. The white ones meaning boys, the pink ones meaning girls. Then you find a cute teddy bear from my pillow with a love letter, then you walk into the kids room, but there's a note on the door, telling you that the kids are at my parents, there's yet another teddy bear in Hailey's crib, I'm sure you'll check it. Then you walk into kitchen though you're not hungry, there's a teddy bear, polar bear to be exact, next to the juice carton...
She pecked his lips.
"Yep, I bet I can think of something." He pecked hers back.
''I believe you.''
"You're supposed to so that's good." He smiled sweetly, giving her hand a light squeeze.
''Does it still hurt?''
"A little but I really don't notice it anymore, I like your voice you know."
She laughed softly at him. He rolled his eyes. "Geez I'm pouring my heart over here and you laugh at me?"
''I wasn't laughing at you.''
He rolled his eyes. "Riiiiiight excuses, excuses."
She smiled at him.
"I love you babe." He pecked her lips.
''I love you too honey.''
He smiled softly and held her hand in his tighter as he felt pain. She softly squeezed his hand as she listened to the zooming of the machine.
"I hate that sound." He wrinkled his nose.
''How's it looking?''
"I hate needles, there's a needle on my skin, you want me to look?" Derek gave Addison a come-on-look. She rolled her eyes. ''And that wants to be a surgeon?''
"Shush, I just hate needles, what's wrong with it?"
''It's like nothing compared to cutting into someone's flesh!''
Derek rolled his eyes. "I know, needles are so much worse."
''You're such a baby.''
"You're such a beauty."
''I know.'' She stuck out her tongue.
"Put that back in or I'll bite." He gave her a look. She scrunched up her nose.
He gave her a sweet smile. "Good girl." She smiled at him.
"Hmm, I can't wait to see the tattoo ready." Derek faced his fears and looked at his arm.
''Well?''
"It looks good." Derek nodded, the tattooist was working on the letter S.
''Honey?''
"Yeah?" Derek looked back to her direction.
''I'm gonna make a call home.''
"Okay, could you say hi from me?"
''Will do.'' She got up.
"Thanks." Derek smiled, turning to look at his tattoo. She sneezed before walking out of the room. Derek furrowed his eyebrows together before focusing on not yelling due to the pain. It felt like ten times worse when she wasn't here which sounded like a cliché but it really wasn't.
About a minute later she returned.
"Oh thank god." He let a sigh of relief escape.
''Missed me?''
"My hand missed yours."
''Aww.''
He gave her a smile, holding out his hand for her. She took his hand in both of hers. He closed his eyes for a moment, trying to block out the sound the machine made.
''You're almost done.''
Derek nodded his head quickly. "Mhmm."
''Sorry for having such a long name.''
"Yeah, I hate you for it." A smile tugged his lips, he still had his eyes closed. She pecked his lips, sitting down. He pecked hers back and gave her hand a soft squeeze. "That was a long phone call you know?"
''Was not.''
"Was too"
''Nope.''
"Yep."
''Shut up or I'll make Allison screw up the N.''
Derek opened his eyes. "Don't you dare to."
Addison grinned.
Derek pecked her lips. "Don't" kiss. "you" kiss. "dare to" a little longer kiss. She softly kissed him back. He bit on her lower lip gently before he pulled back. She gave him a sparkling smile. He smiled back to her and looked at Allison who was doing the finishing touches on his tattoo.
''We're almost done here.'' She announced.
"Thank god..." Derek sighed, brushing Addison's hand with his.
''It looks great.'' Addison said, looking at it.
"Yeah it does." Derek nodded, "I can't wait to see it ready."
''It's gonna to be a little thick and red for a few days though.'' Allison said.
"Yeah?" Derek made a face.
''Yeah but it will be normal after that.''
"Good, good..." Derek smiled, feeling proud of himself for doing this.
''It's done.''
"YAY!" Derek couldn't help but smile at the tattoo, he did it, well technically Allison did but.. yeah whatever.
''It looks really cool.'' Addison inspected his arm.
"Hmm you think so?" Derek grinned, looking at the tattoo as well.
''Yeah, don't you think so?''
"Yeah, it's amazing." Derek smiled widely at the tattoo. Allison smiled at the both of them.
"Thank you Allison." Derek made a smile.
''You're very welcome.'' She smiled back at him, there was nothing wrong with tattooing a shirtless hot guy. Derek grinned and pecked Addison's lips, giving her hand a light squeeze. Slowly he got up from the chair he was sitting on, pecking her lips again. She wrapped her arms around his neck, giving him a soft kiss. He smiled against her lips a little before kissing her back, linking his arms around her waist.
"Hmm." He smiled, sometime later the two of them made their way towards his parents' house, a new experience richer.
''Your dad is gonna hate it.'' Addison chuckled at they walked onto the porch.
"I know, mom might even think it's fine but dad... I don't even want to imagine." He grabbed her by her waist and kissed her. "Once again you got me in trouble Mrs. Shepherd."
''Hmm yeah this time I can't even lie that it was my fault can I?''
"Yep, this time you can't blame it on me." Derek grinned, "Like you did at the age of 16 when you dropped my mom's favourite vase and blamed it on me and my kisses." He gave her a look, he had been grounded for that one.
''You suddenly kissed me, you scared me!''
"Oh yeah right." Derek rolled his eyes. "It wasn't my fault!"
''It so was.''
"It so was not." He rang the door bell. "But you know what is my fault?" Derek grinned and pressed her against the wall, slowly kissing her.
''Derek!'' She tried to push him away before anyone would open the door. He chuckled at her reaction before he simply pecked her lips and pulled back. "Jesus Addi, relax." She hit his chest un-amused. He pecked her lips again, giving her a smile. She rolled her eyes and tried not to smile, failing badly just as the door opened. Derek slowly rubbed his chest before the door opened, it had hurt a little. "Hey dad.."
''Derek.'' Gabriel smiled at his son. Derek smiled back, slightly nervously since he already knew his father's reaction to the tattoo. Gabriel, who didn't know anything of the tattoo opened the door wider so Addison was revealed.
''Boo.'' She joked.
"Don't scare the old guy, he'll get a heart attack." Derek joked, walking past his father into the room.
''Hey!'' Gabriel scolded and let them in.
Derek grinned widely at his father, enjoying these few moments of peace before he'd have to remove his jacket. Addison walked into the living room. Derek soon followed her, not removing his jacket just yet. Addison looked around confused, looking for her children. "Where are Jussie and Hails?" Derek looked around as well. Addison shrugged, walking into the kitchen. Derek started to remove his jacket carefully, avoiding any fast movements.
''Hello?''
"We're outside!" A voice was heard from the patio. She quickly walked trough the kitchen and shoved the glass door open.
"Hey sorry I didn't know you were here." Theresa gave her an apologizing smile, settling Hailey to the floor.
''That's okay.''
"Okay, good. How did it go?" She asked as Hailey wrapped her arms around her mother's leg and Justin waited to be picked up.
''Good I guess.'' She picked Justin up. ''How did everything go here?''
"You guess? And we had some fun." Theresa smiled widely.
''That's good.'' She stroked her son's hair. Justin grinned and wrapped her arms around his mother's neck. She smiled and hugged him. He hugged her back warmly, his arms around her neck tightly and his fingers tickling her upper back.
''He's inside if you want to see him.'' She bent down to give Hailey a kiss.
"Thanks." Theresa got up from the chair, pressing a quick kiss on Addison's cheek. "Good to see you."
''You too.'' She made a small smile. Theresa walked into the living room, leaving her grandchildren with Addison.
''Did you have fun with grandpa and grandma?''
"Yes!" Hailey grinned. "I got to play with my new Barbie!"
''Already?'' She raised her eyebrows.
"Yeah, but grandma told me not to tell." She batted her eyelashes. Addison sighed. Hailey looked at her with a look that would have melted even ice-queen's heart. "Are you mad...?"
''No.''
"Oh, are you mad at Nana..?"
''Honey you don't have to worry about that okay? That's between grandma and me.''
"Oh, okay... but don't yell at Nana... I asked nicely..." Hailey looked rather worried.
''This has nothing to do with you Bug.''
Hailey nodded. "Can I play with my Barbie again?"
''Yeah is the other thing still closed?''
Hailey nodded. "Nana said that she doesn't want anymore trouble and that I should stop making the Derek-Shepherd's-daughter-puppy-eyes..." Hailey screwed her face up in a thought. "What's puppy-eyes?"
Addison let out a chuckle and rolled her eyes. ''Nothing honey.''
"Oh..." Hailey shrugged it off. "I wanna play now!"
''Then go play.''
Hailey grinned, running back into the house. Addison got up from the chair and walked inside. Derek was sitting on the couch, talking to his mother and Justin was sitting on his lap.
''Mom,'' Addison started. ''Can I have a word with you?''
"Yeah sure." Theresa turned to look at her, walking to her direction.
''Thanks.'' Addison walked into the kitchen. Theresa soon followed her into the kitchen. "You want something to drink?"
''No.''
"Okay." Theresa nodded and took one glass from the cupboard.
''Theresa, what did I specifically told you not to do before you went home?'' Addison asked, it was clear she was not amused, she never called her mother-in-law Theresa.
"You told me not to let her open the package." Theresa replied, looking straight into her eyes, feeling Addison's green eyes piercing hers.
''And what did you do?'' She put her hand on her hip.
"She was giving me the eyes!" This was not a reason good enough and she knew it but... she could never resist those eyes.
''I don't care if she did or not!'' This pissed her off even more. ''That's no excuse!''
"I know it's not but that's my reason. I can't resist those eyes. Derek got away from a lot of stuff by just blinking his pretty blue eyes. I'm sorry Addison that I didn't hold onto my promise." She crossed her arms in front of her chest.
''I told my children not to ask you to play with it but they did and I can't blame them because they're two but you're a grown up adult and I expect you to respect it when I specifically tell you something. And if you can't handle to say no to them then tell me now.''
"I can say no to them, but not if they give me the eyes, I can't just not ignore the eyes. I know I should be able to say no, I know that, I really should. But she's my granddaughter Addison, you know I love her and I've always spoiled them. I know it's not good. I'm sorry Addison."
''I know that you love and spoil them but they need to know that no is no because I'm raising them here and they need to learn to listen and they won't when you give them everything they want when they know that I said no.''
"Look, Addison, I'm sorry for doing what I did. I know you're the mother, your word is final, I should have respected your decision."
''Yes you should have and you should be ashamed of telling Hailey to lie to me.''
"Yeah, well obviously she didn't which is good."
''Yeah and she didn't because she simply didn't understand but soon she will. They're smart enough for that, Justin already knows he could get anything done by telling me he hates me and now I let him scream bloody murderer at me and yes, that does still hurt but I won't let him get that kinda grip on me.''
Theresa tilted her head to the side. "I haven't seen him acting like that, I know he's a little angry sometimes but, I didn't know it was that big."
''Well he is.'' The muscles around her mouth twitched as she tried not to flinch. Theresa gave her a sad look. "Really?" None of her children had acted like this, Derek didn't act like this, he was a good kid. But the teenage-part...
''Yes really, do I look like I'm making this up?'' She asked un-intently harsh.
"No need to get hard on me about this, I was just asking, Addison. It was just a question."
''This wasn't why I called you out here so don't.''
"Okay." Theresa shrugged, "Just making sure."
''The point is, when we were looking for some sort of nanny we decided we didn't want that, when I said I was gonna quit med school you told me not to because you would help us out with the kids and I trusted you that you were capable of doing that.''
"I am capable of doing that Addison, this won't happen again, now I know what you want. I'm sorry I broke my promise, it'll never happen again. You don't have to quit med school, I'm still here for you when you need me. I guess I was just slightly distracted by stuff that's been going on." Theresa sighed.
''What stuff?''
"Gabriel." She said simply.
''I'll talk to Derek about other options.'' Addison replied.
"Addison please, you don't need to do that. I can take care of them perfectly well, I just need to talk to Gabriel first."
''No you obviously have enough to deal with in your own life and you're forgetting that I'm pregnant here.''
Theresa looked at her with sad eyes. "The twins are a part of my life, just like you."
''Yeah but you also have your own life and if I was oblivious to your problems then I apologize.''
"Look, I just need to talk to Gabriel, it's nothing, we'll just sort it out. In a month we won't even remember it. Addison look, I can help you with the kids."
''I doubt that.''
"Well you shouldn't."
"But I do, especially with a baby on the way. Of course I'm going to take time off but if I want to go back to school then I need someone who can babysit a few hours a day.''
"Are you telling me you don't trust me as a babysitter?" Theresa looked straight into her eyes. "Addison, what I did today wasn't right, I know it. Don't you think I regret doing it? I can take care of Bug and Jussie, I can do it but if you don't trust me on this one, you don't trust that today I was tired and my judgement sucked because Gabriel kept me up till the midnight, then okay. Then I suggest you get someone else."
''You couldn't today because Gabriel kept you up? Have you got any idea what I go through every day?''
Theresa looked at her. "Addison, no need to yell here, I know it's hard, I know it's not as magical as you thought."
''I never thought is was magical, I never said I did!''
Theresa poured herself a glass of water. "True."
''Well then, don't say I did.''
"Fine, I won't say so." She sipped the water.
''Good.''
"Hmhm." Theresa shrugged and sipped her water once again. "Are we done here?"
''We are.'' Addison turned around and left the kitchen. Theresa sighed, placed the glass on the counter and followed her into the living room.
''We're going.'' Addison looked at her husband.
"Oh, I thought we were staying for dinner." Derek looked a little confused.
''We're not.''
"Okay." He shrugged and got up from the couch, placing Justin on the floor.
''I'm going to get Hailey.'' She simply said. Derek nodded and walked towards the hall with Justin. "Justin say bye bye to grandma and grandpa."
''Bye!'' He nearly yelled. Derek chuckled as Theresa and Gabriel waved their goodbyes. Addison walked back inside with Hailey on her hip. Derek made a small smile and walked into the hall, grabbing Justin's coat.
Without saying anything Addison pulled on Hailey's coat and left. Derek took the bag containing Hailey's Barbie-things and walked out of the house after her. When the door closed Gabriel looked at his wife in confusion. ''What was that all about?''
"Remember that I told you Addison wouldn't like the fact that Hailey opened the package, well I was wrong, she hated it."
''What did she say?''
"Well she said that I'm an adult and I should have respected her decision, which I do but that was a little harsh. She told me that she's raising them and then something about her not thinking that I can help them with the kids."
''Ouch...''
"Yeah." Theresa made a sad look. "I don't know Gabriel, at the moment I just don't know."
''Do you think that you can help them?''
"I think so but first, you and I need to talk."
''Why us?'' He asked confused.
"Uhm well... you've been a little absent. Last night doesn't count."
''I've been busy with work.''
"Well yeah you have but Gab, I feel like you're abandoning me."
''I'm not, I know that I haven't been home much lately but I'm changing right?''
"Yeah, it's a good change but I just needed to get this off my chest."
''Are you and Addison going to be okay?''
She shrugged. "I hope so, she's like a daughter to me."
''She is.''
"Yeah, I don't know what to do Gabby."
''Talk to her.''
"Yeah, tomorrow."
''Are you going over there?''
"Yeah, should I call her tomorrow before I go?"
''I don't know...was she really angry?''
"Well she yelled at me." She crossed her arms in front of her chest.
''I'm just asking.''
"I know you are."
''And you should just be allowed to drop by, Derek is your son.''
"True. So I should just like appear to their doorsteps?"
''Why not?''
"Thank you Gabby."
''Anytime.''
At the same time Derek stopped at the traffic lights. "So, ready to tell me why we left?"
''Why don't you ask your mother that next time?''
"So there's no way you're going to tell me what that was about?"
''I will but not in front of the children.''
"Okay, good" Derek nodded and kept his eyes on the road.
''Yeah.''
"So... you hungry?" He tried to make a conversation.
''No.''
"Okay." Silence fell over them.
''What do you want for dinner?''
"Spaghetti maybe or we could just order in Chinese or something."
"Okay."
"Good." He carried on driving, his eyes glued to the road. Addison sighed, looking out of her window as she tried to keep her emotions in check. Derek placed his other hand over hers and looked at her direction for a short moment, something his mother had said had upset her and he didn't like it, at all. She didn't move her hand away. He gently brushed it, wanting to comfort her anyway possible. She bit on the inside of her cheeks.
He looked into the rear view mirror, both of the kids were fast asleep, thank god. It had been a tiring day for them. "What did my mother say?"
"Nothing"
"Yeah? That's why you're trying not to cry?"
''I'm not trying not to cry.'' She lied.
"Are you making me play the 'I've known you for god knows how many years, I know when you're lying'-card?" Derek gave her hand a squeeze.
''I don't want to talk about it.''
"But you could...talk to me you know."
''I know, but I don't want to.'' Her voice broke. He turned to look at her, "I'm going to ask once more, what did she say?"
''She didn't say anything bad.''
"Okay good, I'm glad she didn't." He squeezed her hand. She didn't move her hand at all. He carried on brushing her hand now. "Want to talk to me about it when we get home?"
She shook her head, her head still turned away to the window. He sighed, keeping his hand exactly where it was. "Okay."
She leaned her head on her hand. Derek's hand continued the movement before he linked his fingers with hers. A sob escaped her tightly shut lips. Derek turned his head to her direction, this was enough for him to pull the car to the side of the road. She didn't move or say anything. "Addison, something's not right, please tell me what it is." He almost begged. She shook her head, gritting her teeth against each other, not to make a sound. He shook his head as well, getting up from the car and taking the keys, closing his door and walking to the passenger's side. He opened Addison's door. "Tell me, please" She turned her head away. ''It's nothing.''
"It's not nothing if you're crying."
''Those are the hormones.''
He tilted his head to the side. "Look at me."
She looked down, shaking her head. He brought up her chin with his thumb. "Addie?"
''What?'' She asked silently, finally looking into his eyes.
"You sure?" He looked back into hers, brushing her cheek with his hand.
''About what?''
"Are you sure it's the hormones or did something upset you?"
She shrugged.
"Yeah? Did something upset you a little?"
''She doesn't respect me.''
"My mom?"
''Yeah.''
"Oh, what makes you think so?"
''I told her specifically not to let Hailey open her Barbie and she did.''
"Yeah? My mom let her open the Barbie?" Derek furrowed his eyebrows together.
''Yeah, I told her not to. And I know what you think, that it's stupid and all but that's not what it's about.''
"This is about her not listening to you and your opinions and wishes?" He nodded.
''Yeah, exactly.''
"Oh, well I'm sure she didn't mean to do it..." Derek didn't know really.
''But she did, she doesn't respect me.''
"I'm sure it's not that, maybe she just couldn't say no to her?" Derek gently brushed her cheek.
''You know what she said, she said she couldn't say no because she had something with Gabriel last night, does she know what we go through every day?''
"She doesn't know what our days are like. Some of them might be great, some are just...horrible. But I love to share them with you, I don't care if you snap at me in the evening because in the end of the day when you lay next to me and I get to wrap my arms around you. I can't wait to get up to see you again."
She looked at him, more tears forming in her eyes.
"Oh great now I made you cry even more." He took her face in his hands.
''Not like that.'' She looked into his eyes. He made a gentle smile and wiped away few tears.
''I love you.''
"I love you too." He pressed his forehead against hers.
''But Der, I don't know if I still want Theresa to always look after them when we're at school.''
"You want to get a new babysitter then?"
''I want to quit school.''
"Oh, well we talked about this earlier, if that's what you want to do then I don't have a word in it, do I?"
''Well you're husband so you do have a word in it but I'm having a baby.''
"I know, it's already hard for you to go to school but with a baby on the way it'd be harder."
''Yeah...''
"But I think we should try a babysitter. You'd have an education, and then you could stay at home as much as you want to." Derek raised his eyebrows. "Just a week or two."
''I don't want a stranger to look after my children.''
"I know, we could ask one of my sisters, I'm sure they don't have anything better to do."
''Nancy is soon to be married, Kathleen is busy with her own school and the twins are too young to look after our twins.''
"Point well noticed. Well my cousin is a nanny."
''I don't know her.''
"Phoebe, you met her at the wedding, dark curly hair, blue eyes..." Pretty much a typical Shepherd.
''I don't remember, sorry.''
"I haven't talked to her for a long time... I wonder how she is." A smile was decorating his face. Addison looked at him.
"Yeah... what was I saying?"
''Something about your cousin Phoebe?''
"Oh yes right well… we could call her."
''I don't know...''
"Look, just try it for a week or something."
''We'll see okay. I just want to go home now, make dinner and go to bed.''
He nodded and placed a kiss on her forehead. "Don't cry Adds, she's not worth that."
''I just wanna go home.''
He nodded again, giving another kiss on her forehead before standing straight.
''Thanks.'' She whispered.
"Anytime." He made a small smile and closed the car door before he walked to his side and got in again.
She leaned her head back against the headrest, closing her eyes. He closed the door and started the car, taking one quick look of her as he started to drive. She wiped away her tears, her eyes still closed. He looked at her again, brushing away a tear he saw, then focused back on driving.
''I'm so tired.''
"You can go straight to bed if you want to, I can take a bread or something." He offered.
''The kids need to eat.''
"I can give them sandwiches, they should be okay with it, we'll have a big breakfast tomorrow then. Okay?"
She shook her head. ''They need dinner.''
He sighed. "Okay then."
She turned her head to check if they were still asleep. Hailey was sucking on her thumb, which she only did when she was asleep. She looked at Justin who was sprawled out in the car seat. There was a smile playing on the little boy's lips as he slept. A small smile was seen on her lips through her sad eyes.
