Ten year old Christina was sitting on her mom's lap after yet another beat down by her father. Her mom was upset and she was trying to comfort her daughter. Stroking her hair she started talking.
"I regret so much but I do not regret you. I just wish I could do more to get you out of this mess. I swear I should have stayed in Tennessee with you and never came here to Mississippi. You know what else I regrets? I regret the fact that my cowboy never knew about you. He is your father not that son of a bitch Barry. I regret not telling him but I didn't want to wreck his marriage. Too much alcohol one night when I was on a business trip. Another thing is you are not the only one of my cowboy's children born in Tennessee," she said stroking her hair.
Christina was tossing and turning in the king sized bed and whimpering softly. Josh woke up and tried to comfort her while she slept. Though she was lost in her past. Remembering things that she had blocked out a long time ago.
Sixteen year old Christina heard her father on the phone screaming at someone and was wondering what all of that was about.
"LISTEN HERE TED I WANT MY FUCKING MONEY. I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE ENOUGH SINCE YOU ARE ROLLING IN THE DOE. I WILL LET IT ALL OUT IF YOU DON'T EVERYTHING. YOU SEE I KNOW ALL ABOUT MY WIFE AND YOUR LITTLE BUDDY BOB. PAY ME TWENTY GRAND OR I WILL GO UP TO MISSOURI AND KILL HIM AND HIS ENTIRE FUCKING FAMILY AND THEN I WILL DRIVE TO CLINTON AND WOOP YOUR ASS AND KILL YOUR SONS. DON'T FUCKING PUSH ME JUST GIVE ME MY FUCKING MONEY THAT I WANT!" Barry screamed into the phone before he slammed it down.
Looking over he saw Christina and grabbed her by the hair and flung her up against the wall. "Who the fuck do you think you are listening to my private conversations you nosey little bitch. I ought to just get rid of you right now because you are worthless. Completely fucking worthless!" Barry yelled before he took off his belt and began beating the hell out of her with it.
Christina was screaming out in pain. Her mom came in and threw herself inbetween her daughter and her husband and took some hits also before Barry stormed off slamming the door on his way out to possibly head to the nearest bar and get drunk.
"Oh Chris I am so sorry. Soo sooo sorry. I swear if it wouldn't cause such a shit storm I would take you out of this abusive enviroment and to St. Louis," she said crying.
"NO STOP NO! WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T YOU TAKE ME TO ST. LOUIS THEN?" Christina screamed out as she woke up and then just started sobbing. Josh pulled her to him but she once again jerked away and Trinity sat down on the bed and hugged the young woman as she just broke sobbing.
"Shit what the fuck was that?" asked Jon as he was trying to wake up.
"Flashback dream. I just don't know how to help her. I just want her to trust me," said Josh as he tried again to hug her but she shied away from him.
"Hey girl whats going on? What is it?" asked Trinity.
"Barry wasn't my dad. That piece of shit who abused me was never my father. I had a dream/flashback/memory of my mom saying that she regretted leaving her cowboy. That was what she described my father as. Her cowboy. She met him on one of her business trips. Though she went on many. Austin, Houston, St. Louis, New Orleans, Knoxville, and New York," said Christina.
"Well maybe we can help you find him. I know that you don't want to think that you belonged to that piece of shit your entire life," said Jon.
"I agree with my brother. Let us try to help you," said Josh as he got close to her but she didn't flinch or anything since he wasn't touching her.
"I don't even know where to look first. He could be anywhere. Especially Texas since Cowboys and Texas go together. I just want to focus on my career. I want to forget the past," said Christina.
"Well obviously you cant just let it go since you keep on having flashbacks. Baby just let us be there for you and help you out," said Josh as he tried to put another arm around her and she shoved him away.
Josh was getting frustrated and he had a quick temper. Unlike his twin brother he went off easily and it was rare for Jon to. Though Jon lost it once on Total Divas when he threw the glass and stormed out the door.
"DAMMIT FUCKING STOP PUSHING ME AWAY! I JUST WANT TO HOLD YOU BUT ACT LIKE YOU WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH ME!" Josh exploded.
"You outside right now. What the fuck bro she is on edge and scared with her past returning to her and here you are throwing a hissy fit and scaring the shit out of her. I should just beat your ass," Jon fired at his little brother.
"You boys go somewhere and cool off. Your fighting is scaring Chris also. I am going to call the girls and we are going to head to breakfast and then relax in the hotel pool and hot tub since she can't hit the gym till her ankle is heeled," said Trinity.
Josh said nothing and just grabbed his gym bag and stormed out. Jon just shook his head and then looked at the two women and said, "Sorry about him. He was always the hot head of the two of this. I will calm him down. Oh Chris I know he goes off and had a quick temper that can go off at the drop of a hat but I must stress that he would never ever hurt you. A wall might get punched or something might get thrown and of course cussing and yelling, but he would never hurt you in anyway," he added.
"I know I just…Ugh my past is making it hard for move on from it. Its like the only part of my future that I am not afraid of is getting into the WWE and going to wrestling school," said Christina.
"Us women will work you through it, just give it some time and try not to flinch away from Josh. Just maybe lean into him and try to get used to his affection. He is just like Jon a very affectionate man," said Trinity.
Twenty minutes later Christina and Trinity met Natalya, Eva, Brianna, Nicole, and one of the newest members to the cast. Melina Roucka aka Rosa Mendez. "Well its about time you showed up guys. I'm starving," said Nicole.
"John keep you up all night?" Trinity joked.
"Oh hush I don't want to hear about my sister's sex life," said Brianna.
"I'm going to get some food from the buffet," said Christina as she got up.
"Okay," said Trinity. When she was out of earshot she turned to the others. "I am really worried about her. She is having more and more flashbacks and she also remembered that Barry wasn't her father. Some guy her mom used to refer as cowboy is. It also doesn't help that she is so skittish she shies away from Josh's attempts of affection and now he is getting pissed about it. He blew up at her this morning and scared the living shit out of her," she told them all.
"Maybe she needs some therapy. Plus maybe take a chance and find out where and who this cowboy is, if indeed that's her father. Maybe having a healthy father daughter relationship will help her open up to Josh," said Brianna.
"I agree and plus it will show her what a man is supposed to be like and nothing like the shit that she grew up with," said Eva.
"Well problem is we have no idea where to look for the guy. She named off a lot of places where her mom went off to on business trips," said Trinity.
"Wow that is tough. Sounds like a needle in a haystack to me," said Natalya.
"Wait a minute! When she woke up screaming she was yelling out 'why the hell didn't you take me to St. Louis then if you knew it would be better' Maybe the next time we are in St. Louis we could start there," said Trinity.
"It's a start," said Natalya.
A/N: Josh certainly lost it. I think its helping being around the Total Divas cast somewhat. Think they should look around in St. Louis? Please review!
