Guess who's POV. (fyi it's Nico's)
People usually think of me as a pretty calm guy. Stoic, emotionless, cold hearted or at least people other than my friends do. I fear my reputation would be ruined if anyone saw me right now. Sitting at my desk rapidly typing up notes on clients my breath uneven, coming in sharp intakes of air. No, I wasn't having a panic attack. Well...not really.
I've been jumpy the whole day ever since I texted will back "okay". Why did I ever let him read that? Why was I so careless when I hiding it? He should have never had the chance to get suspicious in the first place. I used to be so good at hiding my feelings and emotions and well, anything really. Then I just decided to go ahead and lay everything down on the table, literally. All my secrets that I wrote down, every word, every emotion I ever hid from people. Details about every single bad day I'd had. Things that terrified me that I was too scared or ashamed to tell people about. And I just let him see it….gods I'm an idiot.
Sighing I close my laptop and tuck it away into my bag. There's no way I'm gonna be able to focus on anything right now.
Stepping out of my office I close the door softly behind me as to not disturb any of my co workers and walk out of the building. My feet leading me absentmindedly to the one place I actually wanted to be right now.
McDonald's.
This is one thing I plan on never telling Will. He'd flip if he found out I went to McDonald's again after I'd just recently gotten over my unhealthy obsession with it...or so he thinks.
Now of course I'm smart enough not to go here all the time like I used to or else it would clearly show when it came time to pay the rent but I did indulge myself once a week. Usually getting a happy meal, tossing the apples they put in there(I COME HERE BECAUSE IT'S UNHEALTHY, DON'T DISAPPOINT ME MCDONALD'S!!!)and just eating the burger and fries along with some form of coffee.
Sadly, today there is a person I've never seen before behind the counter so I have to actually say my order instead of saying what I always say, 'I'll have the usual'.
"That'll be $9.86 sir." (Lol I don't know the real amount, just picked a random number)
I sighed and handed him a ten. Ever since they started adding those dam apples the price has gone up which is very annoying since I don't even eat them.
A few minutes later my change is in my pocket and a happy meal and drink are sitting on the table of the booth I'm currently in. Nothing like a happy meal to boost your mood.
The chill from the window makes me cold but the hot fries and burger soon warm me up. Maybe today will be better than I thought.
~Time Skip~
I took my time getting home, taking occasional breaks in my walk back to the apartment to step inside a small store and look around or admire an art stand. There were many of them scattered around the city as the city art contest was coming up. Which Will had been pressing for me to enter in. Speaking of Will…
I could no longer prevent the inevitable. Grabbing my keys out of my bag I slowly put them into the keyhole and turned slipping in quietly and pulling out my keys before shutting the door softly behind me.
"Hey Nico." I squealed and jumped, much to my embarrassment.
"Holy shit! You scared me." He chuckled and walked up to me, I gulped but he just kissed me and pulled me into his chest.
"What took you so long getting home?" I shrugged.
"It was a late day and I didn't feel like going home and sitting in the apartment doing more paperwork so I went to the park for a bit to relax and get some fresh air."
He hums, "So you weren't avoiding me?"
"No…" I take my bag off my shoulders and drop it on the couch in the living room and settle down to watch some TV.
"Nico." I ignore him.
"Nico this isn't healthy. Look at me. We need to talk about this." He sighs and steps in front of the TV blocking my view.
"You can't just let me know that kind of stuff then expect everything to go back to normal. You can trust me Nico. I thought you knew that." I can feel myself closing further and further in on myself.
I hate conversations like this. This is what I was trying to avoid, this is why I closed myself off all those years. This was why I was so hesitant to start a real relationship with anyone, even Will.
"I do trust you."
"Then why didn't you tell me all of this?! Why, Why did you feel the need to keep all this stuff secret?! Nico talk to me! I don't understand," he exclaimed. I flinched back as his voice got louder and louder till he was almost yelling.
"I'm sorry. I'm just no good at talking about my feelings and--"
"Gods Nico! I already know that but I thought we were finally making some sort of break through! I thought I'd finally gotten through to you!" He lowers his voice, "And then I find out about all this...I just...I'm not angry. I swear I'm not, I'm glad you finally confided in me, I would have been happier if you'd told me earlier or at least told me in person about this but it's okay. I'm just disappointed that you thought you needed to keep this from me. I'm your husband Nico, I want to be there to help you on rough days. I want to know your fears so I can be there for you when you're scared. And Nico, everybody has weaknesses. Even you ghost king, don't be embarrassed by it, okay?"
I nodded and walked into his arms. "I know and I'm sorry Will...I thought about telling you but then I kept talking myself out of it. Talking about things like this makes me nervous. That's why I left work early and went around walking to random places. I knew we were going to talk and….and it scared me. I couldn't focus. This is hard."
He hugged me tighter, "Thanks for telling me that Nico. From now on promise you'll try your hardest not to hide things from me, please?"
I nodded, "I promise...unless of course it's like a surprise party or something." He chuckled softly.
"Yeah, in that case it would be fine." I nodded and pulled out of his embrace, heading towards our bedroom. "Oh, and Nico," I paused and looked back at him.
"Yeah?"
"Don't think we're not going to talk about what I read. We've only had a small part of the conversation." I sighed, this should be fun...
