Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Inuyasha, or Missy Higgins and the song 'Where I stood' no matter how much I want to.
Last time 'Glad that she wouldn't have to explain to her daughter why her precious Sesshomaru wasn't at her side yet. She was pleased that her plan had succeeded; Inutashio had called and said that Sesshomaru thought that Kagome was dead. She now did not have to worry about her daughter's heart being broken by some cold, heartless demon that cared nothing for her…'
The whole chapter is normal POV.
Kagome
I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But
something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
After the accident, Kagome woke up in a room that didn't look familiar at all. The one at the hospital wasn't this color green, and neither was her bedroom. She had no idea where she was, and the fact that she woke up alone put her into a panic. She didn't know if she should scream for help or just go back to sleep and hope that this was just a nightmare and she'd wake up soon with Sesshomaru by her side holding her hand. "Relax Kagome, dear. You're safe; I had you transferred to a new hospital closer to the shrine so it'd be easier to get to you." Her mother spoke noticing that she was awake finally.
"Oh, where is Sesshomaru?" she replied slowly.
"He's gone honey. I'm sorry."
"What? Gone…how? Why? What did you do?! You sent him away didn't you?! You just couldn't stand to see me happy so you sent him away!!"
"Kagome, you will not speak to your mother that way. Now calm down."
"I have nothing more to say to you. I want to be alone, please go." Kagome was cold, and glared at her mother as she got up and left her alone in a room she didn't know. 'Sesshomaru…please come back. I don't want you to leave. Don't listen to my mother.' She silently wished. Closing her eyes she drifted off to sleep.
Kagome left the hospital 3 days later, and went to the shrine with her mother and the rest of her family, she eventually forgave her mother but she was cold, silent, and indifferent to everyone. She never went back to work and took up to studying all the time at the library by her self. She spent as much time as she could away from the shrine and any place where she might find something that reminded her of Sesshomaru and the fight that ended their relations. It's been five years since the accident, and Kagome is just out of college.
There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That I
should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening
"So…now that you've graduated what are you going to do?"
"I don't know Sango, travel maybe? Yeah I think I'll travel, maybe I'll come see you and Miroku for a while in California."
"Oh! Kagome you totally should! You'll absolutely adore the weather!!" Sango squealed into the phone. "I think you need a break. You've worked so hard these past 4 years; maybe you should just take a break from life. I know you're still hung up on Sesshomaru, but it's time for you to let him go."
"You're right…if he was coming back he would have by now." Her face fell slightly, remembering all the time they had spent together. It seemed just like yesterday that they were racing at the beach, having fun, dancing at the ball. But after that everything goes blank and she can't remember a thing. She chooses not to remember.
"Don't be like that Kagome. I know that he loved you, I saw it in his eyes every time he'd look at you."
"Why Sango? Then why did he leave me?!"
"I don't know Kagome…I don't know."
"I have to go; I'll plan my trip soon…gotta take care of some business before I leave."
"Okay, bye." Kagome hung up. Walking to the door of her apartment, she grabbed a coat, her keys and an umbrella, it was raining again. It always rained when she thought about Sesshomaru, making it seem like the gods were crying for her since she wouldn't cry anymore; she stopped crying a long time ago. Back when she realized that he wasn't coming back for her…that he wasn't just giving her some space to spend time with her family and to regain her strength. No, she gave up that dream long ago.
Not realizing it she had been walking unconsciously for about 10 minutes and was at the park they used to visit. She sat down under the tree; her favorite spot. Her eyes slid closed as she smelled the wet grass and listened to the steady beat of rain on sidewalks and pavement. She was so caught up in the sounds and trying to relax and push Sesshomaru into the back of her mind again that she had let her guard down slightly and never noticed the man walk up to her. "Excuse me, miss, are you alright?" a deep smooth voice asked with concern tingeing it.
Her eyes snapped open. "Oh, yes I'm fine. Just enjoying the rain." Looking at the man he had brown hair that was pulled back in to a ponytail at the nape of his neck, his eyes were such a rich shade of brown that they could have been confused for red.
"You know if you stay out here you'll catch a cold. Can I convince you to come get some coffee with me?"
She was shocked at his forwardness. "But you don't even know me, I could be some crazy chick who sits out in the rain waiting for some man to come up and ask if she's alright and then kill him."
"I suppose you could be that kind of person, but you look to nice to do something like that. I'm Naraku by the way."
Getting up she looked up accepting his outstretched hand, shaking it. "Nice to meet you, Naraku."
"I didn't catch your name…"
"Well, that would be because I didn't give It." she walked away, after his initial shock of her answer wore off, he followed behind her like a lost love-sick puppy. After that Kagome was happier than she had been in years. Naraku had started to show her the life she had almost forgotten. She started to feel warm again, and Sesshomaru showed up in her dreams less and less, she didn't think about him as much. Everything was perfect in her world.
'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know
is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand
upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you
more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
A few months went by and Kagome finally decided that it was time for her to go and visit Sango since she hadn't seen her since her and Miroku's wedding. That's when things went wrong. Naraku didn't like the idea of Kagome travelling alone, and demanded that he go with her, when she said no he was furious. He had slapped her face telling her that she would let him go or she would not go at all. Walking away and telling him the he had no right to tell her what to do he ran to her and slammed her into the wall, she was knocked out. A few hours later she woke up and she was in bed, her wrists were tied together on the headboard. Her head was throbbing, and there was a strange ringing in her ears; the room was dark, the clock was blinking 3:30 am in bright red numbers. "Are you ready to cooperate, love?" Naraku said, he was leaning on the door frame. She didn't answer, just stared at him. "Fine, then you give me no choice. You cannot go and you will not leave this apartment until I am sure that I can trust you not to leave while I am gone. You will stay tied to that bed for days if it comes to that."
"Alright, I'll stay in Tokyo. I won't leave without you." He smiled, and walked to her; grabbing her face in his hands he forced a kiss.
"Very wise choice my dear." He proceeded to untie her. "I'm sending you the spa for the weekend, you'll be quite sore after the passionate evening we had. They can also get rid of some of those horrible bruises from you trying to fight." She shrunk back into her mind in horror. He had raped her; thinking about it, images of the fight she put up came rushing into her mind. It was so horrible that anyone else would have been crying their eyes out, but she was Kagome. She couldn't cry. Her virginity was important to her, she wanted to save it until she married, but now that was down the drain. Hearing bumping around and rustling she looked up; Naraku was packing a duffle bag with her stuff. "Get up, we're leaving now." She looked at the clock, time had passed quickly for it was now 6 in the morning, but she couldn't tell because there was no light shining through the drapery. It was raining again.
Naraku dropped her off at the spa and left her there thinking she would just walk in and check in at the front desk. She almost did, until she realized that she wasn't about to deal with an abusive man who acted like a child not accepting the answer no. She took her cell phone out and turned it off; she wouldn't be using it anymore. Noticing the atm sign by the door of the spa she took out her bank card, and the spending card Naraku had given her; she emptied them of all the money. She wasn't as dumb as a lot of people thought she was, they thought she wouldn't know how to save herself if ever put into her current situation. Obviously they were wrong.
Now she walked into the spa asking the receptionist to call a taxi; it was there 10 minutes later. Getting in she told the driver to take her to the airport; using a false name she paid for a plane ticket to America, she was finally going back to California. She boarded the plane and hour later and started her journey to visit Sango. She would have to tell her family about her leaving later. She first had to make sure she was out of the hands of Naraku.
See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or
it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think
I am just as torn inside
Sesshomaru
Sesshomaru went to work for his father in the mainland as he was told. He stayed there for five years, all the while thinking Kagome was dead, the warmth she had given him disappeared and he was cold to everyone once again. He became a workaholic, so that it was impossible for his mind to stray to her. He'd have a glass of bourbon every now and then whenever he did start to think of her. Everyone was worried about him, his brother stopped hating him out of pity for the fact that he knew Kagome was still alive and that he saw her often but was not allowed to tell, and his father just had to stay away for the fact that he had to send him away so that she could live her life the way her mother had wanted.
Inutashio handed the reigns over to Sesshomaru five years after Kagome's "death" in hopes that he would go back to Tokyo and happen upon her one day since she walked by the office building often, seeming to look for signs of him being around; he never did. He decided to stay on the mainland. Everyone wanted to tell the youkai that his love was still alive, that it was all just the horrible scheming of her mother; but they didn't for fear of what he might do to them in his fury of being lied to.
A phone rang. "Sesshomaru Tashio's office, how may I help you?" his secretary answered.
"This is his father; I need to speak with Sesshomaru immediately."
"Yes sir." The young girl replied, and passed him through to Sesshomaru's direct phone line.
"Father."
"Ah hello son, cold as always I see."
"What do you want?"
"What every father wants…for his firstborn to find a mate and give me some grandchildren to spoil, of course; but since I won't be getting that anytime soon I would like you to come visit your family for a week. I have something I need you to do for me. I cannot give you details over the phone so we must discuss this in person. I'll see you tomorrow evening at 6:30 for dinner, don't be late. Goodbye." The line went dead. Sesshomaru slammed the phone down on the receiver, fuming that his father had once again hung up on him. It was 5 now; the building was starting to pack up, even his ridiculously paid, over worked secretary who didn't leave until 7 was getting restless. He wouldn't be leaving until much later though, the lights in his office were always the last to go out, and he was always the last one out of the building other than the security guard who was posted at the front desk of the massive office building.
Lost in his paper work, Sesshomaru never noticed the young woman come into his office quietly, closing the door behind her. She was wearing a tan trench coat, no doubt she had very interesting garments underneath it, that would leave little to the imagination, but he didn't even give her a second glance. This woman had been trying to get him since he came to the mainland. She would come to his office late in the evening every night, every night she would leave unsuccessful and unsatisfied. Tonight it seemed she wouldn't be going away as easily though. "Sesshy…" she said seductively.
"Woman." Really he saw no reason in calling her this though. She was just out of high school; barely even able to drink. "I suggest you leave, I am in no mood to deal with you nor do I have the time." She huffed and walked out slamming the door.
'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I
know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another
hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love
you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Sniffing the air slightly as he walked in the door, he immediately smelled Izayoi, his father, half brother, and a scent that he recognized from long ago but couldn't quite place who it was. "Sir, you're family is waiting for you in the study. You have a visitor." The servant bowed and walked away. Sesshomaru continued to the study and walked in the door glancing at his family and the woman whose scent he had recognized. He was immediately sent into rage and stormed out of the office without saying anything and walking up the room he normally stayed in when he visited. He was greeted by a picture of Kagome when he entered, in a very un-Sesshomaru-like manner, he flopped onto his bed closing his eyes. A small knock on the door, it was Izayoi.
"Yes?" he said warily as she opened the door.
"Hmm…Sesshomaru, I know that we do not speak often, but you know that she wouldn't have come if it wasn't important. And I know you're still hurting, and I understand if you don't want to speak with her, but please give the woman a chance…she's worried sick—" She was cut off.
"About whom, her precious daughter who died years ago, did she finally start caring about someone other than herself? Or does she wish to blame me for what happened, since she never got the chance to earlier?"
"Sesshomaru! Be respectful!"
"Hn." He mumbled as he got up off his bed and pushed past Izayoi, walking down the hall back into the study walking straight towards none other than Sakura Higurashi. "What do you want from this Sesshomaru?" he demanded.
"It's Kagome."
"She's dead." She looked shocked by his harsh tone, but then realized her mistake in where she started her story.
"No, she's not. She's alive and well…at least I hope she is."
His father butt in, "Sesshomaru, Kagome is alive. She always was, but at the request of her mother we had to make you leave the country so she could recover and go back to having a normal life. Obviously that plan backfired." He stared harshly at Mrs. Higurashi.
And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should
call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But
you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what
I have to do
Sesshomaru's gut swelled with hope, Kagome was alive; still out there. He had to find her, and then something struck him. "What do you mean you hope she is well?" he was looking directly at Mrs. Higurashi.
"I mean that a couple days ago she went missing. I've tried calling her apartment, cell phone, and her boyfriend's office." Sesshomaru's eyes started to bleed red; she had a boyfriend; found another to love her. "At first I thought he was great for her, he was kind and gentle. But then he became violent, she thinks I didn't notice but I notice everything…"
"You didn't interfere though." He stated plainly.
"No, I thought that it would've made her unhappy. I learned after the accident what my interference could do. I saw it unfold in front of my eyes, I never want to see my Kagome go through that kind of pain again."
"So you'd rather see her be beaten to death?! You would rather kill her than make her unhappy?!" he was furious at the stupidity of Kagome's mother; how she had failed her twice now.
"Sesshomaru," Izayoi now spoke up, "We believe that should Kagome still be alive and not in the hands of her boyfriend, then she's in America. Please, go and find her. You're the only one who could possibly find her, and save her from him."
Think for a moment and realizing that this to be his only chance, he agreed. "I'll leave tonight"
"Well done, my boy. I knew we could count on you!"
"Father, do not think you are out of trouble so easily. You all still lied to me." With that he walked out and started packing and making phone calls in order to find Kagome.
'Cos I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I
know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another
hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love
you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh,
she who dares to stand where I stood
A/n: Okay this is it! Rate and review. Give me some ideas on when and how you all think Sesshomaru should find Kagome. Oh and I posted this one a bit late cause I got stuck on Sesshomaru's part, but I pulled through. Spring break is over now, so I'm thinking one update about once a week, because this quarter I have to get amazing grades. Ciao!
