Just Tell me
Chapter 6
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"Casey." he sighed out. Casey just listened intently. "I want to kiss you so bad." he said in an inaudible whisper. He then tilted his head so Casey couldn't fully see his eyes. "But I can't and…it's not fair."
"There." Casey said smiling. "I kissed you."
XOXO
Casey had the pen on the paper and was attempting a taking notes. She tried so hard to make it look like she was concentrating on that. Tristan was doing the same thing. The two sneaking glances at each other whenever the opportunity was available, then turning away when the other looked up.
It went on that way all night. Along with Casey AND Tristan's guilt. Finally, the librarian came over to the table in the back to inform them that the library was about to close. So, they packed it up and Tristan walked Casey to her door.
"Uh…goodnight, I guess." Tristan said awkwardly.
"Yeah…"
As they both slowly leaned in, Casey's dorm door flew open and the two flew apart.
"Casey." Veronica said happily. "Tristan." she said annoyingly.
"Night V." Tristan said turning around on his heel and leaving the hall.
"Get in here!" Veronica said pulling on Casey's arm and closing the door.
"I'm gonna get an earful aren't I?" Casey asked sitting down on her bed.
"Casey, Casey, Casey!"
Casey shut her eyes and tilted her head down.
"You were about to kiss my brother!"
Casey looked up slowly and cowardly.
"Oh. My. God!" Veronica said loudly.
"I know! I know! I already feel so bad about it and I want to tell Derek so bad, tell him how things got out of hand, but after that he'll never trust me again and everything will be ruined. I have never felt more guilty than I do right this second, and I never EVER wanted to change the past more than I do right now. And I have never had strong feelings like this for two different guys."
"Casey, you and my brother…cheated."
Casey threw her head in her hands and grrr-ed loudly. Nobody talked for a couple minutes and finally Veronica's voice broke the silence again.
"Listen, Casey. I'm sorry. But I can't stand seeing things like this happen since it happened to me and it happened to my brother. Obviously he doesn't care since he is doing the exact same thing that his best friend did to him. It's called Karma. And one day when I get a car, I am going to hit him with my Car-ma."
Casey looked up and smiled. Tear stained cheeks.
"We're only human and people make mistakes. You'll always be my sister. Though." Veronica said going over and hugging Casey."
"Thanks. And your right. It's time to set things straight."
XOXO
Next Morning
There were twenty knocks on Derek's dorm door. Finally someone got out of bed and went and answered the door.
"Casey?" Derek asked. He was all drowsy, hair mangled, in his boxers and a white T-shirt.
She went in the room threw her arms around his neck.
"Oh, Derek!" she said. He hugged her back.
"Casey, what is it? Is everything okay?"
"No." she said deeply. "I did something bad, Derek."
XOXO
"Please say something." Casey said in a quiet voice. She sat next to Derek on his bed as he sat with his gaze to the floor.
"What can I honestly say, Casey?" she didn't say anything. "How about you tell me what you want me to say. Maybe that would make you feel better about yourself."
"Derek. Don't." she said shaking her head slowly.
"Casey. I can't believe what you did."
"It's not like I slept with him, Derek. It was one kiss. One tiny 2 second peck. I swear. And you've been with two girls at the same time before. I remember that. Lucy and Kendra."
"Uh, one I never kissed Lucy while I was dating Kendra. I simply hung out with her one night."
"Oh, sure. It's never a problem, when it is about you. You are the exception to every rule. Is that correct, Derek?"
"Hey! Don't you dare turn this around and make me look like the bad guy."
The two started lightly bickering.
"This isn't solving anything." Casey yelled.
They both took a deep breath.
"Casey…" Derek sighed again. "Maybe we should…take a break."
"Derek." Casey said as her throat made it hard for her to talk normally. "No. Please anything but that. Please I promise you that it will never, ever happen again." she said letting the tears come rolling down.
"Casey, I know that I'm not the only one that feels like were distant anymore. Everything is awkward and strained and I think we need to check out new scenery until we realize what it is we really want."
"The one time you choose to be deep, Derek." Casey said trying to wipe away the tears.
He didn't say anything.
"Alright." she said. "I guess…I'll see you around." As she headed for the door the tears came even harder and Casey had to get out of there quickly before she made it worse.
XOXO
1 Week Later
"Okay, so you really want to hear it? I mean I think that it will just make you feel worse Veronica said as Casey and her sat in the large cafeteria eating.
"Just spill." Casey said sighing as she picked at her chicken tenders.
"Okay, so I heard from Tristan that when he got home from class that day, Derek didn't even ask Tristan to move out or didn't even want to get reassigned. Tristan told me that Derek is never there when he is and when they are there, Derek acts like nothing is wrong but doesn't casually talk to him like usual. Derek seems really…broken at everything."
"Well, he is the one that broke up with me." Casey said pointing that out.
"Well, honestly can you blame him?"
"Yes!" Casey said irritated. "With Derek, it's Do as I say, not as I do."
"Oh, look there he is now!" Veronica said pointing to Derek who was walking out of the lunch line with a tray of food. He went over and met Ralph and 2 other guys at a table and sat down with them.
"I better go. Don't want to be late for class."
"But we just got here." Veronica said.
"Sorry." Casey got up, dumped her tray and started leaving. Veronica sighed and got up. She walked over to Derek table and stood there with her hands at her hips. All the guys looked up at her but her gaze was right on Derek.
"I need to talk you." she said hard.
Derek sighed and got up. She led him over to the vacant salad bar.
"Derek. Casey has gone insane. I can't take it anymore. She is not the same person she was when I first met her. She is always in our dorm room and she never goes out. She wont even talk to Tristan anymore because she feels so bad. She didn't know how good she had it until she lost it. Please talk to her or something."
"She's that bad?" he asked surprised.
"Derek, you don't even know the half of it."
"Veronica, there's nothing I can do."
He started turning around.
"Is that it?" she asked harsh.
He turned his head to look at her.
"Are you really just gonna let her suffer? She told me how hard it was for you guys to get together and how you had to sneak around just so you wouldn't get caught. I can't believe that you are juts going to throw that all away." she glared at him. "You are not they guy that I thought you were." she said before walking away in a quick pace.
Derek ran a hand through his hair and walked back to his table.
XOXO
"Casey! Casey!" yelled Tristan. Casey saw him and turned around last minute and started walking the way she came. "Casey, please don't ignore me." he said running to catch up with her.
"Tristan, not now." she said trying to be polite.
"Then when? God, Casey I haven't talked to you in a week and when I try to, you walk away like now."
"Tristan, please." she said trying to quicken her pace. Tristan grabbed her arm forcefully and she turned around.
"Casey, I have never felt this way about anyone before and even though you are ignoring me, it drives me insane that I have never been more attracted to you." he said looking her straight in the eye. "I am not just going to let you go when I know that you feel it too. I am so sick of people playing games with my head."
Casey's face softened.
"I am going to come to your dorm tonight and I am going to ask if you want to come with me and have dinner. I hope you'll say yes because I'm bringing flowers." he said and then let her go and walked away.
XOXO
"Do I look alright?" Casey asked Veronica.
"Darlin, you look gorgeous!" she said with an accent.
"Really?"
"Absolutely!"
"Awe, thanks."
There was a knock on Casey's door.
"I'll get it!" Veronica said getting off her computer chair and going and answering the door.
"Tristan, you brought Daisies? Well that's a knock off." Veronica said. Casey laughed and looked at Tristan standing in the doorway wearing a pair of jeans and a white button up shirt that had the top few bottoms unlatched and the long sleeves rolled up to his elbows. He shut the door and walked in.
Daisies were…Dasey's flower.
"You look amazing." he said handing the flowers to Casey. They were white.
"Thanks, they're beautiful." she said faking a smile. "Veronica, can you out these in a vase for me?" she asked.
"Sure. You two have fun tonight." she said.
Tristan opened the door so the two could walk out and standing right outside the door was Derek with his hand in knock on door form. As soon as he saw the two his hand dropped to his side.
Derek looked at Tristan and then looked at Casey and then turned away and walked down the hall.
That was the last time she actually saw him till Christmas Vacation.
XOXO
3 months later
"Hey, Sweetie." Casey said kissing Tristan as she met him in the Journalism class.
"Tonight. You and me, La Bistro, then a movie?" he asked putting his arm around her.
"I can do the dinner, but I still need to pack. Sage is picking me up at 7:15 tomorrow and were driving to Ontario."
"I hate the fact that we have to spend Christmas apart."
"I know and I want you to meet my family but they…"
"What?" he asked curious.
"They, uh…they don't know about you, yet." she said biting her lip.
"They don't know about me?"
"I'm sorry, but I was going to tell them when I get there so that they can hear it from me personally and not on the phone."
"You know if I didn't love you as much as I do, I would be complaining much worse." he said pecking her on the lips.
"Another reason I love you." she said.
In Casey's mind she knew exactly why she couldn't bring Tristan home. Tristan would see Derek there. He would see her mom and step dad calling Derek there son. His own room in the house and family pictures on the wall. He would know that Derek was more than just a boyfriend.
A/N-I am a cruel evil writer who loves cliffhangers only if she writes them. Please review if you want to see more Dasey in the future. As I was writing this chapter though, I was watching Tristan and Isolde. God, I would love me some Tristan…ohh la la James Franco. I also wouldn't mine having my Tristan…ohh la la Michael Steger.
