Words I Couldn't Say

What do I do, What do I say
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldn't say

Chapter 9: Coming Home

Disclaimer: I don't know any of the charters of Rizzoli and Isles wish I did but I don't

It had a long almost four weeks that Maura had been in the hospital fighting for her life. The last three weeks were the worst for Jane watching Maura suffer but in all get better. Jane finally was able to tell Maura all the words that she felt she would never be able to say to her. Jane only wished that it had not taken Maura to get so ill to finally come out of the shell she had placed herself in for five years and admit the truth she was lost without Maura. Her life consisted of work and goes home nothing more and nothing less. It was now time for Maura to go home finally she was well again. Jane realized that Maura going home they would defiantly have to talk about things and how their lives would be from now on. Jane drives Maura's car to the hospital to pick her up. She says to herself before entering the hospital it's now or never Rizzoli. Jane knocks on Maura's hospital room door and hears a soft come in and enters the room.

Jane: Hi, Maur it's the big day you finally get to bust out of here and go home. Are you excited?

Maura: Oh yes Jane I am really ready to go home and sleep in my bed after an entire month in this old hospital bed. Maura offered up a small sad smile.

Jane: you know honey I think I need to see more of your teeth for a big smile don't you think.

Maura begins to cry and Jane hurries over to her to find out what's wrong.

Jane: Come on baby I know you are not crying because you are getting out of here. What's the matter sweetie?

Maura: J..J..Jane, I am sorry but I just can't seem to get a hold of my emotions these days.

Jane: Its ok baby I understand just tell me what is wrong OK.

Maura: It is just that I have been thinking so much and I am just overwhelmed with my thoughts. I am just so scared Jane.

Jane: what are you scared Maura?

Maura: Of you she says quickly and cries even more.

Jane: Maura scared of me why baby you are confusing me here?

Maura: I am scared that now that I am better now that I am better you are going to leave me again and I don't want to be alone anymore Jane. I missed you so much Jane. I love you Jane. Please don't leave me.

Jane: Maura look at me. Jane puts her hands to Maura's cheeks and runs her fingers over them. Maura I Love You Ok I have never in my life loved anyone as much as I do you. We have been separated for five years due to both of us being foolish and that was too long. I cannot even think of not having you in my life. I know we have things that we have to discuss and things to work out Maura but don't you ever think I am going to leave you out. Whatever I have to do to prove to you that it is not going to happen I will Ok. Now stop crying today is a good day you are going home Ok.

Maura: Through the tears whispers OK Jane.

An hour later Jane, Maura and Constance are on their way to Maura's place as she is finally well enough to go home. The drive proved to be tiring for Maura as she fall asleep on Constance's lap. Constance looks at both of the girls and begins to smile at how happy Maura now is going to be with Jane at her side.

Constance: Jane before we get to the house I want to tell you that I have a bit of a surprise for you. You have to wait until we get there to see what it is. Constance says with a smile.

Finally arriving at Maura's home Jane could not help but wonder what the surprise from Constance. Jane was anxious to get inside and see what it was. Jane gently woke Maura and lifted her out of the car and carried her to the door. Jane was in shock when they came to the door and opened it to see Angela Rizzoli opening the door with a smile.

Jane: Ma Well, this is a surprise.

Angela: Janie how are you. Oh Maura sweetie look at you baby.

Maura: Hi Angela she said with a smile and tears.

Angela: Oh honey come here don't cry. Let me look at you. Oh Maura you are so little honey let Mama Rizzoli fatten you up some.

Constance: Alright girls let's get inside because I believe I smell some of Angela's wonderful cooking.

Jane: Ma I know you have not seen Maura in a long time but I think I need to put her to bed the Doctor still wants her on bed rest for at least another week or so. Let her rest for a few hours then she can come down for dinner.

Angela: OK Janie I was going to suggest the same. Maura come here honey. Maura walks over to Angela and gives her a big huge. Angela whispers to her as she kisses her forehead I always knew you and Janie would find your way back to each other. I have always loved you dear and get some rest ti amo.

Jane leads Maura up the stairs and into her room. Maura is nervous because she has not been home in almost a month and that now she was out of the hospital she knew things were going to change between her and Jane but she felt like she was ready for that change.

Jane: Hey baby you want to get changed and lay down.

Maura: Yes, I am feeling a little dizzy and my stomach hurts a little. Jane will you lay with me until I go to sleep?

Jane: Of course I will just lie down and I'll get your medicine.

Maura lies down in Jane's arms after taking her meds and it does not take her long to fall asleep. Jane gets up before she too falls asleep and goes down to talk to her mom and Constance. Jane hears the loud laughter before she makes it to the end of the steps knowing that most of the loudness is coming from her Ma.

Constance: Hi Jane your mom was telling me a funny story we did not hear you come down come sit with us. How is Maura did she go to sleep?

Jane: Yes she is asleep I was surprised how fast she went to sleep. I guess those are some pretty strong meds she is taking I think she is kind of nervous about being back home. This morning before I had her discharged she just started crying and I asked her why she was crying she said she is afraid I am going to leave her and go back to Boston.

Constance: Well Jane I suppose that is a natural feeling for her. I mean you just got to see a little bit how Maura has become. She was always so sad and crying all the time Jane. She missed you so much it was physically hurting her. Not to put you on the spot Jane but if you leave it is going to destroy her this time.

Angela: Janie I know you and Maura have been through a lot and she needs you now more than ever and I am not going to stand in the way of whatever decision you make honey.

Jane: Well I am glad you said that Ma because I plan to ask Maura to marry me because there is no way I am leaving her ever again and I am not sure if we will leave here or come back to Boston but if she will have me I want to be with her forever. I have seen things over the years and I know how short life can be. We have wasted so much time already you know. I love her so much more than I ever thought I could love someone. I hope you understand I know when I was born this is not how you pictured things to be.

Angela: You listen to me Janie I have never seen you as happy as I did when you were with Maura even just as best friends I knew that you loved her. So I want what most parents want and that is that you are happy.

Constance: Jane I saw a new light in my daughters eyes when she woke from that coma and you were there. The last five years Maura has not lived she just existed and now is time for the both of you girls to live but this time for each other.

With that being said Angela and Constance both said looks like we are going to have to plan a wedding. They got up and took Jane into a bear hug. Jane smiled and said hey you know I have to ask Maura first right?

Jane: Ok I don't want anyone to say anything to Maura OK I want to wait until she feels better I just hope that it will be soon. I am not sure how long I can hold this in. So in the mean time you too have to keep the goofy smiles off your faces and make plans when Maura is not around. I mean you both know what she likes. Also I need to get a ring as well so Constance I think you know Maura taste more than either of us do you think we to start looking tomorrow?

Constance: Oh yes Jane for sure you know how much we Isles love to shop she said with a laugh.

Angela: I will stay with Maura tomorrow so you two can go shop. This will give me some time alone with my other daughter and catch up. I think I am going to go make some homemade soup for her since she does not need anything heavy on her stomach right now.

While Angela went in the kitchen to make a list for the store Jane and Constance talked and discussed just what they would do tomorrow and just how Jane is going to propose. Jane thought to herself just maybe she might get her own happy ending for once. The last five years have been hard on both of them but deep inside she hoped that in the next week all of that will change.

I hope you enjoy this chapter and remember with these two and Constance and Angela you never know what will happen stay tuned for the next chapter. I love reviews.