EPOV
Tonight, the whole team was going out for dinner and the cheerleaders too. And the best part was that Bella was coming to movie night after dinner. I was very excited, since this group included Bella, but also very apprehensive due to the fact that this also included Alice, Emmett and worst of all Jacob.
From what I knew of Jacob from the very few times I'd actually had a conversation with him, he seemed alright, but I still didn't really see why Bella was with him. Not that I cared, or should I say, not that I should care. Because if I was being honest with myself, I did kind of care.
But so far, he didn't seem like a complete jerk, so I figured I would be fine as long as Bella and I just played it cool and were friends, which we were.
So throughout the night, Bella seemed to be acting a bit different around Jacob. If I had acted that way, she would've slapped me and set me in my place. But she just sat there and didn't stop him was he made crude comments on innocent people he just randomly thought of or people walking past us. I could tell that all she wanted to do was exactly what I had suspected, but she stopped herself every time she was about to set off. She just sat there and pretended to laugh at his stupid anecdotes.
This puzzled me deeply, so I spent practically the whole night studying her every expression, trying to read her face. I tried my best to find the reasons behind her actions and interpret her actions, but I was coming up blank. I think Jacob had also noticed my diligent attention towards Bella because he would periodically put his arm around her, lower than a gentleman should might I add, and would squeeze her tighter; as if the clearly state his claim on her.
After the few hours we'd been at dinner, although I just considered it as a death trap where I'm forced to endure hours with Jacob, I finally couldn't take it anymore.
I didn't like how Bella acted around him. And I didn't like him in general, so I went outside to get some air before I did something I would regret. Like confessing my love for Bella in front of all our closest friends. Yes that would be bad. Need some air now.
"Edward are you OK?" she asked.
No. I thought. But I didn't say anything just yet, for fear of losing it. But I really wasn't OK, and what could I say? I couldn't exactly tell her of my deep hatred towards Jacob, because were just friends. And friends don't tell friends how much they hate their boyfriends. So I just had to live with it.
So I lied," Yeah, I just needed some air." I claimed.
"Edward, look at me" she demanded," You and me, we're the best kind of friends. And proof of that is that I can tell you're not OK right now. Because I know you. And I know when you're OK. And right now you're not. So talk to me."
How could she be so wonderful? Why did she even want to be friends with me? Right now especially, when I'm acting like such a crazy psychopath.
"Bella." I started, "You're right I'm not fine."
"So tell me why not." she suggested.
"I don't think you'll like if I tell you." I told her.
"I still want to know."
"I don't really think you do."
"Well just tell me already. You know I'm going to get it out of you one way or another eventually." She joked, lightening my mood a bit. "Please?" she said, staring me down," Please Edward."
"OK," I started hesitantly," Well here's the thing, its Jacob." I looked up quickly to gage her reactions.
"What about him." She asked, expressionlessly.
"Bella, you're going to be really upset that I'm saying this, but the main thing is, I really don't like him. I don't think I like you either when you're around him. He's not good enough for you."
She stood there for a second, her face blank and finally said," Well, I'm sorry you feel that way." And walked back inside.
I was pretty sure I had just ruined my friendship with her.
'But it might be better this way.' I tried to tell myself. 'At least now I wont have to just sit around and watch her with him and pretend that were just friends.'
I didn't even believe my lies.
I faintly recalled the walk inside to tell Alice that I was leaving, avoiding eye contact with Bella, and the drive. But now I was just sitting in my room. Sitting there. I'm not sure how long I was sitting in that spot, but after a while, Alice came into my room, pestering me as always. But now I was too tired to fend her off and just let her in.
"Hey Edward, what's up? Are you OK?" She questioned.
"Bella hates me." I stated, half whispering.
"No way. I don't believe it. You and Bella are like besties, she could never hate you, even if she tried." Alice stated.
"Oh, I wouldn't be so sure about thatā¦"
"So what happened?" she asked softly.
I let out I sigh and started to tell Alice how I had told Bella how much I hated Jacob and the affect he had on her, and she listened diligently.
"Edward," she said in her 'I-care-about-my-brother' voice, "I'm sure it'll pass over. But in the mean time, it wouldn't hurt to apologizeā¦"Alice suggested, handing me the phone.
"OK, I guess you're right. Thanks Al."
"Welcome Ed." She replied. And with that and a quick hug, Alice left, leaving me to call Bella.
Her phone rang and rang and2 0rang until it went to voice mail. "Bella," i said, "Bella i am so
sorry please call me back."
