Hey guys! Another update is on its way as well! I had a super busy senior year but now I have some off time to write! Hopefully I'll treat you guys better this time around.
Coming home from the competition Sasuke was elated; nothing could bring him down. His eyes were beaming, his laugh full and hearty, and his body feeling dreamlike. Being with Naruto often had that effect but tonight it was tenfold.
That is until he came home to his ass of a boyfriend (if he was to remain that after tonight's no show) sitting on his steps.
He completely ignored him as he and Naruto brought his cello up the steps into his house. Knowing a long conversation was about to occur, he thanked his friend for the night and led him out. Naruto who was eyeing Kaname warily with poorly hidden malice, gave his friend one of his reserved smiles—one he calls for his "special people", though Sasuke was pretty sure he only gave him—and bid him a goodnight, giving him an extremely tight hug, a kiss on the cheek, and a longing stare before he left the house with an extra oomph in his step, much to Kaname's displeasure. Kaname, however, kept his mouth shut knowing how much deep shit he was in.
Turning to Kaname, who was now located in his doorway, Sasuke merely uttered a cold and quiet "What?"
Kaname gulped. He knew any wrong phrasing know would lead to a full on fight with Sasuke and cost him his relationship. He had to tread carefully.
"Babe—"
"DON'T!" Sasuke yelled with such viciousness he surprised even himself.
'Fuck.' Kaname thought.
"Don't call me babe, call me baby, call me Sas, or call me anything! How could you? How could you miss one of the most important nights of my life?!" the boy's face was completely red, his eyebrows scrunched, his face tight. Kaname knew he entered dark territory after accidentally using the pet name. He started again, trying to rectify his wrong.
"Sasuke I was—"
"You were where? A fucking "extenuating circumstance"?! Which means what? Partying it up with your friends?! Relaxing? Having a grand ole fucking time? Finishing school shit you should have done awhile go? I don't care. I don't give a damn! Cause tonight none of that should have mattered more than me! You knew how much this meant to me! I was there, shaking, crying, because the one person who I thought loved me left me alone, looking stupid, surrounded by hundreds of other people who were there to support someone they CARED about. In fact, if Naruto wasn't there I probably wouldn't have performed, or performed like shit, ruining my only chance to go to school and the ONLY last connection I have to my family!" Sasuke had tears streaming down his red cheeked face, his chest heaving at the exhaustion of screaming so loud, letting out bottled emotions he didn't even know he had till tonight. Yet he continued on, emptying out his chest of feelings.
"Music is one of the few things I have! The only thing that makes me feel alive, like I'm not dead or empty! Yet tonight you nearly ruined that." Now he was sobbing, breaking, the cries racking through his body. He hated this; he hated looking weak, feeling so frail, so breakable, so fragile.
Yet he felt betrayed. The same betrayal he felt when his family died. The same betrayal he felt with his newfound loneliness. He had been strong for so long it had worn him down mentally and physically. And he was cracking.
"If you were just using me to fuck you could have said so from the start instead of—"
"Sasuke!" Sasuke looked up to a heartbroken Kaname whose stiff arms were held tightly against his sides, fists clenched to keep from crying too.
"Sasuke, I would never, ever use you like that. I LOVE you! I'd rather die than hurt you." He blurted out trying to salvage his relationship with the boy he loved most.
"Then where were you? When I needed you the most!? Where?!"
"Sasuke…." Kaname sighed and moaned looking about 30 years older. Only then did Sasuke notice the bags underneath his eyes, the dirt on his face, his dirty disheveled suit, and his tear streaked face. "…. I was at my mother's grave…tonight is the anniversary of when she died." Sasuke's eyes widened as all the breath, the anger, and frustration left his body leaving him extremely cold.
"I wanted to go! So fucking badly I wanted to go." Kaname yelled punching the wall with weak fists.
"Nothing more did I want to see you up on stage, as beautiful and carefree as you are, as happy as you'd ever be! But I couldn't. I even put on the goddamn suit and tie! But she wouldn't leave me alone. She kept plaguing me, coming to me, whispering to me, again, and again, and AGAIN. I could barely make it to the cemetery and when I did, I punched a tree for the shittiness in my life. The most important day in my lover's life and I couldn't even stand up from my mother's grave. I just sat there crying, whimpering, like a groveling mess." The exhausted boy slide down the wall, his back using it for support it could no longer provide.
Shame, mortification, and disappointment could not even describe the way Sasuke felt about himself. He hadn't even taken in the appearance of Kaname when he walked in. Never had Sasuke felt so awfully about wrongfully accusing another. 'I'm such an asshole…'he whispered in his mind.
"I spent the entire night there, replaying her death over and over again till I couldn't tell the past from the present. I was so pitiful the gravekeeper who had stayed late had to pull me up, smack some sense into me, and carry me here where I lied and told him was home."
Each new word of his love's confession was another pang onto Sasuke's already broken heart. Broken because he missed him tonight, broken because he had assumed the worst without realizing what his lover was going through, and broken because he had also failed him in his time of need. As Kaname broke down into tears, Sasuke crawled over and pulled him close, squeezing him into a tight hug as hw rubbed his head and planted kisses on his neck and cheek, attempting to console his lover.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," Kaname moaned.
"Shh. It's okay. I'm sorry too. I'm sorry for not being there for you." Sasuke whispered with tears gleaming in his eyes. "Hey, hey" he whispered as he tilted his lover's head up towards him. Green emerald eyes met midnight black ones. A look. An exchange. A meaning. Then there was nothing…nothing but unquestionable passion, adoration, and love. As soft lips met and danced to a growingly fierce beat, Sasuke's body lit on fire, the heat engulfing him, steaming him, making him throb with need. Yet with each kiss, each share of tongue, Sasuke felt a pang. He couldn't quite place it but he knew it was there, building with each second.
Kaname trailed hot, desperate kisses down his neck, his hands everywhere at once: squeezing his ass, tweaking his nipples, rubbing his thighs.
"Ohh..oh ohhh" Sasuke moaned desperately as Kaname bit down on his neck's sweet spot and an extra hard tug to his groan. Sasuke gripped Kaname's hair for life as this whirlwhind of emotions and sexual excitement passed through him.
Pang.
Again the sound. Sasuke still chose to ignore it, moving to rub and squeeze his boyfriends defined arms and packed chest. He started removing his shirt, trailing kisses down his chest, teasing the nipples he loved so much, and caressing with his mouth the pathway down to his lover's member.
"God baby…keep going…you're so amazing." Kaname breathed.
He kissed the front of his lover's pants before he proceeded to vigorously pull down the zipper and attack what was inside.
Kaname melted into a groaning mess, growling, tugging Sasuke's hair, and flat out begging as Sasuke devoured his dick, licking the head, then all the way from the base to the tip, swirling his tongue around to taste the precum he was addicted to, and going back in all the way to engulf it, sucking lovingly and hungrily.
Pang, pang.
"Fuck babe, just like that, faster, mmhmm, I want you so bad."
Sasuke continued to suck and swallow, allowing Kaname to fuck his face by his hair while he pumped his own dick in tune with Kaname's fucking. Sasuke wanted no needed this feeling. The feeling of his mouth stuffed and throat stretched with the meat of his boyfriend's body.
Pang.
The panging was from his heart. Why he had no idea. All he knew was that it hurt and he wanted, no needed it to go away.
Sasuke proceeded to vigoriously move this throat up and down his lover's cock in tune with his thrusts, his oh so fuckable plump, pink lips creating a tight suction, his tongue tasting everywhere and anywhere. As his lover released his seed into his mouth, Sasuke swallowed it all like a dying man, needed to fill the growing hole inside him, needing to taste the lust and love in the seed. He continued to jerk his own cock at a fast and relentless pace that was nearly brutal.
As he throat was filled, he too came, cumming in his own hand.
Kaname, panting, loved the sight in front of him. Sasuke, out of breath, pink lips slightly swollen, face pink, cum dripping from his mouth.
Usually they were done after this, but the panging wouldn't stop inside Sasuke and he needed it too. He needed to be distracted from it. So he pulled his boyfriend's hands into his pants past his returning erection to his hole, and whispered in his ear wantonly "Fuck me."
Kaname looked baffled. "A-Are you sure?" "You said before you wanted to wait and-"
Sasuke didn't give him the chance to finish as he attacked his lips and started grinding against him and his erection. He shed his own pants, and continued his assault as bare skin rubbed against bare skin, rekindling the fire, drowning out the pang's.
Kaname understood quickly how much his lover needed this and pulled him tighter against him. He pulled his fingers to Sasuke's mouth to which Sasuke sluttily eyed him and sucked his hand like a cock.
Kaname groaned heavily. With his fingers well coated, Kaname proceeded down to Sasuke's hole, inserting in two fingers at once knowing his lover masturbated.
"Ahh Gooodddd" Sasuke moaned. "Shit…fuck yess baby keep going." At this point Sasuke was riding his fingers his erection bobbing with his movements, his ass grinding desperately to get the fingers deeper.
PANG
"Fuck!" Sasuke growled in frustration both sexually and emotionally.
It was quickly forgotten as Kaname inserted the third finger and effectively hit his prostrate, making him see stars.
"YES! Kana, I need more. I'm ready."
Watching Sasuke ride his hand had made Kaname rock hard. He too, desperately needed this.
"Faster, harder. Just keep hitting there." Kaname lifted Sasuke up and shed his pants all in one go. Sasuke wrapped his legs around his waist and started whimpering and moaning uncontrollably as Kaname approached his bedroom, fingers still deep inside him, fucking him.
Setting him down on the bed, Kaname mounted him, sliding his fingers out from the tight, moist hole, soon to be replaced with his own throbbing, member.
As Kaname entered him, Sasuke full and torn at once: torn emotionally and full physically.
Pang
They moved as one. Sweat covered their bodies as they rode each other toward paradise. Chest against chest, nipples brushing against nipples, limbs tangled and wrapped against the other…
Sasuke found that each thrust Kaname put against his body was another pang.
Pang. Pang. PANG. PANG. PANG.
As they neared the end Sasuke realized these pangs weren't just his heart.
PANG.
They were his heart breaking.
PANG.
His heart breaking because as he was nearing his climax he realized he wasn't fully satisfied. He needed another person. A specific person with golden hair and cerulean eyes.
PANG.
He needed him. He loved him. It all made sense now. Why he loved Kaname, why he needed this sex.
He went after Kaname looking for a substitute for the one he couldn't have.
PANG. PANG. PANG!
As they climaxed together, they fell on top of each other exhausted. His heart officially crushed to pieces.
He loved Naruto.
And now he loved Kaname. He loved him because he reminded him of Naruto: bright eyes, loving smile, boisterous laugh, willing to deal with his crap and attitude, intrigued by the real him, lively and adventurous, they were one and the same.
And because he loved them both,
He was torn into two.
When he turned to look at the beautiful man next to him, the angelic resting face nuzzled into his neck breathing in his scent lovingly even while he slept, the unruly black curls, the sharp yet tender cheeks, the one who full heartedly loved him, he died inside.
He died inside because of the awful thing he has done to him: he has loved another while loving him and now was torn between the two. He wanted to do something but realized he couldn't. He was far too indecisive, far too selfish, and far too weak.
And so he cried.
Naruto entered the said meet up spot around thirty minutes later than planned. Hence the death glares he received from everyone.
"Ah hey guys," Naruto began sheepishly rubbing the back of his head. "Sorry about being late and all-"
"Never mind that." Shikamaru interjected. "We have far more important things to do now. The Koyozaki have already arrived and are waiting in front of the abandoned apartment building. It looks like a lead man, an intermediate hitman, and a new recruit. But obviously there are more stationed elsewhere. Two are off the block around the corner. Some are loitering in the park across the street. The Nabunku should be arriving soon as well. Their own backups are located in the adjacent building to the apartment, and down the street. It's the main exchangers we are waiting for."
Tenten continued where Shikamaru had left off. "So far they seemed armed with standard guns and knives. Most seemed to be well experienced in and out of the streets. It seems the remaining Nabunku members are here."
"Alright, great job on surveillance team. Let me radio in the backup squads to know to corner the extra gang members hiding, and that our main team and the squad about 800 meters behind us will attack the main members."
They listened in as the drug exchange occurred, the lead men deciding the terms and conditions, turfs, and the likes.
"Do we have a deal Kuro?" said a tall, brown-haired, burly man.
"As long as your men stay off our turf we're fine," replied the short yet stout man.
"Deal. Just so you—"
The man dropped dead, a bullet through his forehead.
"What the fuck is going on here Nabunku?! You'll pay for this!" Yelled one of the two Koyozaki men with their guns pointed at the Nabunku.
"Holy shit." Kiba whispered. "Are the Koyazaki being double crossed?"
Another two bullets hit two Nabunku members square in the forehead.
Naruto whizzed his head around searching for the source of the bullets.
"What the hell is this? WHO's here!? The cops don't shoot like this!" Screamed the last Nabunku man as he loaded his gun and began firing rounds.
Two more men were dead from the Nabunku and Koyozaki. This clearly wasn't an attack either gang had planned. The remaining members pulled out their guns and began shooting as some backup members came to join the fighting in the middle. The rest of the backup seemed to disperse as to either run or find the source of the attack.
"Temari and Tenten prepare for combat. This seems like the third party gang we discussed has arrived."
"Hai." Temari and Tenten said in unison already geared up.
Naruto proceeded to tell his backup squads the plan. "Radio in backup squads 4004, 4005, and 5116, a surprise attack by a third party has been launched. Keep on the move. Find out their exact targets. Do not attempt to attack fights between them and fellow gangs. Standby till all fire has ceased and arrest those left standing. My main squad will go in and interrogate the leaders once we determine them. Units 4 and 5 contain the fighting to this area and prevent it from reaching the civilians. Tape off and call for more backup if necessary. Radio out."
"Kiba I need you to go off on your own. Once we enter this battle there will be two diversions that break away from the group. As Temari and Tenten get the remaining, I will go after one diversion and you'll take on the other. Be smart. Keep your head about you."
Kiba nodded sternly at him.
He turned next to Shikamaru. "I need you to scan the area for any weapons and their exact coordinates both moving and still targets. I need to know what we are dealing with here in size and area. We also need to see what they're after be it the drugs, the fame, or something else."
He gave them all one long look. "Disperse!"
Shikamaru ran to the parked car to do his surveillance work, while Naruto flanked by Tenten and Kiba flanked by Temari ran parallel routes to the main scene of violence. Dead bodies and blood painted the concrete parking lot as both member teams shot everywhere from their surroundings to each other not knowing who the real threat was.
Reaching the site Naruto yelled "MSPD! Drop all weapons and put your hands up!" Seeing the four police officers bullet proof vest protected and armed with back up running towards them the men smartly dropped their weapons and surrendered."
"Now we wait for the shooters and get their exact direction!" Naruto yelled to his team.
Another two members dropped dead. Seems they only cared about killing off the gang members as no one attempted to shoot at the police or recover the drugs.
"There!" Kiba and Naruto screamed in opposite directions. As Kiba took off like instructed, Naruto ran and yelled back directions to Temari and Tenten "Cuff them and take them back to the station with squads 4004 and 5005 while squad 5116 recovers the drugs. Send several members from six after me and Kiba for support!"
He didn't wait for their reply. He took off after the direction from which it seemed the bullet had been angled at. It was extremely hard due to the silencers, but some years of experience had allowed him at least to predict the fire range within 30 degrees.
"Naruto!" Shikamaru yelled into his ear. "Go 20 degrees more to your right, closer to 3 o clock, and take the second door and then go several stairs up to floor four. It seems that three men are there with weapons so stay alert and wait for the back up to corner them. I already gave Kiba the directions for his men!"
"Got it. Thanks Shika!" He replied as he entered the building.
"NARUTO! I said wait!"
"I will! Once I get closer to pinpoint their location I will!" He whispered running up the steps. He couldn't let himself die here now because of foolishness. Sasuke would never let him live it down even in his death. As much as Sasuke pretended not to care, he actually did the opposite. Cared to damn much for his own good and would die if anything happened to the ones he loved…
Stop thinking about the past Naruto! Just focus on now. What happened happened.
He used his shoulder and barged open the hallway door that was stuck and continued slowly down the hallway, gun pointed, listening in for any voices or signs of movement. He knew Shikamaru would be directing Kiba as well, not able to catch everything. He noticed a gleam reflecting in a mirror off to the side.
"NARUTO!" Shikamaru yelled into his ear.
He dropped down just in time for a bullet to whiz past his head just barely scrapping his ear.
"Fuck!" He yelled. He rolled off to the side into the alcove of an apartment door.
"DROP YOUR GUNS. MSPD! SURRENDER NOW!" He roared.
"Naruto there is one to your left 150 degrees, another one to your right at about 75 degrees but they're about to reposition!"
How can I keep track of a moving silent target?! Shit!
"To your right Naruto!"
Naruto lunged to his right missing another bullet.
"Move again 95 degrees then 65 degrees!"
He dropped again rolling over and then flipping to the said final spot.
I can't keep doing this shit Shikamaru they're going to pin me soon!
"I'm trying! Look around and see what you can use either for protection or identifying their location."
He looked around once again.
"There's nothing—"
He spotted the mirror that saved his life before. And in that mirror he saw a gleam rising. Instead of running he quickly shifted to the left and shot at the opposing direction of the gleam.
"Argghhh!" A muffled voice yelled.
He shot another three bullets in the location of several key body parts once he saw the man's location.
"One down two more to go Shikamaru."
"Duck Naruto!"
"A bullet whizzed past his head shattering the glass he'd been using to reveal them.
"Fuck!"
Yet at the last second a shard pointed up to the vent thirty degrees above him where an eye was staring and reloading. Naruto did a fake out pointing his gun quickly to his right then sending several aims into the vent.
"Shi-!" The man died gurgling blood from his throat, and eyes.
"Now it's just you and me! Whosever left has 10 seconds to drop their weapon and surrender now!"
No sound.
"This is your last chance! I don't want to kill you!"
Out of the right corner of his eye he saw a shadow grow by the slightest fraction of an inch from within a slightly ajar apartment door. Naruto whizzed around and shot the offender in the hand before he could align his gun. As the man turned to flee Naruto shot again in the leg and rushed into the apartment.
"PUT YOUR HANDS UP!"
….
….silence…..
…..Three distinct claps were heard and then the lights were switched on. Standing before him was a tall man, with long, spiky strawberry blonde hair held back in a high pony tail and piercing grey eyes of steel holding zero remorse or mercy in them.
"Very good officer Uzumaki. Very good. You've killed two of my henchmen and severely wounded the third. Much better than I expected."
"What do you mean? Who are you?! Are you a leader of the third party gang?"
"A?" The man chuckled. "Why not the?"
Naruto narrowed his eyes at the man's laughter. "Because the big guy never shows his face this early on."
The man seemed amused by this, his lips upturning and his eyebrows rising. "I suppose in a sense that is right, but I am by no means insignificant or indispensable like the men dying down below us or the ones in the hall. I am someone you should be quite wary of, which should also tell you the significance of this meeting."
"And what exactly is the "significance" of this dumbass meeting?" Naruto snarled.
Unfazed the man continued. "You see my superior gave me the orders of holding this "attack" tonight in order for me to get the chance to see you." The man gave a sly smirk that was knowing and cruel.
"What the hell do you want with me? Why would you send three men to kill me and why are you attacking gangs and massacring them? What the fuck do you assholes think you are? Fucking town watch? Fucked up police?"
"Actually Uzumaki you are quite correct. You are smarter than I give you and your dumb appearance credit for. We in fact do act as a police. Not "fucked up" as you crudely put it, the man began to sneer, "but as true moralists and upholders of the law."
"The fuck do you mean by true moralists and upholders of the law?! What the hell is wrong with you people? The police do that job perfectly fine!"
"It is because the police fail to do their job that we are here now!" The man yelled losing his calm demeanor and patience. "Officers are corrupt, the laws are weak and unenforced, and nothing in this so called "system" is designed to protect the lives of individuals. Instead individuals give their lives to protect laws, half of which are poorly designed and unjust. How can you have a system where the lives and safety of the people are put below some broken, make shift justice system, where police officers obey scripture over conscious, where the government's needs trump over correct retribution, and where wrong men are accused and persecuted?"
"So what?! You think we don't do our job. That you and your cronies who are nothing better than self-glorified thugs, can do a better job than trained officers?! There are real people behind these uniforms. Society works because of them and their own adherence and obedience to the law and what's right! This isn't some fucking game of pretend cop! Real lives are at stake here!"
"Whether or not in your mind we are qualified officers of the law is up to you and in the end is merely opinion, which isn't worth shit. Regardless of whether or not police officers are real people, on the job they aren't real people but computerized deployments of a written book, just doing as they are told because they don't "make the system" but simply "enforce it" even when they don't agree with it. There is no human conscious in enforcement of the law." His gaze had returned to cold and unyielding. Nothing anyone could say would sway him otherwise. "Morality is subjective in many ways but is also objective. There are things that are wrong no matter what that must be dealt with correctly, hence where my members come in." Naruto watched as the man's gaze shifted to an airy one of fondness and gleam. "Where the police lack, we will pick up. Where the law stops them, we will continue. When lives are at stake, we will save them. We are the officers that you cannot but wish to be! With police and our members working together, no crime, no injustice, shall exist, and peace shall be achieved. This is the utopian society we are trying to achieve. Within a decade crime will be nearly eradicated."
Naruto just blankly stared at the man. This man is out of his fucking mind. "The hell is this? Officers of the night? Either you and your fucking dumbass followers better stop this shit or prepare for persecution to the fullest extent."
"Oh really?" The man threw a taunting sideways look towards Naruto's eyes narrowed, a smirk planted on his face. "I would urge you to reconsider your words Officer Uzumaki. My boss is a patient man but does not go back on his word once it is given. His preposition to you is as follows: either join forces with - organization in order to eradicate crime or force us to eradicate you as we do the criminals. You are either with us or against us. There is no neutrality, no impartialness. Any actions your officers take to interfere with my men or incarcerate them will be taken as a sign of your opposition and will sanction your demise. You have two weeks to decide Officer Uzumaki. Think carefully and do enjoy your evening." The man turned as sly as a fox and graceful as a Cheshire cat and took his leave, out the apartment window, his henchmen following as the entered their getaway helicopter.
….what the fuck?...
Naruto let out a heavy sigh and turned away from the window knowing there was no point in pursuing the man further. He ran his hands ran up his face through his hair as if trying to wipe away all the stress and drama as of late.
….What am I supposed to do? Is this guy for real? How the hell can he expect such a thing from the police for God's sake? This was NOT in my job description when I signed up for this…all I wanna do is go home to Sasuke and cuddle and not have to worry about one more damn thing…
As he exited the building he was greeted with an angry Shikamaru and a worn-out Kiba. Apparently Kiba's chase had led to nothing except one captive, and Shikamaru's surveillance couldn't pinpoint the location of the helicopter. However, Shikamaru was far more concerned with Naruto's lack of regard for his well-being.
"Naruto."
"Let it go Shika. Let's just file the report and go home." Said blonde kept on walking past his comrades towards the clean-up crew and back up detectives.
"Naruto."
"Tenten and Temari are already handling clean up. Let's go meet them—"
"Naruto you shouldn't be reckless like this. Why wouldn't you wait for backup?" Shikamaru half sighed, eyes closed.
"Shikamaru cut me some slack today, please." Naruto breathed out. He turned and gave his friend a small smile reassuring him that he knew where he was coming from and appreciated the concern.
"Naruto!" Tenten yelled running over to them. She was waving several pieces of evidence and papers in her hand.
Naruto threw his head back and groaned. He was thoroughly exhausted from tonight and still had actual paperwork to do.
'Can't a guy catch a break?'
After cleaning up the crime scene, sending the bodies for identification, and filing the report, Naruto unlocked the door to his home and walked inside at 2:30 a.m. He had dumped his prior clothes at the station in exchange for some spares knowing Sasuke would question their tattered, dirty, and worn appearance.
He thought he could enjoy a peaceful night, snuggling up right next to his sleeping lover for whom he'd answer a barrage of questions in the morning.
Yet as he entered the apartment he found it to be lit and a very angry Uchiha waiting for him in the middle of their living room on their sofa.
Sasuke turned and faced him, face hard and set, his right eyebrow—the only animated part of his face—was raised. Only four harsh words were spoken to him, each one enunciated slow and distinct.
"Where have you been?"
He gulped.
Please review! Also please vote if you'd like the first SasuNaru lemon to have Sasuke top or Naruto top! I'll always be switching it up as I think neither one would always top but I'd thought you'd guys would like to vote on it :)
