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Alison's Pov

After Emily left me to follow to Mackenzie, I went as fast as I could to Hanna's place, Aria and Spencer were already there with Hanna, the three discussing what had happened with Emily. I told them what just had happened at Emily's, how I told her of our past, what happened with A, and how after she tell me she didn't remember us, I kissed her and she kissed me back, but Mackenzie saw us and left, and Emily followed her. The girls were frightened and also was I. I had worsened all and there was now less chance of Emily forgiving us all. But it wasn't until later in the night that we knew how bad was the situation.

Around 8 o'clock, Sam a friend of Emily and Mackenzie called Hanna. When I saw the expression on Hanna's face I knew that it wasn't nothing good what they were talking about, but I couldn't even imagined it. When Hanna hung up the phone, she approached us to gave us the bad news. Mackenzie had had a car accident, and she didn't make it. When I heard that, I felt as if I had been hit in the guts. If Emily didn't hated me before I was sure now she did. My heart ached only thinking how Emily was at that time. Spencer, Aria, and I wanted to go see Emily and how she was, but Hanna told us that it wasn't a good time, Sam was apparently with Emily at home waiting for Sabrina Emily's roommate, and Emily had made it clear that she didn't want to see any of us.

It's been a week since then, Hanna, Spencer and Aria went to Mackenzie's memorial service and although Emily barely talked to them at least she didn't throw them from the memorial. Hanna told me that two days after the memorial of Mackenzie, she went to visit Emily. They talked and Emily said that she forgave her and the girl for lying to her. Perhaps if Emily forgave the girls, she could also forgive me. I longed to go to her house and see her beautiful face, but I'm afraid of what she might tell me.

While I drive by Rosewood I think how much longer should I wait to go see Emily. Drops of water begin to hit against the windshield. Great. Rain. Just what I needed to drown myself more in my misery. I park an wait for the rain to stop, then I see a familiar figure trying to open the door of her car but failing miserably. I get off my car and approach to her, under the rain, to see if indeed it is her.

"Em? Emily is that you ?" when I say her name she turns to see who called her but as soon as she sees that it's me, she struggles more to open her door and leave.

I got closer to her and see the reason of Emily's struggling. A half bottle of whisky, and another full in a bag. Her keys slips out of her hand and she lets out a curse.

"Emily you can't drive like this" I say picking up the keys from the street

"What are you doing here Alison?" she says and opens her hand for me to drops the key, but I don't.

"I can't let you drive in this state Em, you're drunk and it's raining. Let me take you home"

"No thanks I'd rather walk" she says and starts to walk away from me.

"Fine then I will walk with you" and I quickly walk by her side

"Alison I dont want to be near you! Don't you get it?"

That hurt. "I'm so sorry for everything that happened" I say and she looks at me with resentment in her eyes.

"You are sorry? " Do you really think that is going to fix this, Alison?" she says to me in a foreing voice

I look down. "I know it doesn't fix anything but I am really sorry for what happened with you Em and with Mackenzie"

"Don't you dare talk about her!" Emily shouts at me and frightens me.

"She is dead because of you! Because you couldn't move forward with your life and let me live happy with mine! Why did you have to come back Ali? Why?"

I was dead silence, and that made her more angry.

"Tell me why!" she yells and pushes me by my shoulders and I step back, she might be drunk but she's still strong.

"Because I love you Emily and I can't imagine a life without you," I say honestly. By now we are both soaked from the rain.

"I honestly don't care... You destroyed my life."

A knot forms in my throat and I can barely talk "Don't say that Em, please"

"You're a hurricane Alison. Can't you see? You destroy everything you touch. I could never love you" she says and starts to walk away from me again.

"Emily please!" I beg but she ignores me, after a couple of steps she turns back

"Just get over me Alison and stay the hell out of my life!"

I stayed there watching her walk away from me. Tears running freely down my cheeks, mingling with raindrops. I think I always knew... that it wouldn't be me leaving her but rather it would be Emily who would leave me, stil knowing it doesn't make it hurt less.

Emily's Pov

I wake up at the start of the stairs. Ugh! My whole body hurts and the headache is killing me. I get up and climb the stairs to the bathroom, when I see myself in the mirror just I can recognize me. My hair is all messed up, I have bags under my eyes, all my makeup is watered, I'm more skinny than before and paler. But my appearance is nothing compared to how I feel. I don't feel the same without Mackenzie. I have been having nightmares about the accident, en every one of them Mackenzie tells me she hates me and that everything was my fault. I miss her so much, I don't know if I can continue my life without her. I start to cry again. I'm so tired of crying. But it is the only thing I know to do these days.

After I get a bath and change, I go down to the kitchen to find something for the headache. But I almost have a heart attack when I see Hanna with her arms crossed waiting for me. I can tell she is annoyed but I have no idea why.

"Hanna! You scared the shit out of me" I tell her and pass across her right and into the kitchen to find the freaking Advil

"What did you said to Alison?" I hear her voice from behind me.

"What are you talking about Hanna, you know that I haven't spoken with her" I say drinking water to pass the pill.

"Apparently you did yesterday." she says

"What? I don't know Hanna. I was kinda of drunk yesterday, I don't remember seeing her at all... can we please not talk about her?" I really don't want to talk about Alison. All these days I have forbidden myself from even thinking about her.

"She went last night to my house made, she was a wreck. She was crying and mumbling about you hating her and that Mackenzie's death was her fault, that she never had to return. I spent all night trying to calm her down."

I try to hide my concern and say "Maybe it's for the best"

"Emily how can you say that? Don't you love her?"

I turn my head towards Hanna and look at her with indignation "How can you ask me that Hanna. How can I love Alison when she is the reason Mackenzie's dead. I was all Mackenzie had left and thanks to Alison I let failed her" I say trying to stop the sobs that wanted to escape my mouth

"Emily.." says Hanna with pity trying to hug me but I don't let her

"I don't need your pity Hanna" I furiously blink away the tears

"I'm not pitying you Emily. But you should know it's not your fault or Alison's what happened with Mackenzie. It was an accident. And I honestly don't think Mackenzie would have liked you to blame yourself or anyone else for her death. She wanted you to be happy"Hanna says placing her right hand on my shoulder and this time I don't push her away

"How can I be happy without her Han?"

"Mackenzie loved you with her life, Em. She wanted you to be happy no matter what. Even without her. Even if it was another person who gave you that happiness"

"I don't know"

"Do you love her? Alison?" Hanna ask me and I stay quiet for a few seconds meditating my answer

"I can't answer you that"

Hanna looks at me sympathetically "It's okay I'm not going to pressure you to tell me. But really... you should talk to Alison, she doesn't deserve to live with that weight on her shoulders Em".

"I know"

After talking with Hanna I knew I should solve things with Alison, let her know that I don't hate her and I don't blame her for Mackenzie's death. Yesterday I wasn't able to do so, because I spent the day with Spencer, Aria and Hanna. They have been caring for me, I'm still a little hurt because they lied to me, but I decided to forgive them. That past they decided to hide from me have already destroyed almost completely my life and I don't want it to continue, maybe the girls were just trying to protect me for my own good after all.

As I planned I came to Alison's to talk to her. I'm nervous wreck by the time I'm going to knock the door and I hesitate, so I take a deep breath to fulfill the courage necessary and knock the door. When I knock she does not answer but I know she's here because her car is in the parking lot.

I knock the door again and hear movement inside, then I see a shadow behind the door

"Ali I know you're against the door, I just want to talk to you" I say and I listen as her breath hitch but she still doesn't open the door. I sigh and low myself to the floor and sit with my back against the door

"I'm sorry Ali, for blaming you for the death of Mackenzie. I know it wasn't your fault, I just... I was drunk and hurt. Forgive me for the horrible things I said, you didn't deserve them."

She doesn't answer me, but I know she's against the door just like me because I can hear slight sobbing through the door

"I know that you love me Ali, and I am grateful to God for someone as wonderful as you loves me. But I can't love you Alison. I'm sorry, maybe in another life, in other circumstances I would love you with all my strength no matter what, I would fight for you Ali, love you and kiss away all your tears... I wish I could do that but I can't because all my love has been used up, I'm too broken Ali and I don't know how to love again."

I hope awhile there sitting, thinking about my next words. But there isn't more I can say.

"Goodbye Alison" I love you a voice says in my head. I get up and slowly walk away from her house.