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Isabella got to her room and just laid on the bed. She was really tired but she couldn't sleep.
"Told you that you'd like them," Emily said opening the door. She walked over to the bed and sat facing bella.
"Are you alright?" She asked.
"Yeah. I'm just tired" Isabella said.
"Let's try to get some sleep then" Emily said lying down next to her daughter. Isabella moved closer to her.
"Mom?" She said.
"Yeah"
"When are we going to dc?"
"I'm thinking maybe Sunday" Emily said.
It was Wednesday so she thought till Sunday they would have some time to get ready.
"What do you think?" Emily asked bella.
"Sunday is fine" she said hugging her mom.
They stayed hugging and not a noise was made till about 12 minutes later when Bella sat on the bed and said "I can't sleep"
"Neither can I" Emily said.
Bella looked tired and upset about the fact she wasn't really able to sleep.
"Do you want to go for a ride?" Emily asked.
"Sure" Bella said getting up. "Anything is better just just staying here"
Emily got up and they headed downstairs. They found JJ on her way up.
"Hey I was gonna tell you that we were heading to the hotel" JJ said.
"Alright. I'm going for a ride with Bella" Emily said.
"Okay. Oh and Hotch wants to go back tomorrow so we have to go" JJ said.
"You're leaving?" Isabella asked Emily and They could see the scared look on her face.
"No no. It's just us. Your mom is staying" JJ said and gave Bella a hug. She could feel the kid was tensed.
"Hey." Emily said softly and Isabella looked at her. "I'm not going anywhere" she said giving bella a warm smile. "Okay?"
"Alright" Bella agreed. They walked to the kitchen and headed off.
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Emily drove without a destination for a while and then bella said "do you want to get ice cream again?"
"I sure do" Emily said smiling. She was happy bella wanted to do things But she knew that was all an act to cover up the pain she didn't want to let out. Emily knew that with time she would be okay though.
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They went to the mall and to the ice cream shop. Once again got the same flavors. When they were done Isabella was really really tired. She felt like if she laid her head down somewhere she would fall asleep.
"Can we go home now?" Bella said.
"Sure. Are you alright?" Emily asked concerned.
"Yeah. I'm just tired" she said. They got up. Emily threw her arm around bella and they went to the car. Isabella fell asleep on the way home. When they got there Emily had to wake her up.
"Hey. We're home" she said softly.
Bella opened her eyes and stretched, making Emily laugh.
They got out of the car and went up. Isabella went straight to the couch. She new she wouldn't sleep anymore. The tiredness was there but she didn't feel like sleeping. She turned the tv and started watching 'baby mama'.
Emily sat next to her.
"Hey. Lay here" Emily said placing a pillow on her lap. Bella laid down and they just watched the movie.
Isabella felt like her head was going to a hundred million places at the same time. She was thinking about her dad, and about moving to dc, about her mom going to work and what she would do, Where would she stay. She was scared. She was scared about all of that and about the fact that living with her mom would make all they did to protect her before disappear. She knew if those bad people wanted they would find her And she was so scared about that.
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The movie was almost over when JJ called.
"Hey. What are you two up to?" She asked.
"Just watching a movie" Emily said.
"Penelope wants to know if her and I can stop by" JJ asked laughing at Penelope doing some sort of sign language telling her to ask.
"Of course." Emily said laughing.
"Tell little Prentiss I'm bringing ice cream" JJ said. "Chocolate right?" She asked.
"Yup" Emily agreed smiling.
"Alright. We'll be there soon then" JJ said and hang up.
"Who was it?" Bella asked.
"JJ and Penelope are coming over" Emily said hoping bella would be okay with that. Isabella didn't say anything.
"They are bringing ice cream" Emily said with a smile.
"Cool" Bella said still paying attention to the tv.
"Hey. If you don't want them here I can tell them not to come" Emily said. She knew her friends would understand.
"No mom it's fine." Isabella said now staring at her mother.
"Are you sure?" Emily asked.
"Yeah. I like them" Bella said with a little smile and sat up. "I'm gonna take a shower, okay?"
"Alright" Emily agreed. Isabella went up to her bathroom. She didn't mind them coming over but she felt so tired. She just wasn't on the mood for talking much.
She put on pajamas and headed downstairs.
The girls were sitting in the living room.
"Hey mini" Penelope said smiling.
"Hi" Bella said.
"We brought ice cream" Penelope said.
"Thanks but I'm not really hungry" bella said heading to the couch her mom was sitting.
"You don't have to be hungry to eat ice cream" Emily said.
"I don't want ice cream right now" Bella said. She sat on her mom's lap and snuggled her.
"Alright. Later then" Emily said.
They stayed there for a while watching tv and bella didn't let go of her mom. When the program they were watching ended Emily said "you guys can stay over if you want. Jeremy went to his place with Marley"
"Sure if that's okay" JJ said signing bella on Emily's lap. Isabella was listening but she wasn't looking at them.
"Is it alright if they stay over?" Emily asked her.
"Sure" Bella said and closed her eyes.
She was so tired.
Their conversation was cut off by the buzzer. JJ went to answer since Emily had bella.
It was Callie and she stopped by to check on bella. Isabella was almost asleep on her mother's arms when Callie got to the living room.
"Hey. Look who's here" Emily said petting Bella's hair. Isabella opened her eyes and when she saw Callie she opened up her arms as a way of asking for a hug. Callie hugged and and sat next to Emily on the couch.
" so how's everything munchkin?" Callie asked. Isabella got out of Emily's lap and sat on Callie's.
" it's fine I guess" she said. She looked sad and tired.
"Anything you call me okay?" Callie said. Isabella nodded yes. "Tomorrow I'm not on call so I can bring Sofia over if you want" she said and bella nodded yes.
"Alright" Callie smiled.
"I'm gonna go to my room now okay?" Isabella said to Emily.
"Alright. Come on" Emily said getting up. Isabella got up and they headed upstairs. Emily was still holding her hand when Bella laid down on the bed. Emily started to tuck her in.
"Are you tucking me in?" Bella asked embarrassed.
"Yes" Emily said smiling.
"You don't have to do that" Bella said.
"I know. But I want to" Emily said sitting on the bed.
"I'm going to shower and I'll be right back okay" she said and Isabella nodded yes.
"I love you" Emily said.
"I love you too mommy" Bella replied. Emily kissed her forehead and said "goodnight"
"Goodnight" Bella said.
Emily walked out of the room and went downstairs. Isabella closed her eyes and tried to sleep but her mind was going crazy with all those thoughts. She couldn't sleep. She was so tired and she wanted to sleep so much but she just couldn't.
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Downstairs Emily got to the living room and sat on the couch.
"She's not sleeping well is she?" Callie asked.
"No" Emily said. "She's in and out all night. And more awake than sleeping"
"She looks really tired" Penelope said.
"Yeah" Emily agreed. "I just hope she can sleep tonight"
"I just hope this won't be like Robbie" Callie said.
Robbie was Isabella's dog who died of a stomach infection. When he died she couldn't sleep well for more than a week. She kept having nightmares and stopped eating just like she was now.
"How's her appetite?" Callie asked.
"What appetite?" Emily said. "She barely touches the food" she said with a look of disappointment.
"Hey. She'll be alright" Callie said.
"She's tough Em" JJ said.
"She's hurt Emily. She just needs some time" Callie said.
"I know" Emily said. Emily knew Bella was a very strong kid but she also knew she hid her feelings. She only opened up to Emily but she wasn't even doing that this time.
"She'll be okay" Penelope said.
"Well I have to go. It's late and Sofia's with the sitter. I just came to check on her." Callie said.
"Thanks for coming" Emily said and Callie smiled.
"Well I see you guys tomorrow" she said walking to the door. Emily walked with her.
"Anything call me" Callie said giving Emily's hand a squeeze. Emily smiled and Callie went home.
Emily headed back to the living room.
"You guys can stay at Jeremy's room or where you were yesterday. You chose" Emily said.
"I think where we were yesterday is better" Penelope said. "In case bella wakes up"
"Okay" Emily said. "I'm gonna take shower really quick" she said heading to her bag to get her clothes.
Penelope and JJ had taken a shower at the hotel and they didn't bring pajamas so Emily landed JJ pajamas shorts and Penelope was wearing a dress so she just used that. They went up to the bedroom to find bella awake still. Emily climbed on the bed and Penelope and JJ laid on the mattress on the floor.
"Goodnight" both said at the same time.
"Goodnight" Emily said. Isabella didn't say anything. She just starred at her mom. Her eyes were almost closing. Emily snuggled her.
"Close your eyes. I'm right here" Emily whispered to bella.
"Don't leave" Bella said.
"I'm not going anywhere." Emily said hugging Isabella tighter. It wasn't long till bella was sleeping and right after Emily slept too. Penelope was the last one to sleep. She wanted to wait to make sure everyone was okay. She looked up at the bed and saw Bella and Emily sleeping hugging each other so she laid back down and fell asleep too.
After about half an hour Isabella started sweating and moving a lot. Emily woke up and hugged her and kept telling her everything was okay. Isabella opened her eyes and Emily could see all the fear in them. The kid was terrified. Emily sat on the bed and picked bella up.
"It's alright. It was just a bad dream. Just a dream" Emily kept saying while Isabella cried. JJ woke up. She saw Bella was crying so she pretended she was asleep. She knew Bella was embarrassed of crying in front of people. Bella cried for just a little while and suddenly started wiping the tears out of her face and laid down.
"I'm right here" Emily said laying next to Bella and holding her hand.
"Don't leave" Bella said looking straight to Emily's eyes.
Emily nodded yes, hugged Bella and said "try to go back to sleep baby. It's gonna be okay" Emily said softly.
Isabella closed her eyes and hugged Emily tight.
After 10 minutes Emily was asleep. She thought Isabella slept too because she was so still but she didn't sleep. She was still because she was trying to but she couldn't. After a while Emily let bella lose a little and bella moved away a bit. Tears started rolling down her face because she wanted to sleep so bad but she just wasn't able too. She wanted to wake Emily up but she knew her mom was tired too so she decided not to. She tried hard not to make a sound. She was crying so much she didn't want anyone to wake up and see her like that. She started sobbing a bit but quietly. After a couple of minutes Emily woke up. When she saw Isabella crying she moved closer to her.
"Honey what happened?" She asked softly.
"I can't sleep" Isabella said crying even more.
"Come here" Emily said hugging her.
"I'm so tired mom. I want to sleep" she cried louder. Penelope and JJ woke up. Emily was hugging bella tight.
"It's okay. I know you're tired" she said handing over Bella's blanket to her. She had that since she was a baby but when she turned 6 she started to leave it under her pillow because she was embarrassed about it.
"I just want to sleep mommy" Isabella let out a sob and then she couldn't stop anymore.
Bella tried to cover her face, as Emily pulled her, forcing her to sit on the bed. She wrapped Bella in her arms. She pulled her into her lap and she let her cry. Emily hated that sound. Isabella sobs clawed at her heart and made her furious that she couldn't stop them. Bella hadn't really let herself feel much the fact that her dad was gone. She tried as hard as she could to be strong. She's shed tears but she didn't break down. As much as she hated to see her daughter in pain, she just held onto her and let her cry.
Emily held Bella's head against her chest, and slowly began to rock.
"It okay it's okay" she kept saying.
"No it's not" bella said loud. She was sobbing so loud that made Penelope cry too.
"Baby I promise you it will be okay. Close your eyes mommy is right here" Emily said rocking bella even more now.
"I want my dad" Isabella let it out. That broke Emily's heart. "I just want daddy" she sobbed.
"I know honey. I'm sorry" Emily said. She couldn't hold her tears anymore. "I'm so sorry" she said.
"Mommy I'm scared. I'm so scared" Isabella cried.
"You're gonna be alright. Okay? You're gonna be fine. I'm right here. It's gonna be okay" Emily said rocking bella.
"Please don't leave me too. Okay?" Isabella cried and hugged Emily even tighter.
"I don't have anyone else please. Please I can't lose you too mommy"
At that moment Emily realized what was going on and her heart sank. She realized what Isabella was so scared of. She was scared of losing her mother too. Emily hugged her tight and rocked her.
"I'm not leaving you okay? I'm not going anywhere" Emily said crying too.
Penelope and JJ were in tears.
"Calm down calm Down I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere" Emily said. She just waited Bella release all of the pressure that had been building up in her chest.
"I don't want to feel like this anymore," Isabella said, her voice thick with tears.
"I know, baby, i know. It's gonna get better I promise" Emily soothed quietly.
"Shuu Shuu" Emily kept saying while rocking Bella. And she kept doing that until Isabella cried herself to sleep around 13 minutes later.
Emily didn't want to put her down because she didn't want her to wake up so she just kept holding her and rocking her slightly to make sure she would stay sleeping. Penelope and JJ sat up on the bed. They had never seen Emily cry like that.
"Em. She's gonna be okay" Penelope said.
"I just wish I could make it stop. She's so little she doesn't deserve any of this. She's so scared" Emily said her tears starting to come out again.
"I know how this feel and I'm telling you she'll get through this Em. I promise you that" Penelope said.
Emily gave a sweet smile and JJ and Penelope smiled back.
"She's gonna be alright" JJ said.
They just stayed there sitting quietly while Emily rocked sleeping Bella in her arms.
"You guys should sleep" Emily said after a while.
"Anything just wake us up okay?" JJ said.
"We're family too" Penelope added.
"Okay" Emily said.
JJ and Penelope went to the mattress and it wasn't to long till they fell asleep. They were very tired too. Emily didn't sleep. She turned the tv on and put the volume down. She rocked Bella for a while longer and then she just sat there not taking her eyes of her baby. She just wished she could take all the pain and fear away from her. She just wanted to make it all better. But she couldn't. She knew she had to give her time. She knew Bella was strong and she believed she would get through it. Emily just stayed awake all night holding her daughter in her arms and hoping she wouldn't wake up in the middle of the night again.
Around 5am Bella opened her eyes.
"Mommy?" She whispered. Emily hugged her tight and rocked her.
"I'm right here. Close your eyes. Mommy is right here" she whispered in Bella's ear. Isabella was so tired that she closed her eyes and slept till almost 8 am.
"Hi" said Emily when Bella opened her eyes. Isabella didn't say anything she just hugged her mom tight.
"Are you okay?" Emily asked.
And for the first time after what happened Isabella answered honestly "no" she said with tears in her eyes. Emily squeezed her tighter.
"I'm right here" she said.
"I miss him mom" Isabella said. Emily didn't knew what to say. She just hugged Bella and started to rock her a little again. Penelope woke up and sat on Bella's bed quietly.
"It's everything okay?" She asked after a while.
"Yeah. She's gonna be fine" Emily said.
"Bella." Penelope said.
Isabella turned her head and stared at Penelope.
"Your mom is not all you have" she said with tears in her eyes. "You have all of us. And you always will. We're family"
Isabella let go of her mom and hugged Penelope.
"And we'll protect each other okay? You don't have to worry. Nothing is gonna happen to you or your mom okay?" She said still hugging Bella.
"Okay" Bella said. She let go of Penelope and laid next to her mother.
"Do you want to sleep again?" Emily asked.
"No. I just wanna stay here for a while." Isabella said. Emily laid on the bed and snuggled Bella. Penelope laid too leaving Bella in the middle.
"We've got you" Penelope said. Emily smiled. She was glad she had her team. It wasn't long till JJ woke up and went in the bed with them.
After a while the buzzer went on.
"I'll go" said JJ jumping off the bed. She went and answered it and it was Callie with Sofia. It was almost 8:30 and they had scheduled to 8 because that was the time Arizona would head of to the hospital.
"It's Callie" JJ screamed from the bottom of the stairs.
"Let's go" Emily said. Isabella got up and went downstairs. She was holding her mother's hand and they were followed by Penelope.
