This chapter may get a bit upsetting...I'll let you to decide.
His mother had kept to her words and the next day Lee was walking up the stairs to Lucy's flat with a heavy heart, Toby next to his side. He felt sick. He couldn't do it, he didn't think he could physically say the words, he could just about think about them.
Toby had given him advice but he didn't listen. How could he when he felt as if his world was crumbling around him? Becoming king could go fuck itself for all he cared. He could always come back for her when he turned king but by then there would be a chance that she would have moved on. That killed him a little bit inside as well.
Getting to the door before the corridor he sighed as he pushed it open, Toby patting him on the back with a small, sad smile to which Lee could only shake his head. He'd never felt so crappy in all of his life and having to do this was slowly killing him. As the steps towards her flat door became less his heart grew heavier. He was about to possibly break someone's heart and he didn't know if he would ever be able to live with himself. This was real, not some petty set up his dad had made him endure and that's what made it all the more heart-breaking. The relationship wasn't out of duty but because it was his choice. He should've just stayed platonic, maybe he'd be allowed to see her.
Gulping the lump in his throat as he got to the door, he held his hand out to knock before letting it drop. He couldn't do it, he just couldn't but the glare Toby was sending him was unnerving him a bit. Adjusting his cap, just to find something to do Lee decided he couldn't put off the inevitable any longer. Knocking the door, it was the beginning of the end.
When the door opened the first thing that broke his heart was seeing Lucy's beaming smile crumble at seeing the grim expression on his face and he knew that she knew then it was over.
"Hi," she whispered as Lee replied with the same, his hands in his pockets. "Come in," and with that Lucy stepped to the side as she let Lee pass. He made his way to stand by the sofa as he watched Lucy sit down, hands in her lap. Sitting down next to her he took hold of her hands and held them in his as tears collected in his eyes because they were already streaming down her face.
"I..I," he stumbled as his face stayed millimetres away from hers. Scared about not being able to kiss her after he said what he needed to say he did. The taste of salt because of their tears on each other's lips. His hands let go of her hands and wrapped around her waist, her hands clinging to him as she kissed him. Lucy and Lee both knew this was their last kiss so they poured everything they had into it, it was little bit desperate. Pulling back they went back to their original position, Lee holding onto her hands, his thumb running over the back of her knuckles.
"Just say it," Lucy whispered as his hands tightened their grips on her hands. She just needed this to be over as quickly as possible, the longer it went on the more it hurt but the shorter it was the less time she had to spend with him.
Taking a deep breath Lee managed to stutter out,"we..We..Can't see each other anymore," he whispered. He could hear her heart break along with his as he said each word. Tears were flowing free and fast now.
"I guessed as such," Lucy replied as she untangled her hands from his. Not that she wanted to, she just couldn't stay that close to him at the moment.
Lucy had known from the beginning of the relationship that it wouldn't last mainly because he wasn't from London but she let herself fall in love with him. She'd been warned about these situations but Lee was sweet and kind and he was funny. Lucy knew it had only been a couple of weeks since they met and her friends would berate her for falling in love so fast by claiming it was just lust but Lucy knew different, she knew she loved him.
"I..I'm sorry," he choked out as Lucy nodded her head.
"Me too," she whispered trying not to break down,"I need to know why."
"I...I don't want to..End things, Lucy. I really..Really don't," he began as Lucy's face fell more.
"Then why are you ending them?" And that's when the sobs began, she couldn't hold them in any longer.
"Because I have no choice," it was the truth. He didn't have a say in the matter. What he felt meant nothing and that's why he was being forced to do this. He couldn't tell her now, couldn't tell her the truth although she deserved it more than anyone.
"I'm not going to get an honest answer am I?" Lucy sighed as Lee shook his head. Not now, anyway. Maybe one day in the future he'd tell her but now wasn't the right time.
Sensing this was the end of the conversation he stood up from the sofa. Bending down he gave her a lingering kiss to the cheek before walking towards the door and opening it. Standing in the middle of the doorway at the threshold he turned around to face Lucy one last time who hadn't moved from her position on the sofa. Lee tried to take in every detail but his years were blurring his vision. It was time for one last goodbye.
"Goodbye, Lucy."
"Goodbye, Lee," and with that he shut the door.
He felt as if his heart was being torn apart by bare hands. It hurt. Walking up to Toby he asked one question and all Toby could do was nod sadly.
"Is this what it feels like to have your heartbroken?"
