Hi, I'm sorry that thi s one took so long. just returned to school and overwhelmed. So I hope this is good. There may be a couple of mistakes that I will go back and fix later in the week. Same as usual review, favorite, and PM whatever you like! So hope you enjoy!


I wake up in a sweat like I had been stuck in a sauna. Attempting to catch my breath I look around and see Kyoya with his back to me calmly. Not again. How many times am I going to have to re-live this memory? That was the night of graduation when the twins and Tamaki had pressured me into choosing who I would love forever. It was also the last day that I had seen them. Maybe I shouldn't have ran out that day. Maybe I should have just told them that it was either all of them or none of them. Wouldn't that have fixed everything?

"Haruhi?" I hear a groggy Kyoya say as he turned over in bed next to me. He sat up over me and wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me to his chest. "Are you okay?"

"No." I shake my head "I had that dream again."

"Don't worry about it. Everything will work out eventually. You just need to give them time. Maybe things have changed."

"Maybe." I say softly pressing myself against Kyoya in the dark room. I look up to his glasses less face that was looking out the window. He ran his hand through my hair gently. So gentle. So caring. So loving….

"Did you have sex with Hikaru? Just wondering." He tried to play off calmly.

"That's something you don't need to know." I say now sitting next to him against the head board.

"Fine I won't ask again." He says and reaches toward the night stand and grabs the book he's been reading. I stand up and get out of bed shuffling toward the closet. It was 7:00 and we got back at 12 last night so I should probably get dressed. The closet had Kyoya and I's clothes already hung up nicely in order of color and size.

"Nice." I say going through them slowly looking from the blue to the green down to the yellow. I pull out a white strapless sun dress with yellow polka dots on it. It had a yellow band going around it that would look great on me. In the dresser that held our shoes I opened the top drawer. Kyoya's were on the bottom. I take out white ballet flats and get dressed. Turning around I see that Kyoya was still reading his extremely boring book.

"You should put on your glasses." I say looking in the mirror putting on a plain silver chain necklace. I watched him in the mirror get up and go to the closet pulling out a white button down shirt and black dress pants. He put on a light blue tie with black dress shoes. He looks really good, but when doesn't he?

"Well don't you look gorgeous. "He says wrapping his arms around my waist and pulled me against him. I felt his lips trail up past my shoulders and all the way up to the edge of my jaw bone. I moan when he comes behind my ear. His mouth was so warm I just wanted him to take me right here and now.

"Kyoya?"

"Mmm?" He says with his mouth now going on my cheekbone.

"Make love to me."

"That was the plan." he says whispering softly into my ear.

He picks me up and he lays me onto the bed with my arms above my head. First he takes off his shirt and then me own. He looks at my half naked body hungrily at first but then he stared at it like I was being eaten alive by angry rabbits.

"What?" I say covering myself with my arms.

"I don't know… I liked you better before. When you were all mine. But now yo have love marks from other men. Hikaru, Mori, Haninozuka, Kaoru… all of them have marked you."

"Not Kaoru." I say trying to lighten the mood.

"Whatever. " He says now sitting on the bed next to me looking down. "They all still touched you and loved you. I thought I could stand it at first. But apparently I cant." He says bringing his hand to his forehead and a couple tears ran down. Ive never seen so much emotion from him its shocking.

I crawl over and lay my head on his chest looking up at his crying face. I curl up so that he brings his arms around me tightly.

"I love you." He says wiping away a tear and now looking me straight in the eyes. The determination, the strength, the effort and all this time I took it for granted. Maybe I should stop being so oblivious and start to notice things. I loved Kyoya Otari… and the others. I sigh in my head and get frustrated. I can't love them all!

He brings his lips down to mine and in all the frustration I just sit there thinking to myself completely ignoring his burning hot lips. He backs away and looks at me confused, but he shakes it off and we both sit up re-dressing ourselves. Again.

"Ding Dong!" We hear shouted outside our door about an hour later. I jump to answer the door but Kyoya stands, turns me, and I fall back onto the bed. That sly devil. He opens and I blonde boy walks in along with a tall dark haired figure.

"Hey!" I say hugging them both and returning to sit on the bed nicely to make sure the dress wasn't revealing to much. They both sit down, Mori at the spinning circular and Honey next to me. Kyoya sits at the desk and faces us examining for any time of touching, platonic or not.

"What do we want to do today? Hika-chan and Kou-chan both said that we have to choose. I can be anything we want!"

"Hmmm" Kyoya says in deep thought. 'Say something boring I dare you" I think to myself glaring at him.

"Let's go to Wall Street. There's some people there I would like to meet they have this new-"

"No" Honey cries now laying with his head hanging off the bed. "That's so boring!"

"Fine." Says Kyoya now pouting to himself in his own little way with his arms crossed.

I turn to Mori who was just watching the situation as a bystander.

"Well what do you think Mori?" I say to him snapping him out of his hazy half-asleep viewing.

"Shopping." He says blandly and then looks out the window probably creeping on people going by the hotel.

"Ooooh sounds fun!" says Honey now sitting up and jumps off the bed excitingly.

"Fine with me." Says Kyoya.

"Okay. Just let me call the twins and we will be on our way."

I go to call them but I get an incoming call. The twins. 'Are they psychic?' I ask myself answering the phone.

"Hello?"

"Hi" they say chiming in together at prime energy.

"So we decided."

"And that decision would be?" Says Hikaru.

"Shopping."

"Ahh what a surprise." Says Kaoru sarcastically.

"Were on our way now." Says Hikaru ending the conversation with a click.

"Um bye?" I say to the phone setting it down.

. Love the manners boys. I return to my seat and Mori is staring out the window. Kyoya and Honey were having some kind of stare off with each other. Odd. I roll me eyes and attempt to fix the situation.

"So... uh… do you... uh... know what you want to... um…buy?" I rub my legs awkwardly.

"Nothing." Kyoya said and picked up his phone and I watched the screen glow odd off his glasses.

"I don't know." Honey said clutching the end of the bed. Mori grunted and returned to his staring. How insightful they are.

We sat in silence until a half hour later we heard the bell ring so I jumed to answer the door. As usual. In the entrance were two tall red haired men hanging on each other casually. The older one entered first kissing my hand while the other followed giving me a kiss on the cheek. The boys took their place and stood staring at each other. I guess some things never change. The awkward silence continues until Kyoya stands followed by Mori and Honey.

"We going?"

"We have to get their somehow." Hikaru said harshly. What was the tenseness?

"Oh." I say back following the group leave except for Kaoru who was behind me. We reach the entrance of the hotel and come to two large SUV's. Honey, Mori and Hikaru go in one car. I, Kaoru, and Kyoya go in the other.

"I would have thought that you would have joined your brother?" Kyoya says adjusting his thin frames.

"No. HE's in a bad mood. It's best to leave him with the two most patient people. As you can see our little group here isn't very much."

I nod my head and look out the window sitting next to Kaoru with Kyoya on his other side. The New York scene is so much different than the night life. It was still bustling with people but they seem less dressed up and more in suits or pencil skirts.

We pull up to a tall building with a large sign in the front. Both SUV's full step store and there are tall model like women running around in high heels and dressed to the fullest. One turns and checks out the boys and continues with a dress. We look around the store and I go to the girls section looking at clothes not really caring.

"This is kind of boring by myself." I mutter.

"Then may I help you?" I turn to the tall female to my right. She had light brown hair and wide brown eyes.

"Renge? What the hell are you doing here" My shock flows through me. Stalking me? Wow.

"I thought I would see how the infamous host club is. I was the manager remember?"

"You didn't do much."

"I did a lot of things… just not with the host club."

'Whore."

"Cross dresser."

"Slut."

"Nerd"

"Lovely Ladies!" we both turn to behind us and see a tall masculine figure with thick glasses and dark brown swept hair. He was wearing a white button down shirt, a black vest, black pants, and a red ascot. His shoes were shown so well I could see myself.

"Kuzukiyo?" I say to him in disbelief. Let me make this easier. He's my old class president who suffers from Nectophobia and any other fear you can think of.

"What are you doing here?"

"Well after Momoka decided she loved you more than me she told me to leave her alone. That was when I decided… I'm Gay. I know right? Shocking. Well I followed the Hitachiins and got a job here in retail. I must say a pretty fulfilling job. Now back to my original question, how may I help you?"

"She needs clothes."

"Haruhi, when did you become a girl?" He asks me just realizing now I have a completely different sex.

"Since birth."

"Okie Dokie. No questions" he says grabbing our wrists and leading us to the dressing rooms passing the twins. They look at us confused but waves us off with a hand and goes back to looking at jeans and being watched by sales girls.

I get in and a few minutes later stuff is being hung in the door and I look at the clothes thoroughly. Hell no. I put them on anyways not like I had a choice. I put on a large sheer gray top. Over it is a very tight, short, tight skirt that makes the shirt pop over slightly. My shoes were black heels that I felt I was going to die in. I look in the mirror for a second turning around to make sure I wasn't to be confused with a hooker.

"Come out!" I hear Renge shout from outside my door with a sigh I open it faced with Renge in some kind of flamingo pink number. The boys were sitting in round couch chairs watching me. I turn around slowly with no enjoyment.

"I want to buy it!" I hear Kaoru shout1

"No, I am!" Kyoya shouts!

"No! I want to she looks so cute!" Honey says jumping up and down.

"Humph!" Mori grunts eying up the outfit.

Hikaru stays just watching with a monotonous face. Did he like it?

"Enjoy?" I say to him spinning now with a little more grace.

"No, you should look more decent." He says crossing his arms attempting to look away. You know you like it. I wink at him hoping that he eases up.

"Whatever." He says turning farther away. I swear if he ends up being like Kyoya with this insane jealousy act I will flip him right out of that chair.

I get back in the dressing room faced with more and more outfits for about an hour. But over time the boys get hungry and some left. Kyoya and Kaoru stayed and continued to watch as me and Renge tried on outfit after outfit claiming they wanted to buy them all. And this is only the first store we have gone to.

Next we go to an all-women's store that me, Renge, and Kaoru all enter. It was smaller and the clothes look very vintage. Antique Jewelry like keys and watches. The prints and materials appeared to be older. I try on a long floor length white dress with lace at the top. I walk out and I see Kaoru blush a tad.

"You look beautiful." He says to me with his hand over his mouth his face only getting darker. Renge leaves hers in a short turquoise dress and her mouth gapes at me.

"You have to get it!"

"Really?"

"Yes!" she shouts with a jump.

"Uhh okay?"

I get back into my clothing I was tired of trying stuff on so I went to sit at the bench in front of the dressing rooms with Kaoru. Renge leaves out of one and sits next to me facing the floor length curtains.

"I think I'm going to go join the boys." She says lamely and stands giving me a wink on her way out. What the hell?

Kaoru turns to me slightly and looks around. He pints at a b=short peach colored s=dress with a lace band around it. It was something I would have never picked out. "I designed that" he said d standing and going over to it.

"I had based it off of the uniform at the school. I meshed the yellow and pink and came up with this. Not anything like the uniform. I know. But I was thinking of you and how you would look in it and I just couldn't help myself. And Uhh... I was hoping that during all of this rambling you would kiss me like in cheesy manga or something... But I guess not."

"Hah." I laugh to myself. He was always the adorable one, in the now-shota-Honey-like- Bunny-Rabbit-cute but more of eager-cute-sweet-embarrassed way.

I look up at him and takes his head in mine and lean in for a kiss. The arm not holding the dress pulls me closer up to him and my lips reach his. Electricity. I suddenly wanted to touch him and feel him. Why? Why was I in such an odd mood?

"Mmm.. try this… on." He says between kisses setting the dress between us breaking off the kiss. My gaze drops and I grab the dress getting into the dressing room.

"Fine" I quickly jump into the dress and walk out to him pinning quickly to get it over with. He holds me against him. "I love it." He says whispering in my ear. Really? I hate it. I wanted to say but I let it go. He ushers me into the dressing room closing the curtain behind him. No. He wouldn't.

"You should really get out of that." He says taking off his shirt revealing g his abs and his lean fit body.

"I let the dress slide to the floor stepping out of it. "Okay." I say now taking off his pants letting the dark wash jeans drop to the floor. I look at his tight navy blue underwear.

He takes my body into his hold and begins to kiss my neck and his mouth reaches my neck I felt his warm mouth, his hot breath, and his sharp teeth grazed my skin.I moan to myself.

"Kaoru."

"Hmm'"

"Thanks." In between kisses he looks up at me and meets my gaze.

"Why?"

"For loving me."

"I can't help myself even if I wanted to. You're irresistible. We don't have time to talk or any forplay. We have to hurry. But I promise to give you an amazing night soon." He says smiling placing his hands on my shoulders kissing me quickly. He turns me around so my back reaches his hot and warm chest. He undoes my bra and it falls to the floor and my underwear follows making pink pile on the floor.

"He takes off his underwear and I feel his erection press against me. It turns me on more and I lean down with my hands pressed against h the wall. He runs his hands down my shoulders and touches my chest. He runs his hands over my nipple causing electricity to run through my body. He places kisses on my back that sent me into pure ecstasy.

He finally puts his hands on my hips and presses me against her. His erection positions himself and finally enters. He presses against me so my body jutted at the wall. My womb started to burn with pleasure and I found myself wanting it faster and harder. I wanted him to push against me so hard that he breaks through.

"More." I mutter between deep breaths to him. I wanted him to make me feel loved, I wanted to feel alive, and I wanted to feel special. Even though I'm having so much enjoyment and pleasure why does this constant need some tot me over and over again? Why do I need to feel loved all the time? Am I wrong? Insane? Needy? I try to shake away the thoughts and focus on my activity at hand. Sex.

He went against me over and over again and I felt that he was going to come soon. And he did. He came and my body reacted coming soon after and we both try to regain our strength to stand. I turn r=from the wall attempting to fix my hair in the mirror turning to him. "

"Well. Quite the dress." I say. It was the only thing that had come to my mind.

"Thanks." He says re-buttoning his black button up shirt. HE added his white tie and jeans to match. We both get dressed and leave the dressing room receiving a wink from the lady at the counter. She encouraged it?

We both get into the busy New York street and run across to the little Bistro that we knew the rest of the group was att. We enter and they were all at a large table on the patio. Some were drinking and some were eating. They had a lively conversation. Renge was standing waving her hands above her hand while Hikaru yelled for her to sit. Honey was attempting to get Kyoya to eat some of his cake. Mori was fast asleep resting his hands on the table.

"Hey!" I wave with Kaoru and the now lively group waves back. Renge pulls in two chars between her and Hikaru. We sit, I next to Renge and Kaoru next to Hikaru.

"What took you two so long?" Hikaru said. "Business?" I had completely forgotten that store must work for them. Maybe he knew that girl. What if he had slept with her?

"Oh yes. I had long awaited business to attend to." Kaoru says with a wink at me.