Episode 9- pillow talk

Cassie couldn't sleep, she could feel Diana's breath next to her, and she could feel her eyes moving as she was trying to fall asleep. It's not like it's the first time they slept in the same bed, when they were friends they did it all the time, she even lived with Diana once but now- it was so awkward.

Diana was nervous, after all the shit that happened between them, the fact that Cassie told her to come sleep next to her was a step in the right direction and she didn't want to do anything that will screw it up.

She just lay in bed thinking about a million things when Cassie spoke.

"You can't sleep?"

Diana looked at her, she saw in her eyes she was afraid going back to sleep.

"No. I can't stop thinking", she whispered

"About what?" Cassie asked

"About everything I guess"

"I don't want to have a nightmare again"

"I knew"

"So let's talk – it can be a great distraction from the nightmares"

Diana didn't know what to say. She felt like everything can ruin the moment. Cassie spoke.

"For a while now I can't stop thinking about my mother- in the last month she was alive we fought a lot. About the stupidest things. The last fight was so brutal we didn't talk for two weeks- we lived in the same house but we would just pass each other without saying a word- we were both so stubborn – nobody would say sorry first – it shows you are weak. I was so afraid of being weak. But know – after I met you guys I don't care anymore- I'm so tired of pretending everything is O.K. when it isn't. "

Cassie started to cry; Diana never saw Cassie cry before.

"Cassie nobody can be strong all the time – its O.K. to be weak sometimes. But I promise you we are all there for you – I will do everything in my power to help you find your way. This home is a safe zone- you can be however you want to be".

When Diana woke up in the morning in Cassie's bed, Cassie was already awake, she and Adam were making breakfast in the kitchen. They looked happy. When she came closer they asked her if she could save the meal they almost destroyed.

"How is it even possible to destroy it?" Diana smiled

Adam blamed Cassie who didn't watch the food and Cassie blamed Adam for not being the responsible adult. It was always kind of weird being with Cassie and Adam in the same room, there was this vibe of secrets in the air but now – now the sun was shining and the smell of food in the air and the simplest joy of the little things that made her feel happy.

"I want to eat ice cream" Cassie said in the afternoon "you remember that place we used to go?" Diana remembered, she would order vanilla and Cassie loved the chocolate chip cookie one.

Adam was in work so they went by themselves. The place was kind of empty. It's was nice. They sat in the table near the window, watched random people living their lives.

Cassie looked at Diana with a smile "thank you"

"You're welcome"

Suddenly the old lady in the shop, the owner- came and stand beside them, she looked at Cassie and said to Diana that she have the sweetest child, she gave them another ice cream for free.

"How old are you honey?" the old lady asked, Cassie couldn't say a word

"She's 3 year's old " Diana said

Cassie in an instinct came closer to Diana

"She's a little shy" the lady said and touched her hair gently

Diana took Cassie ad put her in her lap, the lady go away.

"Are you o.k. Cassie?" They never went outside the house before the accident, she didn't think about that.

"You want to come back to your sit?"

Cassie said no, she loved the safe feeling she got sitting in Diana's lap, like nothing could hurt her, and she didn't feel ashamed about that anymore, maybe she was an orphan once – but not now.