It was about four days later and it was the day of Clare's father's furneral. She didn't want to go, she was still in denial. But Eli made her go, he told her that if she didn't she would regret it one day, like how he feels with Julia. She eventually gave in, and put a smile on through the whole thing. Guests quickly filled the church, some Eli knew, some he didn't, some that Clare didn't even know. Kids from Degrassi were visable in the rows, most of them were sobbing. Clare looked at them in disgust. Her mother had a chair pulled up next to his coffin with her head in her hands. She was supposed to be greeting the guests, but she just couldn't take it. A relative came up to Clare and gave her a hug before pulling back and holding her hand. "I'm so sorry about your loss, your father was a great man." That's when she laughed. She completely broke out in giggles while everyone stared at her.
"Are you kidding me? Hahahahahaha. You must be crazy if you think he's a good man. Do you know what he was doing when he got in that accident?" The entire church got quiet and Clare's mother was now staring at her.
"Clare, I don't think you should announce it to everyone." Eli whispered to her and tried to hold her hand, but she pushed him off.
"He was cheating on my mother. With some bitch named Tracy!" She put her hands up in anger and stared at the person before her.
"Clare Edwards, you do not use that type of language, especially not in a church." Mrs. Edwards was now standing in front of Clare, trying to break up the argument between the two.
"Watch me." She stared at her mom with challenge in her eyes. "FUCK MY FATHER, FUCK EVERYONE, FUCK EVERYTHING."
He mother just stared at her until she turned her attention to Eli. "Would you mind taking her home?" He just nodded and tried to pull Clare outside with him but she pushed him off of her.
"I don't need a fucking body guard." She looked at her mom and then at Eli before she ran out of the church and out of the building.
"Clare! Stop it, let me help." Eli screamed as he tried to catch up with her, but she just ran away. He tried to run after her, but she was fast. He couldn't take anymore and eventually just fell to the ground. He put his head in his hands and then brushed his hair back. "I want to help her, but she has to let me help her." He whispered to himself before getting into his hearse and driving around to try and find Clare.
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He drove around for what had to be 5 hours, at least, but he couldn't find her anywhere. It was now school the next day and he looked around the entire school for her, but still, she was no where. He went to his locker to put his books away when he heard a voice, the voice of the girl he'd be looking for saying "Eliiiii." in a very taunting voice. He turned to look for her before he noticed her standing next to his open locker with a big smile on her face. "You like?" She asked as she bit her lip that had some very dark red lipstick on it. Her hair was straightened and pushed to the side and he noticed she had some fake eyelashes on with black eye shadow that surrounded her beautiful blue eyes. She was wearing a black corset with a see-through white t-shirt underneath of it, showing of more cleavage than he knew she usually would. On her feet were red heels, the kind a hooker would wear. And to finish the outfit off, she had a short skirt on that barely covered her up.
He stared at her wide eyed. Yes, he did like it, a lot. But it wasn't her. He loved the way that Clare looked, so innocent and beautiful, he didn't want her to change that. He put a hand up to her face and tried to wipe away some of the dark make-up. "Clare, what did you do?"
"I changed for you. Now what are you doing?" She asked as she pulled his hand away from her eye gently. "Why are you taking my make-up off?"
"Clare, go take those clothes off." He stared at her as she gave him a smirk.
"Why don't you help me with that?" She winked at him and he just stared at her in disbelief before shaking his head.
"Why are you doing this Clare?" She stared at him for a second before her smile faded and a tear threatened to fall.
"I don't know." She said quietly before he tried to put a hand on her shoulder to comfort her, but she pushed it off and ran away.
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She came late to English class, but Mrs. Dawhs excused it because she knows what she's going through. Eli turned when she came in the room and noticed she was dressed normally in her uniform with her hair pinned half up. He smiled at her a little while a tear filled her eye. She walked in front of an empty seat across the room from me, she usually sat behind me, and asked, "Can I sit here today?"
"You can do whatever makes you happy today." Mrs. Dawhs looked at her with a sad smile before continuing her lesson. Eli couldn't pay attention though, he stared at Clare until she looked up from her desk, and every time she did, more tears would fill her eyes. When the bell rang, Eli quickly ran up to Clare and tried to say something to her, but she pushed her way past him.
"Clare, wait." She looked back at him before finally letting all of the tears out and running down the hallway, trying her best to stop the tears.
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Clare walked outside and sat on one of the steps to the Degrassi enterance. She heard a door and didn't even bother looking back, she knew who it was. "Eli, I really don't feel like talking to you."
"It's not Eli." She turned around and saw KC walking closer to her until he sat down next to her. "I just wanted to say I'm sorry about what happened to your father."
"I really do not want to talk about my father. He was a bad man." She wiped her tears away before he turned to look into her eyes. It was silent for a moment when they stared at each other before he lifted his hands up to her face and helped wipe away the tears.
"I'll never know." He said when he took his hand away.
"Never know what?" She looked at him before a grin came across his face, she knew he was trying to lighten the mood.
"I'll never know if your father was a good man or not, because even after dating for half a year, you never introduced me." She let out a small laugh and looked at him while he lightly nudged her with his elbow.
"I guess your right." She said as she laughed a little more and looked down at the ground, thinking for a moment. How can this guy that broke her heart be sitting here with her making her laugh, when the guy she loves only hurts her more? Then she remembered Jenna, and she remembered how bad he was. "Why did you leave Jenna? She's pregnant KC."She told him as if he had no idea.
"I don't want to be with her for the rest of my life." He quickly looked away and the grin he had now disappeared from his face.
"Really, because she seemed like she was when you broke up with me for her." Clare said, now staring at KC, remembering why she hated him.
"She's not you though. I finally realized that when she told me that she was keeping the baby. It means that I need to be chained to her for the rest of my life. I wish it was you. I wish that I was chained to you for the rest of my life." He now looked at her as another tear fell from her face.
They were silent for about 5 minutes as Clare thought more about her life. "Do you want to know why I'm putting all of my guilt on my dead father?" He stayed silent and stared at her more intensely. "Because it's my fault. If I never would've called, he'd still be here."
She was now crying hard and KC pulled her into his chest. She tried to pull away, but eventually gave up and hugged him tightly. "It was not your fault, it was not your fault." He repeated as he whispered in her ear to try and comfort her.
"KC?" She said in between sobs, without picking her head up.
"Yeah?" He looked down at her.
"Thank you." He smiled a little as he continued to rock her in his arms.
God, I hate KC. I just think it's a matter of time before they make him try to win her back. Don't worry, they won't last for long. Let's just say I'm a die hard Eclare fan... Review!(:
