Chapter 9
Erase it
Just please erase it from your mind
We were back in Tokyo.. I got out the car not knowing what Time it was and how long I have been sleeping.. I wasn't tired at all.. It was Sunday and I have school tomorrow.
"Mikan get the bags for me." My mom asked.
I nodded. I got the bags out from the back of the car and took them inside with the door my mom just unlocked.
I put the bags down. "What do I do now?" I asked. My mom laughed. What was so funny? "First, you can close the door.. Its cold out side. Second, you bring your bag to your room and take a shower or something." She told me. Oh... I closed the door.
Well yeah, I could do that.
I went upstairs and threw my bag in my room.. It started raining outside, I sighed. I didn't feel like taking a shower or unpacking.. I just wanted to sleep again.. Even if I'm not tired.
I laid down on my bed.. I took my shoes off and closed my eyes.
"Mikan, there is someone here to see you." My mom came in my room, She didnt sound all that happy. She regretful.
Great, How many times has this happened? Who else is here to see me? What other surprises do I need to see? I was laying in my bed with my eyes wide opened.. I wasn't tired any more.. I got up from my bed and went down stairs to see who else was there to see me.
"Who is it?" I asked.. My mom looked at me, and she mouthed I'm sorry.
I looked to see who it was.. My eyes widened... Why is he here?No... I don't want to talk to him...
Natsume...
"He really wants to talk to you Mikan." My mom said softly.. I frowned.. "Well I don't." I said. My mom let Natsume in. "Ill give you guys some time to talk." She said and left upstairs.
"Mom! Why did you let him in?" I yelled. She didn't answer... She went up , I could hear the door close softly.
I turned to him, I didn't want to mad... I looked at him with sadness in my eyes. "You really need to leave." I told him. "I don't want to talk to you, there's nothing to say." Why did my mom let him in? Why did she even let him set foot in this house?
"I tried to come last time, But you weren't home." He said.. His voice was dry, He sounds so sad. I sighed. "Mikan... Why did you do it?" He asked.. That surprised me, do what? "I never thought... That, you would do this." He said.
All the anger rose up in me again. "Why? Don't be so stupid! You and Hotaru are dead to me! Its your fault, I should have broke up with you the first thing when I saw you cheat on me!" I yelled.. I started crying. "And Hotaru... My best friend... Both of you should not feel bad, you should feel guilty!"
I heard Natsume come closer to me.. I started shaking. "Whats the point of being here?" I asked. I heard Natsume sigh, "Because I love you, I wont let you go." He said.
Here is the question I still Don't understand... He says he loves me, Does he truly Know what he did was wrong? Does he really love me? When I look into his eyes I don't see any regret of what he said. It still confuses me... Did you love me when you made love to some body else?
Blah, Blah, Blah . My stomach started to hurt you. "Hotaru and you... Hurt me so much.. Do you really think I can forgive you and her just like that?" I asked him.
I waited for him to answer.. I want him to say something..
"No.. I don't." He said.
I glared at him, and I could feel the tears coming down.. I'm sick of crying every day... What can I do to make it stop?
"But... I will keep trying, I will always tell you I love you, I will keep bothering you , I will try to kiss you.. I will show you that I love you.. No matter how many times you say you hate me or that you don't love me... I will keep on... Until you realize... That I'm truly sorry." He finished.
I froze, he came closer to me and kissed my forehead... And after that he just left the, He closed the door behind him.. He didn't slam, He was calm. I didn't know how to react to this, That didn't sound like him at all! I started to cry more and more...
I touched my face, I felt hot.. Was I blushing? No... I must be getting sick or something.
I heard my mother coming down the stairs.. "Mikan? How did it go?" She asked. I turned to her, I wanted to scream at her.. And yell... But my mom was so worried for me... I could do it.
"I don't really know." I looked at my mother and smiled. "I'm going to be in my room for a while.. Don t bother coming in to check on me... Ill be fine." I told her.
I ran upstairs and closed the door.
When I got in my room, I heard my phone vibrating.. I looked at it. I picked it up and flipped it open.
Shiro
wyd?
I smiled, I had one more message.. I frowned.. I thought I blocked the number?
Natsume
I love you
Seeing that makes me want to cry... Are you lying to me? Or are you actually telling the truth?
Who knows...
