Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to Stephenie Meyer not me.
Author/Note 1: This one-shot follows what happens to Jake between chapters 25 and 26. After Leah's departure from La Push, Jacob ends up accepting Bella's proposition and joins the Cullens in Dawson, Canada. Things aren't easy for him since he feels Leah left him because she never really loved him enough to care. In the meantime, Edward tries to tell him he's mistaken.
A/Note 2: I'm not a native English speaker so I'm sorry for my grammar and spelling. Thank you for reading.
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Episode Nine - All Went Wrong
Jacob Black
The blue sky was covered with small white clouds. The cold wind was blowing right in my face, making me almost cry. In Dawson it didn't rain as frequently as in La Push but the temperatures were a lot colder. Not that it mattered to me. The temperature was the least of my worries right now. Ever since I had turned into a giant wolf, cold had ceased to be a problem.
I was lying down on a meadow behind my new home, waiting for something even though I didn't know exactly what it was. Nearly two months ago I had my life figured out. I thought I'd be able to have my happy ending. I deserved it after all I'd been through. But I was clearly mistaken.
What did I do wrong? This was the question that plagued me. The mind rapist told me it was all my fault. Apparently I hadn't done the right thing. In the end it all came down to the moment when Leah and I had slept together. Edward said I should've told her I loved her that night. I did try. Words just didn't come out. I was too scared of opening my mouth and ruin the moment so I just thought that it would be better to say it the next morning and I fell asleep.
"Amateur...You'll learn in time that you never fall asleep after sex. I told you women are complicated, didn't you listen to me?" Edward had told me.
So I was a rooky in those waters, sue me. Leah had been my first, and my last. And by the looks of it, I would never have more opportunities to stay awake after sex because Leah had bailed out on me.
She was gone. Leah didn't even say goodbye to her family and only contacted them later. Sue and Seth knew she was alright but no one knew where she was or what had happened that made her flee as if the Apocalypse was coming. No one but me and the mind reader of course. It had remained a secret between us.
After two weeks of searching her all over three states, I had realized she didn't want me to find her and I joined the Cullens in Dawson. If she didn't care about me, why should I care about her, right? A few days later my thoughts were no longer linked to my pack. I wasn't too worried about it since I didn't need my friends in my head watching the details of what Leah and I had done that night. It was bad enough to have Edward reading my thoughts almost every day.
But a few days later I told Carlisle what was happening (leaving out the part about having slept with my beta) and he said that since I had told Sam to step up as the leader in La Push during my absence, I had willingly separated myself from the group. I was an alpha without a pack, but an alpha still. I didn't care about it though. I had a hole of the size of the world in my heart and couldn't care less about anything really. I was content enough knowing that Sam was the only one who had access to my thoughts because of his alpha status which meant I would only have to make sure I'd phase when he was not in wolf form to avoid talking to him or allow him to see my thoughts.
However after a week living with the vampires, Seth came to live with us and we realized our minds were still linked. Carlisle concluded I was no longer the alpha in La Push but I still had a pack of my own. A pack of two. I was a bit annoyed because I didn't want Seth inside my mind but I had to tip my hat to the kid: he really was a loyal friend.
Luckily for me Seth didn't phase much these days. He was attending classes with Edward, Bella, Alice and Jasper and so I could safely morph without fearing ruining another important friendship. Because let's face it, if Seth found out about me and Leah, he would freak and our friendship would turn to dust.
I remember going through a rough time when Bella took Edward back and accepted to be his wife. The feeling of being rejected cut deeper than any knife and hurt more than a spear carved in my heart. Back then I had to leave La Push to recover some of my sanity and it took me a long time to accept that I was going to lose Bella for a vampire.
Now things were even worse. First I felt fear, then anger and now there was just an immense feeling of numbness. Bella's rejection was nothing compared to this. I never thought it could hurt so much. When Seth announced he wanted to stay in Dawson too, I didn't oppose. Bella had a talk with Sue and explained briefly that in Seth's best interests, she should let him stay there. A week later Seth was attending the local High School and I had someone to talk to during the little time I was not occupied eating, sleeping or fixing things.
Both of us were phasing less and less these days and I made sure we were never phased at the same time. I usually phased during the night because I enjoyed the mental silence and secretly because I somehow expected to hear Leah one day. Besides when I was phased I didn't have to worry about the vampires. Carlisle and Esme were great hosts. Jasper and Alice didn't get on my nerves often, Bella was… well she was just Bella. Edward, Rosalie and Emmett were the ones I had to keep my distance. The last time Rosalie and I had had and argument things didn't turn out so well. We started a fight in the kitchen and Jasper and Carlisle had to drag me to the back yard so I wouldn't destroy the whole house. That was one hour ago, more or less.
"Jake, you're bleeding." Bella's voice reached me. I pressed my left hand to my eyebrow and felt the warm liquid. I wasn't worried about a minor injury but like the old days, Bella still didn't like to see human blood.
"It will heal in a few minutes." I told her. I didn't want to talk to any of them right now so I was hoping she'd go away.
"Come inside. Rose and Emmett went shopping and Esme cooked you a chocolate cake."
"I'm not hungry."
Bella looked at me surprised. It was not in my nature to decline food.
"That's a new one." She said. "Why are you so angry? You know Rose enjoys teasing you and she said sorry."
"She always does but she never means it." I stated stubbornly. Rosalie and I used to argue about everything. The smallest things made us explode on one another.
"I think you should attend High school with Seth, me and the others. It would be good for you to leave the house and focus on something else."
The others she was referring to were Edward, Jasper and Alice.
"No thank you." I sat down. "I've finished High school already."
I had no intention to go through that again.
"So did we. Except for Seth."
"Well...you're vampires, you'll be young forever and you have nothing to do here."
"Oh...and you have?" I could note the sarcasm in her voice.
"I have things to fix."
"You bought an old motorcycle that can't be fixed."
A couple of weeks ago I had visited the antiques market in Dawson and found an old motorcycle for sale. The owner made me a discount and I turned that motorcycle into my new project. At least for now.
"I'll fix it."
"Jake...please..."
"Look, you asked me to come, remember?"
"Because I thought it would be fun. I thought you'd enjoy being here with us."
Bella wanted me to create some brotherhood bond with her family. Edward had mentioned that sje was still too attached to her human past and wanted to hang on to it as long as she could, especially now that they had been recruited to go to Volterra in a century. She wanted to create memories while she still could.
"I'm fine Bella. Really."
"No, you're not. You're always angry and you don't even talk to me."
"There's nothing to talk about."
Bella put on a sad look and turned around.
"Well, you know where to find me if you change your mind."
I wanted to tell her that this had nothing to do with me changing my mind. I didn't enjoy feeling so angry all the time either. But being left by the girl I was in love with on the infamous morning after was something that could take quite a toll on you.
When I woke up that morning I felt like the happiest person alive. It was like nothing could ruin my happiness. I could still feel Leah's scent all over my skin and my bedroom, I could remember everything about her body and her warmth, and I could still taste her on my lips. But everything went out of the window when I realized she wasn't there with me, like she was supposed to be.
My happiness was short lived. My bedroom was a mess, my bed was broken, the window was open and minutes later my dad was knocking on my door. I didn't know what to think.
Was it a dream? It couldn't have been a dream because I was naked and I could remember everything Leah and I had done. I had a fertile imagination but I hadn't imagined Leah underneath me panting and moaning my name. Besides her scent was all over my bedroom, especially on the sheets and my own skin, I even doubted that a shower could wash out her scent off of me.
I got up when my dad yelled from the kitchen that we were going to have visitors. I was supposed to tell them my decision about going to Canada with the Cullens that morning. I had meant to stay in La Push and work things out with Leah but in that moment I didn't even know where she was and what she was thinking about our night together.
Fear made my body shake violently but I recovered quickly. I put on my shorts and tried to fix the bed the best way I could. I ended up using my school books to steady it and then there was a knock on the front door. I could tell it was Sam. I remember he said my father that old Quil wasn't coming, and dad let him in.
I wondered if I should shower to erase all traces of Leah or let Sam know that we had slept together and she was finally mine.
The problem was I didn't know for sure if she was really mine. We had slept together, that was a fact, but did that make her mine? And why wasn't she there with me?
My heart sank when I realized she could be having regrets about last night. If that was the case it meant this had all been a mistake and she didn't have feelings for me. Or maybe she thought I had taken advantage of her. I felt my head was about to explode but then I heard her voice right outside my bedroom. At least I knew where she was. But why was she there with Sue when she was supposed to be in my bedroom?
I tried to fix my room before Sam came in but there was too much of a mess. He closed the door behind him, looked around, sniffed the air and glared at me. For a second there I thought he was going to attack me. He asked me what had happened to the bedroom and I told him Leah and I had an argument last night because of Emily's pregnancy announcement. He changed his attitude then, clearly feeling regrets for having caused Leah more pain. I felt angry when I realized he probably still thought Leah was in love with him. But she wasn't, was she?
Sam also believed the lie because it would explain not only the state of my bedroom but also Leah's scent that still lingered in the air. However he did seem suspicious when I told him that there was nothing going on between Leah and me. He even had the nerve to tell me to get away from her otherwise we would end up hurting each other.
If Leah wasn't right outside my bedroom I would've told Sam it was too late for that. I would've told him I had spent the night making Leah scream my name. But it wasn't the right time for that yet. I had to see her first. To make sure she was okay with this.
I left my bedroom that morning hoping to find Leah with a smile on her face however all I saw was a scowl clouding her beautiful features. That was when I knew things were about to get even worse. I could feel she was anxious and uncomfortable. Actually it looked like she was ready to phase any minute.
When she told me to go to Canada with Bella, I knew she had heard Sam's words about my hypothetic departure and I had the urge to kill that bastard. I had never said I'd go with the Cullens, he had just assumed it. I tried to talk to her but Leah didn't listen and left.
I never saw her again after that.
So when did all go wrong between us? I couldn't tell.
"You never told her you were in love with her." Edward said. He sat down on the grass a few feet away from me. "You should let Carlisle have a look on your injuries."
"They'll heal."
Physical pain felt better than the emotional one I had been feeling for the last couple of months.
"Bella told me what happened. Rose is sorry, she bought you something."
"She can shove it up her ass."
"You act like kids. Both of you."
"It's her fault."
"It's yours as well."
"She returned the parts I bought to fix my motorcycle! It was expensive and now I don't have the money to buy more!"
"She was able to find some parts on the market today. You should accept her gift."
I rolled my eyes. I hated how Rosalie could be such a bitch and the next moment turn into an innocent angel.
"She's a lot like someone you love, isn't she?"
"I don't want to talk about her."
"Yet you spend all day thinking about her and you dream of her every night."
"I wish I could stop…but I can't."
"I know."
"Then what are you doing here Edward? Did you come to rub salt on my wounds?"
"I'm trying to help you."
"Can you bring her back? Can you find her?"
"No. I've tried but she left no tracks after Seattle."
"Can you explain why she left me after… after spending the night with me?"
"I can give you a theory."
I rolled my eyes again. Fuck theories, I wanted the truth.
"Without those three little words it was only sex… If you had told her you're in love with her, she would still be with you."
"Or she never gave a rat's ass about me. Maybe she took pity on me for being a virgin and decided to let me get laid just once. Maybe she just wanted to have sex with someone and took the chance. Maybe she…"
"You're angry at her." He cut me off. "I understand but I've seen Leah's thoughts before you slept together and she had feelings for you. I'm sure of it."
"When you have feelings for someone you don't run away after you sleep with that person!" I almost yelled.
Edward was right, I was angry at Leah. And I was angry at myself too. And nothing seemed to be able to take that anger away.
"She was probably scared."
"Scared of what?"
"Falling for you?" He tried. "You haven't imprinted yet. When Sam imprinted on Emily she took it pretty bad. If the legends are true, you will find your soul mate eventually so your genes can be passed on to the next generation. After all you are Ephraim's heir and La Push's rightful alpha."
"Maybe the rules of imprinting don't apply to me."
"It's a possibility… But I guess Leah doesn't want to risk it." He said. "It doesn't mean she doesn't love you … It means she's just too scared of losing you."
I sighed.
"And why couldn't she just tell me that herself?"
"Maybe she felt she was doing you a favour."
"A favour?"
He shrugged.
"She probably thought you had her for a one-night stand and left to spare you the explanations of your actions. Maybe she thought you'd brag about sleeping with her and decided to leave before she could become the pack's joke once again. Maybe she was scared of ruining your friendship." Those were all valid theories and none pleased me. "Look, I can only guess."
"Well for me it means she doesn't love me at all. It was all my imagination. I guess she was vulnerable that night, especially after Emily's announcement, and I didn't stop when I should have..."
"You can still fix this."
"Oh really? How? She disconnected her cell phone. She blocked me on facebook and she doesn't answer my e-mails."
"Next time you see her make sure you talk to her. Properly."
"Next time I see her she's probably married to some lawyer."
"I doubt that. Leah doesn't like commitment."
"Because she doesn't trust me. Because Sam broke her heart when he imprinted. A human she can trust… humans don't imprint… so why wouldn't she get married and have a normal life?"
I closed my eyes for a few seconds. Edward and I had had this conversation many times in the past two months and it always ended in silence. A very uncomfortable silence.
"Why does it hurt so much?" I whispered.
"Because you love her." He said sincerely.
I nodded. He was right this time. I hated Leah for leaving, but I still loved her.
"Did you hurt like this when you thought Bella was dead?"
"Yes." He confessed. "But Leah isn't dead. She's just... away. For now. You will see each other again because you have something she cares about."
I looked at him surprised.
"You have Seth..." Edward explained. "He's your best chance to see her again, and when you do, make sure you put things right because if you quit now, you'll never know what you could've had together."
"I appreciate your optimistic view of my problems, but I'm sick of being rejected. I'm done." I intended to forget everything that had happened between me and Leah but soon I realized it wouldn't be that simple.
Memories are strong and when we really love someone they stay and hunt us like a vulture around a carcass. Longing, despair, and agony become your day-to-day feelings and despite your best try, you find yourself wrapped in those memories, loving that person even more and then you realize this will last forever. And the only thing you can do is cry.
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Day after day my life became a boring succession of seconds, minutes and hours. Bella was worried about me. She asked me frequently if I was homesick but she always got the same answer: "I'm fine." I always told her.
And I was. Or that was what I kept telling myself. The hurt of being rejected for the second time in my life was still there and it was stronger every time I thought of Leah, but I was learning how to live with that void. Rosalie had managed to reorder the parts for my motorcycle project and I was able to resume it. I used to spend about ten to twelve hours of the day working on it.
When I was working in the garage no one came to bother me, except for Emmett but that was just once in a while. The rest of the hours of the day I would spend it watching television or playing videogames with Seth, when he wasn't at school. I had even watched Jasper's entire collection of horror movies.
Tonight we were watching Aliens. My favourite part of the movie was when the little aliens came out of people's chests. It was blood all around.
"This is horrible." Bella said.
"No, it's not." Jasper, Edward and Emmett said.
"It must be a guy thing." Said Rosalie leaving the room. "I'll be upstairs watching something that doesn't include people dying." She told her husband.
"Finally we found something to get rid of that bitch." I muttered. Seth laughed although he probably did it just to please me. Emmett didn't find it amusing since it was his wife I was talking about but he didn't follow her either. He liked Aliens better than what she used to watch on TV such as Desperate Housewives and other annoying things.
"How many times have you seen this crap?" Bella asked to no one in particular.
She wanted to see some shitty movie called The Last Samurai because she liked Tom Cruise but we had opposed. It was Friday and Friday was horror-nights for us.
"Twenty-three times for me." Jasper said. He even knew all the lines of all of the characters. "And it's not a crap, Bella. It's a masterpiece." He added.
"No, it's a major crap." Bella insisted. "It's all death and blood and…What is that?"
"That's the Queen." Edward explained. "She's awesome."
"The Last Samurai is a great movie, I don't know why you still prefer this." She complained.
"Sorry Bella but I have to agree with Jasper. Sigourney Weaver is a better actress than Tom Cruise will ever be." Alice confessed. "Though Tom Cruise is more handsome."
"Exactly." Bella agreed.
"What's up with women and Tom Cruise?" Seth inquired, his mouth full of popcorns. "Leah loved Tom Cruise too, she even had a poster of him in her bedroom."
I felt a little jealous. I mean Tom Cruise wasn't that handsome, right?
"Your sister has good taste in men." Bella smiled and I chocked on my Pepsi. Of course she had good taste in men. She had slept with me after all.
It wasn't Tom Cruise who made her scream that night. I wanted to say.
"What?" Bella asked turning to face me. "What's wrong about Leah liking Tom Cruise?"
"Uh... nothing." I grinned. By experience I knew I was better than the amazing Tom. I smiled recalling only a few details of that night with Leah.
"Get a grip Jacob." Edward asked me. "We're watching a horror movie not a porn one."
"God…I almost wish we were watching porn." Bella closed her eyes when the alien Queen ripped Bishop apart. "Disgusting." She complained.
"He's not even human, Bella." I said.
"Is there anyone in this freaking movie that survives that thing?" She asked.
"Yes." Jasper answered. "Otherwise there wouldn't be a third and fourth movie."
"Oh my God! There are more?" She asked horrified.
Edward, Emmett, Jasper, Seth and I nodded happily.
"God have mercy on me."
"At least Duane is still alive. They can get together." Alice said. "They make a good couple."
"He dies on the third movie, honey." Jasper announced.
"Of course he would die...Poor guy." Bella sighed.
"Talking about cute couples… You have a date with Audra tomorrow." Alice's eyes glimpsed and she smiled sweetly. "Don't forget about it."
"I'm not going on a date with anyone." I stated firmly. Alice had arranged me a date out of the blue because she wanted me to take someone to Rachel and Paul's wedding.
"You have to take a date to your sister's wedding and Audra is a nice girl. She's in our class, she's classy, beautiful and she's athletic. You have a few things in common…"
"I don't need a date to my sister's wedding, plus the wedding is going to be only next year and I don't want to know Audra."
"Yes, well...details." Alice looked at me. "But you do need a date."
"Seth doesn't have a date and I don't see you worried about it." I pointed out.
"Seth's not one of the best men. You are, and you need a date. Period." Alice insisted.
"Hey, you can go with the shewolf." Emmett suddenly said. This time I almost threw up my dinner which would be a shame because Esme had cooked an awesome lasagna.
"My sister?" Seth asked confused. "Why would he go with Leah?"
"Because she probably doesn't have a date either." Bella highlighted.
"We don't even know where she is or if she's going." I recalled them.
"Of course she's going." Alice said. "I've designed the perfect dress for her to wear. Leah is going to that wedding even if I have to drag her myself!"
"I can't go…with… Look I don't need a date."
"Come on alpha boy. She's not that bad. I've seen the way you looked at her the day Bella and Edward got married." Emmett said.
He had to be kidding me. Leah and I didn't even like each other then. I remember that Leah was wearing a beautiful crimson dress that day that looked great on her. And I remember watching that same dress on First Beach's sand when Leah took it off and went to dive in the cold icy water. I had always find Leah attractive and pretty and I wasn't the only one who liked to have a few glimpses of Leah naked but there was nothing between us back then.
"Jake?" Seth's eyes were practically getting out of his sockets. "Do you think of Leah that way?"
"He's joking Seth…"
"No, I'm not." Emmett declared. "What about that day when she had that date with that human guy…Kaylan? I could tell you wanted to murder the guy and you were definitely checking her out in that tinny dress she was wearing."
"Kaynan? What happened with Kaynan?" Seth was now suspicious.
"Nothing serious. Leah just… lost her temper and hit him." I answered.
"She what? And you knew?"
"I helped her… She thought she had killed him. He didn't remember anything when he woke up." I didn't want to elaborate more. Especially because if I did, I would have to tell him the part when Kaynan thought Leah and I were a couple.
"You wished she had killed him, didn't you?" Emmett joked and I glared. "So you could have her all to yourself. And you danced with her on Sam's wedding."
"Shut up Emmett!" I hissed.
"I'm just kidding alpha boy." He laughed.
"I thought she had a good time with Kaynan." Seth muttered. "She was supposed to have some fun with him."
I'm glad she didn't. I thought to myself. Jealousy was speaking louder again.
"If you go with Leah you can cancel your date with Audra tomorrow." Alice said.
"Though I would go meet this girl if I were you." Emmett advised. "I mean… You can have some fun with Audra. No strings attached… It's a good chance to get laid. You need some action. You could try to jump the shewolf too but you'd probably end up in the hospital."
"Please…" Seth complained. "Can we stop talking about Jake getting laid? And please don't mention my sister."
If only they knew I had slept with Leah already. And fortunately I didn't end up in the hospital. I thought I was in heaven actually. She was breathtaking beautiful and the way her body moved underneath mine was completely insane Sometimes when I was alone I could still feel her scent on me.
"Jacob." Edward warned me.
"I'm going to my bedroom." I announced. I needed a good night sleep to stop thinking about Leah.
"Aren't you going to see the end of the movie?" Bella asked.
"I know what happens. Ripley saves the little girl and the alien Queen is launched off into space."
"Great now you spoiled it for me." Bella pretended to be upset and I laughed a little.
Since the last incident with Rosalie, Seth and I were accommodated in a small compound in the Cullen's property that used to be the storage for the gardening tools. It was comfortable enough for the both of us and we didn't have to breathe their obnoxious scent all the time. We had a small living room, an even smaller kitchen, two bathrooms and three bedrooms. So it wasn't that small, but it was definitely smaller than their mansion.
I hopped into bed and closed my eyes. I pictured all of the opportunities I had in the past to tell Leah about my feelings, each and all of them wasted. I needed closure. I was ready to accept that we wouldn't be together but I needed to know why she'd left. I just had to know. I couldn't date anyone or even think about other girls until I got my answers but for that I needed to find her.
A couple of hours later when I was about to go to sleep Seth returned and he stopped by my door.
"Jake? Are you awake?"
"Yes, Seth… I'm awake."
"She said maybe."
I lifted my head immediately.
"What are you talking about?" I pretended not to know. Edward had already told me. Seth hadn't told anyone he could still talk to his sister through e-mail. He was one of the few people who Leah hadn't completely blocked out of her contact list. Seth never told me probably because he was following Leah's instructions, until tonight.
"Leah said she might come to the Cullen's Thanksgiving's dinner."
Well that was great the only problem was that I was supposed to go see my family that day.
"I need to ask you something." Seth said.
"What?"
"Did my sister leave because of you?"
I swear my heart did a backflip.
"What do you mean?"
"You spoke to her that night, didn't you?"
"Yes."
I did a lot more than talk to her but I guess Seth wouldn't like to know that.
"Sam said you had an argument. Why did you argue with my sister the night she learned about Emily's pregnancy?"
Sam and his stupid mouth.
"I tried to tell her that… Sam's not the right guy for her. I tried to make her see she could still have a happy ending. And she…" I hesitated. "I guess I didn't try enough because she left."
I should've told her I'm in love with her.
"I'm sorry I had to ask… it's just that I was afraid that you had told her something…something stupid…"
"Like what?"
"I don't know." He admitted. "Leah's been through a lot and no one seemed to care. When dad died, she blamed herself for his heart attack even though I phased too. She wanted to take the blame for what happened. To spare me of the guilt."
"You and Leah had nothing to do with your dad's death."
"I know but we'll never stop blaming ourselves."
I felt bad for Seth and I felt even worse when I recalled that when Harry died I was so wrapped up in Bella and her life that I never paid much attention to his or Leah's feelings.
"And then she still had to live inside Sam's mind... all of his conflicting thoughts about her and Emily that she was forced to see. She couldn't stand knowing she had been betrayed by them. She had loved both so much. Emily was her best friend and Sam was everything to her. She wanted to leave La Push with him one day, have a good job and then get married and have children. She lost everything that day Jake... and I could only watch from afar. I never helped her enough, I never protected her... You were the one who saved Leah from that newborn. It was supposed to be me but I wasn't there..."
"Don't blame yourself like that. You did what you could for her." I told him. "And I'm sure she's thankful."
"You always seemed to understand Leah better than anyone else in the pack. Even though you didn't see eye to eye, you always treated her better than the others. Despite all that when I realized you were the last person to see her before she left, I kind of blamed you..."
"It's okay. You don't need to apologize."
Because it was my fault. I made her leave. I had the chance to put things right and somehow everything went wrong. I wanted to tell him that but I didn't.
"Yes, I do. I thought things..." He hesitated. "I thought bad things about you when I learned you had an argument."
"Bad things?" I questioned.
"I'm not blind Jake. I've seen the way you treated my sister... It was as if she was a second Bella in your life. You wanted to help her move on, free her from Sam, because you didn't want to fail again. I knew you were using her but you were her only friend at the time."
"I wasn't using her." I denied. Actually I had used her bac then. Seth was right and felt guilty again.
"I know you never meant to."
"No...I wasn't using her." I insisted trying to convince myself.
I fell in love with her and I want her back as much as you do. Maybe more than you. I didn't tell him my thoughts because I feared his reaction. To admit that I was in love with Leah and had slept with her would probably ruin our friendship and right now Seth was my closest friend.
"Anyway... I just want you to know that I don't blame you for anything anymore. Now that I know that you didn't do anything to push her away from home, I apologize for having thought you were an idiot and a horrible friend to her. When I meet Leah on Thanksgiving I'll tell her she can trust you and then maybe she'll call you back or write you a letter"
"Do you know where she is?" I had to ask that. I really wanted to know where she was.
"No. She didn't tell me. But I'll ask. It's a shame you won't be here on Thanksgiving. I'll tell Leah 'hi' for you."
When Seth went to bed I tossed and turned and my eyes never closed. I couldn't sleep. One way or another, Leah did leave because of me, she had abandoned her brother and mother because I was an idiot. But now I had a chance to make her stay. I just had to talk to the right person.
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The sun was about to rise when I heard movement outside. Carlisle, Esme and Edward were going to hunt early this morning but first I wanted to have a word with the mind rapist. He was my last hope.
"Jacob wants to have a word with me. I'll catch you in a minute." Edward told his adoptive parents who disappeared in the woods quickly.
"Don't get used hearing this but... I need your help." I told him and he grinned.
"Really? And what can I do for you?"
"I need a favour."
"A favour? I'm listening."
"You can read my mind."
"I can, but it's so much better to hear it from you." He grinned again. Pretentious jerk.
"Fine. Your family will have a Thanksgiving dinner in a few weeks."
"Restricted to family…yes." He confirmed.
"Seth contacted Leah and she said she's coming."
"No. She said 'maybe'. I read it on Seth's mind last night."
"'Maybe' is Leah's language for 'count me in'."
"I see…and your request is?"
"I want you to invite me, my dad, Rachel…and Paul." I didn't want to see Paul that much but he would follow Rachel anyways. "It will have to be a last minute invitation. Something that you'll decide on the moment because if Leah suspects I'll be here she won't come."
"Okay. I'll do it."
"Seriously? Just like that?"
"Sure."
"And you don't want anything in return?"
"Well I think that if I had my happy ending and married the woman I love, you should have the same. I'm not that cruel." He stated. "Well that and… I'm sick of your thoughts about her, about that night and about what you did together in your bedroom. It's as bad as a porn movie." He complained and I laughed.
"You can go join Carlisle and Esme."
"Not before you say the word."
I sighed.
"Thanks." I rolled my eyes. "Don't get used to it either."
"Oh, I will… You know why? Because once you meet again, you'll finally be happy together and I will be the one to take all of the credits."
"Sure, sure…" I turned around to go back to my bedroom and finally have some sleep.
"Jacob?" Edward called me before entering then woods.
"What leech?"
"Start practicing your lines… Because Leah Clearwater won't let you win her heart without a fight."
A small smile came to my lips and I turned to the horizon to watch the sun rising. Today the sky was brighter and the sun shone higher for me because in a few weeks I would see her again. In a few weeks, Leah would be mine for good. I was ready for that battle.
To be continued...
A/Note: The Last Samurai and Aliens are great films. Sigourney Weaver is a great actress and Tom Cruise is also a good actor. Desperate Housewives is okay... The characters' opinions do not reflect my own. :)
I was supposed to have a week off at work but I had to cancel my holidays in the last minute so the next chapter will take a while to be ready.
Thank you so much for your reviews. Karisan
