Chapter 9

After mine and Ruby's little chat, Ruby left to go to one of her stupid friend's house and left me alone. Me being along in my current state of mind, not such a good thing.

As soon as she had left the house, I immediately walked straight up to my parent's alcohol cabinet and grabbed a bottle of whisky. Why my parents don't lock it I'll never know.

After taking a few swigs of the harsh liquid I reached into my pocket and pulled out a cigarette. My mom hated it when I smoked in the house (even more since I burnt our last house to a crisp) but I was drunk and couldn't give two fucks. I have fucked up so much in a small space of time. I took a drag on the cancer stick and then a swig of my poison. Not the best combo.

I remembered what had fucked everything up. The bloody telescope.

Abandoning my drink and cigarette (but remembering to put it out this time) I walked half-heartedly up the two staircases towards my room.

Once up there I went straight to the far side of my room, towards the spyglass and knocked it to the floor. Hard. I then started to kick it over and over, stamping on the lens. I wanted to get rid of the thing the destroyed one of the best things that ever happened to me. Even if it was only for one, short time.

After a few good kicks, I picked what was left up and flung it across my room and it hit the other wall. On impact, it smashed up into a billion little pieces. The combination of alcohol, nicotine and anger left me feeling confused. I looked at the broken telescope in front of me and a wave of emotion hit me.

I fell to my knees and started to cry. I've never felt this strong for something ever before and when I got it I blew it. Completely ruined it. And I guess this was the last straw. All the emotion I've been holding back over the years has finally been let out. I was on the floor sobbing for the first time since I don't know when. It hurt.

A breeze came in from the small window, disrupting the heap of broken telescope on the floor. Through the rubbish, a small piece of paper fluttered out of what used to be the main tube. I managed to calm down long enough to pick up the strange piece of paper and read it.

It was what you would normally find in a telescope. A map of the stars. It looked about 20 years old at least. At the bottom there was a name and a date.

Star name: Cassandra Smith

Date: 12-25-1994

At first I was completely confused. There was a note at the bottom.

Personal Message: For my only Cassandra. Every time I gaze upon your beautiful eyes, they remind me of the stars.

Then it clicked. This was someone's personal star. Tweek said he loved the stars. Maybe this is my way of showing him the truth, like Ruby said.

I quickly took down the address of the website this was done on and rushed downstairs to get to the library before it shuts (can't afford a new laptop, and my parents won't get me one). Bad luck for me because my mom decided to walk in the front door just as I was pulling on my hoodie. Shit.

"And just where do you think you're going?" she asked once she saw me. "And why do you look like you have been crying?" she took a deep breath. "And have you been smoking? And DRINKING?"

"Err…no time to explain, I need to go to the library" I said while pulling my chullo over my head and wiping my eyes.

"No mister, if you're upset, you need to tell me." Why do you need to be all motherly now? Seeing as I had nothing left to loose, I decided to spill.

"Look, mom, I'm not upset anymore because I have figured out how to win this guy back, okay?" I blurted out before pushing past her and walking towards the library. I could hear my mom call me from inside the house. I didn't care; I was on a roll here.

First I come out to my brat of a sister.

Then I cry for the first time in forever (after having a tantrum as well)

Then I come out to my mom.

Boy I hope this works. Otherwise I have a LOT of explaining to do…


AN: OMFG IS CRAIGS PLAN GONNA WORK? And what about the Tuckers finding out their son is gay? Drama Llama! My mum (- British) has a star named after her and my grandfather has a piece of the moon! ;D Thanks SparklesMakesMeHappy for the review. Will Tweek listen now?