MY COMPUTER WAS BROKEN! I'M SO SO SO SO SORRY.
Finally got to writing the 9th chapter. I really don't know how you guys deal with my super duper late updates. I'm sorry. I suck. Lol. I'm just such a slow writer. Not to mention, I always get the urge to write late at night...and well...I have school...so that doesn't happen.
Anyways...Hope you enjoy this chapter!
Adorable As Hell Chapter Nine
Suzaku's feelings...
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Suzaku was sprawled on his bed, staring at the ceiling. He was doing his best at ignoring Gino, but even his best was not good enough.
"So...I know you were doing something with that Mister 'L' guy. You can't lie to me!" Gino laughed loudly, smiling brightly.
Growling, Suzaku rolled his eyes and shoved his face into a pillow, hiding his suddenly flustered expression. He stayed silent, refusing to agree or disagree. He was used to having to do this when Gino was attacking him with questions he did not want to answer.
Suzaku continued to ignore his roommate, then rolled around to face the wall. His mind was bursting with images of Lelocuh. It had been for days. He simply could not get him out of his head. His silky black hair, gorgeous violet eyes, porcelain skin, thin figure...and his soft lips. All of it was burned in to Suzaku's mind. Every single detail.
He smirked a little bit as he remembered the morning that he had left Lelouch's apartment a few days ago.
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Suzaku woke up to a doll like face with long eyelashes fluttering lightly above soft cheek bones. Lelouch was almost twice as beautiful when he was sleeping. Suzaku's right arm was wrapped tightly around the beautiful boy, holding him close. "You're beautiful..." Suzaku's heart thumped lightly as he had finally spoken the words he had thought many times before.
Still slightly dozed, Suzaku simply watched Lelouch's chest rise and fall. He was so calm and innocent. "You're making me go crazy, Lelouch..." A quiet whisper left Suzaku's lips as he continued to study Lelouch beside him. "Stop making me fall for you..."
Suzaku felt movement below his arm, causing him to jump slightly.
"Do you always spout embarrassing things when you first wake up?" Lelouch said softly, his voice still full of fatigue.
Hearing Lelouch suddenly speak made Suzaku go completely red in the face. He had thought that Lelouch was still sleeping. "I...well...uh..." He shut his eyes tightly, trying to pretend that he had not just embarrassed himself to death by saying things he did not want Lelouch to hear.
Lelouch's thin hand ran through Suzaku's curly locks of hair. "Am I really that irresistible?"
As if what he had just done did not embarrass him enough, Lelouch just had to make Suzaku feel even more flustered. Suzaku took his arm off of Lelouch so that he could cover his own face. He was blushing so hard that it was physically painful.
"You're just too damn cute, Suzaku." Lelouch said playfully as he began to sit up. A chill ran down his spine when the covers had slid off of him. He never replaced his shirt, and it was freezing in his room. C.C. had probably played around with the air conditioning again.
Suzaku uncovered his face slightly and looked up at Lelouch, a little shocked at seeing his bare chest. Somehow he had forgotten what they almost did last night. His mind was regaining memory like a broken movie, as he recalled the situation. "Oh God...I just...we almost...!" Suzaku sprung up and leaped out of the bed, frantically looking for his clothing.
"Suzaku?" Lelouch was taken by surprise at Suzaku's sudden movements and change of mood.
Suzaku was running around the room like a chicken without a head,mumbling incoherent words, searching for his clothing. "Suzaku...calm down. What are you doing?" Lelouch slipped off the bed to walk toward the babbling idiot. He placed his hand on Suzaku's bulky shoulder, making him instantly stop moving. "Jeez. What are you doing, Suzaku?"
Suzaku's eyes got huge, his face still bright red, as he turned around to face Lelouch. "Huh?" He blinked a few times and dropped his shirt that he had found back on to the floor. "Lelouch...I...we can't do this."
Lelouch's grip tightened on Suzaku's shoulder. "What? What are you talking about?"
"This...I mean..." Suzaku stared at the floor, trying to gather his thoughts. "I'm scared, Lelouch." He began to shake a little bit. The whole deal was really beginning to catch up with him. Suzaku was falling for a man. He was falling hard, and it was absolutely terrifying. He could not control what was happening. There was no doubt in Suzaku's mind that he had indeed gone into the deep end and forgotten how to swim.
Lelouch walked around so that he could look Suzaku in the eyes. Those gorgeous Emeralds were full of absolute horror, pain, love and confusion. Lelouch took a deep breath, trying to understand Suzaku's mixed feelings as much as he possibly could. "Suzaku..." He placed his hand on to Suzaku's face, trying to comfort him. Suzaku stiffened, his eyes not sure where to look. "I told you last night...it's alright to be scared. I am too." His lips lifted into a small smile. "Look at me."
Suzaku faced the floor for a few seconds then slowly locked eyes with Lelouch. He still looked a bit scared, but Lelouch could see the boy that was desperately trying to fight off the fear.
"You are absolutely breath taking. You're adorable...and..." Lelouch stopped speaking for a second to take in Suzaku's changing expressions. "...I like you way too much already to just let you slip through my fingers. I know that I like you...and that it may not be normal to like someone that's the same gender as I am...But I like you and that's all there is to it. I can not stop it. Don't you think that I'm scared as well?"
Suzaku stared at Lelouch in front of him, who was almost to the brink of tears. Suzaku did not think that Lelouch would be feeling the same way. He had thought that he was the only one that was scared, that he was the only one that had the slightest feelings of doubt. But he was not. Lelouch was scared as well, perhaps even more scared than Suzaku was.
Suzaku made a pained expression as he placed his hand upon Lelouch's. He felt so calm around Lelouch. No one had ever been able to make Suzaku feel quite as care free or happy as he did. Suzaku smiled at him.
He could not think of anything to say back to what Lelouch had just said. How was it possible that Lelouch could always say what was on his mind so easily?
Lelouch slid his hand down Suzaku's shaking arm, and tightly gripped his hand. "Suzaku..."
Suzaku looked down at their interlaced fingers.
"Suzaku...I...don't expect a lot from you. You don't have to kiss me in public...you don't even have to hold my hand...but..." Lelouch's heart began to beat ferociously in his rib cage. "Please will you...just..."
Without even taking a second to think, Suzaku kissed Lelouch tenderly on the lips, surprising even himself. His heart attacked his rib cage, as he pushed Lelouch toward the wall.
Lelouch wrapped his arms tightly around Suzaku's torso, allowing no space in between them. They began to slide down the wall as they got more passionate. Suzaku's knee slammed into the wall painfully, but he barely even took notice as he advanced in the kissing.
Their bodies were growing hot as they both fumbled around. Suzaku opened his eyes somewhat, to look at Lelouch's face, then pulled away slowly, hand on Lelouch's chest.
Suzaku smiled a goofy childish smile, his spirit seeming to have lightened up a great deal. "...That would be a yes, Lelouch."
Lelouch's eyes went huge, and he blushed brightly. Suzaku had managed to shock Lelouch so much that he was speechless.
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Suzaku shoved his face deeper into his pillow, making low growling noises as he recalled his memory. It's not that he was honestly regretting his decision, it was that he did not know how to deal with the results. What the hell was he supposed to do now?
The edge of Suzaku's bed sunk a little as Gino took a seat to continue pestering. A big obnoxious smile was plastered to his face. "Suzaaaakuuuu. Come on man! What's got you so worked up under that pillow? You seem to act even weirder each time I bring 'L' guy up."
Shit...am I really that obvious? Suzaku bit his lip as he finally yanked the pillow away from his face. He sighed loudly as he stubbornly continued to not give Gino any details on the guy. He sort of wanted to punch himself for having even brought it up in the first , at the time it was a completely innocent question. It was, but now, Suzaku is a little bit more involved with Lelouch than he had ever anticipated.
Gino impatiently rocked Suzaku by his shoulders, trying to get him to say something. He had been pestering him for weeks about this, and he had yet to say anything about it. "Come on! I'm your friend aren't I?"
Suzaku's brow twitched. He hated it when people used the friend thing on him...it made him more vulnerable. "...Yeah." He shook Gino's hand off of his shoulder, and slid up the wall to sit.
"You finally said something!"
Rolling his eyes, Suzaku continued to speak. "I did."
His roommate seemed unamused by Suzaku still avoiding the topic. "Well now that you're actually speaking, what's with this 'L' guy then?"
"His name is Lelouch." Suzaku was actually beginning to break. Maybe having someone to talk to wouldn't be so bad...even if it was Gino.
Gino jumped up in excitement. "Ah ha! We have a name!" Crawling closer to Suzaku, he asked. "So...why did you want to know if I knew this guy then?"
Suzaku sighed, he could not believe he was actually going to say it out loud. "In short, we met at work. He came up to ask me for help finding a book...but then somehow that ended in me giving him a ride home...But that was after I had asked you if you knew him." Suzaku's heart was racing,and he was growing even more nervous than he was to begin with.
Gino's eyes went wide. "So you dropped this guy off?"
The brunet scratched his cheek, nervously. "Yeah. His ride had ended up leaving him with no way home...and he didn't exactly live that close by." Suzaku contemplated on saying more for a few seconds, then ended up continuing. "Then I discovered that he was in my math class. Kind of weird for me to have not noticed earlier, though. I guess I'm an airhead like everyone says. So uh...then we had lunch and then made plans to meet later that night. Turns out that his friend was friend's with my co-worker, Kallen." Suzaku intentionally kept out the kiss in the park incident ...
Gino stared at Suzaku, surprised that he had actually given him details. Details he hadn't even asked for to be exact. "Guess you didn't need to ask me after all, eh, Suzaku?" He laughed loudly. "So have you seen him since?" His eyes grew curious.
Growing excessively more awkward, Suzaku began fidgeting with his bed sheets. "...Yeah. I guess you could call us friends now." Yeah...friends that have made out a few times and just about did it a few nights ago...Suzaku thought sarcastically.
"Wait, he goes here?" Gino must had just barely caught on that Suzaku said he was in his math class, obviously meaning, yes, he goes to the same college.
Suzaku stayed quiet and simply nodded. He could not believe how mentally exhausting saying that to someone was, and he did not exactly understand why it was.
Gino stood off of Suzaku's bed and clapped his giant hands together. "I want to meet this guy!"
You can't, Gino. He's off limits, and he would probably hate you. Suzaku thought, actually trying not to laugh at the imagery in his head of Lelouch's and Gino's first meeting. Classic.
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Suzaku did not have classes that day, so he had not seen Lelouch for a while. In fact, the past few days he had had class, Lelouch was not even there. He hadn't been seeing him at his work lately either. Suzaku thought he was sick or something. Or...at least he hoped he wasn't avoiding him. Maybe the whole dating each other thing had finally caught up to Lelouch and he became disgusted with the idea. Perhaps he was too scared to face him. Suzaku shook his head at his imagination going wild, he knew that Lelouch must have had a good reason not to be at any of his usual places.
A sigh escaped Suzaku as he stared at the big pile of books he had to organize on the shelves. The memory of the first time that Lelouch and him had ever talked rolled through his head. Funny how things can change so quickly. It had only been a few weeks since he had even seen him.
The book store he worked at was, once again, really slow that day. Suzaku was actually fairly surprised that the place managed to stay in business with how slow the days generally were. Then again, maybe book stores just worked differently. He did see some customers buy an extremely large amount of books, so maybe that was what kept them running.
"Hey, Suzaku!" A loud voice shouted toward the curly haired man.
Suzaku jumped, startled by the sudden voice speaking to him. He ran a hand through his hair, trying to compose himself. "What is it, Kallen?" Suzaku couldn't help but wonder what she needed to say to him. She almost never came up to just make small talk with him.
Kallen leaned against the bookshelf, studying Suzaku. "I meant to ask you this a long time ago, but what in the hell were you doing with Lelouch at Karaoke? You two were acting really strange as well."
Suzaku's brain scrambled around a bit, taken aback by her question. He totally forgot that Kallen had seen him and Lelouch together at all. Now he had to think of an excuse. "Well...we had discovered we took the same math class in our College...so we became friends and he invited me." No need to stretch the truth too much, that's what had happened during that time anyway. Well...excluding the kiss in the park incident.
Kallen rose a brow, not completely buying it. "I've known Lelouch for a while now, because C.C. lives with him. He doesn't really seem the type to just invite a random guy from his College to go karaoke...He tends to keep to himself. So what makes you so special , Suzaku?"
Somehow, Suzaku had forgotten how observant Kallen was. Not a trait of hers that was exactly on his side. Ever. She tended to notice the smallest things he would do wrong at work , and would let him know about it in the most direct, generally rude, way possible. He wasn't sure if she liked him, or hated him, it was really hard to tell. "I don't know what makes me special. He just kind of asked me. Maybe he wanted a friend, Kallen. You don't have to go analyzing the whole situation as if it's really that farfetched of an idea."
"Wow. You're not generally that direct. You almost sound offended. Anyway, you don't understand just how closed in that guy is. He never really even spoke to me, or C.C. He also never actually participated in much, let alone go karaoke. Clearly, you must have done something to make him invite you to something so trivial."
Suzaku put a few books away so he could have an excuse not to speak for a few moments. He was actually beginning to get mad. Kallen didn't really need to know why Lelouch had invited him. Was it really, really that weird for Lelouch to have asked someone somewhere? Anybody would eventually find a friend, no matter how reserved of a person they were. "I don't see why it really matters, Kallen. Why are you even asking me this? This happened weeks ago."
Kallen stood up from the bookshelf, folding her arms. "I was just curious. I just think it's weird for Lelouch to have asked someone to go anywhere. Especially someone like you, Suzaku."
Suzaku dropped the few books he was going to put away, and turned to face Kallen, offended. "Wh-What is that supposed to mean? I don't see why it's that crazy for Lelouch to have taken an interest in me." He gripped his fists tightly, growing more aggravated by the second.
"God Suzaku, you're getting really worked up about this. I was just saying."
Suzaku took in a deep breath, and let his fists go limp. He was letting this get to him way too easily. The stress of not having seen Lelouch for a few days must have been getting to him worse than he expected. "I don't see why it matters. We should get back to work ,Kallen." He turned around to pick up the books he dropped earlier, vaguely hearing Kallen leave.
Kallen always had a way of trying to butt into Suzaku's business, but it wasn't generally to such a personal level. People seemed to just want to know everything about the odd pairing of Lelouch and Suzaku. Perhaps they were a lot more different then they had ever taken note of. Not that it honestly really mattered.
Back to placing books on the shelves, Suzaku found his mind wandering on to where Lelouch might have been the past few days. Suzaku had though about calling him to see if he was alright, but he wasn't sure if he should. He thought they were a couple now, but he wasn't positive about how everything worked. In fact, Suzaku was beginning to wonder of it was some sort of sick dream he had had, just to torture himself. He was almost certain that it wasn't, but he couldn't help but wonder.
He pulled out his cell phone to check if he had missed any calls, or gotten any texts, but he hadn't. Rivalz hadn't been texting him recently either. Probably too busy with his girlfriend. As Suzaku came to think about it, he didn't even know who Rivalz's girlfriend even was. He had gone with him to places with a few of his girlfriends, but he was with someone else now...He had never met her. Suzaku shrugged and continued to work. The last thing he needed to worry about was other people's relationships.
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As work was coming to an end, Suzaku found himself mentally exhausted. Somehow, he had managed to think about different scenarios as to why Lelouch had not contacted him for the pass few days. They got as simple as a cold to as ridiculous as him having died from killing himself over his poor decision in dating Suzaku. He knew most of the scenarios was just plain ridiculous, but he found himself constantly letting his imagination get the best of him. It was those insane thoughts that made Suzaku decide he would call Lelouch as soon as work was over. He was done with making up reasons.
When his shift finally ended, he said goodbye to Kallen, making sure to ignore any comment she made trying to continue their earlier conversation. He arrived at his precious bike, The Lancelot, and leaned against it to make his urgent call. His heart pounded relentlessly against his chest when he dialed. The dial tone felt like it had been going on for a century till someone picked it up.
"Hey there sugar plumb."
The voice was female. Most likely C.C., Suzaku deduced. He held in a scream as he spoke to her. "Um...hi. This is Suzaku."
The woman on the other line chuckled, with no sign of actual amusement. "I know, this phone has caller I.D. You called for Lelouch, didn't you?"
Suzaku bit his lip, C.C. had an intimidating voice for some reason. "Yeah. Is he there?"
"I don't know. I think he might have died in his bedroom. I haven't seen him for a while."
Trying to hold back senseless panic, realizing C.C. was most likely just being a pain, Suzaku continued to speak. "Well...can you at least open his door to see if he's in there? I need to talk to him."
Silence ensued on the other end as C.C. most likely was checking for Lelouch. Suzaku could hear the squeak of a door opening, and the faint voice in the background of someone yelling at C.C. It was definitely Lelouch. Suzaku waited silently on the other end of the phone for C.C. to say something.
"Hello?"
A lump lodged into Suzaku's throat as he suddenly heard a male voice take the phone. Lelouch. "Hi, Lelouch."
"Suzaku? Hi. What do you need?"
God, Lelouch sounds different on the phone. "I just wanted to know if you were okay...I haven't seen you around." Suzaku tapped his free hand against his bike as he was trying to remain calm on the phone. He was so unbelievably relieved to hear Lelouch's voice, that it surprised him.
Lelouch sounded amused. "I'm fine, I've just been out of town. I guess I forgot to tell you..."
Suzaku couldn't have felt more relief if he tried, his body physically relaxed as he heard Lelouch say what he had been doing. "O-oh. Yeah. You never mentioned it."
"Sorry. I was so excited about leaving town, I guess it slipped my mind."
Suzaku smiled, as he relished in the sound of Lelouch's voice. "It's alright. Where did you go?"
He was silent for a moment, but then Lelouch answered. "I...was visiting my sister in the hospital."
"You have a sister?"
"I guess I never mentioned that before, did I?"
Suzaku leaned against his bike more. "No. You didn't."
"Hey, Suzaku. Did you want to come over tonight? We haven't seen each other in days."
His heart leaped as Suzaku heard Lelouch ask him. He was suddenly so happy, he thought he was going to die of a heart attack. "YEAH. Sure! I just got off work, so I can come over right now!"
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Knocking on Lelouch's door lightly, Suzaku's heart slammed like crazy in anticipation. He missed Lelouch so much in the pass few days, and he hadn't fully realized how much till he was standing at his doorstep.
The door opened slowly, revealing Lelouch in dark colored pajamas. A look that Suzaku forgot how much he loved. It was so different from what Lelouch normally looked like. So much more relaxed. Suzaku felt a little out of place as he was still in his daily wear, but he shrugged it off.
Smiling brightly, Lelouch let Suzaku in, then stared at him slightly awkward. It had only been a few days, be he was seriously happy to finally see Suzaku's adorable face again. He had missed those bright green eyes, and that childish crooked smile of his.
Suzaku stared at Lelouch as well, absolutely ecstatic that none of the ridiculous scenarios he had imagined happened. If they had, Suzaku wasn't sure what he would have done. He slowly slipped his hand into Lelouch's and yanked him into a tight hug, surprising Lelouch.
Lelouch squeezed Suzaku's hand and relaxed into the sudden embrace. He loved Suzaku's toned body, it made him feel safe, secure, and loved. He would curl up in it all day long if he could.
"Honestly, you two, get a room." C.C. spat as she walked pass them to the living room to eat pizza and watch some sitcom on T.V.
Extremely taken off guard, Suzaku slowly let Lelouch go and coughed, to try and cover up the sudden awkwardness. He stared at the floor, unsure of what to do now.
Lelouch spoke. "Let's go to my room."
Suzaku followed Lelouch to his bedroom, cautiously, as the things that had gone on in that room came to his mind again. He did his best to cover up his flustered face.
Lelouch sat on the edge of his bed, patting the side of him signaling for Suzaku to sit there. Slowly taking his spot, Suzaku asked. "So...you were visiting your sister?"
"Yeah...she has been sickly ever since she was born, it's just gotten worse over the years. Sometimes she has to stay at the hospital, but she's generally healthy enough to live outside of it." Lelouch sighed a bit, probably thinking about his sister. His eyes swept over the floor a few times before landing on Suzaku's hand.
Placing his hand over Lelouch's, Suzaku gave him a gentle look. "What's wrong with her?"
Taking Suzaku's hand into his, Lelouch answered. "She just gets sick easily. She's never been able to walk, and a sickness had caused her to go blind at a young age."
Suzaku suddenly felt really bad for Lelouch. He had no idea that he would have such a sickly sibling. It was sad. "What's her name?"
"Nunally." Lelouch's face showed a sweet, very gentle smile.
Smiling back at Lelouch, he scooted closer to him tightly gripping his hand. His heart was pounding, such a simple contact still managed to affect Suzaku to a high level. "Nunally...that's a cute name. I'd like to meet her sometime."
Lelouch switched his gaze into Suzaku's eyes, still smiling lightly. "You can come with me next time I go to visit her. I'm sure she'd love to meet you."
Suzaku turned toward Lelouch more, drowning in his intensely gorgeous gaze. Lelouch's eyes were still as beautiful as the last time he had seen him. Suzaku's free hand squeezed silky sheets between his fingers as he debated what he should do. Lelouch was sitting right in front of him again. He was so happy, and overwhelmed that billions of emotions were bubbling up inside of him all at once, and he didn't know what to do with them.
"I would love to go with you." His hand gripped the sheets tighter as he continued to melt into Lelouch's purple orbs.
Lelouch smiled wider as he took note of Suzaku's expressions. He loved how Suzaku could never manage to say what he wanted to do.
Little glittering flows of light slipped through Lelouch's satin curtains, landing on Suzaku's face emphasizing his already gorgeous features. His skin glowed in the warm sun light, and his eyes turned a more vibrant green than Lelouch had ever seen.
Suzaku continued to squeeze the sheets between his fingers till his knuckles went white. He wanted so desperately to kiss Lelouch, but for some reason, he was too nervous to move a muscle toward him. His eyes wandered over to the bed underneath him.
Sensing that Suzaku was growing nervous, Lelouch leaned in and placed his hand upon his cheek, lightly going over his dark skin. Suzaku instantly turned toward Lelouch again, with adorable pleading eyes.
Lelouch whispered. "What is it?"
Suzaku bit his lip, his heart still pounding violently against his rib cage. He swallowed. "I just forgot how attractive you were..." A small innocent smile found his lips.
Closing in the space even more, Lelouch chuckled. "You really are an embarrassing person."
"It's just the truth." His innocent smile turned into his big goofy one that he was famous for, causing Lelouch's heart to leap into his throat.
After laughing again, Lelouch finally connected their lips together in a short, but very sweet kiss. He had missed the feeling of Suzaku's soft lips, and the scent of his hair. His heart was pounding, the small kiss feeling almost like the first.
Slowly pulling away, Suzaku continued his quirky smile, his cheeks a faint hint of red.
Lelouch layed down on the bed, pulling Suzaku with him. Hands still connected they layed facing each other, simply enjoying the atmosphere and each others company.
Suzaku played with Lelouch's hair as he broke the silence with a question. "Hey Lelouch...what do we do now? I know I've asked before...but..."
Snuggling closer to Suzaku, Lelouch spoke in a soft voice. "Don't over think it. Just do what you think you should."
He thought about it for a second. "I know...I just..."
"Suzaku. Stop it. Over thinking things just makes it more complicated."
Suzaku sighed a little, knowing he was probably starting to get on Lelouch's nerves about it. "...I'm...sorry. I'll stop."
Lelouch smiled again. "Good. All you have to do is be a good boyfriend to me, and I'll take care of the rest."
The word boyfriend caught Suzaku off guard. Really off guard. His heart stopped for a few seconds and his vision became tunneled. He knew the commitment he had made a few days ago, but hearing it made it so much more real. "...Y-Yeah. I'll do my best, then." His voice was shaky. Suzaku hated it when his voice got shaky, cause it showed how nervous he can actually get. He was usually so strong, but Lelouch made him feel like a little girl sometimes.
"You're already doing just fine, so don't worry about it. Silly."
Suzaku's cheeks caught on fire, and he had the urge to cover his face. He hated how girlish Lelouch made him sometimes. "Okay."
Laughing a little, Lelouch slipped his arm around Suzaku and pulled him toward him. "Damn it, Suzaku. Stop being so adorable..."
Surprised at Lelouch pulling him toward him, he stiffened a little bit, then relaxed into the hold. It felt nice to be in Lelouch's arms, and though it made him feel a bit childish, he loved it. He loved how the beautiful Lelouch could make him feel so protected and loved. He didn't even mind that he was the one being dominated half the time. Whether it was with words, or different. He couldn't seem to care about that if it was Lelouch.
Suzaku curled into Lelouch's arms more. It did feel a little strange curling into someone so much smaller than him, but it was also perfect. He could feel the adoration from Lelouch's hold. Emotions were boiling up inside Suzaku even more than they were earlier. They were so strong, he thought he was going to explode.
Lelouch's grip got tighter on Suzaku as he whispered something. "Suzaku...is it alright to say that...I think every time I see you...my feelings get more intense?"
Extremely surprised by Lelouch's sudden confession, Suzaku's mind went blank. He didn't know what he was supposed to say to that. It scared him to death, especially since he was starting to realize he felt the same. "...It's...fine." He debated on saying anymore...but went against his better judgment. "Me too."
Lelouch's eyes got larger, probably not expecting Suzaku to respond like that. Suzaku kissed Lelouch and pushed him onto his back, as he leaned over him. Lelouch pressed into the kiss, his back arching a bit. His mind fuzzed over as Suzaku gripped Lelouch's hand as tight as he possibly could and pushed into the kiss more.
Suzaku pulled Lelouch's shirt up, sliding his hand around his soft chest.
"C.C. is still here..." Lelouch mumbled between kisses.
"Let her hear." Suzaku whispered into his ear as he pulled Lelouch's shirt over his head.
Lelouch began to squirm underneath Suzaku, his body heat rising significantly. Suzaku kissed him again, then yanked off his own shirt, growing hot. Once again, he was scaring himself, but not to the point of stopping. He already came to the conclusion that he would always be a bit frightened at this situation, and he was done letting it control him.
A soft hand crept onto Suzaku's back, pulling him into yet another kiss as his free hand started to slip down toward Suzaku's trousers. Suzaku was shaking a little, mostly from anticipation. It was that moment that he realized he was ready for this type of commitment, and he was sick of being angry at himself for it. It was then, that he finally crushed all of his feelings of doubt, and decided he would love Lelouch no matter how difficult the situation became.
Suzaku whispered into Lelouch's ear softly. "C.C. was probably already expecting this."
Lelouch answered with his hand slipping into Suzaku's pants.
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HOLY SHIT. I hope that wasn't too much for a T rating. o_o I knew I had to stop it eventually. xD I didn't want to leave you all disappointed though, so there you go. That is the best you will get. For I don't want to lose some of my readers because the rating changed. I apologize to all you fangirls out there wanting more than what I gave you. Lol.
ANYWAYS. I REALLY hope that the ending wasn't too similar to the chapter beforehand. If it was, I apologize, and you can yell at me later. ._. I did the best I could.
I can't say sorry enough for how late this update was. I'm sure about half of you gave up waiting for me. Well...you got a surprise.
Yeah. You got it. You got your smex. That's as good as it will get for a T rating. xDD
Also this isn't the end. I promise! The next chapter might be, though. I just want Suzaku to meet Nunally, cause she's adorable. :3
Sorry for babbling.
~Till Next Time...
~AkemiKae~
