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Nightlight
Chapter 8
Jason sighed as he sat down beside Sam. This wasn't going to be easy. He wanted to tell her so much about Liz during the hostage crisis, telling him about how he was the father. That he was going to tell her but couldn't after hearing she was burden. How he thought he would be protecting her by not telling her the truth. He wanted to tell her everything about Lucky finding out at the birth, about making a pact. How it was suppose to remain quiet. How him and Liz both agreed to keep their son out of danger. But instead all that can out was…
"I'm Sorry, Sam. I am so sorry! I didn't want you finding out like this," he spoke looking deep into her sad looking brown eyes.
"That's all you got to say, that you're Sorry!" spat Sam at Jason. "You think saying, I'm Sorry will make everything better….Well it won't!"
"I know that Sam," spoke Jason softly, taking Sam's hand in his own.
"You still haven't answered my question, why did you lie to me about Jake?" she asked taking her hand back and running it through her hair. "Why Jason? Didn't you trust me?"
"Of course I trust you Sam with all my heart!"
"Bull Shit!" snapped Sam. "If you had really trusted me then you would have told me in the first place about Jake being yours!" her voice rising again in rage. "Instead I heard it from Elizabeth. You know how much that hurt me Jason! YOU BETRAYED ME! You have always been honest with me!"
It broke Jason's heart seeing Sam like this, tears of outrage rolling down her flushed cheeks as she stared at him, waiting for his answer.
"Sam," began Jason. "I wanted to tell you, so badly. But Liz and I both agreed it would be safer keeping the truth just between us. That Jake would be safer having Lucky as his dad instead of me. Me and Elizabeth made a pact….well until a few days ago that is."
"How long have you known?" she asked her voice softer now.
"Since the hostage crisis."
"You have known that Jake was your son since February? You have know for SIX FUCKING months that Jake was yours?" she asked her eyes growing dark with anger. How could Jason had lied to her for so long?
"Yes," gulped Jason looking away from Sam. It hurt too much to look into her face and see the pain on it. Instead he focused his eyes on the grass. "When I was stuck in the elevator with Elizabeth, she told me. She thought we're going to die…"
"Let me guess, when she told you, you proposed to her again. Am I right?" spoke Sam cutting him off.
"Yes but I wasn't really thinking. I thought I was going to die. I was just doing what was right, what I was supposed to do. But she refused me anyways," explained Jason, still not looking at Sam. "She went on how she loved Lucky and how I loved you. After that I could think about was you and if you got out safely. And how when I saw you I would tell you. I had too. I couldn't lie to you!"
Sam just laughed at this. Was Jason really being serious? He couldn't lie to her, then what had he just done to her then?
"After at the hospital when I saw you, Sam; you told me about how you could not have children. That the bullet that you had taken a year ago had damaged the wall of your uterus, making it impossible for you to conceive a child and carry it. After hearing this, I could not possibly tell you that Elizabeth was carrying my child. It would have ruined you Sam. I could not hurt you more then I had already done. I had promised you that, I had promised myself that." Spoke Jason slowly looking up at Sam, fearing what she would say next.
"So this is my fault. If I hadn't told you that I couldn't have children, and then you would had told me then we wouldn't be in this mess now. So it's my fault that you kept the truth hidden for so long, uh? To bare my feelings?" cried Sam, hitting Jason once again in the chest. She was pissed that he was blaming it on her that he had lied.
"Sam, no! That is not what I mean. It's not your fault that I didn't tell you. After that night I told Elizabeth that I couldn't tell you and she agreed to keep the truth hidden. She couldn't go through with telling Lucky that he was not the father. So we remained quiet but then closer to her due date, I started to get second thoughts. It was getting harder and harder for me to lie to you. I wanted to tell you so badly. But then on the day that Jake was born, Lucky found out. He had over heard me and Elizabeth taking about what we should do. He was mad but soon calmed down. I thought this would be my opportunity to tell you Sam. But Liz said that it would be better if only the three of us knew. We all wanted to do the best for Jake. Letting Lucky raise Jake was the safest thing. Lucky already loved Jake so much, didn't care that I was his father. He agreed to raise Jake with Liz and not tell anyone. It was supposed to stay like this, but then…"
Sam looked up at Jason, tear where running down her face, making her make up run. She didn't know what to make of all this. Why could Lucky know but not her? She would had been able to keep the truth hidden. Did Jason think her as weak? She could had handle it. If Jason had just been honest with her in the first place, things would be different between them. But he lied. Nothing could change that. Not hearing him say how sorry he was. Not him explaining why he had lied. Nothing could stop her heart from breaking. Jason had lied.
"Sam I love you! I didn't mean for it to turn out like this. I didn't mean for you to get hurt. I am truly truly sorry!" tears where starting to fill up in Jason's eyes but he blinked them away.
"Where you ever going to tell me?" she asked quietly.
"I don't know. One day but I was never a good time. I had made the pact with Lucky and Elizabeth not only to protect the Jake from the dangerous life I lead but for you too. I couldn't hurt you again like I did last August. I just couldn't!" cried Jason.
Sam just shook her head and looked away from Jason. It was too late for apologizes. He had already hurt her so badly. "It's too late," she whispered. "You hurt me even worth then last summer. You have betrayed me. That is something I thought you would never do to me Jason." With that she reached into her purse and handed over to Jason an envelope with contained the letter, star necklace and her key.
"Sam," spoke Jason taking the envelope, "Don't do this."
"I have to Jason. You have broken my heart and betrayed me. I can't trust you," she chocked. She was trying to not break down totally in front of him. "Goodbye Jason," she spoke standing up and wiping the tears from her cheeks.
"SAM!" called at Jason to her as she walked away. But it was too late. She was already gone from his life.
The walk back to the courthouse had been a blur to Sam. She had not been paying attention really to where she was going. All she could think about was Jason and what he had told her. She couldn't believe that he had known that long about having a son. She had not really thought about it before hand how long he had known, she had just been thinking about how he had lied.
As Sam climbed into her car and turned on the engine, she broke down in sobs. Her body collapsing against the steering wheel.
Jason walked into the penthouse; throwing his house key onto the desk like he always did. As he pulled Sam's envelope out of his pocket; Spinelli appeared from the kitchen.
"Stone Cold!" cried the Jackal, clearing surprised to see Jason.
Jason glanced quickly up at Spinelli and back at the envelope in his hands. He had not opened it yet. After Sam had left him, he had stayed in the park watching as the sun rose higher and higher over the landscape. He then had finally gotten up off the park bench and made his way over to Sonny's, who would clearly would want to see how he was doing. Jason had then adventured over to Carly's house. Where he was greeted with warm hugs and kisses from Michael and Morgan and Carly herself. She was so happy to see him. He had stayed there for an hour or so before heading home. Both Carly and Sonny had approached the Jake topic with caution with him. They had wanted to know the truth but also didn't want to seem nosey. Jason had then confessed the whole story to them; about finding out the truth during the hostage crisis and the whole pact thing with keeping it between Lucky, Elizabeth and himself. He had not thought mentioned the break up with Sam. It was still too fresh in his mind to talk about it really. He wasn't even sure him self what had happened really.
Spinelli took a step closer to Jason; noticing what he held in his hand. "I see that the fair Samantha got to you," he spoke gesturing to the envelope.
Jason sighed and placed the envelope on the desk besides his key. Running a hand through his hair, he turned towards Spinelli, "Yeah she did."
"The Jackal can tell from Stone Cold's manner that things had not been amended between the Goddess and him self. She was very upset over finding out that Stone Cold had a spawn," rambled on Spinelli. Stone Cold was his friend and he was very happy that he was not convicted. But Sam was also his friend too and he cared deeply for her. And seeing her hurt like she was in the hospital made him angry at Jason for lying. And Spinelli couldn't help but show some of this angry as he talked with Stone Cold. "The usually strong Samantha was in a state of tears when the Jackal saw her. It was most upsetting."
Jason glared at Spinelli; he knew what he had done to Sam. He knew how upset she was. He had seen for himself, he didn't need Spinelli telling him what he done.
Not getting the point Spinelli continued on, "The Jackal tried to comfort her but he was no use. The Faire one only wanted Stone Cold's touch. Over the past week, she as been living at her mother's house the DA. Having been too upset to stay in the fortress that once was the home that she and Stone Cold shared."
"WAIT! Sam moved out? Cried Jason over Spinelli's voice.
Spinelli jumped back at little at the roar of Jason's voice over his. "Oh yes, the night of! And she wrote that letter leaving her house key and beloved necklace behind for you to find."
Jason had not thought that Sam had moved out yet. A pain ripped through his heart at this. He turned his back to Spinelli and reached for the envelope, tearing it open with his hands. No doubt, Spinelli had been right. A silver key to the pent house fell out, clinkering onto the hard surface of the desk.
Jason then saw it, tucked in between the folds of the letter. He reached into the enveloped and slowly pulled at it. Sam's necklace. He looked down at it in as he lay it on his palm. The Silver Star sparkling in the light. The same star he had glanced down on and admired on Sam's chest as he made love to her. It beating against her heart.
A wave of rage spread through him like a forest fire as he looked down at this star that was once a symbol of his undying lover for Sam. Having Sam return this necklace was like her ripping out his heart, stomp on it and hand it back. With out thinking his fingers curled around the necklace, pressing it hard against his palm before releasing it into the air. Where it flew across the room into the corner.
Jason then stormed upstairs to his bedroom, the envelope still in his grasp.
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