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I don't know how long I had slept but I woke with no pain in my chest and only a very dull throbbing in my wrist. I kept my eyes shut, unwilling just yet to rejoin the hell that had become my reality. I felt the bed shift ever so slightly but without opening my eyes I couldn't tell if the person was getting in or out of the bed.

"I think she is starting to come around." I was fairly sure it was Carlisle that spoke.

I refused to open my eyes. I squeezed them closed and wished and prayed that sleep take me again.

"Open your eyes Bella. I know you are awake. Alice said you woke up a couple minutes ago." Edward, ugh, really I didn't get it. He was the one that outright said that he didn't want me anymore, that him and his family didn't care about me and they were going to leave.

I had left instead but they had left first, they NEVER tried to call me, and they never showed any signs that they gave a flying shit what happened to me after that fateful afternoon in the woods behind Charlie's house. But yet here he was touching, talking, and acting like nothing happened. They all were. What did Edward expect me to just fall to his feet and beg him to take me back? Beg them all to forgive ME and let me be a part of their lives? I think NOT! They could kiss my pale ass.

"Go away." I said quietly and still refused to open my eyes.

"Never again. I told you…" Edward started but I didn't let him finish.

"I honestly don't give two shits what you told me. You have told me a lot of things in the past, and most of them were nothing but lies and bullshit. You and your family may have fooled me once into believing that you cared but I will be damned if I let myself fall for it again."

"Bella, I…"

"I don't want to hear excuses. Get. Out!" I then opened my eyes and was met with Edward's face inches from mine. I quickly looked around the room and found Carlisle a couple feet from the bed and Alice next to him. The other four were in front of the door.

"Take them with you when you go." I said as I sat up and flipped the blankets off me and swung my legs off the edge of the bed sitting up. My head spun for a minute, after affects of the drugs I was injected with, but it stopped when I closed my eyes briefly and took a deep breath.

I opened my eyes and looked down at myself. I was getting more and more pissed by the moment. Someone had apparently stripped me and put on some flimsy silk night gown.

"Where are my freaking clothes? This shit is crazy. You people are crazy! Every last one of you! Give me my clothes and get the hell out!" I know it was their house but I just didn't care at that moment. I just wanted my clothes and my stuff and I wanted to get the hell out.

"Bella sweetie its ok calm down. Your clothes had blood on them from your knuckles. Me, Alice, and Rose washed you up and changed you. There are some clothes on the table over there you can change into." For a split second all I wanted was Esme to come over and put her arms around me like my mom used to and make the madness just go away. But then I remembered that she was also a part of the whole 'We don't want you anymore Bella' crap. That changed my mind real quick.

I nodded my head and slowly stood up. I must have wavered just a little because I suddenly felt hands touching me from all directions trying to steady me.

"Don't touch me! I am fine. Now leave!" I said shrugging them all off and walking toward the table. I didn't hear anyone make a move. I grabbed the clothes from the table and clutched them to me and turned around to face all seven of the Cullens.

"Can I get some privacy to change?" No one moved. I shook my head exasperated I marched toward the door. I was fairly sure I remembered where the bathroom was. I was sure when I at least got into the hall I would remember.

It was Emmet that stopped me at the door. "Where do you think you are going?" He asked.

"Um I don't think that's ANY of your freaking business, but I was going to go to the bathroom to change, seeing that none of you are making any attempt to get the hell out of here."

He smirked at me, shook his head, and stepped aside. "I missed you Bells." He said. I have never been a violent person but so help me god I wanted to wipe that smirk off his face.

"It will just end up hurting you more and doing absolutely nothing to him. Come on me and Alice will help you get changed…" I never expected Rose to offer to help me and for a second I was taken back. It was no secret that me and Rose never saw eye to eye, so her being nice was a bit of a shock.

"Find me a baseball bat and I can try to do a little damage. Besides I can dress myself. I am not a child." I stated and tried once again to get out the door.

"I am sorry Bella but I have seen what you have planned, and we won't let you be alone right now." Alice said from some where behind me. I felt like I was about to explode, I was so irritated.

"What the HELL are you talking about Alice?" I said between clenched teeth.

"There are two things I see you trying if we leave you alone and I won't let them happen. EITHER ONE. So come on let's get you dressed." She stated and I felt her hand on my shoulder. Rose smiled at me and it distracted me for a second. I gave her a confused look and shook my head.

Pulling my shoulder away from Alice I asked again, "Again Alice, WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?"

"Bella.. UGH! Fine… I have seen that if we leave you alone and just go away you will try to take your own life OR if we let you go to the bathroom by yourself you try to run away again. I don't care how much you bitch Bella, we are going with you. Now come on."

Before I could protest or say anymore Alice had picked me up and walked out the door, grabbing Rose's hand as she passed pulling her with us.

We were in the bathroom before I could blink. I was set down in the middle of the room, seething mad. I crossed my arms over my chest, clutching the clothes tighter and took a step back from the two vampires.

"Bella I won't let her touch you if you want to change on your own, but you better get to it because she won't listen for long." Rose said to me.

I frowned, opened my mouth to say something, but something in Rose's eyes told me she wasn't lying to me. She was the only one I thought I knew where I stood with. She didn't like me, I knew that, I have always known that. I nodded my head and started to change.

I turned my back to them (I know they have seen me naked before but I was conscious now and I was still shy) and pulled the nightgown off over my head with one hand. I finally noticed the white cast on my wrist when the nightgown caught on it briefly. I managed to pull the pair of silky blue panties on but when it came to the matching bra, I had problems. Every time I tried to use the hand that was in the cast it sent waves off pain up my arm and tears to my eyes. I was almost thankful when I heard Rose ask me if she could help.

I nodded once as the tears spilled over and down my cheeks.

"I am going to get something for pain for you from Carlisle I will be right back." Alice said softly and then she disappeared out the door.

With my back still to her I felt Rose's cold hands help me pull the bra on and fasten it. I pulled the blue tee over my head and Rose turned me around and helped me pull up the grey yoga pants. She picked me up and set me on the counter and helped me with my socks. I was so overwhelmed I couldn't get the tears to stop.

When Rose finished getting my socks on she placed some slippers on my feet then looked up at me. I saw such sadness in her eyes as she looked at me. Before I could say anything she stood and pulled me into a hug. I couldn't fight her. I just sat there with my arms at my sides and my head on her shoulder crying. She just stood there holding me while I sobbed.

After a few minutes I tried to pull myself together. "I am sorry Rose, I didn't mean to do that. Its just…. You are the only one out of all of them that I don't feel totally betrayed by. There has never been a love loss between us. I knew how you felt, so I didn't expect anything from you, and it took me by surprise when you hugged me." I wrapped my arms around my chest and looked down at the floor.

I felt Rose's fingers gently lift my chin, "Bella, look at me. I have NEVER hated you. I felt a lot of different things for you but I have never hated you. I was jealous and to proud for my own good. I never really realized how much you meant to me or all of them until you had left. I just really want you to know Bella with no bullshit and no lies…. I really do love you and I missed you and I am SO sorry for how I treated you before…. When you and Edward were together… I was a real bitch."

"Rose please don't apologize. You were… you are the only one that I wasn't confused and hurt by. I knew where I stood with you and I was ok with that."

"But if I had been…" She started but I interrupted.

"No seriously Rose, nothing you have ever done or said to me would have changed the outcome. They didn't want me anymore and they got rid of me. End of story. I just want to leave so I don't cause anymore problems for you guys. I don't want them to feel responsible or sorry for me. I learned a while ago that all good things come to an end and dreams are only made to be broken," I paused and tried to steady myself "I stopped having hopes and dreams a while ago…"

I heard a knock on the door just as Rose was getting ready to talk again. Alice entered before we could protest or say anything. She walked over to me took my good hand and placed two pills in my hand and opened a bottle of water.

"Please just take them, your arm will start hurting worse soon if you don't." I just looked at the pills then looked back to Alice then back to Rose. "Carlisle said that even if you thought you were going to leave you can't drive with that hand, so just take the pills Bella.

"Bella honey look at me," Rose said and when I didn't look up she lifted my chin again to meet her eyes, "I know you are confused but if I understand what you said to me a little bit ago… you trust me right?"

I felt the tears spring back to my eyes but I nodded my head a little. She smiled a little smile then continued.

"Take the pills. I won't leave your side I PROMISE. If you tell me you want them to leave you alone I will make them leave. I will stay, not that I don't trust you, but I am not going to listen to all of them bitch if I do leave you in a room alone. Take the pills and lets get you back into bed. You look so tired."

I didn't know what to say or do. I wanted out of this mad house and away from the Cullen's. I felt bad that I was breaking the one promise I had made to Edward, but I didn't seek him out, and he didn't seem to mad that I was there. I was confused and I started to protest but Rose stopped me and looked into my eyes.

"Bella it will all be ok. You need to talk to Carlisle and Edward about your dad and you are in no condition to drive right now anyway. Plus I don't doubt Alice's visions and I couldn't live with myself if I let you leave and you did something to yourself just because you were upset and felt like you were alone. Please just take the medicine and stay, even if its just for a few days. Let us help you, wait I see that look, let me rephrase, Let ME help you."

From the look in Rose's eyes I knew there was no point in protesting with her any further. She wasn't going to just let me leave either. If I tried to just walk out I wouldn't make it far and I couldn't make it through seven vampires, I had a broken wrist and three cracked knuckles to prove I couldn't make it through one.

I sighed in defeat and put the pills in my mouth, took the bottle of water from Alice and swallowed the pills. Alice gave me a tentative smile and I ignored her as I looked around the huge bathroom. My eyes landed on the huge tub in the corner. It looked so inviting. Alice must have followed my gaze because she spoke again.

"It has jets and everything just like a hot tub. I think they call it a Jacuzzi but I am not sure. It's wonderfully warm and relaxing. We can help you later if you want to take a bath in it."

I didn't say anything, I just started to slide off the counter. I would have been alright getting down myself but when Alice reached for me I jumped away from her and fell off the counter onto the floor, twisting my ankle and banging my knee in the process.

My life just kept getting more and more complicated. It just wasn't fair, I couldn't catch a break. Both of my parents were dead, I had some psycho vampire hell bent on killing me, I had a broken wrist, three broken knuckles, now an ankle and a knee that hurt, then to top it all off I was now stuck in the house with at least six people that had made it perfectly clear that they didn't want me in their lives. Oh could life get any better? Nope I am quite sure this is as good as it gets.

I felt someone lay a hand on my shoulder as I started to cry again. When I looked up I saw Rose squatting next to me on the floor. I have wished for the earth to open and swallow me before but I had never wished so hard as I did as Rose picked me up and said, "We better get you back to the room and let Carlisle look at your leg." She looked at Alice who had frozen with her hand reaching for me. "Alice, I know you are trying to help her, but you and everyone else will have to understand that she is confused and hurting physically and mentally. Give it time and back the fuck off a little."

With that Rose cradled me in her arms and walked out of the room leaving Alice to follow behind.

Much to my dismay, all the rest of the Cullen's were still in the room that they were all calling mine. Rose walked past all of them and carried me to the bed and laid me down, then turned to Carlisle. "She slipped when she was trying to get off the bathroom counter, she twisted her ankle and banged her knee. I don't think its broke but you should look at it."

"Of course." Was all he said as he stepped toward me. He slid my pants leg up gently and ran his hands over my ankle, then over my knee. "I think the ankle is sprained pretty good, its starting to swell and so is the knee. But I agree I don't think anything is broke. The pain medicine should help with the pain, I will go get a couple more ice packs to help with the swelling." With that he turned and walked from the room.

No one said a word, as I rolled to my side away from them all and pulled my good knee up into the fetal position, willing the pain and the Cullens away.

I just lay there hoping the pain meds would kick in soon. I felt someone place the ice on my knee and my ankle and I closed my eyes and started to cry. I felt hand on my shoulder and I jerked away almost on instinct. "It's just me Bella, it's ok." I heard Rose whisper as she sat next to me on the bed and rubbed my back.

"She hates us now Edward. This is all your fault." I heard the words come from Alice's mouth and before I could think I turned and sat up in bed. I felt like I was on an emotional roller coaster, but the words Alice spoke made me see red. I was seething mad.

"You have got to be kidding me right? I know you didn't just blame EVERYTHING on Edward? Are you serious Alice? OH MY GOD!"

"Bella, I…"

"NO Alice I don't want to hear it. I may not be a huge Edward fan right this minute, but he made his decision. He didn't want me. I can't and you can't force him to want to be with me. He has the right not to want someone like me, human and boring. But no matter what, that was his choice. Each and everyone of you made your own choices. You were all going to just leave me, in fact you DID leave, without even fucking saying good bye. NONE of you tried to contact me. I had my same cell phone number for over a week after I left. If you were so fucking worried about me you would have tried to call. If you loved me like you said you did…" my voice broke but I kept going, I had to get it all out while I could. " You would have tried to call, text, shit if it was that deep… I still check my email daily. The same email YOU helped me set up Alice. Each and every one of you made your OWN choice to not do anything. Don't place all the blame on Edward."

"He said we should just give you time." She said with a look of shock on her face. The look was mirrored by every vampire in the room except Rose, who just sat next to me looking at her finger nails with a smug look on her face.

"HE SAID! How old are you people? Two? Seriously? What.. did he spank you? Threaten to put you in time out if you tried to contact me? Wait I know he grounded you right? He took away your phone, computer, cell, and T.V. privileges. I mean COME THE FUCK ON! You guys are all at least a hundred years old and all perfectly capable of making your own rational decisions. If ANY of you cared ONE FUCKING BIT, you would have at least called to say goodbye. I have to give it to Edward. At least he had the FUCKING BALLS to tell me outright that he didn't want me anymore and he said goodbye. NO ONE ELSE DID. SO forgive me if I don't just run to all of you with open arms." I was so pissed I started shaking and the tears were falling so fast and hard I couldn't see clearly anymore.

"Especially you Alice. You were my best friend and next to Edward… you not calling and just letting me just disappear hurt the most. When my mom died….. I kept hoping you would just call to see how I was doing, but you never did."

Rose placed a hand on my shoulder and said "Bella sweetie breath you need to calm down a little."

I shook my head and continued, "Now three years later… my father is murdered and I have to come home. Which I would like to say that I was trying to keep my promise Edward. I wasn't going to search for you Edward… I wasn't going to look for ANY of you. I was going to take care of what I had to and leave. I don't know why I am being forced to stay here but I am sorry…. I am sorry." I felt my chest tighten up and it got harder to breath. I panicked, the whole situation was just to much for me to process.

"Bella, love, breath. It's ok…. I.." Edward started toward me but I held my hand up to him. I couldn't breath. I was gasping for but my chest was constricted, tightened painfully and making it damn near impossible to breath.

"Carlisle…do something!" I heard Edward say to Carlisle but I just wanted out, away from all this shit. I couldn't cope with it any more. I tried to move to get off the bed. A bum knee and a house full of vampires wasn't going to just keep me from trying to get the hell out. I knew it was futile but I had this overwhelming feeling to run.

I felt Rose grab my left hand and pull me back onto the bed and I screamed and thrashed and kicked and tried to get the hell out of there. She wrapped her arms around my torso. I felt someone grab my legs and when I looked down I saw that it was Edward. He had a pained expression on his face but I didn't care. I screamed again and tried in vain to pull away from him. I looked around wildly both screaming and trying to catch my breath, still searching wildly for a way out. I felt another hand wrap around my forearm and I felt Jasper trying to help me calm down but I was beyond that now. Every pulse I felt him trying to push into me I pushed right back at his ass and kept fighting.

I screamed again as I felt the prick in my right bicep area and I turned my head just in time to see Carlisle pull the needle from my arm. I felt the burn of the medicine, and almost instantly I felt the effects from the syringe. The more I tried to fight it the faster I felt my body going limp. I was terrified.

"Bella honey you are having a panic attack. Just let the medicine help you calm down and relax, try to breath deeply sweetheart." I heard Carlisle say then I felt his hand on my cheek.

With every once of strength I had left I looked up at Rose and said, "You promised, get them the fucking hell away from me." I saw her nod and then I saw no more. I gave up finally and drifted.