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Chapter 9

After following each other down the long streets, Brooke and Haley arrived safely at the dorms. They both get out of their cars, slamming the door as the wind rubs against them.

"…Ok, so their room is 430b and so you just go through that wing-" Brooke explains but gets cut off.

Haley stops dead in her tracks and turns to Brooke. "Wait, I'm not going there alone?!" Haley exclaims and rubs her arms, trying to warm them up.

"I can't go in there. Lucas!" She whines.

"Come on, Brooke. It's just tow minutes and then you can leave right after. Anyways Nathan wants to see you, he hasn't seen you in a really long time." She starts walking again, as her hair blows in her face. She tries to move them, but they keep coming back so she just gives up.

Brooke being dragged by Haley, thinks for a second and looks for a way to escape. "Fine, but not a second more." She finally agrees not seeing any way out.

They both go up the stairs to the guy's dorm. The stairs creak at some point, but they juts ignore it. It didn't matter anyways it was just one of those things you ignored, unless it was dark you were alone and had just finished watching a scary movie. They continue to walk up, as some of the guys are checking them out, hardly ever seeing girls on their level, cause most of the time they sneak in late at night.

They finally arrive at their dorm. Brooke stands their all nervous. The sweaty palms, the lump in your stomach and even the fact that she would think that she would forget her name. Haley knocks and quickly a blonde answers the door.

"Haley!" He embraces her in a hug, glad to have his best friend in his arms again. "I've missed you so much."

"Me too." She murmurs. They break apart and Lucas smiles. As he spots Brooke, he quickly tries to keep him smile.

"Hey Brooke." He says silently as he lets them enter.

"Hey." She whispers, not daring to look at him in the eyes.

There Brooke finds Nathan and gives him a big hug. "It's been too long." She tells him.

"Yes it has." He agrees and pulls away.

The whole four a little more than Brooke intended. It was mostly Nathan and her doing the talking since they hadn't seen each other in a long time. Once the room goes silent, Brooke gets up.

"I think I'm gonna go now." Brooke excuses herself and gives one last hug to Nathan and Haley. She then heads out before anyone can say anything.

"You're going to have to talk to her, man." Nathan suggests to Lucas.

"I know, I know." He sighs. "But it's not as easy as it is to break-up with Rachel and go for Brooke, is it?" Lucas says and hangs his head down to his knees.

Nathan pats him on the shoulder. "Just don't make the same mistake you did with Peyton and Brooke."

"Ok." He pauses. "It was nice to see you two again." He smiles and knocks fist with Nathan and also gives a hug to Haley.

"Bye." They both say in unison and close the door behind them.

"I'm worried for him" Nathan tells his wife.

Haley nods. "I'm worried for the both of them."

A few moments later, Brooke arrives to her dorm. Like usual Rachel wasn't there and Brooke was able to spend a peaceful afternoon.

She starts to pick up some clothes and places them in a pile in the corner. She lies down on her bed but can't seem to fall asleep. Not wanting to have noise or anything around her she just stares at the ceiling and thinks.

Brooke's POV

Yeah, I'm in big shit, I know. But I've been in worst situations right?...okay maybe not. Some similar but not like this. Urgh, why did I have to open my big mouth like usual. Yeah, too much vodka, gotta remember that next time before I drink too much. How my suppose to though? He's dancing and flirting around like he has no girlfriend, Oh and don't forget he kissed me. Great, even though I can hardly remember it, damn alcohol. And it's not like I'm going to do that to Rachel and get him to cheat on her, not fair. I know how it feels and urgh I don't wish that on anyone. She had to just become my friend and it's scary how we are alike, in…some ways. I gotta says she's like me…but fives times worst. Haha. All year I've waited for him, wanted to call him but my stupid insecurities kept me from that and sometimes I just wish I didn't have them. They have kept me from so many opportunities in life, but I can't help it. It's like I'm stuck in this plastic ball, and I keep on punching and kicking it but it simply doesn't break. I want to feel free, I want to be able to go up to him and kiss him like we use to or simply anything. Now it's all weird and I've even lost him as a friend, well it's awkward. He's pretty much the only one who gets me, like really gets me. Sure I talk to Peyton and Haley, but they don't completely see inside this confident cheerleader always putting a smile. They see a part of it, but not all. I need him in my life and so I have to fix that, but…but what if he hurts me again? He says it all the time, I'm not, I'm sorry but how can you be sure. Actions speak louder then words, right?

Brooke finally fell asleep after losing herself in her thoughts and crying a few tears. Later on she hears someone knocking on her door. She hopes it would go away, but what if it was Lucas? She groans and quickly goes to open the door, as the person before her casts a shadow on her.

"Shawn? What are you doing here?" She asks him. Ever felt that you're choking on your own breath, and that your whole world could come crashing down in that second? Well that was one of those moments. One too many.