`Chapter 9
BPOV
As I walked in to the ward that Billy was on I ran to his bed side, when I saw him there with all those tubes and wires I cried, I never thought I would ever see billy so poorly, I gave him a hug although it was hard to do with all the wires this hug was a way to tell him how sorry I was for not being here, it was a big tight hug and it reminded me off Emmett, Emmett gave the most amazing hugs. I sat in the chair beside him and nearly roke down crying for the man who looked so weak, I never thought I would see him so frail and ill.
"Billy are you ok?"
"I'm
fine Bella, It looks worse than it really is"
Then Jake came
into the room he was looking at a news paper when he walked in, he
looked exhautesd as if he hadn't gotten much sleep, his long hair was
gone it was all cut up short and spiked with gel, wow he had changed.
When he looked up and saw me he dropped the news paper I got up from
my chair and ran towards him by the time I was in his arm I was
crying
"Jake, I missed you"
"I missed you too Bella"
Not only did Jake look different he also felt different, he had grew a lot I had too look up at him, Jake and I were aways the same height what the hell has he een eating miracle grow?? He was very well built his muscles were so toned, he looked so good looking, I never thought I would see jake in that way only now I realsied that I did care for jake more than a friend, but I also cared for edward, it was different but still I cared for them both, jake felt so warm, he felt like a hot water bottle. He was looking down at me because he was now so much taller than me.
"Bella, why didn't you tell me you were coming"
"Because it's a surprise duhh!"
I hugged him again, I always felt better when I was with Jake, he always made my problems go way, thats' why I loved him so much, yes love.....I do Love jake, I always have and I always will he will be the one who I grew up with, he will be the one who stood up for me against the bullies, Jake is my brother for all intensive purposes but now he is a lot more, he wil be the one I can run to when things go wrong Jake would make the ideal boyfriend, but I will always care for Edward even though I know he only wants to use me I will always love him. But now was time that I have wished for for so long, it was Jake and me time.
After Billy had fallen asleep Jake and I went home, I drove my chevy and he drove hs volswagen rabbit which he a practically all but built the car. As I arrived home I was really hungary and when I walked throught the front door and smelled mum's cooking I had a smile a mile wide on my face, this was the first time I had smiled and genuainly meant it since I before the whole Edward thing.
I made my way into the kitchen with Jake, we were very close because I could feel his arm brushing against mine and he was really hot, hot as in warm, well actually boiling. My mum just stood there with a sly smile playijng on her lips
"Bella dear after dinner your father and I are going to see billy, we want to give you two sometime to catch up"
So that's what she was smiling about, my mother has always had this dream that Jake and I would fall in love and settle down, Jake would make a great husband and lover but he simply wasn't Edward there are no two ways about it.
So as we made our way into the sitting room, I was thankful that I came already Jake and I were back to our old selves telling eachother everything that was necessary. I knew he was holding something back and I w anted to know what it is
"Jake what are you not telling me? Come on you can trust me!"
"No Bella, it's nothing.....what are you keeping form me"
I had been avoiding thinking about Edward all night, but it hurt not being able to tell Jake I wanted to but I just would not sipmly get through it without breaking down.
"Jake...I....can't.....it's complicated........you wouldn't...."
Jake took my hand in his and gave it a little squeeze and for two sec onds I seen my futuer with Jake, we were happily married and we were watching two little girls running around with a puppy, they had the most amazing long black hair, which they got form Jake and the curls form me. Then I snapped out of it with Jake saying
"Bella please tell me, there is something wrong with you.....is it a boy....has he....."
Jakes voice broke and he closed his eyes and began to concentrate on his breathing, he pinched the bridge of his nose and kept concentrating on his reathing, after a few moments he reopened his eyes and finished talking
"Bella has he hurt you?"
How could I lie to Jake, he was my best friend, I had to tell him, but I want something in return
"Jake if I tell you what is bothering me will you do something for me?"
He looked intensly into my eyes and said
"Anything Bella, just name it"
"Tell me what is wrong with you"
His face fell
"Anything but that"
"Jake you promised"
I looked into his eyes trying to make the moment intense, I wanted to.....I can't actually believe that I'm doing this but I am rying to dazzle Jake. He kept his eyes on mine then spoke
"Ok I will tell you, but you have to talk first"
Ok so here we go, prepare to be in pain Bella, prepare to tell your best friend about the boy thast broke your heart.....
"Well here I go, when I moved to forks at first I met a few people, and we became really good friends with nearly all of them, Alice, Emmett and Edward Cullen, and Jasper and Rosalie Hale."
Jake cut in
"Nearly all of them?"
"Yea Edward and I didn't get on actually we hated eachother"
I emphaisesd the hated eactother, and Jake caught on to this
"Hated?"
"Yea, after about two months of hating him I realised that I really cared for him, it was silly of me too deny the attraction I had for him, He told me he loved me and I belived him which was so stupid of me..."
"Why was it stupid?"
"Becasue
he is the school player"
The look on Jakes face was abivious, he
knew where this story was going
"But I soon realised that he only wanted me for the sex, nd I didn't give him the chance to play me so I ended whatever it was we had, but the problem is......I Love him"
I had started to cry and Jake being Jake was there to hold me together. After a few moments of thoughtfull crying Jake spoke
"Bella did he evr hurt you?"
"No he just broke y heart"
I hadn't noticed it but Jake was shaking really badly, his breathing was coming quicker and he was al tensed up
"Jake whats wrong"
"He hurt you"
Yes it was true it did hurt but I was not letting anyone not even Edward destroy my time with Jake, this time was preacious.
"Jake he hurt me, but I am dealing with it, now this is me and you time......so you have to stick to your part of the deal"
I wiped away the remainder of my tears and looked to see Jake looking ack at me, he was thinging aout something really hard, the emotions flying across her face were anger, pian, sorrow, confusion and determination, he started
"Bella this changes nothing....."
He stopped and rephrased
"I'm still the same Jake........"
He stopped again
"I will always be here to protect you....."
What the hell is he trying to say?
"Jake spit it out"
"I've changed Bella, I've become a different person, "
"Jake you will always be the same to me, nothing can change that"
"But
Bella I'm not completely........I'm a.............it's been passed
throught generations of our tribe"
Tribe? Jake hand't talked
about the quiletes, he used to live n the reservation before his mum
and dad split up. What possible impact could that have on how jake
has changed?
"Jake you can tell me anything"
He looked deep into my eyes and found the what ever he seen he continued
"Bella, I'm a................"
A/N Sorry about the whole cliff hanger and all but........well actually I just felt like it!
Soooooo.......heheheehehehe........do you like??
What is Jakes secret??
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