Move Along
Chapter 9
Jasper got an extra say of leave, since he was shipping out. We'd called the family and they were all flying out for goodbyes. Jasper and I had a nice, but solemn weekend, knowing what we were facing, what he was facing.
"Babe, promise me you'll go after your dream job, work your ass off, then when I get back in a year or so, we'll start a family." Jasper kissed me softly.
"I don't want my dream job anymore, especially if I'm only going to be doing it for a year or two, it's not worth it. I just want to write and have you with me." I sighed.
"I know, I know. But with this position, there's no guarantee of where I'll end up. I'd rather you stay in Washington, surrounded by family and friends, instead of some foreign country or far away state with no one. We've got airplanes, you can travel to me, until I'm in a stable position." Jasper hugged me closely as I cried, yet again in his arms.
"I know I said I could do this, but it's hard Jasper, so very hard. I miss you and I feel like you don't miss me, even a fraction." I hiccupped.
He pulled away to look at me, deep hurt in his eyes.
"DON'T you EVER say that again! I love you more than my own life! I'm just trying to make some good, positive memories to keep me going when I end up in the worst places on earth! You know what'll keep me going? YOU! Your voice, smile, smell, looking at your beautiful face every day, even though it'll be a small picture I carry with me. I'll look back and think of all the great times we've had, the wonderful sex and love making we've shared and you're soft, welcoming kisses. Does that prove to you how much I love you? What more can I do!?" he snapped.
"I-I'm so sorry. I've been horrible. Thinking of only my wants and needs and not what you'll be going through wherever you're stationed. I love you Jasper and I just want US, I'm sorry." I leaned over to kiss him and surprised him by pushing him down. "Now, let's make some memories." I smiled before attacking him again.
We met everyone for dinner and had lots of great laughs and hopefully made some good memories for Jasper to take with him. He let his family know that contact would be minimal, if any and that he'd be overseas… well that left everyone guessing all night. Jasper had obviously been well trained, he never gave anything away and I think everyplace in the world was named.
The owner of the restaurant came over to ask how everything was and what the occasion was, when we told him, he shook Jasper's hand and thanked him for serving our country. He then proceeded to tell us that everything was on the house tonight and ordered another round of drinks, as well as a champagne toast. He joined us for a while, him, Jasper's dad and Jasper all talking about the military. Lots of pictures were taken, the owner took a group photo of us all in front of the huge flag hanging on his wall and then one of Jasper and I sitting on the little pond out front, telling him to carry this one close to his heart.
We looked at the picture and I was leaning into Jasper, my eyes closed, and a soft smile on my face and he was leaning down, kissing my head, his eyes closed and a matching smile. It was a mixture of happiness, sadness, longing and love, lots of love.
I drove Jasper to the base and kissed him soundly before letting him go.
"Please contact me as soon as possible. I love you and I'll miss you." I held him tightly, trying to hold back the tears, but it wasn't working. Several other couples had arrived and were going through the same thing we were.
"I love you so much Bella, you'll never know the depths. I'll call or write or hell, I might be able to Skype as soon as we're secure." He hugged me close then wiped my tears away, kissing my forehead telling me over and over how much he loved me and he'd miss me.
"You have our picture close to your heart?" I asked placing my hand over his heart.
"Of course babe, and it will not leave there unless…" he started to say something negative, which I refused to hear, so I place my fingers over his lips and shushed him.
"No! You will be back and you'll show me that picture yourself!" I snapped.
"Yes, you're right. No negative vibes, only positive." He kissed me again as the horn sounded for them to go in.
"I love you!" I yelled as he walked through the gates and turned to blow me a kiss.
This was going to be a long year.
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