"I love you too." I mumbled as I left the room, and got into the car, driving all the way home. When I got home, I laid down onto the couch and started to cry.

Then, I turned my head and saw a shimmering person standing next to me. She put her hand on my shoulder as she said one word,

"Jesse."

"Susannah?!" I asked, as I lifted my head up. I groaned when I saw CeeCee, and banged my head on the pillow.

"I heard Jesse… about Susannah." I lifted my head up on this one.

"DON'T TALK ABOUT HER!!" I screamed, I couldn't stand it. But there was one question still bugging me. Why didn't she come back as a ghost? I mean, she died, but didn't come back? That's just not right.

"Jesse?" Cee asked.

"GET THE HELL OUT OF HER CEE!!" I screamed at her. She nodded her head and dematerialized.

I decided to make some coffee. As I walked into the kitchen, I left a trail of tears on the way. When I was finished making it, I tasted it, and then spit it out. It tasted too watery, and a little salty.

My tears.

GREAT!

I dumped the coffee down the sink, and sat down on the couch.

I took a nap, and then woke to someone shaking my shoulder. "CEE!!" I screamed. "I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU TO GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE!!! I'M TOO FREAKIN' DEPRESSED! NOW LEAVE!!" I said, opening my eyes.

I gasped.

"S-Susannah?" I stared at her, shimmering in front of me. She nodded slowly, and gave me a hug. Still in a shock, I gave her a hug back, as she started to cry ghostly tears.

"Why didn't you tell me?" I whispered into her hair. "I was afraid that you would become too… frantic... too…depressed or bad?" She guessed at her word choice.

"But… I could have saved you… Querida! You could have still been alive! Standing right here in front of me, not shimmering, just being human! I could still have you!!!!!" I screamed, jumping up off the couch, pushing Susannah off with me.

"Jesse!!" She screamed, tears were falling freely now from her face. "I just couldn't… JESSE!! I COULDN'T EVEN TAKE THE NEWS!! JESSE!! I'M THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE!! I MEAN, HOW COULD I HAVE TOLD YOU THAT I HAD CANCER??"

I turned quickly around. "YOU COULD HAVE TOLD ME EASILY. I COULD HAVE FIGURED OUT WHAT WAS WRONG, AND WHAT THE HELL I COULD DO! BUT NO! I HAVE TO FIGURE OUT AT THE LAST MINUTE!! YOUR LAST FEW DAYS LEFT TO LIVE!! HELL, SUSANNAH!! PAUL FOUND OUT BEFORE ME!!! Do you even KNOW how that feels?" I asked, her, fumes rising all the way to Dios up above.

"There's no way to save you now Susannah." I said, turning around and walking into the kitchen, grabbing a beer out of the refrigerator. She followed me.

"Jesse, you don't drink." She said, staring at the bottle in my hands.

I stared down at it. "Yeah, I've never had one. I just bought some a couple of days ago. You know, I thought maybe it could calm my fears." I said, glancing down at the floor, where the shards of the Vodka bottle were.

"Mhmmm.." I said, carefully, but quickly shoving the pieces into the trash can.

"What's that?" She asked.

"Um, nothing, just my vase… it broke." I lied.

She stared at the table. "Your vase isn't broken."

"Um… Cup." She stared at me. Please buy it Susannah, PLEASE!! I screamed in my head.

"Okay..?" She said, stepping closer and closer.

"Susannah!!!! There's no way to save you!! So just leave me alone." I said, taking a big sip of the beer I was holding.

"Jesse!!" She screamed. "There is!!"

I didn't pay attention, just drank some more beer.

"You can just go back in time…." She started, but I cut her off.

"Susannah…. I don't even think that I want you to become living again." I said humbly, staring down at my feet.

"What? Why? I thought you loved me!!" She cried.

"I do Susannah, it's just that….. you lied to me… and that was a huge lie! Maybe you should just stay a ghost, as part of your punishment. Susannah! I was working on a cure for Cancer, and I had just found a medicine that could reduce cancer in the body, letting it become small enough for your body to fight it! I could have saved you… but you never gave me the chance." I said, drinking the rest of the beer, and throwing it on the floor.

"I'm going to bed." I said, and I slammed the door behind me, changed into my PJ's, took a shower, brushed my teeth and crawled into bed.

"Forget everything I said Susannah. I still love you, and before you know it… you WILL be alive… trust me on this Mi Querida, Trust me." I whispered, closing my eyes and going to sleep.

Little did I know that Susannah was listening to everything I had said, and she was grinning like an idiot. She was hiding in the back wall of my room.

Hey, she is a ghost, isn't she?

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