Thanks for the comments :] I know that drabbles are annoyingly short, so i want to thank you guys for sticking with me. I'll leave you a little treat at the end of this chapter ;]
Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?
Awkward. Awkwardawkwardawkward.
There was no better word to describe the luncheon.
Of course, Arthur was the only one feeling uncomfortable. After all, it was his fault for treating it like a real date. He'd done all the real date things: He picked Merlin up, He opened the car door, pulled out the chair, and participated in some witty banter.
Arthur watched as Merlin laughed with his friends; he felt a bit queasy. Was it a date? Yes, he said it was casual. But is that what he meant?
He liked Merlin. With his lickable cheek bones, plump mouth, and adorable half-deranged laugh: what's not to like?
The uneasiness probably stemmed from the fact that Merlin was an abuse victim. Arthur was so emotionally wrecked when Morgana began her recovery. Could he go through that again? Coming back from abuse could take years; a whole lifetime. Did Merlin even want to date?
It was different with Morgana. That was his sister; it was his job to be there for her. And he could actually help her. When the judge pronounced a guilty verdict for Morgause and Cenred, Arthur had held his sister while she wept tears of joy.
What if Merlin didn't have a support system? Should Arthur be expected to look after him? What if they didn't work out as couple? Could Arthur leave Merlin high and dry?
His musings sent a myriad of emotions across his face. Arthur had completely checked out of the entire affair.
"Were you, like, okay during lunch?" Merlin asked as they pulled up to his apartment.
"What do you mean?"
Merlin looked at Arthur as if he'd grown another head. "You're joking, right? You looked uncomfortable the entire afternoon."
""No, I wasn't-" Arthur started.
"Just save it. You asked me to lunch because you said you wanted to get to know me more."
"I do!"
"You didn't say anything all night!" The dark haired man became flushed. Arthur thought it was unfair for anyone to look that attractive when they were yelling at him.
Merlin continued his rant. "You kept getting this bug-eyed look anytime I said something or laughed. Do I embarrass you? I'm sure Morgana told you about my past; was this a pity date?" Merlin stepped angrily out of Arthur's silver Camaro. "You should have said you were uncomfortable around me before you introduced me to your friends, who were lovely, by the way."
"Merlin, please, it wasn't like that." The blond tried to explain. "If I could just expla-"
"Don't bother." Merlin said as he slammed the door. He practically ran to his front door.
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?
Song: Grace Kelly by MIKA
Okay, treat time:
I've sort of hinted at morgana's past in this chapter, but i know i won't be explaining it further in this fic. So, as a treat, here is her story:
Morgana lived with Uther growing up. She left her mom at a young age, so she doesn't really remember her.
In college, she became curious about how her life could've been. She discovers her mother's name and that she has and older half-sister.
Her sister's name is Morgause. Her husband is Cenred Wulfhering, a rival of Uther's. They both seem like lovely people. Morgana decided to take a year off of college in order to get to know them both better.
Everything seems normal at first. But slowly, Morgana stooped doing anything to upset her knew family. She stopped talking to her friends, she stopped talking about returning to school, she even stopped cutting her hair.
When she started living her life according to Morgause and Cenred, the bigger things started.
Morgause would make little comments about Arthur and Uther, about how badly they treat Morgana. She successfully planted seeds of doubt againt them, until Morgana felt hopeless. She began to feel alone and depressed. This is when Cenred began his attack.
He began to harass her. He would make nasty comments about her looks or her attitude. he would follow these remarks with touches in inappropriate places. If Morgana mentioned any of these incidents, Morgause would laugh in her face.
The sexual abuse began a year later, with it came the physical.
Her nightmare lasted almost six years before she ran out. Arthur took her in and had her tormentors locked up.
Her recovery was slow and agonizing. She had deserted all of her friends. Only Arthur was there to support her. Not wanting anyone else to feel alone, Morgan began a support group for domestic abuse victims.
With her life back in order, Morgan began seeing Arthur's friend Leon.
-Like i said, i chose to expand on Morgan's character because her story won't get mentioned much. Most of the other characters will be explained. However, if you are curious about something or someone, leave a comment and i'll see what i can do.
