Chapter 9 / Stargazing

Me escaping everything what is going on is an understatement. I ran away, not far but still. I ran away to the roof, it was nighttime and a clear sky which means I could look at the stars and forget everything.

I always loved stargazing, it is so easy. Which sounds weird... it is more like seeing new possibilities, other systems with each other life forms. You can think for hours about what may be different there from here. And if you look long enough you might start to think they only shine their light for you at that exact moment.

But that is far from the truth, they always shine even when you can't see it. I always search for the star where Krypton was. The red star Rao, a beautiful one... a god.

It still makes me sad knowing that I don't have my family anymore. I have Kal but where is he? Is he truly dead? Or just rogue... is he infected with Red K? My vision became blurry, but I stop my tears from flowing. I have no idea why but I do... my head slowly starts to hurt again. I suspected one of those episodes should be coming soon and here it is. I don't scream, I just try to be a strong person and let them flow those... images. Although I said I would be strong I grab my head and let my tears fall. I see images of a younger Alex, she is so... different. Not the Alex I knew, less confident not like her in her real puberty. It's like she didn't dare to defy things. Not like the Alex who would be feared by boys because she dared to do something... No this Alex is... scared.

It suddenly stops, no more images of younger Alex, just me and the stars again. I let my head go and try to get to know why I needed to see that. To learn? To feel pity towards her? Or to support... but I can't protect her. I am not myself yet... I am almost a human, not the Kryptonian with powers. No just a step closer to human because none of my powers returned. My senses are fully awake again but anything else... gone.

I hear the door open that gives access to the roof. I turn my head to see who it is. Alex... she looks a bit around and then spots me. "Hey" was all I could say, she grabs her phone and probably sends something. She looks at me again and chuckles "Stargazing huh?" While she walks towards me I say "What did you else aspect? Saving the world without powers? Nah that is quite difficult." She lays down beside me it feels good to do this again. Like old times.

After a couple minutes of silence Alex says "Lena was about to call the police luckily she didn't. But I think her idea about putting tracers in your clothes might come back." We chuckle, Lena and putting tracers in my clothes... yeah that is something Lena would do.

"I will talk her out of it, I know she is concerned but I need privacy."

Did I just say that... is it not to harsh? No? Luckily helps Alex me "You are right but you can't stop that woman with loving you that means you also get all the other emotions. It is also good to see we both have somebody who will run into fire to help with our problems."

She is right... the Lena here is so... caring. My thoughts wander a bit about Lena when Alex says "Why did you even flee?"

I sigh and say "Couldn't handle it anymore, too many questions."

"But did you had to lie? Saying you were going to the bathroom?"

"No, no... that wasn't smart. I just thought it would be better. Making Lena worry less but in the end I only made her worry more." I sigh and continue "I didn't know how to get away from there and I would have warned them were I was but I don't have my phone."

"Kara," Alex starts "you and Lena have been married for quite a while now. And you were together for a while before that so just speak the truth. A marriage is better if it is based around than the truth than all of it is just a lie. Next time just tell her, you have been there for her and she will gladly be there for you."

I chuckle, no laugh, because the fact that it seems like Alex is always the perfect sister despite the place and now universe. "What is so funny?" she asks.

"It seems like wherever we are you just act like the perfect sister somebody would ask for."

"Well, I- uh- Thank you, but I think you would have done the same."

"Yes, yes. That doesn't hide the fact that you will always better" I slowly turn my head towards her. She has goosebumps all over her arms, she probably forgot to take a jacket with her. So I simply state "It is quite cold tonight, want to get inside again?"

"I didn't think I would ever hear from you that it is cold. For you it is almost impossible to get cold." She says while she starts to stand up. "Yea well, today is your day!" I exclaim, not in a bad way, and stand up.

We chuckle and walk to the door, it felt good talking to this Alex. She might not be a bad ass like she was before but she is fun, and still extremely wise. She just knows what to do around me.

I follow her to some door, this mansion is just like a maze. Too many corridors. "Good luck with Lena" Alex says and winks at me. I nod and she walks away. Should I knock... or not... is it even my room? Yes... probably. I put my hand on the handle and hesitate. Will Lena be there? Will she be mad?

I slowly open the door. The room before me is definitely my room. From the pictures on the wall to the colours. Lena is sitting at some desk. She almost immediately turns towards me and exclaims "Kara!" she looks a bit mad, so should I say sorry? Yes... I should. Lena opens her mouth to speak again but I am too fast "I am sorry, I shouldn't have done that. I should have told the truth."

She nods and says "Apology accepted. Next time just say if it is too much and where you are going." She stands up and she asks me "Were the stars beautiful?" I chuckle and say "Yes, but not as beautiful as you" KARA! Since when do I flirt... with her? It felt right but... how... why... I even didn't do it that much with Mon-el...

Lena smiles brightly and slowly walks towards me "Now do I?" I nod keeping up my act. Is it an act? It feels good, so no act it is... she puts her arms around my neck and says "You are quite the charmer Kara. Are there any costs for your lovely services?" Yes it is true... Lena Luthor is flirting with me, you can hear it from her tone to how she looks at me. I shake my head. "Well, than I will just give you a reward." She winks at me but before I can react she kisses me. Yes, a good kiss. A perfect kiss.

That kiss leads to some other things but absolutely not the last base. We end up cuddling in bed nothing special for her probably. But for me it feels like the safest thing in the world.