I'm so sorry that its taken so long but i'm finally updating and i'm posting TWO chapters :D please review!

Rachel x


Chapter 9

When I woke up the next morning, Sawyer was already awake. He was sitting up and I was lying across his chest.

"Morning, Sunshine" Sawyer drawled.

I shot up off Sawyer's chest and ran my fingers through my bird's nest hair. Sawyer's arm was in its sling.

"How's your arm?" I asked him

"Feels like I've been stabbed" Sawyer said dryly.

"I can get Jack to give you some tablets, I'll go get him for you" I mumbled, starting to get up. Sawyer grabbed my wrist.

"No, stop your worrying, Ol" Sawyer chuckled.

When Sawyer finally finished talking he looked up to me meet my eyes, they were filled with genuine sadness and pain and a little bit of relief. In the past hour or so he'd confessed a lot about himself, about the real "Sawyer and what this had done to his family. It was strange to hear that he was a bit like me, keeping something in his pocket, something important; the difference was that mine was a picture of my baby girl and his was a letter to a man who'd conned his mother and caused the breakdown of his entire family.

I was a little freaked by his criminal life before the crash, but everyone has a past, right? Or at least that's what I told myself. What about me? I had one hell of a past. No matter how many times I told myself that Sawyer would be bad news, I wasn't going to be persuaded otherwise, whether it is by others or by myself.

"I know what I've done is wrong, Ollie, so I understand if you can't forgive me for how I've treated you"

"Shut up Sawyer. We're on a desert island in the middle of nowhere, where there are polar bears and God only knows what else" I said "I don't know what's going to happen, Sawyer, but I really want to give this a shot"

"Me too" he said quietly.

"Good" I giggled.

He wrapped his arm around me and secured me to him, pressing his lips to my forehead. I hugged him to me for a while before I sat up and frowned.

"We should go back to the caves to see if Shannon's feeling any better" I sighed "I just left her yesterday to come find you"

"Come on then, let's go check on Barbie" Sawyer grinned.

He pushed himself up on his arm and then he was on his feet. He dragged me up to mine. It was a nice day on the beach; it was pretty sunny but a little muggy. Thankfully it wasn't raining. That was one of the worst things about the island. We often suffered from random flashes of heavy rainfall.

"Hey, Shannon! How're you feeling?" I asked as we arrived at the caves.

She looked better, she had a bit more colour in her cheeks. She was sitting on some rocks with Dee, another survivor. She still looked a little frail and a bit worse for wear.

"Better. Sun found a plant in the jungle – eucalyptus I think – anyway she gave me that and I can breathe more now"

"That's good, look, I'm sorry for disappearing on you yesterday"

"Its fine, Dee and Boone stayed with me" Shannon smiled.

Kate turned up not much later as many of sat around the fire cooking Jin's fish on a stick. She looked pretty grim but not completely past it. I sighed, I knew whatever it was would be bad but not oh my God someone else has died type of bad.

"Sayid has left" Kate said as she accepted some fish that Jack had offered her "he's gone to map the island or something"

"Good" I muttered under my breath.

I was angry for what he had done to Sawyer; in fact I was furious with him. But really, deep down inside, I hadn't wanted him to leave the group. Out there, on his own, he was bound to get killed. And I wasn't that angry. Sawyer squeezed my hand and I leaned into him, not on his bad arm though.

"I think I want to stay here tonight, there's hardly anyone at the beach and I don't really want to leave Shannon tonight, I've already left her once" I murmured to Sawyer.

He smirked.

"I'm sure I can survive one night amongst the unwashed masses" he chuckled.

"Oi!" I laughed, giving him a hard slap on his good arm, " we don't smell"

"Well…I wasn't going to say anything, but…" he joked.

I glared at him and he grinned.

He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and we walked into the caves. We set up some towels on the floor of the caves to sleep on. We lay down on the floor beside each other in silence, and he pulled me close. I sighed and closed my eyes.

"Night, Sawyer"

"Night, Ol"