Song is: Through Glass by Stone Sour

Warnings: Hinted character death

Disclaimer: I don't own Magnus or Alec, I only own the plots that put them through hell.


I'm looking at you through the glass...

Don't know how much time has passed.

Oh god, it feels like forever.

"Throughout my time I've been many things. A son, a demon, a monster, a orphan, a friend, a lover, a liar... I've been nearly anything a person can be. Because you see, when you live forever you can be anything and everything that you want to be and still have time to be something else. You can do everything you've ever possibly dreamed of doing and still have centuries left. It's really quite depressing when I think about it."

A soft snort escaped at the thought.

But no one ever tells you,

That forever feels like home,

Sitting all alone inside your head.

"I often times wonder how I managed to keep track of myself through it all. Sometimes I'd look in the mirror only to wonder just who the hell was looking back at me. I'd find myself confused sometimes, unsure of just what face I should put on. But then I'd remember and the uncertainty would fade away into the back of my mind. Unimportant."

How do you feel?

That is the question.

But I forgot...

You don't expect an easy answer.

I don't really know why I bothered with it, really. Pretending that is. Why was I doing it again...? Oh that's right. "

He blinked slowly.

"It was something to do. Something to occupy both my mind and time. I didn't particularly enjoy it but then again I didn't exactly dislike it either. I supposed I'm not making much sense, now, am I, love?"

He sighed.

When something like a soul,

Becomes initialized and folded up,

Like paper dolls and little notes.

You can't expect a bit of hope.

So while you're outside looking in,

Describing what you see...

Remember what you're staring at is me.

"I've found that as the years wear on, my emotions grow more and more distant, until I've become nothing more than indifferent to it all. It was -is- incredibly dull."

How much is real?

So much to question.

An epidemic of the mannequins,

Contaminating everything.

"People always make immortality out to be glamorous. Covering up the bad bits with benefits and glamour. People are so enamored with their fantasies that they hardly ever see the truth anymore. And they wonder why, when faced with the truth, it shocks and hurts so."

When thought came from the heart,

It never did right from the start.

Just listen to the noises.

(No more sad voices)

"I've often looked back on the day that I decided to freeze myself as a nineteen year old. How, at the time, I had thought I was ready to face a life of forever. How I had believed myself to be strong enough. How wrong I had been."

A bitter laugh fell from his lips, echoing in the air around him.

Before you tell yourself,

It's just a different scene.

Remember, it's just different from what you've seen.

"No one would ever be ready, no matter what they thought, no matter what they said... It was never enough. Would never be enough. That's why I denied you, love. Why that was the one thing I refused to give you. I didn't want you to suffer as I have."

And it's the stars,

The stars,

That shine for you.

And it's the stars,

The stars,

That lie to you.

"I suppose that makes me selfish."

He smiled sadly.

"I'm sorry."

Cause' I'm looking at you through the glass...

Don't know how much time has passed.

All I know is that it feels like forever.

"I didn't do a very good job did I? I tried to protect you from pain and in doing so only caused you more."

But no one ever tells you,

That forever feels like home,

Sitting all alone inside your head.

He leaned back, closing his eyes against the sadness.

"But you always forgave me didn't you? You were always so kind, so gentle... You never could hold a grudge. Not that I let you."

He laughed softly.

And it's the stars,

The stars,

That shine for you.

And it's the stars,

The stars,

That lie to you.

"Love I-"

He swallowed, becoming somber.

"I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you, I'm sorry for withholding so much from you. I understand why you did it, I understand that I drove you to it and I- I forgive you. Can you forgive me?"

A soft breeze blew by, warmth carried in its embrace.

Who are the stars?

Who are the stars;

They lie.

He shuddered, a sob catching in his throat as he turned to the cool stone behind him, placing a soft kiss on the name engraved there.

"I love you Alexander."


Okay so this... Was really unexpected. I heard this song and immediately thought 'Magnus!' and I couldn't help but go with it. The beginning was a little rough and then I got the idea of having Magnus speaking and.. Yeah. As you can see (hopefully) Alec is dead and Magnus is talking to him (or his grave). As for the last part I wasn't really sure where the hell that was aimed for though the thought of 'Camille' came up once or twice. So I was thinking that maybe Alec died at Maureen's hand? You can imagine whatever you wish, that was just where my mind was going at the end.

Reviews mean more Malec and everybody wants some Malec! ;)

PS: I'm probably gong to write a one-shot to balance out the angst in this where Alec gains imortality. It'll probably be just a brief look at Alec's and Magnus' life together. :)

;3

~TMTMFD