It went dead

It went dead

Gwen sat in the front of the SUV hanging onto the grip above her head as if her life depended on it. Technically it did seeing as Jack was driving. She had been with him in the SUV before when he broke the limits but not like this. She supposed Ianto had the power to make even Jack do crazy things. She felt a twinge of jealousy when she realised how much Jack must love Ianto. He was supposed to love her. She reflected on her wedding day, the way she just waited for Jack to stand up and demand the wedding to stop because he loved her. She snorted at the prospect. Romance wasn't easy and it never happened the way you wanted it to. But still, she wanted Jack and she didn't like the way he cared for Ianto. It was always supposed to be them. Her and Jack. But since Ianto Jones had spent the night at the Hub and broken Jack's heart, Jack had never looked at her twice. They used to flirt a little, sometimes outrageously, and it used to make Gwen feel special – as if she were of some importance. She sighed as she finally realised that there was no chance of her and Jack being together as long as Ianto was around. She looked out the window and away from Jack as a tear slipped down her cheek as she finally understood that she would never be as important to Jack as Ianto was. Love hurt.

Kieran was sat in the back of the SUV idly looking out the window. He'd never understand love he decided, the way people sacrificed themselves, the way people cried to themselves and the way people went crazy over it. No, he would never understand love. But he understood this one. He understood this love perfectly. He knew that Jack needed Ianto in order to keep moving forward and he knew that Ianto needed Jack in order to be himself. He understood that they both needed each other and he understood what lengths both would go to protect each other. He leaned back in his seat and smiled. It felt strange on his face because he had nothing to be happy about. But he did. After searching for a lifetime, he finally understood what love was.

Tosh looked up at her computer screen and smiled to herself. Jack was racing up the M25 in search of Ianto. She smiled as she thought of the love the two men shared for each other but it made her sad. She'd only experienced that kind of love once but the person she loved showed no inclination of loving her back. But Jack's love was strong. She knew by the way he had broken down the day before that he loved Ianto and should he die, Jack wouldn't cope. A tear slipped down her cheek as she thought of the prospect of no Ianto. Jack would die, he'd go insane. Tosh looked at the screen of her computer. On it was the list of calls Ianto had dialled in the last week. Next to that was a box which contained the name of the person Ianto had last been trying to call before he had the accident. The box contained a simple name but it was still a name that managed to bring fresh tears to Toshiko's eyes. Jack Harkness.

Owen looked over at Tosh and cursed. She was crying again. Why couldn't she just stop? They knew what they were getting into when they signed up for Torchwood so why was she so upset? Owen was amazed at his own insensitivity but it was part of who he was. He couldn't do the soppy romance but he couldn't be cold hearted either. Rolling his eyes, he made his way over to Tosh and put an arm around her shoulders. He thought about Jack and Ianto and if they had ever been like him and Tosh before the night Ianto had spent here. In love but too afraid to say something about it. Tosh leant into his touch and Owen felt his body respond. How could this woman make him feel like this? Was this how Ianto made Jack feel? If it was, Owen hoped to God that Ianto pulled through because he couldn't imagine life without Toshiko Sato so Jack couldn't; imagine like without Ianto Jones.

Jack pulled into a spare parking space in Hitchingbrook hospital and hurled himself out the car. Gwen and Kieran followed suit and were amazed that Jack could still walk after 5 hours of driving. Then again, it was Jack Harkness they were talking about. They followed him into the reception where he was getting directions to the IC unit was. They followed him as he ran down the corridor, ignoring the shouts of nurses as he flashed his badge at them carelessly. They met him again on the top floor; he was stood outside a door panting as he fought to get his breath back. A male nurse came over and started talking to him in low whispers and allowed Jack into see Ianto. Gwen motioned to Kieran and they sat in the plastic chairs waiting for their team leader to reappear.

Inside the room, Jack was crying. His Ianto was hooked to so many machines it broke his heart. How was he supposed to be comfortable? Jack made his way over to the bedside and perched on the side, taking Ianto's hand into his own. He was comforted by the monitor beside him beeping rhythmically as it measured Ianto's heartbeat. More tears cascaded down his cheeks as he took in Ianto's facial expression. He looked so peaceful – like he was sleeping. But Jack wanted him awake. He coughed slightly and ran his hand down Ianto's face.

'You know its funny Yan. I always thought that you'd be the one taking care of me. How I wish it was that way instead. You see the thing is I'd rather be in pain than helping you recover. Why are you so stupid Yan? Why did you have to run? I know why, it was because you loved me. You're a royal idiot Ianto Jones. If you had stuck around then you would have realised I loved you too. We're so stupid aren't we? Everyone was trying to tell us but we didn't listen. We just carried on hurting each other until we ended here. I know why you ended it Ianto and I think you made the right decision. You were unsure of how I felt and so you did the thing that would stop you hurting. I would have done the same thing.' Jack wiped his eyes. 'But why didn't you just talk to me? God! You had to be a pain in the arse didn't you? And look where it got you – in a hospital bed, fighting for your life with me rambling on at you.

I'm not rambling for the sake of it Yan. I do have a point to say I just don't know how to say it. You see, funny as it is, I'm scared of getting hurt too. Hell, with a life like mine, you're scared everyday. People die around you and you can't do a thing about it. And then I fell in love. I fell in love Ianto with the most amazing person I had ever met in all my lifetimes. I fell in love with you. I fell in love with Ianto Jones who has the power to control me like no one else has. That's why I'm here now sitting at his side waiting for him to come back to me so I can tell him all over again. I can't imagine life without this man in my life and I won't cope. I need him to come back t me. Ianto, I need you to come back to me.' Jack looked down at Ianto waiting for a reaction but nothing happened. His shoulders slumped as he stood up and made his way to the door. He was stopped by a feeble voice.

'I hope after that speech you're going to kiss me.' Jack laughed and rushed to Ianto's side. He placed his lips on Ianto's and felt his heart soar. Only Ianto could get that reaction out of him. After breaking for air, he placed his head against Ianto's.

'I love you Ianto Jones.'

'I l…l…' Jack looked at Ianto and felt his heart quicken. Ianto was pale and the grip on his hand tightened. 'L…love…y…you….t…t...too.' Jack felt his heart stop as the hand gripping his so tightly went limp and the monitor to the side of him went flat.

A/N So I gave you an insight to Tosh, Owen, Gwen and Kieran there. And I let you into Jack too. However, what just happened to Ianto? Hmm……I'm sure of you review, the author will let you know

JessyDaCowgirl