Lost and Found

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Chapter 9 - Request

"I'm lesbian."

Rin could feel the words echo through her head that whole night. Lesbian... lesbian... Dear Lord! She felt her head might burst.

"Who...?" she'd asked.

"Miku." Luka had cut her off. "I think I'm in love with Miku."

She remembered Len shifting back. "So she's finally realized it."

So he knew... all along, he knew- or at least, had suspicions -and he didn't tell her? What else was he keeping secret?

Lesbian... there it was again, resounding through her skull, giving the blond girl a headache. Lesbian! Of all things...!

Had one of her best friends have a crush on her at one point? Or was Miku the only one...? And who else could Len be keeping secret from her? Maybe even Gumi had a secret crush on her?

She groaned. 'Don't think about stuff like that...'

She flinched as Len rolled over, but when she reassured herself his breathing was still steady, asleep, she calmed down.

She'd been doing this a lot lately... was she afraid of him? Why?

She shook her head almost violently. No, not afraid OF him; afraid of how he'd REACT.

She was aware of his suspicion of Mikuo. He didn't trust him. Perhaps he'd decided he didn't like Americans anymore? He certainly disagreed with most of their ways.

Or perhaps it was that American stereotype... horny boys.

Rin smiled to herself. If he heard her say that, Len would freak.

Len... Len was getting on her nerves a little lately. Why, Rin didn't know. He was overprotective of her, though. She didn't like it.

"I'm not a little girl anymore..." she whispered to his sleeping figure. He didn't respond in any way, only continuing his soft inhaling and exhaling.

...Lesbian.

... Gah! There it was again! She couldn't stand it anymore!

Rin rose to her feet, grabbing the robe Mikuo let her borrow. It was of a navy blue color, and much too big, the cotton spread out like a small pond around her feet.

However, it was better than getting caught by Len in skimpy nightwear.

She crept out of their shared room, tiptoeing across the hall.

If there was one person that could clear her mind, it was Mikuo.

"Kuo?" she whispered loudly, hoping he'd be the one to hear instead of Len.

She didn't hear an answer, and kept her sneaking. A few feet before the kitchen, though, a floorboard creaked.

Rin winced, hearing the sound of footsteps, knowing she was caught, and having no excuse to-

"Rin?"

She sighed in relief, and spun around. "Mikuo!"

The teal-haired young man yawned. "You okay?"

Rin shrugged. "Couldn't sleep."

A small half-smile spread itself across his face. "Come here... I was about to pack up for the night anyway."

It was only then that Rin noticed the lack of pajamas. He was still in the clothes he'd worn all day!

"Catching up on work?" she asked.

Mikuo grinned. "Gotta keep those bills paid somehow, right?"

She followed him into his little office area.

He had a lamp on to illuminate the room, but that was it. Rin scrunched up her nose, thinking about how that would affect his eye vision. Len always made sure she had enough light, so she wouldn't'-

Right... enough about Len.

Papers were strewn everywhere. The trash bin was overflowing with balled up story drafts, outlines, scripts, et cetera.

Mikuo sat on the leather desk chair in front of his steel desk, and beckoned her over.

She obeyed like a well-paid maid, scurrying over and plopping herself on his lap. He let out a small 'oof!', then chuckled.

"Easy there, Rinny!"

Rin leaned against him. Her head nuzzled against his left breast, and she listened to the thumping of his heart.

"Hmmm~!" she hummed in content, and looked up at him. "Your heart sure is loud!"

He smiled that soft smile, the one she loved so much, and cupped her chin, lifting it more so he could stare deep into her aqua blue orbs.

He leaned forward, pressing his lips against hers, and all she could think was, Please Len, please stay asleep!

His lips moved hard against hers, and she cocked her head to the side, allowing him to deepen the kiss.

She nearly squeaked as she felt his tongue touch her own.

And God, it just felt so right, if it weren't for whatever was pressed against her left thigh, and...

She reached down to move whatever was poking her, when suddenly, Mikuo gasped, falling back into the chair.

As Rin rubbed around, she recognized the texture, and her face blanched before turning a bright pink.

Jeans. Denim jeans was what she felt against her fingers. She forced herself to look down, and realized she was indeed touching-

She squealed, quickly pulling her hand to her chest, her face only reddening more and more.

Mikuo seemed to finally regain his senses, and lightly circled his fingers around her hand.

"It's okay... I know you didn't mean it..."

Looking into his eyes... she wanted to deny it, but could clearly see the disappointment. And not just that, but something else too, a little flicker of emotion that made her throat dry.

"I-I'm sorry..." she said quietly, lowering her head from embarrassment.

"Don't worry about it!" he smiled. "It's late, and you're tired. You should go back to bed."

She sighed. "Alright..."

He kissed her one last time. "Goodnight, Rinny..."

"Goodnight, Kuo-kun..."


Upon waking the next morning, Len couldn't help but feel that something was strange.

But what? No, no, that wasn't exactly it; Rin was obviously the 'what'.

The real question was why?

She didn't act much different than usual. Apart from a confused look or a suspicious blush every once in a while, she seemed perfectly fine, though Len knew better.

He could feel her... what do they call it? Vibes? Nervous and confused- perhaps even scared -waves of energy seemed to roll off her entire being.

Was it because she realized Luka's sexual preference? That Luka was a lesbian?

Len had his suspicions, though he figured she was more bi than just lesbian.

He'd caught her staring at Miku a few times- like that time they all went to that water park, and Miku was self-conscious wearing her new bikini. Or whenever Miku sang.

But she also still reacted to males too. She'd spend hours chatting with Rin about the cutest guy at school, and often blushed (and sometime even flirted back) whenever a guy hit on her.

So in his head, Luka was bi. That shouldn't bother Rin as much... would it?

He glanced up at her. The cute blond (though he'd never admit it) was washing off the table with a wet cloth.

He watched her frown, and scoff, rolling her eyes to no one.

He turned away, a small half-smile on his lips. It was almost as if she were arguing with herself... funny.

"Oh! Len-Len?"

He turned back to face her. "Hm?"

Rin looked over to the wall, and blushed again. Len frowned. What was she so embarrassed about...?

"Well, um... Mikuo..." Her face reddened. "Mikuo's gone shopping, and I was sort of wondering... if we could call mom and dad."

Len raised a brow. "Is there a payphone close by? Or should we see if we can use the apartment number?"

Rin shook her head. "I was thinking we could call from the cell phone."

"The cell phone?" Len propped his head up on his elbow, resting it on the back of the chair. "Are you sure?"

Rin nodded hesitantly. "I don't really think they're angry anymore..." she trailed off. "And I miss them, so..."

"Here." The phone was conveniently placed on the living room table right in front of him.

He grabbed it, and extended his hand backwards. He waited for her soft fingers to brush against his as she grabbed the phone...

... and couldn't help but notice they lingered there for a moment.

He turned his head to look at her, but she was staring at the wall, cheeks growing slightly pink, unable to meet his eye.

He breathed out a laugh, and clasped her hand. "If that's what you wanted, all you had to do was ask!"

She smiled a little, and bit her lip, before seating herself in the armchair beside his.

She punched in the number, and held the phone to her ear. It rang once, twice, three times, until...

Click!

"Rin? Rin, is that you?"

"Mom!" Rin felt so relieved hearing Miriam Kagamine's voice. It was almost as if someone were choking her, and had finally let go.

"Sweetheart! Oh, I missed you!"

Despite herself, Rin felt tears pool in the corners of her eyes. "I missed you too..."

"Any luck?" Miriam asked.

"We have a name, which should make things a bit easier, but..." she trailed off, suddenly realizing she hadn't been much help at all.

"A name? What is it?"

"Lily Katsuri. (1)"

"Pretty. Do you know why she um..." her mother paused for a moment, and lowered her voice. "Left him...?"

"Not yet." Rin admitted. "But we'll get somewhere. Hopefully."

"Yes, you still have some time, hun."

"What exactly is the date today?" Rin asked after a small pause.

"September 7th." her mother answered.

Plenty of time... or so it seemed. Surely they could... just maybe... take a week off?

"Um... maybe I should pass the phone to Len...?"

She gave him the phone before she could even hear Miriam's answer.


.o0o. Rin .o0o.

Alright, I'll admit it. I'm scared. Terrified. Not exactly of him... but of us. Call me stupid or naive, but I couldn't get over our little accident last night, or the look in his eyes after.

He wanted it. I knew he did.

But did I?

I could've smacked myself. Hello? Rin-chan, you're 14. FOURTEEN! No 14-year-old girl should be asking herself something like that!

'But then again... most 14-year-olds don't date 18-year-olds...'

Yes... true. But I couldn't help myself.

Why did I love him exactly? ... I... I don't know, exactly. I just do, I guess.

I had a feeling that might bother me for a while. It probably would.

But even though I was sure I was keeping my virginity, I wasn't certain if I could really look at him after what happened. Not for a while, at least.

... Okay, so maybe I was overreacting a little. Things like that happened... right?

'Yes... just not by accident.'

Stupid thoughts! It was a complete accident! Even she wouldn't have the guts (nor really the wills) to do that!

Though some space would definitely help. Maybe just a little. Or at least help me think a little.


.o0o. Luka .o0o.

As the teacher (whose name I just couldn't remember) droned on about math, I couldn't help but watch her.

She was seated diagonal from me; in front of Kaito, who was seated directly to my right.

They were passing notes. I could only wonder what they read... Oh, what did they say? Were they teasing me? Maybe the twins told them! Oh no, it couldn't be!

Just then, Miku caught my eye, and smiled.

My mouth slid open a little, my heart thumping rapidly. Oh god… I really was in love, wasn't I? She looked away again, and the feeling left.

Luka Megurine… a lesbian. … It didn't sound right to my ears. And yet… it was the truth. I, Luka Megurine, have fallen for Miku Hatsune. … … …

But so did Kaito Shion.

I could see it in his eyes, when he looked at her. Oh yes, he definitely felt it. Had he realized it yet? I could only shrug.

And what about Miku? Had she realized the truth yet about either of us? If so, was she pleased, or maybe even… scared?

"Luka? Were you listening?"

My gaze shot back to the unknown teacher. Quickly, I scanned the board for any hint on what we were doing.

"… The answer is 46…" I answered. "Right?" (2)

"Correct." The teacher smiled. "But please try to pay better attention next time." With that, the teacher turned back to the board.

I rested my head in my propped up hands. Oh God… I'm so messed up. (3)


(A/N: Rin-chan… please give me something I can work with…)

.o0o. Rin .o0o.

I wondered and wondered on how to bring it up. I mean… we've only just got here about 3 weeks ago, and I'm already wanting to go back? Maybe that'll give him second thoughts about bringing me back…?

I shivered. No sense thinking negatively…

'No sense thinking too positively either…'

Shut up.

'Just saying…'

Well don't.

Okay, so I'll bring it up casually… no wait, he might freak then, and it'll make me look like an idiot… but I'll look even more stupid if I'm just straightforward. Oh, what to do…?

"You okay, Rin?" Len asked, seeming concerned.

Suddenly the door opened. It would seem Mikuo was back… One look in his blue eyes, and I couldn't hold it in anymore.

"Len… I want to go back home!"

The sudden hurt in Mikuo's eyes made me feel guiltier than anything Len could've yelled at me. I rubbed my temples to try and get rid of the headache threatening to appear.

"What…?" (4)

"I just…" I took a deep breath. Somehow this was different than rehearsing in front of a mirror… Well, duh, of course it was! In a mirror, you couldn't see their expression! Couldn't feel their hurt…

Kabe ni wa kagami, kagami... Watashi no menomaede sai hyōji sa rete kudasai... (5)

"With all that's been going on… you know, with Luka, and everything…" I could barely get the words out. "I just want to go home. Just for one week…"

Don't look at his face, don't look at his face, don't look-!

I couldn't myself. I had to see… but I wish I hadn't.

Oh God… Mikuo… I'm so sorry.


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(1) I searched up the meaning for the name Lily Katsuri. Lily means purity, and is, apparently, the second most popular girl name in Scotland. Huh. As for Katsuri… apparently that isn't a real name. … … … Poo you, internet. I now hate you… for I actually like that name. It's not KASTURI, it's KATSURI! D:
(2) What the question was exactly, we shall never know.
(3) Oh, how sad reality is… cause really, who ISN'T messed up? XD
(4) Couldn't decide which one to make say that… So I just avoided putting a speech tag altogether. You can decide as a reader who said that.
(5) It says, 'Mirror, mirror, on the wall… re-appear in front of me, please...'