Chapter Nine
Running around the forest was not exactly what I'd like to do after school, but that was what I was doing. A year ago, if you told me that I'd be running in the forest from my vampire boyfriend (or ex-boyfriend, I'm not positive what our status was) because he was jealous of my vampire best friend and that my sister was murdered by yet another vampire, I'd say you were nuts, but this was my life now. My life was a rollercoaster of emotion turmoil.
And a crazy sort-a ex-boyfriend kind-a still together was chasing me as I ran to his house, was just typical now a days. Right? Not weird at all, not at all.
As soon as I came to the house, I snagged my purse and Ali and got in my car. I slammed the keys into the engine and hit the gas. Too bad my best friend was standing right in front of my car.
Max.
"Get in the car," I snapped.
He got in and I sped down the huge driveway then onto the main road. I raced down the highway and toward Seattle.
"What'd he say?" Max asked for the first time in minutes.
"He said I needed to get rid of you. Kick you out. You know, the whole, 'I'm the superior male and I'm jealous' the typical shit you'd think he'd say."
"Where are we going?"
"I was thinking…" that was the first time I'd actually thought of where we were heading. I paused for a minute before saying, "I was thinking… Danny's place."
He nodded. "Thanks."
"No problem. But I've got to make a few pit stops along the way. Got it?"
"Yes ma'am."
I smiled for the first time in what felt like forever.
I pressed the gas pedal ever farther that I thought was possible as we sped into Seattle. My first stop was Whole Foods. I found a parking space and told Max to stay in the car with Ali. I raced toward the store, at the most slow pace I could handle, while men and women alike gawked at me. I still quickly raced towards the store and went straight to the flower department.
I grabbed violet roses, Tessie's favorite. They were hard to fine, but they were found god bless me. As I was paying, I glanced around the store. There, standing behind me in line was Emmett.
He walked up to me as soon as he noticed that I spotted him.
"Come back Bells," he said, grabbing my arm.
"Not anytime soon. He really pissed me off this time Em. I can't deal with him right now. I need some space to breathe. Please, Em. Let me go."
He slowly did as I stalked out of the store, as soon as I got out of there; I hit a sprint, a slow, agonizing, human sprint. It was killing me.
I flung myself in the car and sped out of there as if the building was on fire. I felt the tearless tears come to me.
Max rested his hand on my shoulder to comfort me and Ali came and sat on my lap.
I don't normally break down, but I was breaking apart. I was being a drama queen, I know. This was stupid, and I knew that. But at the moment, I didn't care. I didn't give a damn what anyone thought.
Edward hurt me. He jabbed to close to home, to close for comfort. Way to close. I could handle his petty jabs at Max and my attitude. But his full blow attacks on him? How could a girl stand there and take it? Then he sent his brother to fix it for him? How dare he?
I was crying tearless tears as I pulled into Lake View Cemetery. I maneuvered through the other cars and parked. I got out of the car and grabbed my roses. I walked down the stone path and towards the gravesites. I quickly walked through the graves until I reached a grave I knew all too well. My sisters.
Tessane Swan
All I could remember from when she was born was how stupid her name was. What a stupid name. Tessane Swan. So I came up with Tessie. I never called her anything else. And I don't think she really liked anything else.
Tessie Swan
It just sounded so much better. Tessie was my sister. Not Tessane Swan. To professional and snobby. That wasn't her. She would've hated this. She must hate this. She must hate the fact that I'm here and not with Mom. She must hate the fact that I'm a freaking vampire and I'm running from my problems and not fighting them. She must hate that. She must hate this life I'm living.
I fell to my knees on my sister's grave. I lay on top of her grave and grabbed at her headstone. I lay there and cried my eyes out with dry tears. Stupid vampireness. Why couldn't I have died back in that corner like I was supposed to? Why did they save me? I should be dead. Dead!
I should be dead like her. I shouldn't be alive. Or this in between state.
I should be dead. Right now. Like Tessie.
No! You shouldn't! Stay alive! I don't want this! I want you to live! Did I say you could give up yet? Who told you to give up? Who gave you the right to through away your life? The perfect life that has been handed you on a silver platter? All because of a boy? You have got to be kidding me. I thought I taught you be-
"What the…?" I mumbled, sitting up and wiping my eyes. The voice was cut off. I touched the tombstone again.
-tter that that! I would have thought that-
I removed my hand and it stopped. I placed my hand down on the tombstone again and spoke, "Tessie? Tess?"
No you idiot! I'm Mom. Duh, who else do you think is yelling at you? Now get your act together, go to Danny's. LIVE! Don't you dare die on my now! I'll kill you before you have the chance to do it yourself. Now go! And leave the roses. I'm glad you remembered.
Oh my god. I was talking to a tombstone. Holy Mother of Jesus. I stood, place the flowers down gently, and walked away from my sister's grave. I smiled and wandered to the car as it started snowing. Little flakes landed on my hair and my jacket as I got into my car.
Max was staring at me with a look of confusion, but didn't say anything as I drove down the driveway of the cemetery and on to the open road and headed to Canada.
A/N- I know I threw a bunch of crazy in right there, but bare with me. I know the whole talking to headstone thing was weird, but trust me. I'll make everything make since. And two chapters in one day. I think I did pretty well... Anyways, thanks to bboop12 and anyone I might have missed that has reviewed! I love all my readers! Especially, my reviewers! Review please! Thanks!
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