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Chapter 9

Damon and I headed right for my appointment ignoring Caroline calls for us to come back. When we arrived at Doctor Bridget's office we had only waited a few minutes before she invited us in to her office, asking us to call her Kate.

The next hour passed by, with Damon telling her quickly about the accident, loss of memory, and then my reoccurring nightmares.

Kate had advised me to write down all of my dreams whether they were nightmares or not. She then booked me an appointment for the following week making a note of saying that she looks forward to having one to one time with me.

I simply nodded my head with a sigh which made Damon chuckle. We arrived home to find Stefan along with Elena and the Scooby gang as Damon calls them all there.

"Bella, you still have cheerleading practices to get done" Caroline says with a smile.

"I'll make them up tomorrow, Damon is going to show me some photos." I said quickly not wanting to do any cheerleading today.

"I am" Damon says with a smug look on his face I slap his cheek.

"Yes you are, you said so last night." I give the best evil eye I can and he chuckles.

"Yes I did, come on." Damon replies.

I wave at the others as I take Damon's hand.

We walk into Damon's room and he in goes into the closet getting a box and brings it over to where I am sitting.

The first photo I see is one of Katherine.

"You weren't kidding when you said Elena was her double. Have you met anyone that looks like me?" I ask as I study the photo.

"I've never meet anyone like you before, you seem to be unique." Damon replied.

I smile at him and turn back picking up another photo. "You look good in your dressed uniform." I comment.

"Hum" is all I get from him.

I smile as I look at the ones where he was human and his time as a Confederate Soldier. I stop when he has his arm around a man that looks very familiar to me.

"Who is that?" I ask him.

"That was Major Jasper Whitlock" I look back at the photo. "He was a hit with the ladies with his Texan lingo. He disappeared not long after I returned home." Damon says sadly and I look at him. "I liked him, he was easy to talk to, and I found that I was calm around him, felt at ease. Very much the way I feel when you are around."

I look at the photo again shaking my head, and carry on look through the others.

"Is that your dad?" I ask hold up a photo of Damon, Stefan stand with an older man.

"Yes" He replies a hint of animosity in his voice.

I look to him, and he shrugs a little.

"He made sure I knew his hatred for me." Damon explains.

I feel a pang in my heart, I know Damon tries to pass it off that doesn't bother him, how his father was with him, but it does. I think it hurt more than any one including him knows.

"Is this you mom?" I ask moving next to him, hoping like he said I can calm the hurt that seeing these photos is bringing him.

"Yes" he says as his Adam apple bobs.

"She very pretty, you have her eyes." I say looking at her photo.

Even with the photo been black and white I can see that her eyes would have been the same as Damon.

"They were" he says taking the photo from me. "She loved life, she was amazing. I think she would have liked you." he says looking back at me.

"I think I would like her too." I reply and place the photo down and start to pull at my shirt. "Do you think I have a family? I mean Liz said that so far I haven't been reported missing, it's been over a month?"

"Sweetheart" Damon says softly but I don't look at him.

I feel his hand slowly move to the side of my face, his thumb goes under my chin and he gently turn my head to him and up. I feel my heart speed off as I look at him.

I know he can hear it when he swallows a shaky breath. "I am not sure why they aren't looking for you, maybe they don't know you're missing?" He suggests.

I give him a disbelieving look and he shrugs.

"It's possible." Damon says and quickly changes the subject. "Want to go out with me, hit some of the bars, let loose and have some good old fashion fun?"

I smile and bob my head at him feeling the want to have some fun.

"Put on the clothes that's in the bag in the bottom of your closet." He says.

I gesture that I agree with him and quickly run to my room finding the bag. I take the clothes out see that it's a black tight top along with leather black pants, and a red leather biker jacket. There also a pair of heels that I know Damon will have to keep a good hold on me so I don't fall. I place the clothes back into the bag, grab a towel, and head to my shower room.

I walk in and stop as my mouth drops open seeing Damon standing there in my shower, showering. My eyes seem to drop to down his body landing at his groin. I quickly cover my eyes with me free hand.

"I was fine with you looking babe." Damon says…I can hear the smirk in his voice.

I chuckle a little and open one eye peeking though gap I made between my fingers

.

"Why are you using my bathroom? Is something wrong with yours?" I ask, still not getting why he is in here.

"I have a bath tub, I wanted a shower." He says as if it's not a big deal.

"Okay then I'll use your bath then if you don't mind." I reply.

"I don't mind, I wouldn't even mind if you came and shared my shower." He says as he gives me the full Damon 'come to me' smile.

I chuckle and feel my face heat up

"Okay I'll leave you to it." I say choosing not to say anything about him asking me to share his shower.

I walk backward and my back hits the door frame I turn around and walk out closing the door behind me. I let out a breath and l lean on to the door. He is just too hot for his own good and the dick knows it. I hear him chuckle loudly and I roll my eyes and head to Damon's room.

I run the bath and do some grooming work. I get in to Damon's bath with a smile. I love how big it is, I really think there's enough room for two in here.

I close my eyes and let out a sigh.

"Hey baby, we'll need to head out soon" Damon says walking in wearing only his boxers.

I look at him wide eyed and he grins at me.

"Damon." I manage to say, but only in a whisper.

"Hey you walked in on me seemed only far, besides unlike you I can't see anything with all those bubbles" he says picking up some on his and flicking them it at me.

"I am almost done, if you could step outside I'll get dressed." I say hiding my face.

He pouts but walks out. I get out the tub and get dressed in to the clothes. I quickly dry and brush my hair then run my hand through it, to give it that free wild style look. I opt to only putting on some lip gloss, knowing that Damon will get me into any bars so there's no need to do too much makeup. I sit down putting on my heels and walk into Damon room.

"What do you think" I ask as he scans me up and down.

I watch as his Adam apple wobbles and he closes his eyes.

"You look real good." He says opening his eyes and I see that they are black.

"Do you need to feed?" I ask.

I have gotten used to Damon and his blood bags and they don't seem to bother me.

He shakes his head and grabs my arm picking up my jacket as he pulls me out of his room.

Damon speeds down the road and we seem to reach the big city in less than a half hour. He gets out of the car and before I can open my door he's is there with a smile holding his hand out. I take it and he leads me into the bar.

We walk into the bar together and Damon takes us to the bar getting us both a drink.

"Damon I am not sure about this?" I say taking the glass from him.

"Bella, babe I'll take care of you so don't worry let's just have fun." He replies.

I watch Damon as I lift the glass to my mouth I let the liquid run down my throat.

"Come on babe" Damon says as I place the empty glass down. "Let's dance."

Damon and I spend the next hour dancing and drinking, and I have found the more I drink the bolder I am becoming. And right now I am doing some dirty dancing with Damon. I turn my body pushing my back in to his front, I hear him growl a little turning me around and I see that his eyes are now pitch black.

"I need a drink, stay here I'll be right back." Damon says and I watch him talk to a girl.

His pupils dilate and I know he's going to compel her. Jealousy seems to surge through my body and I don't want him to be drink from anyone but me. I move toward them as he dances with her, he flicks her hair out of the way of her neck and leans in.

"Damon" I say soft as I place my hand on his arm, he turns looking at me, and I see the mix of guilty, hurt and angry over the fact I have followed him.

"Tell her to go" I say taking a deep breath.

"Leave" he says sharply and the girl moves away from us.

"I am a vampire Bella, this is what I do, what I am!" Damon says.

The guilt seems to have left leaving only the hurt and angry behind and I know he thinks I am judging him but I am not.

"I know, it's not that I don't want you to feed, only that I want you to take my blood, I want you to feed from me." I say moving into his arms

.

"What?" Damon says shocked.

"You took me out so if you are drinking from anyone it should be me." I say and swallow only letting out a sigh when his arm wraps around me.

"If I am taking your blood then you're drinking mine." He says but I have a feeling he thinks I will back down.

"Agreed." I reply firmly.

He seems to just look at me swallowing a few times. Then he lifts his hand to his mouth and bites it. He spins me so that my back is flushed with his front. His wrist goes to my mouth and I start to drink. I close my eyes as my head falls slightly to the side and then I feel him kiss my neck before biting it as he drinks I let out a moan feeling my eyes roll back.

I grip one of my hands over Damon's hand; the one at my mouth. With the other I reach up and I put in to his hair needing…..wanting him closer than what he is.

Damon lets me go and spins me fast so that my back is against the wall. He stares at me then uses his thumb nail to cut himself on his neck, before I can ask what he is doing he is sucking on my neck again and he has a hold of my head placing my lips over his new cut.

This has got to be the most amazing feeling ever, it makes me feel and want more.

I hear Damon let out a moan as my whole body starts to tingle. Damon hands go down as he cups my ass squeezing it before lifting my legs up and I wrap them around his waist.

In this new position Damon is able move closer to me and I am able to feel ever part of him. But I want and need more from him. I am just unsure what I need other than for him to be closer.

I moan again as my body starts to shake and Damon pulls back as I feel wetness forming down below. I feel my face heat up knowing that I had just come during this whole thing.

"I..I" I stutter out "I don't"

Before I can say anything else Damon presses his lips on mine and kisses me hard. Where it started off hard but soon changes to a soft kiss. When I sigh Damon slips his tongue into my mouth, and I can taste our mixed blood in my mouth but it doesn't stop me from wanting to keep kissing him.

"Time to go home" Damon says pulling back but only a little and I can see that his eyes are still black.

I know that they are this way because he is in a lust haze just like me. I lean forward kissing him again and I smile when he smirks kissing me back.

"I want to do this the right way with you! And that means not fucking you against the wall in a dirty bar, with a group of people watching." Damon says softly.

Damon sits me down on my own two feet keeping hold of my hand and he walks us quickly out of the bar.

The drive home Damon keeps a hold of my hand not letting it go and chooses to drive one handed, which he does better than with two.

We arrive home and he opens my door and I just look up at him, still feeling the buzz from the drinks and Damon's blood. I stand up on my tip toes kissing him. He reacts right away and pushing me in to the car, I feel his hand run up my leg.

"You're making me lose myself" Damon says as he pulls back and I put my hand on his face feeling guilty. "No baby, I don't hate it. I want to lose myself with you. I just. Where have you been all my life?"

"I don't know, but I do know that I am not leaving you." I say smiling and hiccupping.

He smiles as he pulls me up and we walk in to the house, smiling and kissing.

We walk in to the living room hearing moans only it's not coming from us, we pull apart to see Stefan and Elena on the coach. I cover my eyes and turn my head in to Damon chest.

"Stef, Elena, stop dry humping on the coach." Damon says.

I bite my lip to hold back my chuckle as Damon runs his hand up and down my back.

"Well then what's going on in here?" A new voice says and I try to see behind Damon but he's blocking my view.

"Klaus" Damon sneers.

I wrap my arms around Damon look to my side to see Stefan is now next to Damon with Elena behind him. I move a little to the side and seeing the man that about the same height as Stefan but more broad then he is. He's has dirty blond hair and blue eyes that seem to be look right at me.

He smiles and I hid behind Damon. "Well the apple didn't fall from the tree did it?" Klaus say with a chuckle.

I peek back out again.

"I'll be needing Elena" Klaus says stepping forward.

That ray of light comes back only this time it seems to cover all four of us.

"What?" I ask softly.

Klaus says and I look at him and he's looking right at me as if he knows it came from me.

Klaus eyes seem to burn in to mine.

"I am not going to hurt you, put the shield down." He says softly. "You want me here." he smirks at me and I shake my head.

"No I want you to leave."

As the words come out of my mouth the ray of light shoots forward throwing Klaus back and out the door.

I can feel Stefan, Elena and Damon eyes on me but I am still looking at Klaus.

He jumps up looking right at me.

"Don't you dare touch her or I will kill you." Damon grits out pushing me more behind him.

"Kill me, will only end in your deaths." Klaus says.

"What? No" I say pull Damon to me, I have only just found him, and I can't; I will not lose him.

"Elena, you should take the next week to say your goodbyes. I've worked out a few things" Klaus says looking at me.

He turns around and in a flash he is gone.

"What the hell was that?" Elena shouts.

"That was Klaus making his move." Stefan says with a sigh. "I'll protect you." he continues pulling Elena to him only for her to shrug him off.

"No I mean Klaus looking at her all loving. She is with him, she's his insider." She says angrily and points at me.

"Elena, don't talk stupid, and we have enough to do without you throwing a fit." Damon says pulling me closer kissing the side of my head. "He is not touching you." Damon mumbles in to my ear.

"You're with her now?" Elena yells.

"If you're asking if Bella is my girlfriend then yes she is." Damon replies.

"I don't believe this Damon, she's using you, okay you're using her too but it doesn't make this right tell him Stefan" Elena says in a matter of fact way.

My eyes go to Stefan and I see that he is looking hurt and worried.

"Elena, you wrong about Bella using us." Stefan says looking at me. "I swear to you she's not lying, I not sure how to explain it but I know she's not."

Elena shakes her head and tears start to fall from her eyes.

"I know this been hard on you that so many people have used one of us to get close to you but this not what is happening with Bella." Stefan continues.

"Fine if you care so much about her, then why are you allowing him to use her?" Elena says glaring at Damon.

"He's not Elena, he is in love with her." Stefan says.

"What?" Elena say and my heart speeds up wanting it to be true.

"Elena I know my brother and I know that he's been in love with her, from the second he saw her." Stefan replies.

"Take me home" Elena says before she walks out of the door.

"Sorry" Stefan says sadly walking out after her.

"So I am your girlfriend." I say.

I had wanted to ask if he really did love me but I chickened out.

"Yea, aren't you?" Damon asks.

I look up at Damon see that he too feels worried and scared about being rejected.

"Yea, I would like that. I should probably tell you for full disclosure purposes that I am falling in love with you." I say trying to play it cool.

Damon pulls me to him closely. "Of course you are…. I am awesome," he chuckles, and I smile shaking my head at him.

"Yea I know that you are awesome and all…" I start to say.

Damon cuts me off by kissing me softly.

"I love you" he says as he pulls back looking in to my eyes.

I smile at him and place my lip on his.

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