2 Days later
It was two days after I got out of the hospital and I just lay in my bed being totally bored. Mandy was out with Joe. She wanted to stay when Joe asked her if she wanted to go out but I told her to go and have fun with her boyfriend. I couldn't go with them 'cause my mom didn't let me so I had nothing to do. That was when I heard a knock on the door.
"Yes?" I shouted curiously.
"Miles? Can I come in?" It was Brandi..
"Of course. What are you doing here I thought you and Sam would be away until Friday?" I said and hugged her.
"I wanted to but when mom told me you were in hospital I took the first plane I could get back here. Are you okay?"
"Brandi you know you didn't have to come. I'm okay, really." I smiled at her.
"I just care. So what happened? I just know you passed out."
So I told her the whole story. What Nick said, what he told me. And especial what he said when I lay in the hospital. I told Brandi every detail and even started crying and some time.
"What's wrong Miles?" She asked carefully but I started smiling.
"Nothing. It's just i don't know. Remembering it was so emotional. This speech really touched me and I think I..." My voice broke down.
"You think you what?" I didn't answer and just looked at her. "Wait, I know. You're in love with Nick, aren't you?" She smirked at me.
"I don't know. Well, I guess I am. It's just complicated. I mean he's my ex and what he did to me was hurting me lots. He broke my heart Brandz. But he also cares about me so much. I just don't know what to do. I also can't tell him I'm in love with him."
"Listen to your heart. You and Nick have something not many people at your age do. A strong first love. Yeah, you broke up and had rough times but you're still close and you still trust each other after everything. You know he didn't want to hurt you. Nick's a great guy and you shouldn't let him go."
"I won't. I'm just afraid to let him in again. I'm afraid to be broken again. You know I was a mess when he left me. I also know he won't do it again. It's just this feeling."
"Don't worry, Miles. Everything's going to work our. You and Nick just belong together." I hugged her and my cell blew up. I got a new message and immediately smiled when I read the name on the screen.
"Nick?" Brandi asked and I nodded. "Well, I'm going to leave you alone again. I'm meeting Sam now anyway."
"Have fun, lovebird." I winked at her and she left when I remembered I still didn't read the text.
Hey Miles (: What's up? -Nick
Nicky :D Nothing, just ttly bored. -Miles
Why aren't you with Mandy?-Nick(y)
She's out with Joe. I can't believe you didn't realize your brother isn't at home. ;P -Miles
True, it's so quiet here ;D Even Frankie's out haha. -Nick
Well you could come over if you want to. You need to save me from dying. -Miles
You hero will be there in a few minutes. (; -Nick
I'm trying my best to get ready until then. See you later. -Miles
Nick was about to come over and I still needed to take a shower so I went to the bathroom and took off my clothes. I stood in the shower and turned on the hot water. It felt good at my skin. I wanted to take a quick shower but I stood there a while longer than I planned.
When I was done I wrapped a towel around my body and went to my room which I had to cross to reach my walk-in closet. But to my surprise I wasn't alone. Nick sat at the corner of my bed and looked up when he heard me walking into the room. He looked shocked but also tried to hide a smirk. I blushed but in fact I didn't care at all. Nick already saw me in a bikini and a towel hid more than a small bikini.
"Hey Nicky." I smiled and went to hug him.
"Hey Miles..." He almost stuttered.
"Well, as you can see I'm not ready yet. I'm just getting dressed and then I'm ready to do something."
"Uhm okay."
I turned around and went into my closet where I put on my underwear and my black sweatpants. I wanted to take on my purple tank top but couldn't find it. Then I remembered it was laying at the chair next to my bed.
"Nick?" I shouted.
"Yes?"
"Is my purple tank top on the chair next to my bed?" I asked still shouting a bit.
I heard him standing up and walking through my room. "Yeah, it's here."
"Could you give it to me?" I asked and he went into my closet. Just then I realized I just wore my bra. I giggled and took the top. I looked at Nick and caught him staring at me but I didn't say anything first of all. But when he handed me the top I said "Like the view?" and smirked at him.
"I.. uh.. uhm..." He mumbled and blushed.
"It's alright, you're also just a boy." I laughed and took on the top. "It's not like you never saw me wearing that less when we were swimming and stuff." His face was still red but he accomplished a normal sentence. "You're right."
"Uhm Miles.. You know people can see your scars when you're wearing the top?"
"Shit." I mumbled. "Well, I guess I have to wear a jacket to cover it."
"So what are we going to do today?" He asked.
"I don't know. Mom said I should stay home today. She's all like I'm totally sick but I feel okay. I'm great. She just doesn't see it. It's not like something could happen today. Mom knows I hate to stay at home all day and I wish I could start working again tomorrow but I got off until January 10th." I sighed.
"Miles, you passed out, she's your mom, of course she cares. So maybe we should just stay here and talk or do something like that."
"Yeah, it's not like we're going to be able to do anything else. I guess you could spend your day better than sitting around with me."
"Nah, I couldn't." He smiled at me and I went over to my bed where he was sitting. It was big enough for two people to sit down but I sat down on his lap and lay my head down on his shoulder. "You're amazing, Nick." I whispered. "So are you." He answered and I smiled into his chest.
"You know your parents would freak if they'd be seeing us like that? It's not like we're doing anything but anyway.." He started.
"I know, but I don't care. And they know I wouldn't do anything, they should trust me a bit more than they did with this dude."
"Why didn't they trust you?" He asked confused.
"Well, they trusted me, but they didn't trust him at all. He was 20 so not the perfect age for a 16-year-old girl. But he wanted to get fame so I gave him what he wanted. End of." Nick chuckled. "What's so funny, Jonas?" I asked acting hurt.
"Nothing. I just thought about you being here with a 20-year-old. I can't imagine it at all. I mean it's just weird. Wasn't it disgusting to kiss him?"
"Not more disgusting than to kiss you..." I smirked and tried to stand up but I couldn't. His stong arms hold me back and pressed me against his strong body.
"Oh no, you didn't... "
"Oh yeah, I did." I laughed and he started tickling me. "Nick, stop, please." He just shook his head and continued tickling. "Nicky, I'm begging you, stop, pretty pweeez." He still shook his head. "Take back what you said." He ordered.
"Nope. Prove me it isn't disgusting." I challenge, totally knowing what I wanted him to do and what I just said but Nick didn't move. "See, you know you can't prove me it isn't." I smirked knowing that he couldn't take this anymore. Knowing that he would kiss me.
And I was so right. He grabbed me and lay me down on my bed. He lay down on me but not touching me at all. Nick started to move his lips towards mine and I giggled. I missed the feeling of being all over in love with him. Then I felt his soft lips touching mine. The kiss was fast but yet so gently. I moved my hand under his T-shirt and touched his bare chest. He really became stronger and got more muscled than I thought.
The kiss turned into making out. Everything we missed the past year was in it. A little moan escaped my lips and I knew he enjoyed it as well. My hand moved towards his tummy and wandered up and down when I reached his belt. I felt I wanted him. I guessed I was ready to give him what means the most to me. I wasn't sure at all but I'd do everything for him. I placed my hand at his belt, trying to open it, when Nick stopped me.
"Miles? Don't.." He said and I looked at him confused. "I know you're not ready yet. I don't want you to lose, what's so important to us, right now. Wait until you find someone real special. Someone you REALLY want to give it to." He said but I saw the sadness in his eyes.
"Nick... I.. uhm.. Never mind."
"What is it? You know you can tell me everything."
"It wasn't that important. But you're right. I guess I'm not ready yet.I guess it would've been a mistake if we had done it now. Not that I'd regret if you'd be the person I spend my first time with but maybe now isn't the right time."
"I'm glad you get the point."
"Nick?"
"Yes?"
"You have lipgloss around your mouth and on your shirt." I said and giggled.
"Oh shit. And you look like you were kissed."
"Well, I guess I was. By a pretty good kisser. And it wasn't disgusting, not even a bit." We joked around like we were still dating. We just acted like nothing happened, but it did. I kissed my ex-boyfriend now bestfriend. "But I guess you should take on another shirt or the paparazzi will find out anything when you're leaving my house."
"But what? I guess I can't wear one of your shirts."
"Well, you could, but it'd look pretty hilarious. Wait a second." I stood up and went to my closet. I still had Nick's V-Neck T-shirt in there so I took it and went back to my bed. "Here, wear this, it's one of yours anyway."
"Wait, why are you having my shirt?"
"Well, it's easy, you forgot it this day so I kept it. Talking about it, I still have your boxers.. Wanna have it back?"
"Keep'em if you want. They're kind of too small anyway."
"Alright." I smiled and lay down on my bed again. Well in particular half of my body lay on Nick's chest. "You know we did something wrong again?" I asked.
"Well, I don't think it was that wrong. It felt good." I slightly slapped him on the arm. "ouch, you're abusive little girl."
"You know what I talked about. We're still friends and what we did today definitely isn't what friends are doing. I mean when did usual friends start kissing and making out."
"You're right. But does that really matter now? Let's just enjoy the moment and the time without fights." He stated. And he was so right. It was better than fighting all the time.
"Well, I got another thing we could fight about." I winked at him.
"And that would be?" He asked and looked at me.
"I forgot."
"You're weird."
"I know. But that's why you love me."
"Yep, might be true. And I should mention another reason. You're an amazing kisser as well." He winked at me and I kissed him again. It was a little peck on the lips but he obviously even enjoyed that.
"I know I am. You told me once or twice.." I giggled.
"I missed that." He smiled.
"Missed what?"
"Your giggles around me all the time. It makes my day perfect. Well, not as much as your kisses, but it's alright."
We lay there for an hour or twice longer, just talking about old times and how happy we are to have each other back when Nick had to leave. He changed the shirt, I stood up and he wanted to leave the room when I stopped him and kissed him again. A small passionate kiss. "Sorry, just had to do it. I don't think it'd be smart in front of my parents or the paparazzi. We should keep it as a little secret." I giggled again.
"You're right." He smiled and we went downstairs.
"Goodbye Miles. It was nice seeing you again. Just call me when you're bored again these days and I'm coming over, alright?"
"Yeah, I definitely will. Goodbye Nick." I said and he kissed my cheek. "See you."
I saw Mandy drving through the gate just as Nick left. When she went in I immediately told her we had to go to my room so we went upstairs.
"You won't believe what happened..."
