Author's Note: hi everyone, how are you, me, I'm fine. Sorry this took so long but it turn out to be a hard chapter to write, it was meant to be much longer, but well I cut it down, I think there will be at least two more chapters plus an epilogue for this part, so yeah. I hope you enjoy this chapter. Also it has a bit of bad langue in it, sorry, please don't be offended.

Disclaimer: I do not own Fruits Basket or the some of the Italic lines of memory that I got from Volume 1, 2 and 13

Chapter 8

Maybe it Wasn't Meant to Be?

3 months later

"And the Prince and Orange Top up and left and apparently so did Bouncy and Zone out, all of a sudden, out of the complete blue and kicked you out of their house." Arisa complain, this was growing to be a regular conversation starter from her every lunch, she scowled bad temperedly at the school building, Hana nodded, eating as always but with little enthusiasm, Tohru's waves where in conflict and it was bothering her, that and the fact Tohru wasn't being fully truthful with them.

"So how again did they get into that accident that has made them forget you entirely?" Arisa asked Tohru, her anger flowing over Tohru making her more nausea then before.

"I've got to go." Tohru yelped, feeling what she had managed to eat that day, churn up inside of her. She ran to the bathroom, her friends close behind her, as they entered they heard Tohru throwing up in the furthest cubical.

Arisa felt a wave of guilt, she was angry and she had taken her anger out on the already super sensitive Tohru.

"Tohru are you alright." Hana asked gently standing beside the cubical door.

"Well of course she isn't alright, she puking her guts out in there." Arisa snapped heatedly, Hana merely gave her a calm look, which only irritated more.

"Tohru, I think you might be pregnant." Hana said gently, the sound of heaving eased, for a moment and Arisa started gagging.

"You're kidding me, right." Arisa yelled at both Hana and Tohru.

"Tohru did you do it." Arisa yelled threw the closed door; determine to get to the bottom of the whole matter, once and for all. She received no answer; the two friends glanced at each other.

"Did you use protection?" still no answer from Tohru.

"Well, Tohru, I think there may be a very strong chance you are." Arisa said and Tohru heaving again, though they could hear her crying as well.

"Oh, Tohru I'm sorry, I'm just frustrated that's all." Arisa said, feeling guilt wash over her. After the sound of the toilet flashing, Tohru unlocked the door and walked out, her face pale and her eyes red.

"What am I going to do?" She whispered, her voice shaking with fear and despair.

"Well, telling the father a start." Arisa suggested, but Tohru shook her head, more tears rolling down her face.

"It's not that simple." She whispered, staring at her feet.

"It's never ever simple." Hana agreed, putting an arm around Tohru.

"Why can't it be simple?" Arisa demanded the other two girls.

"Because it's just not simple and nothing I can do can make it simple." Tohru said quietly, she lifted her head and stared at Arisa, with calm face, but her eyes filled with turmoil. Arisa felt suddenly how much Tohru had grown over the years; it was almost creepy to think about. She sighed, Tohru might not have the support of the father, or even her own family, but she was determined to stick with Tohru no matter what. Thing could get much worst then this, but of cause they always did.

"Out, OUT now."

Tohru stood at her grandfather front door, with her few belonging, her family had found out, they now knew she was pregnant, well, it wasn't that hard to figure out, she was throwing up every single minute of every single day.

"Dear," her aunt said weakly, but her husband waved her off.

"No, we gave her a chance and she threw it back in our faces, what would happen if the force found out that one of their office had a cousin who was pregnant before she was married and had already been throw out of the house where she had got pregnant, bunch of lowlifes as they where."

Tohru could no longer restrain herself, who could he speak so poorly about the Sohma's.

"Their not lowlifes." She growled, feeling her anger rise inside her.

"What did you say, they where a bunch of lowlifes, probably got sick of you once you where knocked up, right, that's why you came back here, isn't it, you thought you would get shelter here, did you, didn't see yourself and your brat being thrown out did you." He snarled at her. Tohru felt her anger explode inside of her.

"I never wanted to come here in the first place. I only came because Grandfather offered me a place to stay, and for your information no they didn't throw me out, I had to leave, but if I had a choice between living there with them, even if they do have their problems or live here, I would choice them over you any day, because they love me and I love them and I wish I could be with them," she felt tears roll down her face, but she continued to glare at her uncle. "I know you don't like me and I'm glad your telling me to leave because I don't like being here with you I hate this place, I hate it, I…"

SLAP

Tohru stagged at the weight of her uncles hand hit her cheek, she heard her aunt and cousin gasp, but didn't care, she just didn't care. She stared at the floor, hearing her uncle raise his hand again to hit her.

SLAP

Tohru blinked, she hadn't even felt that blow to her cheek, maybe it was so numb from the first slap that it just hadn't registered it had been hit once more.

"Grandpa." Her aunt said weakly, Tohru lifted her head and blinked, her grandfather had hit her uncle across the face.

"Um?" Tohru said intelligently trying to gather up her thought to figure out what the hell was going.

"Come Kyoko-san." Her grandfather said gently, grasping on of her hands with his while picking up her bags with the other.

"Grandpa, where are you…" her aunt called feebly behind them, but her grandfather ignored her. He open his car and jested for her to get in. she scrambled into the passenger sit and belted up, her fingers pressing softly against her bruising cheek.

"Grandpa?" she asked cautiously after they where a far distant from his house.

"I'm sorry about all that Kyoko-san, you didn't deserver that sort of treatment." Her grandfather said sadly, not looking at her but at the dark, fairly disserted road."

"Do you love him?" her grandfather asked her gently, Tohru nodded her head slightly.

"I'm not sure what happen between you two but…" Tohru cut him off.

"He and his family got into an accident and they have amnesia from it, they didn't kick me out, I left on my own free will." Tohru said, staring out the window at the flashes of lights from building and head lights.

"Does he know?" Tohru shook her head.

"He may still remember." Her grandfather said gently, "but if not, if you love someone, sometimes it's best to let them go. If they return, it was meant to be. If they don't their love was never yours to begin with." Tohru sniffed miserably.

"But have hope Tohru-san." Her grandfather said softly, Tohru turned her head in surprised and stared at her grandfather questioningly.

"Where are we going, Grandpa?" Tohru asked after ten minutes of silence.

"I think you'll know when we get there." He said mysteriously.

Tohru eyes widen as she saw the block of familiar apartments coming into view.

"Grandpa." She gasped, her heart beating raptly, she knew this place, she had lived in this place for all her early life up till her mother's death.

"Welcome home." He said, as they pulled up out front.

"I don't understand." Tohru whispered, pulling her bags out from the back of the car.

"Well, ever since your mother died, I have been renting out your apartment." Tohru blinked at him in surprised.

"yes, your mother and I brought this apartment when you where ten, just in case you needed to move back in, if you had both left it already, so you can live here, it's yours after all. I have already told the Landlord and his wife that you're moving back in, that's what I was doing while your uncle was in his rant." He added darkly, he took her bags from her and hand her, the familiar key to her old apartment.

They walked up the stairs to the top floor to door 12; Tohru with quivering fingers unlocked the door. The inside was just as she remembered it, though there was a lack of furniture.

"All your old furniture is in storage, we can pick some of it up tomorrow." Her grandfather told her, Tohru open her mouth to reply, to thank him, but was interrupted by a knock on the door.

Her grandfather answered it, Tohru blinked as she her old landlady walked in to the apartment carrying, a sleeping bag, a pillow and a lot of blankets, which she dropped on the kitchen bench before swing around and hugging Tohru.

"Oh Tohru-kun, look how much you've grown, I swear you've gotten even prettier then last time I saw you." The Landlady babbled, Tohru felt her cheeks grow red.

"Now if you need, anything, anything at all you just ask alright," she said suddenly serious, waging a figure in front of Tohru face.

"Ok." Tohru said weakly.

"Now, you come down to our place for breakfast tomorrow, alright, we don't want you to starve, no buts." She added, patting Tohru's thin shoulder, as Tohru tried to protest, Tohru nodded in defeat.

"Good girl, now we'll see you at seven a clock sharp." And with a nodded of her head to Tohru grandfather she left.

"Thank you grandpa." Tohru whispered, turning around on the spot, staring around at the familiar space that had been the centre of her world for all her childhood.

"Your welcome Kyok…Tohru-san." He grandfather said, correcting himself at the last moment.

"Grandpa, do you mind, if you keep calling me Kyoko just a little longer." Tohru asked, looking at her grandfather, who smiled at her sadly, before pulling her into a hug.

So I'm back where I started, Tohru thought staring up at the ceiling that was so familiar, right down to every creak in it. But despite being back in the place where she felt so at home, now she felt like an intruder, this was no longer her home, her true home; her true home was with the Sohma's. But they didn't remember her. Tohru pulled the blanket over her head, sobbing, feeling more of her heart breaking.

School was strange without the Sohma's, everyone felt as if there where huge bottomless spaces in which each one of the Sohma boys had filled with their own personality, now they where gone, it was quiet, way to quiet. No one seemed to know quite what to do with themselves. No one was faring well without the Sohma's.

"Screw this, I'm going to get him and bring him back here kicking and screaming." Kakeru Manabe yelled kicking desk over in the unusually quiet student council room, two days after Tohru had moved into her old apartment.

He stomped out of the room, leaving behind his fellow Student council blinking after him stunned, he stopped at the entrances of the school and laughed he had no idea where Yuki lived inside the Sohma Main house as that was where people said he now lived and which he knew since he had visited Yuki's old house and found it deserted. He stood there trying to think up a solution to this problem when he heard the sound of running feet after him, he turn and to his surprised he saw his half sister, Machi Kuragi sprinting after him, almost colluding into him when she tried to stop.

"You want to come, do you?" He asked, she nodded breathing heavily, clutching her side.

"That's unexpected of you." He said sliding his hands into his pockets, as they walked out the School gate. He noticed Tohru Honda, walking by herself her head down, looking miserable, a lot of people had been bothering her over the pass few mouths, demanding answers from her about why the Sohma's left since she should know since she was so close to them, he knew a lot of people blame her for their leaving unexpectedly.

An idea came into his head, Honda-san had been good friends with the Sohma's, so she must have some idea how to get to the Main House and inside it; she might even know where Yuki lived. He sped up to catch up with her.

"Hey, Honda, wait up, Hey Honda." He bellowed, the girl stopped and looked back at him in surprise. Now that he could see her clearly, he saw she didn't look so well, she looked extremely skinny, yet she was a bit round around her abdomen.

"yes." She asked cautiously, her big eyes taking them in.

"Do you know where Yuki Sohma lives in the Sohma Main House?" He asked hopeful, but to his disappointment she shook her head.

"why." She asked quietly.

"Because we want to talk to him, that's why." He growled, Tohru thought for a moment.

"I don't know where Yuki lives exactly, but I know someone who lives there who can tell you where." She said, pulling a piece of blank paper out of her bag along with a pen. She drew a very rough sketch of the Sohma area, the inside and outside, every so often she would close her eyes as if seeing the lay out in her mind.

"Do you know Momiji Sohma?" She asked them.

"He's either, the tall out of space guy with white hair with black roots or the bouncy, rabbit obsessed blonde boy who dresses in the girls uniform." Kakeru said, one eye closed thinking hard.

"He's the bouncy, rabbit obsessed blonde boy who dresses in the girls uniform." Machi said quietly out of the blue, both Kakeru and Tohru jumped; they had forgotten she was there.

"How do you know which is which?" Kakeru asked, feeling both annoyed and impressed.

"They where both in my class." She stated, her eyebrows raised at them both.

"Yes that's Momiji, he'll help you, just tell him you're a friend of Yuki's and he'll help you willingly." Tohru said, picking up her bag and started to walk away before turning around to face them again.

"Oh and please don't tell them that I told you where to go and who to go to just say you figure it out by yourselves or that some small children told how to get to the secret way. Please just don't mention me, don't mention me at all." The girl looked down right miserable.

"Ok, we won't mention you." Kakeru assured her gently, and Machi nodded, Tohru gave them both watering smiles and walked away, head down again.

The two half sibling glanced at one another, both wondering what had happen to the Sohma's and Tohru Honda.

"So your friends of Yuki." Asked the yellow haired boy for the umpteenth time as they walked threw the Sohma Gardens, keeping to the shadows and the bushes, Kakeru felt a frustration bottling up inside him, he really wanted to hit something, this was so frustrating, none of what was going on made any sense.

"Yuki." The yellow haired boy called out unexpectedly making Kakeru and Machi jump. A grey, silver hair lighted boy turn around on the bench he was sitting on to stared at them. Kakeru winced, there was little to no recognition in Yuki's face when he saw them, his face was blank and cold.

"Err Yuki, remember us, I'm Manabe Kakeru and this is my half sister Kuragi Machi, we where on the Student Council with you, remember?" Kakeru asked, he was starting to think this had been a bad idea.

"Yes, I remember vaguely, you use to fall asleep whenever I talked." Yuki said getting up from his bench and walked to stand in front of them.

He doesn't look good, Kakeru decided, Yuki was drawn and looked extremely pale and there was a heavy sadness in his eyes. Kakeru grinned brightly.

"yep, that was me, listen we need to talk about," he thought for a moment, and Tohru Honda came to mind, Yuki had thought of that girl as his mother, a someone who just let be himself, a person who just accepted him, but… he's forgotten her, he thought sadly, he wasn't sure how Yuki could have forgotten her, but he had. Kakeru remember Tohru Honda's words; please just don't mention me, don't mention me at all.

She knew they had forgotten her and was trying to accept it; it was no good making either feel more pain then they clearly where already feeling

"Uh, Yuki, I'm going now." The yellow haired boy side unexpectedly, actually both Kakeru and Machi had forgotten he was there he had been so quiet up till this point.

Yuki glanced at him in surprised but Momiji shrugged.

Momiji walked away from them, he wanted to get out of the Sohma campus; he wanted to be able to breathe fresh air, but where to go. He kicked a few rocks a long the path in front of him, maybe he would go to Papa's building; he hadn't been there for a while three mouths in fact. His head start to ach as it always did when he tried to think back three mouths ago, he shook his head and glanced at his watch, Mama and Momo would be coming to pick up Papa from work in half an hour, he might as well hang around there and kill some time.

He head off towards his father's building, he wanted to see his mother and sister, yet something else pulled him towards the building, another reason for going was inside there too, but what, he felt as if he could just grasp the reason in his mind but just as his mind fingers grabbed for it, it brushed his minds fingers and slipped away to a dark corner of his mind, where he couldn't reach it. he felt a little depressed at this fact that once again an important, well he thought it was important thought or memory, had slipped away from him, he knew he wasn't the only person who was having these feelings going on inside, all the other Zodiac where facing this problem and been having them since the curse had been lifted, and they had strangely had found little joy in this fact. He sighed, maybe one day everything will come clear

He was so lost in thought that he did not notice a girl pushing a big crate on wheels with garbage bags heading towards and she too was equally in deep of thought as him. They collided and they both went flying as neither could catch themselves to stop from falling. Momiji rubbed his bruised back side and concluded it was a danger to think deeply and walk at the same time. He heard soft sobbing coming from the girl he had accidentally bump into.

"Hey, I'm sorry, are you hurt, I didn't mean to bump into you, I wasn't watching where I was going, I'm really, really sorry." Momiji whispered to her, trying to stop the poor girl from crying.

"It's ok, I'm not hurt, I'm just not having a good day, that's all." The girl lifted her head and Momiji was hit with a Déjà vu feeling, he could have sworn he had seen her before, the feeling of something just beyond his reach came back to him full ball, he notice that the girl's eyes widen as she took in his face, before quickly covering her face and started crying again, but this time he was sure for an entirely different reason then before.

He open his mouth to ask if they had met before, when he heard his name being called.

"Momiji, what are you doing here."

Doh, it was his mother and his sister, he glanced at his watch and she was early, he got quickly to his feet and blocked the crying girl from view.

"I was in the area and thought I would stop by." He lied.

"To see your friend that works here?" she asked, Momiji blinked but smiled quickly to hind his confusion, what friend that work here, he wondered.

"That's right." He said nodding, feeling awful for lying to her more, his mother glanced behind at the quietly sobbing girl.

"Is she alright?" His mother asked her face full of worry, Momiji looked at the girl behind and she nodded, though she didn't meet his eyes.

"Yeah, she's ok; we had a little bit of a collision, that's all." He said, his mother nodded,

"well, you better go home, alright your mother must be worried sick." And with that she walked away, grasping his little sisters hand once more, he watch her walk away from him, taking his little sister too. His sister glance back at him, her eyes sad, her eyes flicked to the girl, who was now rubbing her eyes, the girl looked up and stared after his mother and sister, her and his sister eyes locked, and his sister looked confusion, her eyes flicking between him and the crutching girl. He, too look from his sister to the girl, wondering if they had met from the reaction between he guess so.

"I want to leave here." The girl sobbed, "it didn't change anything."

What hadn't change, well the fact that he was no longer cursed and his mother still didn't know who he was and his sister wasn't allowed to know who he was, that hadn't changed one bit, wait a minute, what he thought hadn't changed was probably worlds away from what she was crying about, though… he felt unsure, he knew her from somewhere, he tried to remember seeing her work here, at Papa building, but he found something hard to remember, like he had found a lot of school hard to remember.

"I have to go now." The girl said suddenly standing up, she grabbing hold of the cart and tried to push it, Momiji took the other side and gave it a push, the girl shot him a half frighten, half surprised look, but accepted his help without a word.

"Thank you." She whispered and she started to walk away.

"Wait a minute, what's your name? I know I've seen you somewhere before? WAIT." He yelled, he tried to chase after her but lost her when he entered the locker room and knew he had lost her completely when he heard the banging of door closing and sighed heavily. He had seen her before, he knew he had, but where. He started banging his head against the wall, trying to remember what he had forgotten, he really need to talk to Ha'ri again, though Ha'ri had said he didn't remember erasing their memories. He closed his eyes, why was everything so hard, why couldn't he just remember, he wanted to remember, he wanted to see her smile again. He blinked, her smile, whose smile, whose smile did he want to see again. He wanted to bang his head against that wall all night until he figure out what had happen and who that girl, but one of his fathers workers came and found him and took him home where he was scolded and grounded for leaving the Sohma Main house without permission.

"what's the point of being grounded when I'm already under house arrest." He yelled at his door before flopping on to his bed, he stared at his violin.

She's been watching all this time.

She wants to meet you.

She listen to you play.

She want's so much to play with you.

She wants you to be her big Brother.

He stare at his violin, where, whose voice was that telling him all those thing's about Momo. Was it just his imagination saying these things because he was desperate for someone to say those things to him or had someone really said them to him? He closed his eyes and went to sleep, pondering over everything, he dreamed of a girl sitting in his room, her hair falling out of her two ponytails, her clothes grubbing and ripped, her face was blurred from his sight. He had just asked her a question, what was her favourite tune and he would play it to her.

When you wish upon a Star

Do you like 'When you wish upon a star'…….

Ah…that was the first song that came to mind…AH…But…if that tune is not suited for the violin, I'll think of something else…

I'll practise hard.

Tohru lay flat on her back on her old bed, staring up at the ceiling, she needed a new job. It had been hard enough going to that building when Momiji hadn't been coming, but now…

She rolled on to her side, tears rolling down her face. Nothing had changed; Momiji mother and sister still didn't know who he was, why had she thought that once the curse was over, was broken, things could go back to away they should have been, no despite the curse being broken, it wasn't really, those who had been cursed and those who had been affected by it where still cursed, Momiji was still cursed because he couldn't have his family despite no longer turning into a rabbit when he was hugged by an opposite member of sex.

"What am I suppose to do." She whispered to know one.

Just be yourself, you'll be fine, her mother's voice whispered into her head.

"be myself and I'll be fine, are you kidding, being myself is what got me into this whole ordeal in the first place." She snarled at her mothers photo, that was on her desk, she remembered Hatori's warning all that time ago, when she knew so little about the whole Sohma's and the curse, he had told her to get out while she could, but she hadn't she had waited and looked what happen.

"They seem more miserable now, then when they where cursed." She muttered, swing herself off the bed, stomping to the desk, hit the picture of her mother off the desk on to the floor, before heading the living room.

"Why didn't I leave it well enough alone?" She demanded herself.

"why could you have given me some advise Mom about how to coup with the fact that you broke a curse that was suppose to be making everyone miserable and that if you did break it everything would be fine." She kicked the wall, feeling her anger rising. "Why couldn't you give me some advice about how to coup when everyone you love is gone." She sobbed, turning around the slumping into the wall that she had been kicking a few minutes earlier. "Why…why does everyone I love leave me behind, why can't they just stay with me, why?" She sniffed burying her face into her arms.

There was a scratching at the door, Tohru lifted her head and stared at her front door, the scratching came again. Tohru crawled to her feet and open her door, she looked out; there was no one there. She jumped as she felt something rub up against her leg, she looked down and blinked. It was a big, orange cat, and not only any orange cat, if she was right to assume it was the same orange cat that she had first met at the Sohma Main House, just after her birthday.

"Uh, you want to come in?" she asked the Cat, as if it understood, it trotted into the apartment. Tohru raised her eyebrow, this was one weird cat. She bent down and picked up the cat and felt for a collar, there was, as she expected, none.

"Looks like you get around." Tohru mumbled to it, putting it down and going to the kitchen, with the cat at her heels. She poured out some milk into a saucer and placed it down on the ground for the cat, who licked it up gratefully.

Tohru shook her head and walked back to her room. As she pasted her desk, she felt something crunch under her foot, she looked down it was her picture of her mother.

She bent down and picked it up, staring at it, the orange cat jumped up on to her desk, and rubbed his head against her wrist making her charm bracelet jingle, merrily.

"I'm sorry Mom." She placed the picture back on her desk. She fingered her charm bracelet, gently it had grown to a sort of habit, to play with it when she got sad or nervous or just thinking she would play with it.

"I need to let them go, if I'm and they are going to move on I need to cut all ties to them." She mumbled, the orange cat meow mournfully, Tohru with great effort unclipped the bracelet for the first time since she had received it. She stared at the charms, each one meant something to her, but she need to move on and this was how it was going to begin.

She rattled around her desk for a moment, before finding what she was looking for, it was a small silver box, with Kyoko engraved on its lid. Turning on her desk light, she dipped the contents on to the desk. Her mother's wedding ring, a pendant and a ring that belonged to her father lay on her desk, all had memories, yet they held no warmth to the memories of those who had worn them. Gently, scooping the contents back off the desk and placing it back into the box, but now her charm bracelet join them. She place the box inside her treasure chest and closed, hoping into bed, the orange cat nestle into her back.

"Good Boy, Zodie." She mumbled and fell asleep.

Author's Note: so that's chapter 8 done, please review, I have no idea when chapter 9 will be ready, I only just finished this chapter. Thanks for Reading