Chapter 9 - It Wasn't A Dream

"I don't know where I am," she sniffled trying to stop the tears flowing. "I don't know, oh God! Where's Abby?"

"Don't worry about Abby, Stevie can get her."

He could hear her crying still, he really needed to know where she was so he could get to her.

"Hey, Livvie... I need you to look around, can you see a name on anything?"

"Umm... I don't know."

"Take your time, have another look,"

"Okay, okay... Umm, I can. I can, it says Widener Library."

"Okay, good. Stay where you are, I'm on my way now."

Olivia sat there, like Fitz said, she hadn't moved. She doesn't really know what happened, everything was going so well. After lunch she stayed with Abby, close to Dr. Kipling, they went to their first afternoon session and Mellie seemed to be up to no good. Then it clicked. It was Mellie. She didn't know how she did it but it was her. Her thoughts were interrupted when she saw the door to the room open slowly and Fitz step in.


After speaking to Olivia Fitz knew exactly where she was, he started to run through campus, in a rush to get to her. Once he made it to the library he slowed down a little, he headed straight for the room. He stopped just outside the room for breather before slowly pushing the door open.

There she was. Olivia Pope, from what he'd seen she was such a strong person, yet she was sat on the floor by the side of the room holding her legs in tightly against her chest. Her head was resting on her knees. He saw her look up at him and he quickly crossed the room to her.

"Livvie..." He knelt in front of her, sitting back on his legs he connected their hands.

"Where's Abby?" She said trying to wipe her eyes.

"Stevie's gone to find her. She's okay. She's still with the group." He replied looking at her sympathetically.

"Okay... Fitz, I'm sorry."

"For what? You don't have anything to be sorry for." He said looking at her oddly.

"But..."

"No buts Olivia, this isn't your fault. Okay?"

She lowered her head, breaking eye contact with him, when a few minutes passed and she still hadn't answered he lifted her chin.

"Okay, Livvie?"

"Okay..." She finally said.

Fitz let go of her hands momentarily and moved to sit beside her, with his back resting against the wall he wrapped his right arm around her shoulder, when she willingly leaned into him he moved his left arm across the front of her body holding her into him.

"What happened after I left?"

"I don't... Can we go?" She asked changing the subject slightly.

"Okay, where's your group supposed to be?"

"No. Not the group, I don't want to go back with them. Can I come to yours for a while?" She asked hoping he would say yes. She wasn't ready to deal with whatever had just happened.

"Yeah sure... Although, I just need to let Dr. Kipling know you're safe first."

"Crap! I'm gonna be in so much trouble. There goes the rest of the sporting year for me."

"I'm sure you won't be..." Fitz started, although he didn't know what Olivia meant by not being able to play sport, he decided he would ask her later about that.

"Oh no! I will be."

"Let me call him and we'll see what he says. He's probably more concerned that he's lost you. Imagine what your Father would think."

Fitz moved to take his phone from his pocket, he scrolled through his phone to find Dr. Kipling's number, he dialled the number and as Dr. Kipling answered he heard her speak.

"He wouldn't care..."

He knew that she argued with her Father a lot but he found it hard to believe that he wouldn't care about her.

"Fitz. Oh thank goodness, have you found her?"

"Yeah, Dr. Kipling. I'm with her right now. I'm going to take her back to mine, if that's alright with you."

"I'm not sure that's really up to me Fitz." Samuel said, he now knew that her agents were here because they had been looking for her, one of them had stayed with the group whilst the others searched.

"Well who do I have to ask then?"

"Well..." He started before looking at the agent, who nodded his head "I have agent Wells next to me."

Samuel quickly handed the phone over.

"Hello?" Fitz spoke first, he'd met the agent a few times before, none of them being in desirable circumstances.

"Who am I speaking to?" He asked abruptly.

"Fitz Grant."

Fitz felt Olivia move and when he looked at her she was motioning for him to hand the phone over. He shook his head no but had to move the phone away from his ear when she tried to reach for it. He knew how happy she was when she thought her agents weren't there and he didn't want to be the one to disappoint her. Although he had nothing to do with it, he didn't want Olivia to find out like this, it would only make her day worse.

"Livvie stop, I've got this." Fitz said moving the phone again.

"Who is it? I know it's not Sammy anymore because he wouldn't ask you your name."

"Liv..."

"Who is it Fitz?"

"Livvie... Wait!" He shouted as she grabbed the phones and quickly stood up. She had caught him off guard and managed to snatch the phone. Ignoring him she put the phone to get ear, watching him stand up to face her.

"Hello?" She asked, unsure who would answer.

"Miss Pope," she didn't need to ask who it was because she recognised the voice. Agent Wells. She ended the call before he had a chance to say anything else and stared at Fitz.

"I'm sorry Livvie..."

"Did you know?" She asked, if he did she didn't know what she'd do. She hoped he didn't because she thought he was on her side.

"Know what?"

"Did you know that they were here. The Agents! Fitz, tell me you didn't know!" She said as a single tear rolled down her cheek.

"Of course I didn't know." He said.

He heard her release a breath, then she walked to him, wrapped her arms around his body and rested her head against his chest. In response he wrapped his arms around her and rested his head on hers.

"I'm sorry, I didn't... I just needed to check. I don't know why I asked."

"I know... It's okay Livvie. C'mon, what do say we get out of here, huh?"

Fitz guided Olivia to his car, holding her hand and keeping her close to him. People still stared but he was used to that. He walked confidently, not letting the stares bother him. In contrast, the usual confident persona of Olivia Pope had disappeared and she was holding onto his hand and arm tightly, leaning into his side.

"How much further?"

"Just round the corner."

Fitz had spoken to Stephen, he was with Abby and he was going to stay with the group until they were due to finish, then he would bring Abby back with him. The last talk was supposed to finish at 6pm, that meant they had a couple of hours to fill before Stephen and Abby made it back to the house.


It was almost 6.30pm when Stephen and Abby walked in. The first thing that they both saw was Fitz seemingly sat on the couch alone.

"Where's Liv?" Abby asked walking into the room causing Fitz to turn his head.

"I'm here..." Olivia said not moving from where she was.

As Abby walked further into the room she could see her, she was laying on her side with her head resting in Fitz' lap. She could see that she wasn't herself.

"Hey... Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it?"

"No, not really." Olivia replied shuffling her legs slightly to make room for Abby to sit down.

Stephen had disappeared as soon as they got in, he walked back into the room holding several different takeaway menus and his phone.

"What do you guys fancy?" He asked before he looked up from the menus. "Oh wow... Room for a little one?" He jokingly asked seeing how cozy it already was on the couch.

"I don't mind... Abs, Livvie, what do you feel like?" Fitz said looking from one to the other.


Pizza was eventually decided upon. Stephen had sat down on the floor in the middle of the couch and they all continued to watch the TV. As soon as he heard the sound of the doorbell, he jumped up and went to answer it.

"Well I've got my dinner, what are you guys having?" He laughed, holding the three pizza boxes and the drinks.

Olivia sat up when she saw Stephen with food. As she reached for one of the boxes, she felt Fitz' hand gliding up and down on her back. She knew it had been on her arm but she was so comfortable she'd forgotten it was there. Turning her head slightly to look at him, she smiled when their eyes connected.

"So it was Mellie..." Abby started absentmindedly, stopping when she noticed that everyone was staring at her.

"What was?" Stephen asked.

"You know... What happened." She didn't want to come out and say it because she didn't know if Olivia wanted to talk about it. "You know," she tried again subtly nodding her head at Olivia.

"Ohh..." He finally caught on.

It sometimes amazed both Fitz and Abby how exactly Stephen managed to get into Harvard. He could be so dopey at times.

"How do you know?" Fitz asked before he felt Olivia gripping his hand. "You know what never mind." He said looking down at her. "What do you wanna do this weekend?" He asked instead trying to change the subject. Although Olivia still had that same look on her face. She looked scared and he had no clue why. It's not like its unusual for her to be spotted by people.


4 hours had passed since they had eaten and they had all just been lounging around in that time. Abby and Stephen had been competing in various games on his Playstation before they decided to put on a film.

Olivia had laid back down on the couch, using Fitz as a pillow again and hadn't really been in the conversation only speaking occasionally. Fitz thought that she had been too quiet for too long and wasn't all that surprise when he looked down to find her asleep. It most definitely had been a long day for her.

It was only a little after 11 when he noticed that Abby was yawning, trying to stay awake.

"Hey Abs..." Fitz whispered not wanting to disturb Olivia. "Why don't you go to bed? You've had a long day."

"I'm fine," Abby said yawning again.

"Abs why don't you take my room," Stephen said.

"What about you?"

"I'll get the fold up bed out."

"What about Liv?" Abby asked looking at Fitz.

"She can have my room, I'll take the couch." He said looking down at her again, running his hand down her arm and back up again.

Abby left after saying goodnight to everyone and Stephen soon left the room, going to get the fold up bed, when he returned he found Fitz in the same spot.

"Mate, you haven't moved."

"I know, I'm going... She just looks so comfortable."

Stephen smiled at him in the process of setting up his bed before going into the kitchen.

Fitz finally began to move, slowly he lifted Olivia's head off his lap and he slipped out from underneath her. Watching her begin to stir he decided to pick her up before she woke up. He bent down, placing his arms between her and the couch and slowly lifted her up. Once he had her against his chest she soon snuggled back into him.

As he started to walk, Stephen walked back into the room. He studied the two of them and how comfortable they already were with each other and couldn't help but smile.

"Goodnight." Stephen said as he got into his makeshift bed.

"Night, I'll just get her settled." Fitz said without turning to face Stephen.

He walked slowly through to his room, using his foot to push the door open and then close it again behind himself, he walked to the bed and gently placed her on the right hand side. As he attempted to move away he realised that she was clutching his shirt with her left hand. He didn't want to hurt her but he knew he couldn't stay like this, hovering over her, all night. He started to loosen her grasp on his shirt when she began to speak.

"Don't leave me." She mumbled.

Fitz didn't know whether she was fully conscious or not, so he didn't reply, thinking she was probably asleep still.

"Fitz..." He then heard as clear as day.

"Yeah Livvie?"

"Don't leave... Stay." She said as she closed her eyes and patted the other side of the bed, before rolling that way.

"Livvie I don't know if..."

"Please." She interrupted before he could finish, opening her eyes again to look at him.

Fitz didn't know why but she seemed to be more clingy, not in a bad way, it was just unusual to see her like this. They hadn't spent much time together but from what he assumed she seemed to be confident and independent, the polar opposite of what he was seeing. Did if have something to do with what happened or her Mother? Quite possibly. He didn't know for certain. The only way he would know is if he asked her and she didn't feel like talking about it earlier so it would have to wait now, until tomorrow.

He quickly got changed into a pair of black basketball shorts and a plain white t-shirt before climbing into bed next to her. He made a mental note to speak to her properly tomorrow.

He shuffled around a little trying to get comfortable, before he had even realised Olivia was asleep again, she had placed her head on his chest and her left arm across his body. Looking over at the clock, he took a deep breath before pulling the covers up making sure that they were both completely underneath them.


Fitz woke up suddenly to a scream, he wasn't sure what time it was let alone what was happening. There it was again. Olivia shouting.

"NO! STOP! STOP!"

He looked across at his clock to see that it wasn't even 4am yet. He could feel Olivia tossing and turning next to him on the bed.

"PLEASE STOP!"

As he moved closer to her, he could see that she was crying. The tears were streaming down her face. He sat up and placed his hands on her shoulders in an attempt to comfort her but it only seemed to make her worse. She began thrashing around, her arms began to move. Whatever it was that she was seeing, it seemed like she wanted to get away from it.

"NO! LET ME GO! I NEED... PLEASE! PLEASE!"

Fitz didn't know what to do she was still swinging her arms around. Just as he thought he needed to wake her, her elbow collided with his ribs. He winced slightly but continued trying to wake her.

"Livvie... Livvie c'mon, it's just a dream. Wake up Livvie." He said as he managed to shuffle his body do she was nestled between his legs, leaning against his chest. He wrapped his arms around her and held her own arms in against her chest.

He continued to talk to her, encouraging her to wake up, and after a while she came round. She was still crying but didn't say anything.

"You're okay Livvie. It's alright. It was just a dream." After a little while he heard her speak.

"It wasn't a dream..."

AN

So here's the next chapter, I hope you enjoy it. Let me know what you think.