Disclaimer: All rights belong to Takahashi forever and always. Also special dictation to Earthian , Secret Garden, book four.

A/N: This is posted as a Yugioh fan, but this chapter has a lot of Hack, Well my Hack lover Endrance. Sakura this is your entire fault . . . . . And having Genius Vampire as a Beta is not helpful, she is always inviting that alluring 'A.I.' into my thoughts. AHHHHHHHHH. . . . . what 's an author to do?

Hey, this is dubbed the bushies of Sherabo. Well let's see Katsuya is in the hospital and recovering, but all is not well in the house of luv!! Kaiba is still in his little closet. . . .

Katsuya: "Why . . . . . ?"

Sherabo: "Calm down baby, remember I write the story, and you are my first love."

Katsuya: Pouts, 'ok.'

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Chapter 9: Advice, it Hurts

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To the person passing by one would have thought a concert was being held at the private hospital on Fifth Street, because hordes of young adults had gathered on the surrounding lawns bordering the grounds. Blankets littered the grass and young men spread out snacks from picnic baskets packed in haste. Other young adults were given the assignment to guard exists, just in case 'he' slipped by. You see 'he' was in the building.

It did not matter if you were male or female, young or old; 'he' was admired by all. Endrance should have used the world as his mode of transportation, but he chose to enter the hospital by conventional means . . . 'front door'. –GASP-

Hospitals disturbed the blade dancer but his friend needed his attention, so he slipped in during non visiting hours hoping not to draw much attention. Endrance loved the color purple so his new tight leather pants reflected the vibrant color and they were trimmed with a softer shade of violet down the seams and waist. The fit accented his long legs and added a grace to the confident swagger that belongs solely to him. Boots dark as an azure sky stopped short of his thighs with six inch heels. His cotton knit blouse fit loosely over a narrow chest but tapered to a tiny waist, just right for gentle Haseo hugs. The collar and sleeves were trimmed with the softest of lambs fleece and caressed his slender neck as he walked with grace and dignity. Endrance defied convention with his head held high and his stride long and purposeful. This man could have climbed through the sewer and still captivated an audience. Endrance was 'he.'

In an attempt to disguise himself he tied his hair up in a top notch and stuffed it underneath a strange orange and yellow hat. The hat was designed to cover one eye and a lot of hair. The problem behind his disguise was the fact the hat had a personality of its own. The hat belonged to the 'A. I. Kite.' Kite was very upset, near tears because he could not fathom why his hat was missing. First off why did the hat leave his head? That was a mystery the 'A.I' still did not understand. Life was so much easier before he became involved with Haseo and that flamboyant brat.

Unsuccessful ly . . . . Through beeps and strange sounds that only Haseo could understand he tried to convey his pain, but it hurt too much to even try. . . . . "My haaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttttttt!"

Well Endrance in a jealous rage swiped it while the 'A.I.' was sleeping . . . well dreaming. You see Haseo had spent the better part of this particular day with his friend, 'Kite' surfing, and cleaning areas throughout the world.

'This is unacceptable and I would not tolerate such behavior from my lover . . . or that stitched up unfinished . . . . . Ahhhhhhhhhh . . . . I am so distressed,' he thought as he spied on the two. After sighing for the third time in a row he spotted the famous hat on a table. Why it was not on the head of the 'A.I.' is another story and a mystery.

"Mmmm . . . . ."now the sighs slowly turned to a wide smile and with deft finger and perfect timing the hat disappeared. Endrance was happy and quite content to see the confusion on the little guy's features.

The 'A.I.' cried for two days, his hat was just like his stitches irreplaceable. Endrance temper cooled a bit and he thought he would return this disguise, hell the color just didn't work well with his long powder blue hair.

'Opps . . . . And anyway if Haseo caught me,' he thought. So Endrance took off the hat and sent it to a place where the 'A.I.' would be sure to find it in about one week. He smiled at his prefect plan and proceeded to the nurses' station.

'Opps'. . . . Endrance sighed again, second mistake today. The nurse was a rabid fan. Endrance crossed the boundaries of gender. He was simply a male of incredible beauty.

"Are you . . . . you . . . YOU ARE 'HE'. . . . . Wowwwwwwwwww," she squeaked out his name. The nurse shy by nature and soft spoken now mumbled incoherent words.

"Please I don't want to cause a scene, just visit my friend, toots," Endrance whispered in her ear. "What's your name, darling?"

'Name. . . . I have a name. . . . My name . . . its . . . Hinata of the leaf village. I'm a nurse. . . . ." the words died to a whisper.

"Here's a little present for your trouble." He gently kissed her cheek and strolled down the hall to Joey's room.

"Ahhhhhhhhhh. . . . He. . . 'HE' . . . . Kissed me," A very soft 'thump' and the nurse, Hinata of the leaf village disappeared. The nurse neatly passed out cold causing everyone to rush to her aid. Within the hour the entire floor and half the city knew where he was. The only word the girl could speak was 'he.'

In Katsuya room . . . .

Now finally he sat next to Joey and spoke softly. It was apparent the boy's pain was not entirely physical and he needed a true friend to help him see the light.

"Katsuya does it hurt very much?" Endrance words floated on the air. He touched the bandage around the boy's chest.

"Nah, it's just a flesh wound," Katsuya smiled at his latest visitor.

"That is not the wound I speak of." Endrance waved his hand in the air and pointed a finger at the boy's chest.

Still confused Katsuya asked the question. "What?"

"The wound that goes deeper than mere flesh, your heart is bleeding, *I know what it is to have your life shaken by the sight of someone. I know what it is to fall so deeply in love that you can no longer breathe.*"Endrance sighed.

"Is that not the source of your true pain?" The blade dancer looked around for evidence that Kaiba had taken up residence by the wounded boy's side. "Why is he not here by your side!!?"

"Well he stayed most of the night and Kaiba has a business to run." Katsuya still felt the pain of rejection. 'Why am I defending his neglect,' were his real thoughts.

"That maybe so, but are you not his business? I would not allow Haseo to leave me in such an hour of need. He would make it his wish to comfort my soul." For a moment the blue-haired beauty thought about the hat and felt ashamed. Well just a little pity, but not enough to regret the act entirely.

"Endrance you're different, desirable beyond believe and everyone thinks you are so special." Joey's attitude changed from longing to depression.

"Kat's it's the same. Whether I am male or female; pants or dress I am only Endrance to my Haseo. In the eyes of your chosen one you are a beauty that only he can see. You are perfection. It is the same for lovers of the heart and soul. Perhaps he is not reflected in your lover's eye or you in his. Perhaps he is not the true one, although he wakens desires in heart, does he touch your soul?" Endrance stroked the boy's cheek, he was slightly flushed and Katsuya was near tears.

'Would Kaiba ever see him like that, someone special? They shared a few heated kisses, but each situation had been in dark places and unusually situations. Katsuya wanted someone who was not ashamed of being gay or maybe just someone who loved him because he was Katsuya. He was not rich but Kat's had rights; these rights were meant for conventional couples and gay couples to live as equals. Could Kaiba understand that he wanted a lover who was not ashamed of him? 'I won't be your backyard doggie,' he though.

The blade dancer continued to speak. "Yes there was no life without him, so I explained in simple words to him how I felt. I remember the conversation as if it were yesterday.

"I belong by your side. It is your destiny to love me for all eternity, as I love you," spoke Endrance.

"Wow, what did he say," Katsuya was in ah.

Endrance mused remembering Haseo next words. "I am a warrior and you are insane!!"

"But those words were the only ones I allowed him to speak. Next I gathered his strong warrior body in my arms and held him firmly while I kissed him soundly cutting off all avenue of escape or thought. My determination to make him mine has no bounds it is absolute.

We came up for air and I spoke my words again so he would understand better my feeling while still under the spell of my kiss. My plan was flawless. Only my physical essence I would not allow him to claim that night. Haseo is my 'Secret Garden'."

"Secret Garden?" Katsuya blinked the spell of the blade dancer still in place. He was saddened yet found comfort in his words. Endrance long lashes fluttered open and he held Katsuya hands in his own drake ruby eyes melted into the hazel orbs filled with tears.

"Yes, the Secret Garden that is a man's heart. I remember all too well the night we became one. I could not move for a day and he lavished my body with great care." The scent of Roses filled the room as Endrance finished his tale.

"Forbidden love, The Secret Garden, '*If the flowers within that garden blossom beautifully and truly there would be no reason to hide them.

Is it love when you think that you must hold on at all cost no matter what the outcome.*' My body grows warm just thinking of our first night together and all the others since have left me breathless. I will not suffer him to another even in innocent play."

Joey blushed at the musical and heated word. He was still very naïve in so many matters. "Close your eyes," Endrance voice was low and seductive, each word a song.

The dancer reached under the thin covers and lightly ran his hands along the inside of Katsuya's thigh, so soft. His finger traveled higher to dangerous zones, but Endrance stopped his playfulness because Katsuya voice started to grow loud. He giggled and wiggled under the cover. "So my touch makes you laugh. Yet when Kaiba touches you there is it so?"

"Ump . . ." The boy's eyes widen and he turned over and mumbled under the covers hiding his embarrassment. "He hasn't really . . . . We haven't done anything like that . . . . How can I trust him when I'm not sure he even wants all of my heart?" Katsuya lip started to quiver.

"Maybe it is not too late . . . He has not claimed you. . . . Your scent is still your own. . . So there still is time. Who will flame ever y muscle in your body, my love? Maybe there is another whose mere presence will cause you to weep with joy just to look at him."

"But I don't want anyone else En," Katsuya pouted.

"Silence," Endrance continued with his thoughts out loud, "One who will whole your hand in public for the world to see; I will help you find that destiny." Endrance stood up and turned around in circles, dancing with complete abandonment. His plans for Kat's future running around in his mind, unchecked and unleashed.

Joey laughed for the first time in days. "Look baby, this is what you must do and I will not accept no for an answer."

"Ok," voice Katsuya, a little confused but lured by the words of his friend.

"Once a year I travel with my show and look for dancers. You were the most popular in the city. Damn you already have fans asking when you would be appearing back on stage. Well I've decided to take you with me as a young model." Endrance continued to dance.

"What. . . . I'm not a model!"Katsuya frowned, but he found the idea amusing.

"Hush, love . . . . You are a natural. I know you have no money, no obligations and a love who doesn't know you exist. Kat's there are so many possibilities and lots of money to make. Of course I will protect you from the vultures and we will find your heart or your heart will find you? Endrance winked. "I will not take no for an answer."

"Endrance, look over there what is that light?" The boy set up in bed, a little of the fear returning from the events of the past.

"Ahhhhhhh . . . . My lover has arrived, I am happy." Endrance sang, happy in his heart at the site of Haseo.

"Endrance I know what you have done and it is not a good thing. . . ." Haseo barked out loud, his tattoos glowing on his cheeks. "How could you do something so mean to someone so innocent? I am most ashamed of your action."

The warrior floated over to his lover and silenced his talk with a kiss, well a bit more than a kiss. He leaned into his chest and slipped his hands under the low belt around Haseo hips. "Oueee . . . so nice," he thought.

"Don't Ou. . . weee. . . . me, with your soft words and slippery fingers. Where is Kite's hat?!!!!!!!" screamed Haseo, now the tattoos around his hips burned and Katsuya hid under the covers. The room glowed bright red with the fury of Haseo.

Yes, it was a known fact that those two loved with a passion that challenged the laws of nature, but Haseo temper altered time and space. Some said he could move mountain with his thoughts. You did not want to be in the middle of those two when they fought. "How could you be so selfish, Kite is my friend!"

"And that is supposed to move me. . . . He's not even human . . . . And. . . ." Endrance didn't finish he was getting really pissed. "What am I?" 'How dare Haseo side with that program and leave him to suffer?' Endrance didn't know if he wanted to cry or knock Haseo's head off.

"Endrance, come here. . . . NOW. . .!!," spoke the warrior.

The dancer threw his silky hair over his shoulder and started to pick at an imaginary split end, which didn't exist. 'I will not be treated so childishly,' he thought and ignored his lovers command.

"En, please. . . ." Haseo's voice softened and Endrance walked into his arms.

"Kite will always be a part of me, but you are you and I will love you as I love no other. We are one bound together for all times. There is no other." Haseo spoke firmly, to his mischievous lover. "HAT PLEASE."

Reluctantly the yellow and orange hat appeared and landed on top of Haseo's head, causing a wide smile to appear and the glow to disappear from the 'adapt rogue's' body. Just as quickly the hat disappeared only to reappear home. If one happens to be in the world you would have heard a series of odd beeps that caused unusually activity on the net. In the end we had a very happy 'A.I.'

"Now for your punishment," Haseo whispered into the blade dancer's ear.

Joey peaked from under the cover. 'Well the world was still in tack,' he thought. The room no longer glowed and everything looks ok.

Endrance smiled, "My love has forgiven me and he is in need and I must leave. Just remember your innocence is to be protected and the flowers in your garden are meant to grow. We will leave soon and all will be made right." Haseo lifted the slender beauty into his arms and carried him a safe distance away from the injured boy. In seconds Katsuya was blinded by flashing lights. The two lovers had disappeared into the world.

The scent of roses were the only indication that the blade brandisher was ever there.

Lost in thought Joey didn't hear the door swing open. Once again he shared his bed with a friend. "Hey Mokuba it's really you," Katsuya sighed to see his dearest friend safe and smiling.

"Yeah man, it's me," he kissed him lightly on the cheek and squeezed his chest gently. "Katsuya I'm so sorry, I should have been there for yeah, man." Mokuba whispered the sorrowful words against his ear.

Katsuya pushed him away and looked deeply into the guilt ridden eyes. "No way man. . . .This old thing, look." The boy lifted up his gown and proudly shown off his wound, "It's just a scratch. Hell, I've had worst just fightin' with old money bags."

The room was silent and all eyes turned to the aloof brunet leaning against the door frame. Yuki chucked under his breath at the expression on Kaiba's face.

But that was only the beginning. Seto was speechless his eyes were glued to the long slender legs exposed by the raised gown.

Katsuya caught the stare and blushed as he slowly pulled the thin hospital sheet over his legs. Yuki winked at the boy and pinched Seto who almost started to moan. "Whoa, boy, heel." Mocked Yuki. "Damn you got it bad. Why don't you just check him into a room and screw him until next year. Hell you'll feel great."

"Shut Up," growled Seto. A tiny blush started to creep in Kaiba's cheeks.

"Nii-sama what's gotten into you?" Mokuba was completely ignorant to the real events going on.

"Well, what's going on with the living, you look good and where is Ryou . . . oops." Katsuya turned red.

"It's ok Katsuya . . . Nii-sama and I had a long talk. This morning I was so upset with him but later after the accident I confided to Nii-sama about my feelings for Ryou and we visited his cousin's kingdom. You know there's a place where boys and boys having relationships is not a big deal. All the men there were very handsome or pretty or just beautiful. It made me so happy to understand my feelings are share by so many. Katsuya I even told him about my friend."

"Mokuba I'm sure he's doesn't want to hear our troubles." Seto grumbled.

"I'd like to know, more," Yuki smirked. He loved watching his friend feel uncomfortable.

"Well, I told him about a friend who is in love with a guy who doesn't know if he is straight or gay. How sad, so he suffers inside."

Yuki burst out laughing and Joey hid back under the covers. "So this guy is he in a closet or something," Yuki spoke between laughs.

"Yuki, it's not funny, it's awful to love someone and you are all alone or afraid to share your feeling. Well, I think Nii-sama is not against the idea, he just doesn't understand the beauty of love."

Yuki doubled over in laughter and Ryou blushed crimson. It seemed everyone understood the situation except Mokuba.

Seto turned to his college friend and gave him a serious stare, "You want to die?"

Yuki raised his arms in mock defeat. "Ok, but this is just too sweet, man."

"So how long are you going to be in here?" Spoke Mokuba.

"Well, I'll be out in a few days," Katsuya spoke his voice shaken. His eyes drifted over to Kaiba. 'It would have been so nice if he had kissed my cheek. 'Damn,' thought the blond. 'Am I so unlovable, I hate this,' he thought. His eyes watered as the pain stabbed at his heart.

"Seto you are not gaining any points, look his eyes are begging for just a little recognition," Yuki tried to reason with his friend.

"I said, leave me along," whispered Seto.

"Nii-sama can Kat's come and stay with us. He'll need someone to care for him. Any way I let him stay in the guest house, sorry I didn't tell you." Mokuba turned his big puppy dog eyes on his brother.

"Yeah, I know about the guest house. Do whatever you want, I'm not his keeper." barked Kaiba.

Yuki stepped on the CEO's toe, "Fool," he hissed. "You are not the one to be pouting and acting like a uke."

"Ouch!" Seto hissed back, "Stay out of this."

Katsuya flinched at Kaiba words and made up his mind as to his future. "Mokuba I don't need your brothers charity. I've got a job and I have a place to stay. Endrance has made me his young new model and I will be traveling with him."

"Wow, you mean the 'Troupe de Endrance' it's one of the hottest shows in the world. . . . Cool. "Mokuba turned to Ryou and smiled. He them looked for his brother. "Nii-sama . . . . Did you hear that?"

All eyes turned to the door but Kaiba had disappeared. "Did anybody see where my brother went?"

Katsuya turned over and ordered everybody out of the room. "Please go . . ." He sniffed . . . I'm really tired."

"Come on Mokuba," Ryou tugged at his friends shirt tail. "Katsuya needs to rest. We'll visit him tomorrow. . . . That's good news . . . . You'll be great in the show."

"Bye, see you tomorrow," Mokuba glowed with happiness, still in the dark.

Yuki waited until the room was completely empty and walked over to the broken blond. Katsuya was the gentle side of a man's relationship and did not deserve to be treated so harshly. It was up to the bastards like him and Kaiba to protect the fragile hearts and emotions of the better half. It was the Katsuya's that gave the hard business men a sence of humanity. Seto was being a big jack ass.

"He's a fool, but a lovable one." Yuki in a rare moment rubbed the boy's back, drawing lazy circles. It always calmed his little strawberry blond lover when he pissed him off. "You know he's crazy about you kid just too stupid to know it."

Katsuya sniffed and smiled between sobs. It was the first time anyone ever called Kaiba stupid. Somehow that gave him comfort. "Thanks Yuki," sniffs. "I'll be ok."

Yuki looked around and decided thirty minutes without a cig was hell. He pulled it out and took a drag."So, you're goin' out to be a star."

"Yeah. . ." He sniffed again ". . . If I stay here I'll just die." Katsuya turned over and looked in the golden eyes of Yuki, he tried to stop his own tears, but everything just started to hurt all over. He was a complete mess.

'Damn it,' Yuki recognized that look, and realize the boy just needed a hug. 'Shit Seto,' he though. The author threw his cig on the floor and mashed it with his shoe. Next he reached over and pulled the shaken kid in his arms and the damn broke. Katsuya cried and found comfort in the big guys warm embrace.

After a while he wiped his eyes and settled back on the pillow. Taking a deep breath he spoke,

"I got to go and find out if there is a life for me out there."Katsuya's voice was low and steady."

"You're alright kid. I'll kick his ass if you want me to," Yuki smirked.

"Really, can I watch?" Katsuya laughed.

"Just name the place and time." Yuki liked the boy. "Hey I left a brat on his own, so I have to leave you. You ok, I can come back later."

"Nah, just tired, bye Yuki," Katsuya smiled and closed his eyes. Even though his heart hurt he remembered the words spoken by his friend. 'One day his secret Garden, forbidden love, which is a man's heart will grow.' Katsuya dreamed.

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*Quotes taken from Earthian book 4 The Secret Garden. It's a beautiful and artful manga, old but displays a love so innocent it is sad. Art and story by Yun Kouga.

This chapter is for a close friend who said get up and update, love you sis.

GV: . . . One day Azure Kite will win . . .

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GV: Don't worry we still love you =3

A/N: See what I mean, now Kite wants to be a hero, beta alert, Helppppppppp Sakura……. Guess I'm outnumbered review and let me know how you guys feel about these invasions. Good night.