I know this is a shorter chapter but I wanted to write some closer on some things. In the chapter after next it will be a skip in time. I need to pick up the pace and get to the things I really want to write. Hope you like it.
Christmas was fast approaching. Snow was already covering the ground and trees. All the leaves had fallen weeks before and the branches were left bare. I was getting antsy for Edward's return home. But his mother did say he wouldn't make it back for my
family's holiday party.
I had recently met a girl named Angela. She had brown hair like me, though it was a little lighter. Her face was round and gentil. She had become a great friend of mine. I could confide in her. That was important to me.
I had told Angela about my dilemma with James. She told me that I needed to make it clear that he couldn't be doing certain things when I had Edward. People might begin to say that I am cheating on Edward and gossip does spread like wildfire.
One day James came to my door asking if I wanted to go ice skating with him.
"James, I don't think we can be doing this."
"It's justice skating? Bella, I'll hold your hand the whole time. You won't fall."
"No, not just ice skating. Spending time together. It's getting to be inappropriate. You say we can be friends and then you take me out on dates. You say you understand that I have a fiancé yet you kiss my hand when you say goodbye. I can't lead you on
like this. It isn't fair to you."
"Bella, he hasn't been here in months. You get close to me and then try to push away when you think it's too am I supposed to do if we can't be around each other. I don't want to lose you. You are a great friend and I can't believe you
would throw away a friendship over some boy who is away at school."
"If you can't accept the fact that Edward is my fiancé and not you then we can't be friends. I don't want to stop but I want to be true to Edward and more importantly myself. I'm sorry I let you think something was going to happen between us at some point."
"Bella, please! Don't do this. What can I do?"
"James goodbye. I hope you have a wonderful holiday."
I then closed the door with a sigh. I didn't think it would be so hard to get rid of ka friend. I leaned against the door feeling the weight of the world pile on my shoulders.
"Bella, dear. You did good. This is what it has to be. I know it seems unfair now, but it will save more important feelings in the future. Now Edward's mother has ordered this lanterns she was talking to you about. The just came in. Would you like to
see them?"
Thinking about my impending wedding would cheer me up.
Dear Edward,
I am having a hard time being away from you right now. I am confused with my feelings and you are the only one that can help me. This family moved in and they have a son. He quickly became my friend. I wasn't sure what to make of it. I made sure he realized that our relationship couldn't continue if you and I were to be married. It wouldn't have been appropriate.
I hope you can understand that I was strictly friendly and nothing more was intended on my part. Please believeme when I say I tried to make my intentions clear with him.
I wish you were coming home earlier for my parents holiday party. I want to give you your present soon. I think you'll like it.
Please talk to me soon,
Bella
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