I'm soooooooo sorry you guys! I totally forgot to udate this weekend! I was so busy at Disneyland and whatnot that I let it slip my mind. So I'm updating today... I will probably be posting some pics from Disneyland on my dA account so look for them there if you're interested. Anyway... Onto this chapter... It starts almost immediately after the last chapter. It's just really early in the morning. Like, about one o'clock. It just goes to show that Xigbar and Demyx just can't keep their hands off each other. As soon as they're alone they're all over each other. Ahh, the wonderful feeling of lust...

Anyhow, I have a feeling this chapter may leave you a bit angry. That's natural. Embrace it...

English: Lack of Acceptance

German: Mangel an Annahme


Kraków, Poland
January 1, 1940

Demyx fell backward onto Xigbar's bed, the older man's mouth not leaving his throat for even an instant. He whimpered softly and tugged Xigbar's hair loose of the band that restrained it. "I trust that I did well then?"

Xigbar smirked and whispered against Demyx's ear. "Very well... This evening was a success. I only have you to thank. My superior was very pleased. When he is happy, I am happy."

Demyx smiled. "I'm happy when you're happy." He wrapped his arms around his master's neck and pulled him into a deep kiss. Concern grew in the young man as Demyx let his kiss melt away. "Xigbar... Will everything be alright now?"

Xigbar trailed a hand up Demyx's stomach. "What do you mean?"

"Will... Will I be able to stay here with you?" Demyx tightened his hold on Xigbar, half afraid something might snatch him from the older man at any second.

"If things go as planned, yes." Xigbar smirked. "You'll be here for a very, very long time..."

"I'd like that." A small wave of relief washed over Demyx's features and he let his head fall back against the soft mattress. He let his hands roam happily through Xigbar's hair, twining the soft tresses around his fingers. He sighed softly at the feel of Xigbar's gentle kiss at his throat. "Xigbar..."

"I know... I'll be gentle." Xigbar smiled and brought two of his fingers to his lips.

"Wait... Let me." Demyx smiled and leaned forward. He took Xigbar's fingers in his mouth and sucked them slowly.

"Mmm... That feels nice." Xigbar pulled his fingers from Demyx's mouth when they were good and slick. He slid his hand down Demyx's thigh and brought it to rest just outside of where the young man needed him most, taunting and teasing for a moment until he slid them in.

Demyx winced at the initial pass of flesh through flesh. He grit his teeth and clung tightly to Xigbar. "Ngh... Xi-xigbar..."

"I know... I know... Shh..." Xigbar ran his free hand through Demyx's hair to calm him. "The pain will subside soon enough."

"I know." Demyx wiped away the tears that began to fall from his eyes. "It's just... It hurts."

Xigbar nuzzled Demyx's neck gently. "I know it does... Just relax. Think about how good it will feel..." He probed the young man's soft cavity slowly, massaging the opening with great care. Finally the walls gave way to the pressure he applied and quivered in anticipation. He pulled his fingers delicately from the happy cavern and chuckled lightly when Demyx muttered a weak protest.

"Xigbar... Please." Demyx managed to whisper against the older man's chest. He prayed that his pleas did not fall on def ears. Finally he felt what he desired. He felt the press of that strong, needy appendage against his entrance. He could feel the pain as Xigbar reopened the passage with little lubrication. The pain was nearly unbearable and brought even more tears to his eyes. He grit his teeth to fight the groans of discomfort. He could feel his body trying to force the obtrusion out but Xigbar wasn't having it. The other man was braced against the mattress making certain he wasn't denied his bodily pleasure. After a short while Demyx's body stopped fighting and the pain subsided. He breathed a tiny sigh of relief and smiled. "I'm alright now."

"Alright..." Xigbar smiled and began to thrust gently into Demyx. "How does it feel?"

"Mmph... R-really nice." Demyx rolled his hips in time with Xigbar's thrusts. He dug his nails into his master's back and moaned softly. "Xigbar... G-god it feels so good. I've missed this..."

"You haven't had enough of it to know what it really is to miss it. But don't worry... You'll learn." Xigbar chuckled and pressed his mouth to Demyx's throat.

"Xigbar... I..." Demyx whimpered and threw his head back. He wanted desperately to tell Xigbar that this was more than just sex for him. That he really loved Xigbar and that he'd come to terms with it. It was unavoidable now... But he feared that if he said anything to Xigbar it would just cause another problem like the one they'd just gotten out of. However he could only stay silent for so long before it tore at the inside of him. "I... It's so good. H-harder please..."

"As you wish." Xigbar smiled and wrapped calloused fingers around Demyx's waist. He pulled his servant closer and drove himself in harder. He groaned lightly and chuckled. "Damn it Demyx... You're so tight. If I keep going like this I don't know how long I'll be able to keep it up."

"Don't stop. Don't ever stop..." Demyx gripped Xigbar's shoulders tightly and moaned softly. "I don't want this pleasure to go away... I'm enjoying it too much." He swallowed hard and sunk his teeth into the fragile flesh of Xigbar's ear lobe. "I need it... Harder and faster. A-and deeper... Give me everything."

Xigbar hissed quietly and nodded. He pulled himself from Demyx and leaned back. "Get on your knees."

Demyx whimpered and managed to roll onto his stomach. He pushed himself up on shaky arms and looked back at Xigbar. "Please... Don't make me wait master."

Xigbar smiled and forced himself back inside of the soft entrance of his servant with a brutal force. He drove himself deep, relishing in the subtle cry Demyx let fall from his lips. "Is that good?"

Demyx collapsed against the mattress and buried his face in the sheets. "Ngh... Y-yes! H-harder... Please!"

Xigbar braced himself against the mattress and thrust as hard as he could into Demyx. "Like that?"

"Y-yes. I... Xigbar... I'm gonna... I..." Demyx covered his mouth to muffle the scream that came tearing out of his throat. He fell limp against the bed and rested his sweaty brow on his forearm. He looked down at the mess beneath him still spurting out happily. "Xi-xigbar... I..."

Xigbar smiled knowingly and nodded. "Alright..." He slowed his thrusts and pulled Demyx close. "You're too easy... I expected you to tire me out, not the other way around..."

"I'm sorry..." Demyx leaned his head back against Xigbar's shoulder and sighed softly. "I-I can keep going."

"No, it's alright. We need to sleep soon..." Xigbar forced his mouth onto Demyx's shoulder and sucked the flesh there gently. The whimper he received from the younger man was just enough to push him over the edge of pleasure. He released himself inside of Demyx and sighed with satisfaction. "That was..."

Demyx smiled softly. "Long over due."

"Yes..." Xigbar pulled away from Demyx and reached for a cigarette from the pocket of his uniform jacket he'd left draped on the edge of the bed. "You Demyx... You're an amazing asset." Xigbar pulled the cigarette into his mouth and gave it life with his lighter.

Demyx glanced at Xigbar. "Just an asset?"

Xigbar chuckled. "And a friend..."

Demyx crawled toward Xigbar and looked him closely in the face. "What about a lover?"

Xigbar snorted. "What about it?"

"I'm your lover..." Demyx furrowed his brow and stared hard at Xigbar. "We've been together twice now... You care for me. I care for you. We're lovers..."

"You're incorrect." Xigbar shook his head and blew out a stream of smoke. "We're not in love... There's a difference."

"You're wrong!" Demyx looked at Xigbar sternly. "I've fallen in love with you Xigbar. You're the only strong hold I have in this world! You're everything I have... You're my whole reason for existence now and that's your fault! So before you start getting mad at me, hear me out..." Demyx took in a quick breath and sat back. "You took me from the only world I ever knew... You took me from my home and my family. You gave me a new home and a new family. A new life. And you are the center of that life... My whole world revolves around you and your wants and desires. You are a friend to me... Someone I care about dearly. I can't help that I've fallen in love with you... The circumstances demanded it! So don't be angry with me... I can't help it. I love you. I'm in love with you. I'm not sorry for it... I've been falling in love since we met."

Xigbar groaned and turned away from Demyx. "Get out of my room."

"No!" Demyx grabbed Xigbar's arm and stared up at him. "What are you so afraid of? I won't hurt you... I just want to be with you. Love is a wonderful thing..."

Xigbar tore his arm from Demyx's grasp and glared at him. "I said get out of my room!"

"I'm not leaving." Demyx looked at Xigbar with determination on his face. "Not until I know why you're so afraid of love."

Xigbar growled and stood. He walked quickly over to his dresser where his gun sat. He grabbed it and pointed it at Demyx. "I said get out of my room... Now."

Demyx stood bravely and walked over to Xigbar. "Shoot me then. I don't care... I'm not leaving you like this."

Xigbar growled low in his throat and narrowed his gaze on Demyx. "I will... Don't think that I won't. It's not a crime to shoot a Jew you know!"

Demyx nodded slowly. "I know."

Xigbar grit his teeth and glared down at Demyx. "You have three seconds to gather your things and get out."

Demyx stood his ground. "I'm not going anywhere."

"Three..." Xigbar cocked the gun and pressed it against Demyx's temple. "Two..." He shifted his finger over the trigger and swallowed hard. "What are you waiting for?"

"You." Demyx stared up at Xigbar unmoved. "If you want to shoot me, do it."

Xigbar snarled and lowered the gun. "You'd be of no use to me dead..." He turned away but paused and turned back. He raised the gun high in the air and swung it down, connecting the cold metal against the side of Demyx's face. "Do not disobey me."

Demyx flew onto the ground and looked up at Xigbar with tear filled eyes. He held his cheek and glared up at the older man.

Xigbar scowled and emptied the clip of the gun before dropping it to the floor. "Get out."

Demyx stood slowly and grabbed the clothes from where he'd strewn them on the floor. He didn't bother to dress in them. He made his way out of Xigbar's room and quickly entered his own. He threw himself onto his bed and sobbed loudly. "S-son of a bitch!"