9 Fall for You
That bastard! That dirty, rotten, fucking bastard!
It's been a week since I talked to Matt. Why? Because he's going out with that annoying slut, Linda! I need to fucking blow off some fucking steam. I can't believe he just fucking went out with her! Like it was fucking nothing!
It's fucking Linda. LINDA!
Well, I guess I should tell you what's been happening. I had to go back to school. L and Light haven't been spending as much time together because Light's new posse showed up. First is the most annoying girl I've ever met! Misa Amane… She is like Light's stalker non-girlfriend. she's a fucking idiot! Why'd they even let a bitch like her go to school? Urgh! I'd like to shoot her! Second is Teru Mikami. He's like a even worse version of a stalker. He obviously likes Light, but he's one of those creeper types. It wouldn't surprise me if he called him in the middle of the night and watched him from a window or surveillance cameras or something! Last is Kyomi Takada. She's okay… at first. But after a while you find out that she's a total slut. End of story. So I guess Light and L are having some relationship problems as well… not that me and Matt were in a relationship…
Maybe I'm over reacting…? I shouldn't be so possessive but DAMN IT THAT FREAK IS MINE! Why did it piss me off so much? Why the fuck am I getting so worked up. And why the fuck am I JEALOUS of LINDA? That's like blasphemy!
I need to stop thinking about Matt…. It pisses me off thinking about him….
Anyway…. my phone's ringing—I got it back!- and I'm all pissed off 'cause of all the shitty drama that's been going down…
"Hey Mello," It was Rod's voice.
"Hey Rod, how are you?"
"Feeling pretty good since you're about to pay me back for last weekend."
Pay him back? No fucking thanks ass hole. I got shit to worry about. "Awww… c'mon man! Do I have to do that right now?"
"Yes and you have to bring a friend."
"C'mon Rod—"
"Meet me at that Shuro-something bar at eight." Then he hung up the phone.
That's just great. Who am I supposed to invite? A friend… L? He hates crowds. Near? I hate him. Matt? I really can't…
Oh, but I really did. I sent him a text asking him if he would come and of course he said yes… Great… Let me clear things over. When I heard no fucking SAW Matt accept her request I hauled ass out of Game Stop and left. I have no idea how Matt got home, but I really don't care. But when I got home I cried myself to sleep and my wrists had a good beating.
But I guess I'll have to endure it. Matt and I were going to Shuroigi's. It's a bar and grill that's owned by a friend of Rod's. Fine! If this is what's going down then I'm gonna give it my all. Watch out Mattie-boy…
So here I am. Dressed in my tightest, most revealing, black, leather outfit. It's regular tight black pants but the sides tie up with black laces, so there maybe a little bit of skin showing heh heh. Then I'm wearing regular heeled boots. My vest, like always is cut short above my naval but the top is REALLY low-cut, so a fair amount of my chest is showing. Yeah. I'm gonna torture Matt tonight. Or I'm gonna look gay in front of him….
When I picked him up, he was in his regular striped shirt and goggles. His jeans were darker than usual and tighter. Looks like I'm not the only one trying to impress someone. However; I couldn't stop and stare because we left as soon as I got to his house.
Oh fucking shit… Shurogi's has karaoke on Friday night… I hate you Rod.
"Hey Mello," Rod smiled from behind me. He was smiling because he knew I knew what he was going to make me do. Rod actually looked pretty impressive. His head was freshly shaved and he wore a black vest that fully exposed his broad chest and some baggy jeans. He had two girls, one for each arm, beside him and I knew they were whores. He smiled widely at me, "who's your friend?"
"Matt…." I grunted, pointing at Matt.
Rod scanned him from head to toe. He was probably scanning to see if he would be a good member of our gang. Not my Mattie… I'd never let anyone near his heart of gold… He was too good for a gang. I need to stop acting like he's mine…
"Mello c'mere for a second. Let your friend go inside while I explain something to u. Then the real assignment begins." He smirked slyly, always a bad sign.
Matt apprehensively left my side but I could feel his eyes on me from inside. It made me shiver. I think…. I'm just fooling myself… Matt wasn't looking at me… he doesn't love me. He has Linda for that…
Rod spoke, pulling me away from my thoughts, "Mello, you better get this job right."
"Do I ever get 'em wrong?" I may sound arrogant, but I was only being honest. Do I ever fuck up a job? No.
Rod sighed and nodded, slipping me an envelope that I hid in the pocket of my vest. I'd read it later. Now to get down to business, "Now, why'd I hafta bring Matt?" I sounded slightly possessive and uneasy. Why? Matt wasn't mine. Seems like I just can't give him up…
Rod snickered, "Humiliation…"
"Wh-wha-?"
"You know what type of bar this is Mello?"
My eyes widened in realization. "I'm not singing," I growled, crossing my arms.
"Aw, C'mon Mello. You owe me remember?" He gave me a toothy grin and pushed open the door to the bar.
I growled again, "I'm not singin'! I'll look like some fucking queer fag!" Dissing my own kind 'cause I'm scared of some homophobes… Sad…
Matt looked at us curiously before I sat beside him with a huff. Matt was eyeing me, trying to say something. I could hear him trying to choke out his sweet voice. I couldn't sing. That's something I do in private ONLY! I couldn't sing, especially not to Matt.
"What'll ya' do if I decline this singing shit?" I mumbled angrily.
"Oh you're singin'… even if we hafta tie u up and make u… Unless you'd rather be taken care of out back…" Rod smirked. He meant take me out and beat me up. I'd go for the second option, but with Matt being here, he'd probably tell them to beat him up instead of me. Heart of gold I tell ya'. I let my head fall onto the hard, wood table with a thud and sighed, "Fine…"
Rod smiled, "good cause you'll be singing a love song…"
"WHAT?" Why the fuck do I have to sing a fucking love song with a bunch of homophobes around? Then it hit me…. Humiliation. They wanted me to humiliate myself by singing some fucking lovey dovey bullshit. The irony is that I do lo… wait no… Mello doesn't "love" anyone. Humiliation my ass… this was worse.
"Mello…?" Matt whispered, looking cautious around Rod. "Mello, are you ok?"
"Fuck you," I growled between my teeth and jumped to my feet. I shouldn't have been so mean, but Matt was the last person I wanted to hear about.
"Do you want Matt to go up there with you to hold your hand?" Rod teased making fake whimpering noises.
I shot Matt a glare… "If you want to come, Mattie, you can come." My glare said "keep your fucking ass in that chair or I'll kick it…" Matt took a guess and stayed where he was. Smart boy.
I stood up on stage glaring. I kept the glare watching Rod snickering with some of the guys with him. I scanned them then focused my attention on him. He looked like he was about to cry… Now I feel like a jerk… I'm sorry Mattie…
The least I can do is give it my all… for Matt at least. He deserves it… I nodded feeling determined. For Matt….
I pressed the cold mic to my lips waiting for the song to play. The bold words flashed across the screen. Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade. I froze for a split second then took a deep breath and looked at the red head, who in turn stared at me. For this small moment he was mine… and I was gonna make him know that.
I opened my mouth and started the song, "Best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying...
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that i will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear its true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find."
I was slightly shocked at myself. I'd heard this song before, granted it'd been a while, but part of me felt this was… true… Then the other part was saying, this was one of the most embarrassing things I've ever done. I looked at Matt who was blushing softly but gave me a supportive smile. God, love him!
"This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start."
That's it, there's no way this is coincidence but… I … I can't do it… no… I mean… I should do it for Matt but… I just can't. I closed my eyes and felt my eyes stinging. No… not right now…. I can't cry. No… no no no no no no!
I took a deep breath trying to find where I was in the song and pressed the mic back to my lips and opened my mouth. Nothing. No words came out. I tried to sing the words again but couldn't. why couldn't I? I shook my head and sighed and mumbled, "Fuck this shit," and threw the mic, running out of the bar while Rod and his posse laughed. Matt was probably laughing too. Damn. Damn damn damn damn damn!
"Mello?" Matt called, following me out of the bar. I'm so stupid. Of course Matt wouldn't laugh at me… "Mello, your boss is calling u…" He noted a shout coming from the bar.
"Like I fucking give a damn! Leave me alone," I yelled at him, my voice shaking slightly.
"Mello, you're my ride home remember?"
I cursed under my breath. "Fine," I said walking down the street. "But holding that against me won't do you any good. Go back inside. I'm not going home right now…"
Matt arched one of his eyebrows still following me, "Mello what's—"
I cut him off, nearly shouting, "Are you saying something Mattie? I can't seem to hear you. You'll have to talk lou—" I was cut off by Matt. He ran up to me from behind, grabbed my wristsand pulled me into one of the alleys on the street.
I was pinned against the wall with Matt glaring at me. "What the hell's your problem?"
"Ma—"
"First you ditch me at Game Stop. Then you ignore me the entire week. You won't answer my phone calls or text messages. And tonight… tonight I thought you were finally coming around. 'Oh he wants to invite me out somewhere! That's great I thought he was mad…' So I go out of my way for you and you've been a fucking jerk to me the whole night! So tell me Mello; what the fuck did I do to you?"
I stared at him in shock then glared. "It's not like you would care," I muttered under my breath. "I mean… you can always call up your perfect, little girlfriend."
Matt's eyes widened, "Linda? That's what this seriously is about?"
"Maybe…" I muttered angrily.
"Fucking Hell, Dude, if you didn't want me to be her boyfriend you could have told me at any moment and I would've dumped her."
My eyes flickered at him, "Why would I think you'd dump some chick you just started dating for my happiness?"
Matt looked at me with 'DUH' written all over his face, "Because you did it for me…"
I froze. Oh right… I dumped Light when Matt asked me to… "Well I—I'm…"
Matt eyed me curiously, picking up on my sudden uneasiness."This is more than just me going out with Linda, isn't it?" Matt inched closer to me, "What is it, Mello?"
If only I could disappear through the wall. This wasn't looking good for me. I was pinned against the wall and Matt… well Matt's naïve. His lips are hovering over me just whispering the same question, "What is it Mello?"
Then I did something I kept promising myself I would never do… under any circumstances. I broke the one thing that would either save or break whatever relationship me and Matt could've possible had. I leaned forward and brushed our lips together.
TBC
Song used: Fall For You
By: Secondhand Serenade
YAH! They kissed ^_^ ... this was a random chapter... im like... "I wanna do a karaoke scene!" so here it was... XD lame I know... but oh well Mello kissed Matt finally so YES! hope u enjoyed... R&R please!
