Time seemed to fly by once we were in the living room, formally the conference room. I had been sitting on the floor reading and Lawliet had been sitting behind me on the couch fiddling with my hair while he examined photographs from the Jack the Ripper case, I almost didn't believe him that he wanted to solve a case that was well over a hundred years ago but he seemed so content, being a detective was what he was good at, everything else was just second to him. He was the best detective the world had to offer and the fact he had to resort looking into old crimes because of the lack of work must have been heartbreaking, I couldn't help but blame myself for that, if I hadn't been Kira an hadn't killed off all those criminals perhaps they wouldn't be so afraid to commit crimes and Law' would have a job again. Long before they reached the door I could hear the sound of arguing, judging by the voices it was Near and Matt.
"Here comes the cavalry" I said closing my book and placing it on the table.
Lawliet packed the photos up into a yellow folder and got up and placed the folder in the draw in the computer desk, the last thing he wanted was the boys to find the murder photos and be completely terrified by them. He came back to the couch and sat behind me again, he pulled my hair gently but firmly enough to make my head tilt back, he planted an indulgent kiss on my forehead.
"Thank you Light" he said softly, I smiled at him sweetly
"Your lack of intelligence is making me want to go into a coma where your voice and your nonsense would be inaudible" I could hear Near say as the boys and Watari entered the room. I turned to the noise and to raise my eyebrow at Near.
Near, or Nate, had been the most intelligent and the youngest of the three boys, he had a ghost like appearance and like Lawliet had a monotone voice. It was almost frightening how much he was like Lawliet; anyone would have assumed they were related. He was always so calm and rational with an obsession with using toys like a visual display of his theories. I had seen him countless times spend hours creating buildings with dice and sometimes even playing cards. But despite his innocent appearance he was also the sneakiest. The fact he was arguing with Matt was no surprise, Matt had been the least intelligent but he was a genius with technology, he dressed like some sort of retro pilot and even though most of the time his attention was on his latest game station he was rather observant and took in everything that was going on around him like a sponge. He cared more about the people that were closest to him rather than what the rest of the world was doing. He was the most ingenious computer hacker. He was however a trouble maker and purposely started arguments because he liked to see how easily people could be stirred up.
"I would love it if you were in a coma, that way I could suffocate you in your sleep"
"MATT!" Lawliet and I yelled at the same time
It wasn't unusual to hear any of them talk like that. After many years with only each other for company, and there being an odd number meant that at some point there was always two pitted against one, more often Mello and Matt were fighting Near, it never bothered him he defiantly had the capability to hold his own. They had done everything from hit, yell and even make death threats to one another but if another child had picked on any of them there was a 100% guarantee that child would never make the mistake of doing it again, they were like true brothers and as much as the fought they adored and loved each other and I had no doubt they would grow up to protect their brothers at all costs.
"See what happens when you waste your breath making pathetic death threats, Now if you have finished acting like a child I would like to go and talk to our L's" Near said in response.
Every time I looked at him I saw Lawliet, I had to admit even I could have sworn that Near was L's biological son, but I knew what an impossibility that had been.
"Watari could I have a word with you please before you return to your room?" Lawliet asked the elderly man
"Yes of course" he replied.
Lawliet stood up and walked to the grey haired man and escorted him to the kitchen, which gave the kids an opportunity to come and annoy me. All three of them came rushing at me like they had seen some kind super nova or something of the sought. Mello had jumped on the couch and placed his legs over my shoulders and rested his arms on my head. Near attached himself to my right arm and Matt sprawled himself out over my legs.
"Mamma L, Daddy L had said you had been hit by a bus" Matt said looking at me
"He did not he said you felt like you had been hit by a bus, Matt is so stupid" Near replied
"I already asked him how could he know what being hit by a bus felt like" Mello stated
"Have you been hit by a bus Mamma L?" Matt asked
"Of course he hasn't been hit by a bus Matt, do you think he would be sitting here if he were hit by a bus?" Mello argued with Matt
It was almost hard to keep up with them; somehow talking to me had become a three man boxing match
"Mamma L, I was looking in the encyclopedia yesterday and I wanted to ask you something" Matt asked
"Of course you would want to ask him because you can't work out anything yourself"
"Near give it a rest; actually all three of you cut it out. Come on why do you have to argue?"
"You can't ask any questions until you have answered Matt's first" Mello replied
I could feel the frustration boiling inside of me already; they had just got home and were already driving fucking nuts
"Since when has that been a rule of conversation?" I asked Mello
"Common courtesy Mamma L" Near replied
"Fine, what is your question Matt?"
"I was reading about how babies are made" he said
"What! Matt you shouldn't know anything about that at your age; you shouldn't be looking at anything like that for at least another five or six years"
"Why not?"
"Because I said so that's why" I replied
"That's not a valid reason Mamma L" all three of them chanted
"I don't care if it is valid or not it's a reason, why were you looking at how babies were made?" I asked
"Well because Near told me that only a woman and a man could make babies, and we were wondering if only a woman and man could make babies then how exactly would you and Daddy L make babies?" He asked
I felt my face flush with pink; I was completely embarrassed this had to be some sort of dream, no nightmare. They couldn't be seriously been asking me about this stuff. The more I thought about what they were asking the calmer I had become, they were clever kids I didn't know why I was so surprised they were asking me about it and secondly they had been clever asking me and not Lawliet otherwise they would have probably ended up with diagrams and detailed description read out of a medical journal.
"Daddy L and I can't make babies, at least not together, besides we already have you three and trust me that's more than enough" I replied
"Mamma L?" Mello asked
"Mmm?"
"Are you going to keep us?"
"Yeah Mamma L are you going to keep us" Matt encored
"We don't want to go back to England and we don't want to go back to Wammy's house" Near continued
I turned to look at the little white haired boy with a concerned look
"Why did something bad happen there? If there is something you boys are afraid of you have to tell me so I know how to protect you" I replied
"No nothing bad happened but we don't want to be there anymore, if we go back there we are going to hardly see you and Daddy L and soon enough we will be teenagers and still have no parents, do you really want us to go back there and be un loved and watch all the other children be adopted before us, and even if we do what if some serial killer or child slave labor man adopts us, huh then what?" Mello asked me
I had to shake my head; it was like having a conversation with three miniature adults.
"Mello you know that I don't want that for any of you"
"So can we stay than, can you be our mother and father" Mello asked
"Technically speaking it would be father and father" Matt replied
"Yeah whatever, we promise we won't argue anymore" Mello replied
"Yeah we promise" Near said
Near looked up at me with puppy dog eyes, I wanted to give them an answer, I wanted to tell them they could stay but I had no idea if Watari was even going to allow it. I was caught between a rock and a hard place. I looked at all three of them and they all looked frightened, they were all worried they would have to go back to Wammy's house and spend the rest of their childhood there without having known what real family felt like. Before I could open my mouth and tell them that I wasn't sure Lawliet came through the door, I couldn't tell what his news was his face was completely blank. He walked over to me and touched Mello on the head gently messing up his hair, he leaned down to my ear and whispered as quietly as possible
"You're now a father" he stood back up and walked over to the other chair and sat down
Near immediately detached himself and ran to Lawliet and wrapped his arms around Lawliet's neck and sat almost cradled in his lap, Lawliet bought his knees up to his chest, resting the small boy against him. Even for eight years old Near was a very small he only appeared to be about four, maybe five at the latest. Mello and Matt didn't move off of me
"You don't have to go back to Wammy's house if you don't want to" I finally was able to reply. All their eyes had gone from sad to ecstatic
"However you guys have got to promise no more death threats, Near you have got to stop under mining the other two, Matt you are going to stop instigating arguments and Mello you can't survive off of chocolate and you can't be jealous if you are not everyone's number one priority all day every day, do I make myself clear?" I asked
They all remained silent and nodded their heads quickly in response
"And you don't have to worry we don't care that our parents are homosexuals, we don't care if you can't have babies and Mamma L only looks like a girl" Matt replied
Near and Mello started to laugh hysterically, Lawliet even smiled. As much as it should have offended me I had to silently commend Matt to make a somewhat of a decent joke.
"Are you boy's hungry?" I asked them
It must have been a stupid question because as soon as I had finished saying it they rushed into the kitchen and started raiding the fridge
"STAY AWAY FROM THAT CAKE!" Lawliet yelled out to them
We could hear them giggling in the fridge which told me straight away that their father's cake had been the first most appetizing thing they could find
It was strange hearing the word father in my head, we were fathers now. Was I dreaming or was this really reality, everything was going much too well so far which left me with a sinking feeling in my stomach, nothing could ever go this well could it? No something was bound to happen sooner or later, something drastic.
Lawliet got off the couch and walked out of the room into the kitchen where I could hear more giggling and then the sound of rattling plates and cutlery. Getting those boys off of sweets was going to be like getting a drug addict off of cocaine, I knew because of Lawliet's own addiction to sweets it was going to be hard to get the kids to actually eat something that hadn't contained more sugar than any other ingredient but now they were part my kids I was going to have to make sure they had a proper diet
X
The night had quickly come around, the kids were fed, bathed, dressed in their pajamas and asleep before eight pm, it was hard to believe how exhausting it was to look after three boys especially those three. We had broken up two arguments, wrestled with Mello and a chocolate bar and had to spend three hours gluing back together a toy robot of Near's that Matt had decided to destroy; I had wondered if my rules had fallen on deaf ears. I fell into the mattress with a heavy thud, my head had felt like there had been a loud rock concert inside my skull and I felt like I had lost my voice. I had even heard Lawliet yell once or twice , something he had never done before. I couldn't help but think, as much as I didn't want to, if we had made a mistake; it had to get better right? They were probably still so excited about coming to live here that they had simply forgotten there were our rules now. Lawliet came in hunched over, dragging his feet and collapsed beside me. He snuggled into me, resting his head on my arm and his hand draped over my chest.
"Mello has decided he gets nightmares if he sleeps too close to a window or door, Near wont sleep unless his bed is facing at a ninety degree angle and Matt wont sleep unless he is at least three feet away from any wardrobe or cupboard" Lawliet moaned
"Since when?" I asked
"Tonight" he replied
"So it looks like a tornado hit their room then?"
"Exactly" Lawliet replied
He really was exhausted he very rarely gave one word answers. It had been the first time since we had been together that we were in bed before nine and even more so that Lawliet was actually exhausted enough to want to go to sleep. Normally he would be up finding something to do but instead he was lying there with me, it felt nice.
"Light?"
"Yeah?"
"I need to let you know something"
"Alright"
"If anything ever happens to me I want you to take the boys and all the money I have and go somewhere new, find a nice house somewhere and start a fresh" He said
I rested up on my elbow with my hand pressed against my face
"Where is this coming from?" I asked him frowning; He turned on his side and looked at me with sorrowful eyes
"I just want to know that if I should die that you and the boys will be alright without me"
"Law' what the fuck are you talking about? Is there something that you're not telling me?"
"Hmm, possibly but I don't need you to worry about that, I have been honest with you from the day we met, I haven't intentionally kept anything from you, but you have to know that sometimes my past frightens me and there is always a chance the past comes back. There are things you don't know about me from when I was much younger things that I haven't told you because I am worried that if I do you will see me in a different light, you will see me as someone you can't love"
I was confused and somewhat scared. It wasn't like Lawliet to hide anything from me, like he said he had been honest from day one with me, I was the one who hid things from him and it was a stupid mistake on my part, I couldn't condemn him for something I spent so long doing, after all it was his past he wasn't obviously the same Lawliet that he was now, although I was curious as to what exactly he had done I was in love with him now. I didn't want to argue with him and I didn't want him to shy away from me so I decided not to push it but I knew there would be a day where curiosity would get the better of me and I would end up pushing for an answer from him but right now I just wanted to lie with him.
"Lawliet I don't care about what you did in the past. I can't sit here and give you hell for anything you had done in the past, I can't even criticize you about keeping anything from me, after all it was I who fucked you over, I had betrayed you and probably made your life a living hell. I can't scorn you for anything Law' and I am not going to push whatever it is you did out of you, it's up to you when or if you tell me but it won't stop me loving you, I wish you knew that already" I replied
"I think I may have been the reason someone may have been killed and I think they may want retribution" he replied
I wanted to laugh, that was it? He may have been the reason someone might have been killed? I had killed hundreds at yet he accepted me with open arms, he loved me, took care of me, made love to me, asked me to marry him and now we had kids together. It made me want to laugh because he had made me thought it was something truly mortifying but I couldn't by any means have anything negative to say or feel for him because of that
"Are you serious, Lawliet for a smart man you are such an idiot sometimes, what on earth made you think that I would stop loving you because you think you may have been the reason someone may have been killed?"
I placed my hand against his cheek, I could tell he was slightly pissed off at me, it must have been the idiot remark, but it was true. I was no different, there had been times where I had been so stupid to think some of the things I thought and even some of the things I said. There had been a time where I had doubted that he would love me because I was a man, which had been one of many times I had thought incorrectly.
"Look Law' you know that I love you, I worship you for crying out loud, there is nothing in this world I wouldn't do for you. I don't care what you did in the past and I don't care what you do in the future as long as you don't leave me or those brats. I could never stop loving you simply because you made a mistake, we aren't perfect Law' none of us but you're the closest thing to it and nothing you do or say could ever taint that image I see. You gave me a lifeline when you didn't have to you could have very well seen me executed"
"Please don't talk like that" he said
"Just wait, let me finish. You could have done anything you very well have liked and I honestly wouldn't have blamed you but instead you gave me a second chance, you gave me love, you let me have you, we have three horrible yet adorable kids and you want me for the rest of our lives. Out of everything you could have done you gave me something I had only dreamed about, you gave me everything that I didn't deserve, why would I let a simple thing like you may have killed someone get in the way of what we have, how fucking stupid would I be to walk out the door? I would be the dumbest asshole on the planet to leave you and those boys, no matter what we are family right?"
"Yes we are family"
"So please don't ever think that I won't love you because you made a mistake, I don't think any less of you, in fact I love you more because of it"
"How is that possible? How could you love someone more for making mistakes?"
"If you hadn't made that mistake, do you think you would be the person you are today?" I asked
"I suppose I wouldn't be"
"There is my point; I love you for all of who you are the good the bad and everything in between. I love you just the way you are, if that mistake has made you are today how could I scorn you for that?"
I leaned down to his mouth and pressed my lips against his. He responded joyfully taking my tongue with his. I placed my hand against his chest and felt his heart thump hard against my palm. He pulled his lips away from mine and his eyes had diverted down to my pants that resembled a tent
"See I love you for all of who are" I replied
He looked back into my eyes and placed his lips against my collar bone. He darted his tongue out and licked my skin. His tongue was soft and moist each lick was like a little bit of heaven. He loosened my pants while his teased me with his mouth. He pushed me down on my back and lowered my pants before taking them off completely. He released my hard manhood from my underwear and began to rub the length up and down unhurriedly and lightly.
"mmm Law' don't do that" I begged him
He placed his hand over my mouth
"Shh" he whispered and gave me same seductive smile I had seen a lot of lately
"But—"
"Shh this is make up sex, don't argue with me unless you want it much worse" he whispered
He stopped rubbing me and moved to kneel in between my legs. He pulled the quilt over him and most of the way up my body. I could feel him moving around under the blanket and the suddenly watched his shirt, pants and underwear drop to the ground. How he managed to do that so quickly had stunned me, either he was very eager or he had been a magician at some point during his life and I hadn't been aware of it
"Take your shirt off" I heard him say, his voice slightly muffled by the thickness of the quilt over him
I sat up and did as he requested I began to pull the shirt off, I had got it about halfway when I felt his wet, hot tongue running along my shaft. I couldn't even bring myself to pull the rest of my shirt off. His licks and sucks were extensive and feverish, it was as if he had been sexually deprived, those three days must have been strange for him while I was out cold. We had a wonderful love between us and sex had made it that much more amazing. When we had sex it wasn't about fucking or just because we could have it, it was just proof of our passion and love for each other; we probably had sex more than most couples did, but that was just us. Lawliet had turned out to be someone who enjoyed the closeness and the embrace that we created while making love and the sounds he made drove me completely wild, each moan, scream, wail was like music to my ears it meant that he loved what I had done to him and he kept wanting more from me, it made me feel wanted and needed, like I was the only one who could ever make him feel that good.
His slowly put my member in his mouth and gently brushed with his teeth. He was incredible; all those times he had dissolved sweets with his tongue and those moments where he had sucked on the tip of his thumb while he was thinking had benefited me substantially. All I wanted to do was cum as soon as his mouth wrapped around my hardened cock, I was completely weak for him, and everything he did was mind blowing. This was the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with and if he had loved me every day the way he did so far for the rest of our lives then I was a the luckiest man alive and if still wanted to make love to me and allow me to make love to him when our passion burned fire red then I was even more lucky.
We had spent the night in a battle of foreplay and dominance, I had made him cum repeatedly and he did the same to me. We helped each other to remain silent even when things had become extremely intense and had made love to each other several times over. It was the perfect ending to a perfect day; I wanted it to be like this forever.
"I love you Light" he whispered to me
"I love you too Lawliet" I whispered back to him
Even though we were both sweaty and sticky I had rested on his chest and whilst he stroked my hair I had fallen into a deep sleep.
